Hi
I’m going to be getting a letter shortly to confirm my appointment results from a biopsy next week. I’ve parked my concerns for now…but for me to deal with the whole process im trying to manage how I will deal with being in the consultancy room which seems more worrying to me than the actual result. Ironically I can handle what will come my way, I think!
I know this sounds absolutely ludicrous, but the thought of being sat one side of the table and the clinician sat with a folder on the other side of the table with my future in that folder is just overwhelming …there just seems too much power for me and my little life sitting in the corner waiting to see what journey i will be on.
Don’t get me wrong I have complete faith and admiration for these Angels, I really do. But I cannot handle the power ( in my head that is!) I’m not sure if it has anything to do with my job as im an investigator and the thought of me being in the vulnerable position does not bode well…
So I am.considering if they will let me have the results through the post or my doctor to explain it to me, at least there isn’t a table between us… which seems better than having to go to hospital receiving bad news…
I’m trying to prepare myself for the worst, i csn do that, but its the set up of the room that bothers me…i know this must just sound mad to anyone that reads this!!
So I guess my question is, do you have to actually go in for the appointment ? Is it always normally done this way?? X