I had my biopsy yesterday and am now waiting for the next 7-10 days they say. I feel a bit of a fraud posting when I don’t even know what I have, and there are so many brave and wonderful women here who had bad news but are kind enough to share. The posts have kept me sane this last four weeks. I expect there are others who are going through this at my stage who don’t want to bother anyone with worries, but if you are out there and would like to keep each other company, I will check in each day.
My biopsy is tomorrow. The only comfort I am getting is through these threads. I will keep you company. I am so scared. I am going to hope and pray that your results are benign. My radiologist said she sees a moderately suspicious mass but that my lymph nodes are good. We’ll see. I will check up on you.
Hi M x- I am feeling better today. Physically, anyway. I have my honeymoon planned for June 8th and I can’t even look forward to it because of all of this. How are you getting along? I should be getting my results about the same time as you. Even though o wish to god you weren’t dealing with this, it’s comforting to know I am not alone. I hope we both get good new next week! I know this is a U.K. Site but I live in California. ((Holding your hand through this)) R
There is nothing that you should feel a fraud about, you are getting something checked out and need the support of ladies on here who have gone or are going through exactly the same as you xxx
Always know that we are here to help and support you in whatever way we can, we totally get you
We are all here for you whenever you need us. Take one stage at a time and you will get there, this is the worst time but you will get through it, honestly I promise you xxxx
Hi everyone, I too am in the waiting game and until last night (when i finally told my husband) thought I was waiting alone.
I had my ultrasound, which turned into a mammogram, which turned into a biopsy on Wednesday and am now waiting for my results to come in next week.
Not sure how i have got through the last couple of days, the biopsy hurt like hell. “It’s just going to feel like a light flick”. A flick my arse, it felt like someone punched me in the boob but to be fair my “mass” is on the larger side so I think it just fought back when they took a little piece of it.
As I’m sure you ladies know they say to keep it dry for 48 hours. Unlucky for me I had to travel to London the following day for a work conference. Was not about to show up stinky and greasy haired so had great fun with cling film and dressing tape. Had a view that if I just leaned that side of my body out the shower I could totally keep the area dry. Kinda worked, the dressing stayed dry, but ended up a bit sweaty from the cling film. On the plus side, had clean hair!
Am now umm and arhing about whether I go for a run this morning. I’ve ironically being trying to get fitter and so started running a couple of months ago. Whilst I’ve run many times knowing there is a lump there, now I have gone through the tests it seems a lot more real and, in my head, I could make it worse by letting it beat up good tissue by bobbing around while I’m jogging along. Realistically I know it wont do more harm but I’m sure you have all experienced the exaggeration of concern by being in your own heads like me.
I would speak to my husband about it, now he knows but he is currently flip flopping between acting normal for our children, who don’t know and wrapping me up in bubble wrap. Wasn’t allowed to do the washing up last night. Not entirely sure what he thought was going to happen but I’d decided to let him follow that path if it makes him feel better…plus it means I don’t have to do the washing up :smileytongue:
Anyway, apologies or my waffle. I’ll try to keep it to a minimum over this long bank holiday weekend (will probably be the longest ever since I want to get to the other side of it as soon as possible).
Thanks for the comments ladies, much appreciated.
So having a weird day today. Thought I had an epiphany this morning whilst out on my run. Vaguely remember reading somewhere that fibroadenoma can occur as well as increase in size due to hormone changes, which is why they can be quite common in young girls. I have the marina coil and about two months ago started getting periods again. Bam, that’s got to be it! It’s just the stupid coil.
On looking up if there are links to fibroadenoma and that type of coil, to prove my point, turns out there are links but not as many as there appear to be to cancer and that coil. To be clear there is no proven evidence of that but there are a lot of cases (including on another forum thread on this website)…so back to square one, what is it?
P.s. Still not doing washing up, still not sure what he thinks will happen, still not asking him in case he changes his mind ?
Yep, they booked an appointment before I left the hospital so walked away with the letter to come back Wednesday morning 9.45. Not sure if that’s a good or a bad sign or just an efficient hospital.
