What next???
What next??? After finishing my treatment I thought it would be all plain sailing…boy was I wrong…depressed, tired crying all the time…everything I try to do seems to go wrong. Now been informed have to be out of the flat by 21/3/07 and still no way forward to getting new home…been told by thecompany that the advisor who was dealing with me as now been taken in to hospital…i really feel for her but her secretary made me feel as she was the only one who can deal with me…??? Sitting here with cardboard boxes around me feeling lost and lonely, trying to stay positive but sometimes its hard. Just off to the benefits office and council to see if they can help me but I am not holding my breath…
Onwards and upwards
Elainex
You poor thing… Hi Elaine
I feel so sorry for you having to deal with all this c**p on top of bc.
Life can be so unfair sometimes.
Good luck with the Benefits Office and Council. Hope they can help you.
Regards
Jo
Sunshine. Hi Elaine,
Sorry to hear you are feeling so down so I’m sending you a ray of sunshine through my mouse to yours, just put your hand over your mouse to feel the power. It’s just so lovely and sunny here after yesterdays rain.
Best of luck finding a flat.
Michelle.
you need a hug hello well as you said what next? all i can say is im with you all the way, you know what im going through and i know just how you feel ,and i wish we lived nearer and could come round and offer you support,hey we might both need those cardboard boxes,and keep your spoons out for when we go busking.my freind i do hope you can get things sorted out ,havent they got another advisor at the company for emergencies like this? seems odd that only one person can help. sending you a GREAT BIG HUG xxx love lynn x
Caught it Hi Michelle
Thanks just got home after getting soaked, sitting here in my Jammie’s and catching all those lovely sunshine rays.
Thanks for your kind words
Elainex
We must have been bad Hiya matey
Me and you must have been horrible people in our former lives and we are now living through our punishment…Just read and replied to your previous post, what a c…p day you have had. Mine was not much better.
Went to the benefits office and told them I had put in a reclaim for incapacity benefit ages ago, they said it could take anything from 10-18 days to process…bring it on, only been without money for 4 weeks, but Hey Oh that doesn’t matter does it…
Just got back home after taking my mums dog for a long walk, thought it would clear my head, it hasn’t and to top it all I got soaked and my shoes leaked. To top it all my ex husband rang and left a message on my answer phone, asking how I was…how I was, what a cheek, he has not bothered for weeks, he now wants me to ring him to arrange to collect the rest of my stuff…fat chance of that, just deleted the message and stuck up two fingers, he only bully’s me and makes me feel useless, I do not need that at the moment, feel that anyway…
Well just cooked my tea, decided I could kill two birds with one stone…have not put heating on, just oven to cook meal and am sitting next to it with the door open to keep warm…thinking of drying my shoes out in there as well…lol…
Anyway we will live close to each other shortly, you know where…third park bench on the left next to the toilets and skips…lol
Chin up and double hugs back to you
Elainexxx
what do i do now i have my last chemo on friday, the last of my second lot for the local recurrence and following mastectomy and rads. have seen the breast consultant today and been told everything is fine, go back in 6 months. i have to see the onc on friday pre chemo and will presumably be told back in 6 months or maybe even a year. everyone keeps asking me does this mean my cancer has gone. i know i will always have to get regular check ups and mammos etc, but does this mean it is gone. so far i have had a lumpectomy with lymph node removal, then chemo, then another lymph node removal, then rads where they found the local recurrence so a mast then more chemo. surely there is not much more they can do and as all the tissue has been removed, and all scans were clear of any spread, is this it. do i now look positive and say to myself and anyone else that is has gone and i am clear.
Today’s another day Well today’s another day…time to dust myself off brush myself down and start all over again…After a c…p nights sleep tossing and turning decided was going to get up and face the day with a more positive attitude…yeah right…it lasted at least 20mins, now sitting here worrying again. Boob is itching like mad pain down right arm, when will this ever stop…Know there are loads of people on here that are worse off than me but just wanted to come somewhere and have a chat…
Oh well suppose I better make a move, got to put a few more boxes together and pack some more stuff for my nights under the stars…
Elaine
Todays another day Well todays another day…time to dust myself off brush myself down and start all over again…After a c…p nights sleep tossing and turning decided was going to get up and face the day with a more positive attitude…yeh right…it lasted at least 20mins, now sitting here worrying again. Boob is itching like mad pain down right arm, when will this ever stop…Know there are loads of people on hear that are worse off than me but just wanted to come somewhere and have a chat…
Oh well suppose I better make a move, got to put a few more boxes together and pack some more stuff for my nights under the stars…
Elaine
afternoon. well today its been lovely sunshine outdoors pity i dont feel like welcoming it still feeling very down and worried over money and yes i may go to the local shops and ask for spare boxes for when elaine and me camp out!! anyway elaine my friend hows your day been have you got any nearer with your claim ? hey cant your (wonderful )) not) ex help you out with some cash after all he wants to know how you are hit him with the truth and tell him !! or cant he take the truth like most men!! i do hope we come through this we have been through quite enough with our ill ness and all this stress is not good anyway try to have a good evening catch you later take care love lynn xx
Lynn Hi how did your day go with landlord i have been thinking of you all day.
You are right stress is not good especially when trying to deal with a shitty illness, i have found that since being ill every thing that can go wrong has gone wrong, and i don’t seem to deal with problems like i did before bc.
I am looking forward to the day when i am strong and if a problem arises i can say well F… Y… because i have survived cancer i can take anything on now…
Well we can all dream of that day because it will come, things just can’t get any worse can they?
Have a good evening
Love Jo x x x