wish I'd never had mastectomy

So depressed about the treatment
MX in September, Chemo started in October, one more week to go then recon surgery and radio therapy. I can’t take any more treatment and want it to stop. can’t handle weeks of travelling to hospital and juggling kids and house stuff. Am I alone with this?

Hi riversidedawn

I’m sorry you are feeling so low at the moment.  It might help to give our helpline a call to talk things over.  They are open from 9-5 today and all weekdays and 10-2 on Saturdays.  The number is 0808 800 6000

Very best wishes


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Hi Dawn, having had over the last six months, mammograms, biopsies, 3 WLE followed by bilateral mx & recon, and now looking at further surgery to “tidy up” I have some idea of how you must be feeling. It’s a hellish journey at times and the inconvenience, long-term disruption & general exhaustion of a cancer diagnosis is often not acknowledged.
Sadly no magic wand though. I would however, strongly recommend giving the helpline a call or drop them an email. The support there is phenomenal and the benefits of talking to someone who genuinely does understand is immeasurable. Please call them.

Thanks Lisa. I did call yesterday. Still feel so fed up with all the treatment. You’re right that the exhaustion is not acknowledged, especially by husband!

Hi riversidedawn,


what an inspirational name.


I cannot imagine how you feel. Having suffered from depression I do recognise a little of the gloom though.


All I can say is you have done the hardest part and succeeded you are on the downhill path now.

And I don’t just mean treatment wise.

You have done this during the long dark winter months when there is little day light and the world is a gloomy place.

Now you are facing brighter days and a real light at the end of the tunnel - a true dawn.


I feel lucky that my treatment is in spring/summer where at least I can get outside if only to sit in the sun.


You need to realise how much you have achieved and how brilliant that makes you!


Be brave you’re nearly there