Hi all, back on here after chemo and rads, finished last Thursday. I have to say the rads were a breeze after the chemo but I am very red at the moment, and a little itchy, have been putting hc45 cream on. I expected to feel exstatic after treatment but it’s the other way. I’ve had a miserable weepy week. I miss seeing people at the hospital to chat to in the same boat as me, and with no appointments looming i feel as if no-one is watching over me! Is this normal? Perhaps it’s all hit me now, but it’s a horrible feeling. Off on holiday in a week, perhaps that what I need but just wondered if other ladies had the same experience? Sorry to moan.
Hi Quarteter
I have been through the same feelings - coped with Chemo and Rads but once I had lost the support of the hospital staff I felt so alone. Dont know if it would help but some girls in scotland put on a thread and we are now all meeting with each other so it may be an idea to start another thread for your area and maybe meet with people nearby
It gets a little easier but we need to take our time and listen to our bodies this is a long journey and just take little steps each day
(((((((((((((((((((( hugs )))))))))))))))))))))))
Hi Quarteter,
Felt exactly the same and lots of threads before on here saying the same. Its like goodbye get on with it.
The feeling of abandonment does go after a couple of months once things start to get back to normal, work etc.
You will probably get paranoid about every ache and pain also and that gets better too.
Some people find that Counselling helps. But time is a great healer.
Lots of love Andrea x
Hi Quarteter
I didn’t have chemo but did have 6+ weeks of rads and although I was delighted that it came to an end and I didn;t have to go to the hospital every day I did feel sort of un-nerved at the end of treatment. Whilst I was getting rads I felt like something was being done to kill the cancer and once that was finsihed it was as if I was jsut waiting for it to come round the corner and get me again! I worked through my rads, just left the office earlier than normal and I went back full time the day after my rads finished so I think that helped a great deal, if I had been off work I would have been sitting alone in the house with too much time to let my mind wander. I think there’s an element of delayed shock too - everything happens so quick after the initial dx and there is always something happening to keep our minds focussed on so when it all ends the reality of what has happened sinks in.
Hope you start to feel better soon.
Hi Quarteter,
I think many peolple fell like this. If you google ‘after the treatment has finished’ there is a very helpful article by Peter Harvey. For me it validated everything I was feeling and it helped me a lot.
I hope you start to feel better soon - but don’t beat yourself up over it - its a lot to go through
Lots of hugs
Jojoxxx
Hi Liliacblushes
totally agree with you when you say when your dx theres so much going on its only now you think ///// hell thats serious im just pleased its not only me going out of my mind the Doc put it down to Post traumatic Stress x
PTS makes senses … hope everyone is soon feeling better.
so do i otherwise people will think im feeling sorry for myself as i cant stop crying getting on my own nerves x
I was dx for the 3rd time last November, I had chemo from December to April, followed by a double mastectomy at the start of May. I thought I was doing well until the middle of July when I was suddenly hit by a major bout of depression.
My sister sent me this link and it seemed to detail everything that I’ve felt in the last 10 months.
annieappleseedproject.org/stagofgriefa.html
Looks like it’s normal to be weepy and angry.
ah thanks so much
im just sick of feeling like this somedays are good and most are bad and your right about being angry !!! really angry but then who am i to be angry when you have been dx 3 times i need a kick up te a.se
pls take care x