I’m in my first cycle of FEC and an unexpected side effect has been very strange and vivid dreams. Don’t know if this is the drugs or the fact that my brain has so many difficult stuff to process at the moment. I wake up thinking What??? but usually later think Ahh…Interesting…
I had a very strange one about being at a music festival with my 8yr old daughter (never been to one in my life). It was snowing and I was dressed in summer clothes. Everyone was looking at me strangely while I was terrified of my daughter getting lost in the crowd. The previous day I had had my head shaved and wig fitted so I could start the school run looking normal to save my daughter any embarrassment, so it was easy to see where that one was coming from.
Other dreams seem to be my subconscious getting to grips with problems I’d been avoiding for a long time. Difficult, but could prove fruitful in the long term.
I had the same on chemo some very odd dreams about things i had never dreamt about. I think your right ans ti’s our mind making sense of what is going on. Had some quite dark dreams and quite often woke up feeling a bit down. it did get better though.
I do really think it helps in sorting things out inthe long run
Hi Lilac
That’s interesting, I had my first FEC on Monday and the second night I had a vivid dream about being the victim of credit card fraud! I have taken anti-depressants from time to time over the last few years and often have vivid dreams when I’m on those. I remember my doctor saying that can happen when you’re on strong drugs, so I think it’s probably not too out of the ordinary. I do think the sub-conscious can be working things out as well, though I’m not sure what my dream says about that!
All the best,
Amanda
Hi lilac
I dreamed about a spider spinning a web from my leg just before I started my chemo. It was so vivid I looked it up on the internet. It told me that I was being forced to do something I didn’t want to do… now how weird is that?
I remember when my dad died I dreamed about him on and off for months afterwards, it was obviously my subconscious dealing with events. Maybe your dreams are partly drugs but I am sure it is partly your brain’s way of coping with what is happening
X
Rusty
I’ve had a lot more vivid dreams than usual. Particularly the first few nights after FEC when the steroids have really effected my sleep, I wake up at about 2am and then can’t get back to sleep for ages.
There seems to be a common thread here with my dreams and yours, Amanda and Rusty- the feeling of lack of control. My life now runs to the hospital’s timetable; my family and friends have been very supportive and I’m certainly grateful, but it can be hard to feel beholden to so many people and feel that I’m causing them worry. But I don’t want to have to put on my happy face and pretend everything is fine all the time either. No wonder our brains feel like exploding!
A few days into FEC 2 and the dreams have returned. Again, very vivid, sometimes very disturbing too: I actually got up really early today to avoid having any more!
Hey
so good to know I am not on my own experiencing weird and disturbing dreams! In fact they are so vivid that they keep on waking me up during the night and my sleep is very disrupted as a result (can’t always go back off to sleep for ages). I even mentioned one of my latest ones on another thread the other day: I had developed a cataract and was not able to see out of one of my eyes (which was all black and puffy). Boy did it freak me out! I woke up in a sweat!
Lulu X
P.S Would Freud have a field day, I wonder…
Just found this thread and am so glad others are experiencing odd strange dreams. Have had a couple of really disturbing ones recently - one that really stands out was that I was in my house running round taking the pictures from walls and pillows from the beds because I knew there was going to be a fire but it hadn’t started yet. I had called the fire brigade and they were waiting outside. Very odd!