Am starting radiotherapy next Wednesday 27th and I have to say I’m feeling more tearful and lacking in confidence than I did during surgery. Been off work since diagnosis and occ health wants me off until new year. I have so much that needs doing in home and feel like im wasting the opportunity but lack motivation to get on. No kids to keep me amused but have tried to go out and see people often which helps. Had a copy of path report which showed that not only did I have IDC but dcis which I didn’t know. Can’t get away from fearing the worst as tumour close to chest wall hence 18 days rads. Aunt died of bc and uncle with secondaries. Just feeling scared and vulnerable. Xx D
Hi Dana
I know the feeling. I was dreading the rads, more than the surgery for some reason. I just found it hard to get my head round as there is no obvious immediate benefit, it’s all ‘just in case’. The process is strange too, the measuring and so on. I hated the first 2 sessions but gradually got used to it and just finished 15 sessions last week.
You are allowed a wobble goodness me! and if you don’t feel like doing things and being organised then don’t. You have to take it a day at the time at the moment, you have plenty of time later to get back to normal.
Take care.
Mary
Hi Dana
I though surgery was the bit I needed to worry about, but I have actually found worrying about rads and tamoxifen worse. It is so easy to get down in the dumps over this. I went back to work 10 days after surgery and although I didn’t feel much like it at the time I think it did me the world of good because it keeps my head full of other things most of the day. I have also planned some Christmas shows and things to look forward to in December to keep me busy and make me need to sort out clothes to wear, etc. I think I would go round the bend if I was stuck at home. I have not dared ask for my path report yet though so I am probably still in denial! Keep your chin up. Just going to hospital and seeing people every day will probably make you start to feel better next week. Sending hugs to you. X