Breast Clinic next week and really worried...37 and a mum

[VixPlum]

Good morning, I am so pleased that you had a positive outcome. Have a lovely day 💖

[shera83]

I just wanted to come on and update that I got the all clear today. It is rib tissue causing a small hard lump.

Thinking of anyone awaiting an appointment 

[VixPlum]

Hi, of course i do not mind. 😊 Mine was across the top of the breast, just above the nipple areola. It was the smallest of lumps that i had missed it. The nurse practitioner at my GP surgery found it. Even the consultant on my first consultation couldn't locate it. Suffice to say i gave the nurse practitioner a massive hug when i saw her a few months later. 

[shera83]

Thank you lovely so lovely to read you are now clear and well.

Where was your lump if you do not mind me asking?

[shera83]

Wishing you all the luck in the world hun x x x x

[VixPlum]

Hi,

I was in the same place this time last year, same age too.  A complete fluke find and I unluckily ended up in that small % where is was nasty. Firstly, try to be positive. It is hard, and i completely get it. I suffer from anxiety anyway so this just turned it up to deathcon1!

A way to get through is just take it one step at a time. I find that my thoughts run away with themselves so i literally just worked as far up to what came next. This stopped those pesky thoughts from taking me away. Also.... keep busy. Again this works as you have to carry on. Being a human you want to curl up in a ball and make it all go away... being a mum, you have to still make the dinner, engage in conversations your children think are really important. We went out on lots of days out, these gave me some positive memories from that horrible time, and also kept me from breaking down. 

The good news is that there is always a treatment and although your mind will go to worst case, remember it can have good outcomes too. I am one boob lighter but now healthy and clear. 😚

The clinic team will be supportive and amazing with you no matter what the outcome, try to be kind to yourself.

Good luck with your appointment ❤️

[Cat42]

I’m going to the breast clinic tomorrow, I’m 28 and crapping myself.

i has a cyst 2 yrs ago and I just feel this is “different” this time, I really hope I’m wrong.

hows everyone doing? It’s nice to talk to people in the same **bleep**ty boat.

[Givereceivesupport]

Dear Shera83, I hear you wrt rabbit holes, and I am the same, I researched all day everyday throughout my testing and diagnosis phase, which really stressed my body and mind plenty. I am in the school of thought that its good to know more than less, as it arms you with the stats and data. Though I also do think that it's very possible to overdo it! When's your next appt? 

[shera83]

Thank you so much 🙂 I guess I get myself all positive then I stupidly joined a facebook group and have seen (22 - yes I counted)  active women all in 30s with breast cancer and some with kids at stage 4 etc and I just cannot cope knowing it is not as rare as I first thought and at my age chances are it would be aggressive etc. I do not know why I allow myself to go down such rabbit holes.

[Givereceivesupport]

Dear Shera83, 

Btw, Shera happens to be my all-time favourite cartoon from the 80s, love that name. 

I completely understand the heightened anxiety. I myself went through something similar two months ago, and I was a total puddly mess most of the time. We always think the absolute worst, maybe its something within us trying to cushion any potential negative blow or maybe its just plain fear. In any case, try and take care of yourself in the meantime. Try to rest, and eat well and get that sunlight into your body. If anything, tell yourself it only helps shore strength and health in your body. Do it for that. You are doing the absolute right thing to get it checked, better to see to it asap than not. If your mind does go automatically to the worst, then consider (in the worst case) that early detection really means the mildest treatment. And again, if your mind dives down towards the dumps, then start to think of and trust in today's medicine (breast cancer is the most survivable form of cancer today) and also trust in the legion of sisters before you. And I see you like your stats and percentages, so also hold onto them as you await for your appointment and diagnosis. 

Hugs and love and light to you. Keep us updated, hon. 

[shera83]

I found a small lump like a grain of rice/pip in my upper left inner quad of my breast. I thought it felt more connected to my chest/breast bone area rather than in my breast tissue but the nurse I saw yesterday has referred me. 

I am trying to get a grip on my anxiety and remind myself that out of over 1,000,000 women in the Uk who are age 35-39 only 1,500 approx. got diagnosed with breast cancer in the last year which is tiny and again it is around 15% of all cancers in the upper inner quad but I am being sick....shaking....unable to sleep...palpitations and horrific anxiety. I went to the breast clinic in 2012 for a breast mouse in my other boob but that felt different it was softer for a start so I am automatically thinking the worst. I am so sorry to sound dramatic but I am doing my husband's head in I am sure. x