Hmmm, it’s odd because it sounds like something someone would say if they’re trying to help but really they’re just saying if it is bad news, you’re really unlucky because it may not have anything to do with your family history, which was bad enough.
When I was talking to the consultant and nurse I kept asking them to tell me everything, even if they think it’s bad because I feel less scared with more information. If I feel like they’re hiding things, I go straight to my imagination which is a lot worse than half the stuff on the internet. I’m not sure what they think I’ll do if they are just honest about their thoughts so far…that maybe I’ll do the washing up?
Hold in there mgt66, and you’ll be licking that gift pony, mush or not before you know it! X
Hi mamabear,
Please try not to read things into the situation, what you describe is normal practice about appointments & nobody is keeping things from you.
As ever, the mind goes into overdrive, overthinking it all takes over & the anxiety monster keeps biting. We’ve all been there at some point!
I’m sure you’ve read this already, but general googling only makes anxiety worse at this stage & doesn’t change anything. It will get resolved.
do take care everybody
ann x
Hi M xx,
I reeeallly want to look forward to my trip! I wish none of us were going through this. I have gotten by with the help of my mom and sisters. Husband seems to be in denial and not supporting my feelings of being scared. Not cool. Thank you as well and all the other wonderful ladies on here who are making me smile. Xoxoxoxoxo
Evening all,
So after almost a whole month of holding it together, had a bit of a hormonal and emotional meltdown. Had a barney with the hubby over what the kids wanted to do with their bank holiday and now he’s not talking to me. Can’t stop crying and have decided to just go to bed.
Have stayed clear from the internet and feel worse for it. I like to Google as no matter what I find I’m pretty sure my results will be no where near what i can find on the internet but am converting well meaning advice and taking a break from it all and instead, testing out how much fluid I can actually lose through my eyes. Apparently, it’s quite a lot.
On that happy note, am so angry with the hubby for being less than supportive that I’m not going to even offer to wash up for at least a month! He can wallow in his dirty dishes ! Might just have to buy a dish washer. ?
Reneeromer, haven’t had mine removed yet as it’s due to be replaced in November. My doctor has told me to make an appointment with family planning to get it replaced early but am thinking I might check out other options.
Mama bear, I’m right there with you girl! My husband and I haven’t spoken all weekend. So rude for them to be so insensitive. Don’t cry! I’m not going to anymore either. I go back to work tomorrow too. I dread getting the call but look forward to putting this behind me (us!!). When we are all done with this, we deserve a girls night. I’ll book a flight! Haha! Xoxo
Thank you ladies, feeling a bit better today. Trying to stay positive although there’s quite a bit brimming under the surface. In my heart I think it will be Ok and I can move on with my life but ever now and then my head moves over to the dark side. Just need to give myself a few b*tch slaps to bring it back.
Will be keeping my fingers crossed for you mgt66 and hold on in there reneeromer. I will be thinking of you both. Xoxo
Your feelings and emotions are right in tune with mine today. I am really trying to think positive but know that it’s all in God’s hands. It is what it is at this point. The idea of putting my kids and family through this makes me sick. Mamabear… I know what you mean but feeling in your heart that all is ok but then my stomach sinks when I think the other way. I think the worst part is, that I feel fine. Like… how can something be wrong? I feel great! Physically, anyway. I just wan this to be over. And I really want to thank you two for being there for me. It has brought me so much peace knowing I’m not alone. R
They gave me a similar message, if it’s benign they might just leave it and ask me to go back if it gets any bigger and I thought to myself how will I know if it’s getting bigger. It’s inside me. I don’t have a portable ultrasound at home. Even if it’s not getting bigger I’ll panic it is so just take it out now and then I don’t have to worry about it anymore.
Totally ready to get off it now. Fingers crossed we’ll all be off it soon xoxo
wow it’s dinner time for you gals! It’s still morning here. School is out for the kids so at least I won’t have homework to deal with later with them. POSITIVE - POSITIVE - POSITIVE!!!
How’s the healing coming along? I’m still all black and blue but it doesn’t hurt anymore.