Totally petrified

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Hi everyone,

I have just joined this forum, and I am feeling, well to be honest I dont know how I feel!

I found a large long lump in my left breast right at the side about 6 years ago, and went to the doctors, she was really horrible to me, and told me I was far to young to be worrying (i was 26 at the time) and that it was probably just a cyst that would alter within my cycle, I told her I didnt and that it was always the same, she told me that it will be nothing and to stop being silly!

I just accepted the lump was not part of me, and it still is, however, I found another lump in my other breast about 8 months ago, this one is just above the nipple, and I put off making an appontment with the doctors, as I didn’t want to get told off for wasting their time, as it was probably just another cyst, silly I know!!

I finally decided to go, and saw a very nice doctor, who felt it and said their are lots of smaller lumps too (i couldnt feel those) and that she was going to refer me for further investigations, and asked whether I was happy with that, of course at the time I was happy for her to refer me, and I was absolutley fine for the rest of the day.

I woke up on tuesday with complete fear, that it means something really bad, and I am driving myself crazy with thinking, and kicking myself for not going sooner!!

The doctor said I would be seen within 2 weeks, but as I was fine with it at the time i didn’t ask her any questions, as to what she thought!

I am natrually a worrier, last year I had my smear come back as cinIII and felt I was lucky that it wasnt anything worse, however I drove myself mad from finding out to getting treatment, now I am think I was lucky last time, what if this time its different.

I cant eat, sleep or concerntrate on anything at the moment and feel like im actually driving myself crazy and making myself ill :frowning:

Sorry for the really long, possibly confusing post.

xxxxx

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Hi malibitma and welcome to the BCC forums

I am sure you receive lots of valuable support here from your fellow users very soon, in addition, please feel free to call our helpline for a ‘listening ear’ and further support on 0808 800 6000, the line is open weekdays 9-5 and Sat 9-2.

BCC have published a booklet called ‘referral to the breast clinic’ which you may also find useful to read, please follow this link to read. download or order a copy:

breastcancercare.org.uk/healthcare-professionals/publications/worried-about-breast-cancer/*/changeTemplate/PublicationDisplay/publicationId/59/

Take care
Lucy

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Hi malibitma

It’s completely natural for you to be worrying; we’ve all been there so know how it feels. Please try to remember that 80% of lumps are benign. If, however, the news is not so good, treatments these days are excellent. I’m just out the other side, so it can be done!

Take care

Julia xx

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Hi malibitma

Just wanted to say hi and wish you well for your screaning. It is so hard not to worry but try not to make your self ill. You have done the right thing by getting tested.

I am just coming out the other side of treatment too and it is doable, totally. Fingers crossed though you won’t have to.

I really hope your checks come back clear, wishing you well

There is always someone to chat to here if you want to.

Love Jaynexxx

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Thanks for your replies, I can’t stand being so up and down, and I just wish this appointment would hurry up.

Jayne and Julia, glad your both coming out the other side, and thanks again for taking the time to reply to me :slight_smile:

I have googled so much, omg you’d think I had learnt that lesson, but no, I still look at worst case scenrios!

Well for now I am just going to tell myself, it is nothing sinister until someone tells me otherwise, no point driving myself insane again, well thats the plan anyway.

Thanks again

Love to you all xxxxxx

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I am new here I was referred last friday and had to wait until today for my appointment. I did all the breast awareness myself and felt nothing.

I have spent a week worrying not eating not sleeping, and had my appointment today, I had two biopsys done and the first one is benign and i have another one next thursday which my doctor says she
expects to be the same.

I just want to say that even though my doctor says it is benign, I have read these forums for the past week and have taken all of the comments on here as comfort, I started talking to a lady in the waiting room today and realised that we were all nervous and scared and yet we could not talk to eachother about how we felt, and talking to her made me feel better.

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Hi janie101

Hope you feel a little better today. I know it is so hard not to feel nervous and worry but please try not to too much. I will keep my fingers crossed for you and hope your results are good. The ladies on the helpline here really are great to chat to, it’s sometimes good to just get it out of your head when your scared.

Lots of love and let us know how you are.

Jaynexxx

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Hi again everybody,

I had my appointment today, and all the nurses were amazing.

Consultant says fibroadenomas. I had ultrasound, which was really interesting, as they just showed up as 2 large black gaps.

I have been booked in for them to be removed under GA, my family have been great, but cant understand why i’m not massively relieved, and to be honest neither can I. I bizzarely feel more anxious now than before? I’m not sure I completely trust dr’s, hospitals etc I know they are very experienced, and I have no idea what im looking at, but to me all they were, were black gaps on the screen.

I know it seems really weird, but I suppose I wont relax until they are gone.

Thank you all for your kind words and support.

Love to you all xxxxxx

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hi all. I too am totally petrified. yesterday i found a large lump in my left breast that is the size of a small plum it was not there when i last checked a couple of months ago! i have an appointment for this Saturday and i cant sleep for worrying. i had a lump removed about 15 years ago (it grew over a 5year period and was harmless) but this is so different and every one is saying stop worrying about it cos it’s probably nothing but i’m not convinced. forgot to say also had realy itchy breasts before i found the lump but the itching had stopped.
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