Just to recap…Tuesday 23rd (last week) I had to go for mammo and US after finding a lump, the US lady and the con both said my lump was due to one large and several small cysts all clumped together, totally harmless they said.
Then I receive a letter asking me to phone the breast clinic for a further mammo, US and possible FNA, I did, the app was today.
I should have seen a proffessor somebody at my original app but he was away, anyway, apparently he likes to go through the cases he misses when he gets back which is why I was called in, he spotted something nobody else did, yep, you guessed it, I’ve got cancer.
He tried to show me what it was but I couldn’t see anything, nothing stood out on the mammo or US except the cysts, anyway off I trot for another mammo and US, they drained the cyst first, the large one anyway, the US lady (different one) was babbling about this thing on the screen but I couldn’t take it in, went back to see Prof who was very nice but I just burst into tears, I have no idea what type of cancer it is, everything is just a blur, he was very aplogetic but I remember telling him I’m glad only a week has passed and not several months, anyway I have to go back on 12th of this month and I can’t even remember what for.
I don’t really know how to feel at the moment, I went from 2 weeks of worry after finding the lump to huge relief when told it was cysts, back to worry after receiving the letter, to anger, shock and fear, I’d convinced myself they wanted me back because they had decided to drain the big cyst after all, how wrong was I?
Anyway, thanks again, it means alot to have somewhere to air your feelings, hubby hasn’t really said much since leaving the hospital.
Hi Debbie
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Hi Debbi,
It just makes it so much harder when you don’t get the care you should - I really feel for you. Do whatever you need to do to keep yourself busy until the 12th, whether that’s finding out about BC, ranting at your friends, or shopping big-time…
As for making sense of it, I get my OH to write down everything that’s said, with pauses while they tell him the correct spellings!, then I can come away and read it later and hopefully understand exactly what was said, and not just what I ‘heard’.
Will be thinking of you
love Jacquie xx
If i were you I would have a word with your breast cancer nurse. Tell her how yu feel and confused and ask her the questions you need to. Hopefully thenyou will have a better idea of hat is going on and then you can prepare yourself. The first 2 weeks are without doube the worst but once you start the treatment you will get a better understanding and with that comes a bit of relief. Do keep in touch with this site as there are loads of lovely people her who have felt the same and share solidarity with you. You are not alone.
I’m with maisey. If they have given you any contact numbers for your breast care nurse, give her a call in the morning. Write down whatever you want to ask her beforehand, and write down what she says to you. That might help you to take it all in. I’m sure it happens very often. It is a shock to the system.
Good luck. I hope you get some answers tomorrow. For your peace of mind, I wouldn’t put it off.
