Had intial tests last Wednesday, mammogram, ultra sound which uncovered 3 extra ‘lumps’ main one being 2.5cm, in upper outer quadrant quite near the surface, with one in my armpit, so then biopsies, when returned back to docs office she said in her experience it was highly likely that this is BC, and sent me off with a Macmillan nurse, I have an appointment this Thursday for results.
One mimute I’m a sobbing wreck, the next I’m angry and defiant, saying there is no way this is going to get in between me and living my life as normal, then the tears come again as I realise that its never prob going to be normal again.
This mght seem trivial in the greater scheme of things but we have family holidays booked for July and September (my son suffers with Crohns and has been through a really bad time last 3 years with numerous surgeries and illness and he’s now in remission), and although I have no idea of a treatment plan, I am more upset at letting everyone down, has anyone else travelled abroad during BC treatment, and what was your experience.
There are just so many scenarios and questions that are going through my mind at the moment, I wish they would prescribe mind altering drugs for the week in between results just to stop all this turmoil.
Sending hugs to all you lovely ladies going through this horrible time, in the club no one wants to join.
It is always horrible waiting for results, we all know what that’s like. There is no easy way to deal with the wait.
It does feel better when you know what you’re dealing with & Thursday will soon arrive.
Try not to think too far ahead yet, there is plenty of time to make decisions about holiday plans, others on here
have continued with holiday plans once timescales are known & hospitals can be flexible if needed. Obviously, things have to checked with travel insurance.
There is plenty of support here if you do get a bc diagnosis & treatment is very good now. At least if it is bc, it can now be dealt with.
Hi Jo, this period is just brutal and how you describe it all of us here can totally relate too! When I was diagnosed in March 2015 we had my sons wedding to look forward to in the Sept and I was distraught and raging at the thought that this would dare try and turn my lovely family upside down!! The reality was I was treated and life went on , I don’t mean to make light of it but that is what happened and my son got married and I danced the night away!
Had we already booked a holiday I would have been able to go as I didn’t have Chemo , we went 2 weeks after my Radiotheraphy finished instead, depending on what treatment you have you may need to alter some of your holiday plans but take it a step at a a time, you don’t even have a definite diagnosis yet! Honestly things do start to fall in to place and a sense of normality returns, your going to be all over the place at the minute so you can’t rationalise it all but you will! 2 years on we are looking forward to our 1st Grandbaby life is indeed wonderful again Xx Jo
I echo what both ann and Jobey have said. Just set yourself small manageable milestone and dont think too far ahead for now, the holiday will be something lovely to look forward to but take one step at a time for now.
We all can relate to your feelings of fear, anger, defiance (hold on to that one x). You will get through these next few days and we will all be there beside you “virtually” holding your hand.
Sorry to hear about you, I know these are the most difficult times for you and waiting makes it more disturbing. Hope the results show true idea of the problem Thursday is not so far.
Thank you everyone, went into work yesterday they weren’t expecting me, managers were amazing and have promised to support me in every way possible, I just wanted some normality so have asked them not to tell any of my colleagues, 4pm I get my results today and after feeling so positive after doing my shift yesterday I have been in complete meltdown all morning, my biopsy sites are really painful and th bruising is horrendous which is something I didn’t expect, I tolerate pain really well so it’s come as a shock, I just want today over with so I can move forward but these few hours are dragging terribly, hope everyone is well today and keep fingers crossed for me xxxx
life is indeed wonderful again Xx Jo