Hi,I will try to keep this as short as i can…
About 7 years ago my right breast began to feel a little tender,not painful just a dull ache,like a bruise but as i was young and i could feel no lumps i just ignored it (silly i know) but then 3 years ago my sister who was then 34 was diagnosed with breast cancer,she went through chemo,radiotherapy and a mastectomy and is doing extremely well thank goodness and she also had a negative gene test too but after she was diagnosed it prompted me to get myself checked,my GP said i was naturally lumpy probably due to my size (42dd) but said she could not feel anything to worry about but given my sisters history and for peace of mind she referred me for a scan which came back clear and was told i had normal breast pain…the feeling of my breast aches and the tender feeling never really went away but started to become more frequent in me noticing it so today i went back and saw my gp (the same one as last time as i trust her completely) and this time she said she could feel something on the right side of my right breast but said my underarm felt normal…it made my blood run cold hearing those words but next she said it did not feel like a lump but more like nodules,she also said “there is nothing screaming out at me that it is anything major” but when i asked could it be cancer she said there is always that chance but she didnt think it would be but has once again referred me for a scan and said i should get the appointment within 2 weeks…the area she felt what she called nodules was a little painful when she was pressing it and when i examined myself i could not feel anything at all and she really had to press hard to feel what she felt…i am now 34 the same age as my sister when she was diagnosed,can not feel any lumps,no discharge,no rash or dimpling or thickness but after today i am worried sick and every time i look at my 4 children i just want to cry,has anyone ever had similar problems especially as there seems to be no lumps,i am now getting so paranoid about the scan even thinking i cant go through with it as i dont want to hear any bad news.i have not even told my sister how today went as i dont want to upset her but she always knows when i hide things from her and now i am meant to going to see her in the morning for a “chat” so i know i will have to explain it all to her…im so worried,my husband thinks i will be fine as he heard what the doctor said and now thinks all be fine,i know he is just trying to keep me calm but its so hard…really sorry for the long post xxxx
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Take care
Lucy BCC
Hi Helen
It’s impossible not to worry under the circumstances. It is only natural to think the worst, specially as your sister was diagonosed with bc.
No one here can tell you whether its all ok or not but we can be here to support you and listen to your worries.
Please don’t think about putting off having the hospital check-up, the sooner it is all checked out the better, but I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you that!
I hope you get the appointment soon, take care.
Mary
Hi Helen,
I can only reiterate what Mary’s said. It’s so important that you get yourself checked out. I was in a similar position a couple of weeks ago and had my scan today, and cannot tell you the relief when it turned out to be nothing. I have been on both ends of the stick (I was diagnosed with bc last year), but can honestly say that even with a cancer diagnosis, it was better knowing than wondering what was going on with a mysterious lump. I must also state at this point that when I had my cancer diagnosis, I had very little pain, so please don’t think that was what made me go to my GP on that occasion. Please, please don’t stick your head in the sand and not go for your scan.
Wishing you all the best, Ann x x
Thank you for the kinds replies.
I saw my sister yesterday and we had a long chat and i am now glad i spoke with her,she said it was reassuring that the doctor did not seem overly concerned in what she found so i hope that is true,still very tender and achy and if i press in where the doctor said she felt the nodules it is very painful but i am now becoming so paranoid that i keep checking myself every few hours convinced i will find a lump even though the doctor said what she felt did not feel like a lump,husband is being very supportive too which is a comfort.i will have the scan as i need to know but i really am dreading going,my sister has offered to go with me as has my husband so i wont be alone and whatever the results are i will have no choice but to deal with it for the sake of my children,thank you once again and i wish you all well,i will keep you updated…
Helen xxx
2 days until my appointment at the breast clinic and i am terrified,have been checking myself loaads convinced i will find a lump,i also googled “breast nodules” as that is what my gp said it feels like and was even more scared to learn that these too can be cancerous,it really has been the week from hell just the waiting and not knowing and now im convinced that if i need a biopsy then they must think i have cancer too and i really dont think i can go another 2 weeks whilst we wait for the biopsy results if i need one,i have been so horrible to live with,im either crying or shutting myself away from my hubby and children,just wish i can go into a deep sleep and wake up after thursday with all the results…sorry for the negative post im just having another bad day and needed a moan but will update after thursday xxx
Hi Helen,
Please don’t worry about moaning on this site! We all have our moany days, and with all the pressure you’re under, you at least deserve a good moan. Please also remember that a biopsy does not mean that you have cancer. Be kind to yourself till Thursday and I 'm sure your hubby and children will understand that your not at your best, so will forgive you being a bit on the snippy/down side.
We’re all here for you whatever the results are on Thursday. Take care and I wish you all the best at your appointment.
Ann x x