I’ve been really ‘positive’ for weeks and had a lovely day/night. But then BAM a huge ‘flashback’ and I’m now back to crying and panic. It’s torture. Anyone awake on here I can talk to?
Sorry Wonky I wasn’t awake when you messaged but I am now if you’d like to talk? I’m sending you big hugs to start with.
Evie xx
Hi Wonky,
You are still so close time-wise to active treatment, it’s natural to have a little wobble now. Plus at night our minds do sometimes spin off about all sorts. I remember medical staff kept telling me “it’s early days” when I was thinking, what are you talking about, I’ve finished x, y, z treatments. Looking back I now know what they mean! I think sometimes we can be so busy going with it, through diagnosis and treatment, being positive and all the rest, that the full significance of what we’ve actually had only really sinks in later on.
I hope you got back to sleep and are feeling less panicky this morning. Was it a specific element or fear or more the general enormity of bc feeling?
Be kind and compassionate to yourself - try and do some things which feed and settle your soul this weekend. Have you tried mindfulness? It can sometimes help calm a tad when having a wobble.
Seabreeze
Oh Wonky
I must have just missed you last night because I did pop in late. I’m sorry you’re having a wobble but everyone’s explained it and given you great advice. I will only back it up - be kind to yourself. We’re all vulnerable to wobbles and flashbacks are horrid. I went back today to see the physio. I couldn’t understand why I felt quite sick the whole time - now it’s obvious: I hated being back there. Back again next week for clinic because, feeling sick or not, I know it’s important to be monitored. And so do you!
Love to the cat (she’s worth your weight in gold) and to you xx