Still waiting

[fk101722]

hi bluecat 

Thank you for your reply. It does help to get some of the worries and fears out. Its the school holidays here now which makes it a bit more challenging as need to put a smile on and throw myself into doing things but I'm sure will help to pass the time. Feels so silly to be terrified of my own body! I hope you manage through too and will keep everything crossed for a positive outcome for you. Have lots of baking planned for today with my daughter once I finish work and a long walk tomorrow. Just need to fill the time! Xxx 

[Bluecat]

Hi, 

I am exactly in the same position with waiting to find out.  I have called the 0800 number on here and spoke to a lovely lady that just put everything into perspective, so that may help? I know what you mean about the sinking to stomach feeling as my fears managed to creep in last night even thought I shut the box at the hospital ! Im going to lock it with a key!! 

Ironically chewing over everything and talking helps us move forward into a stronger position whatever we are faced with...

I'm scared about being told face to face whatever the circumstances are, these are just my own fears.

Whatever you do, do not look up Dr Google though, it will not do you anygood my lovely!! 

I'm seeing a consultant on Wednesday 14th, which is the day before my sons 11plus and day before my birthday to find out the results of the biopsy, not too stressful 😬i know i won't deal with it very well, but im going to try my hardest!! Its not until 4pm. 

We will hsve to keep ourselves occupied until we get told what the results are, so im going to immerse myself into bubblegum tv and a few glasses of wine with a friend tonight, but i haven't told any friends or family until I get the results, thats just me as I prefer to talk on here about it.  If you arent going through it people don't understand it, well in my mind that is, thats not obviously everyone 😉. 

I wish you all the best though, keep us updated on your appointment! X

[fk101722]

Hi everyone, hope you are all doing OK. As my appointment gets closer I am feeling more anxious..normal I know. Had quite a good week and coped well but looked at my boobs tonight & have sunk into panic once more. The one with the indent looks worse and have noticed another indent on different part of same breast. Got myself in a right state again about inflammatory breast cancer. Googled again which was a terrible idea and found, quite easily, the bad news stories about ppl diagnosed and had spread to spine etc etc. Feel like I'm going mad. I know I only have a few days to wait but just wish it would all go away. X 

[fk101722]

Thank you, you too, its such a horrible worrying time. Xx

[Bluecat]

I hope all goes well with your appointment 💗 not had an indentation, my symptom is different with a weird prickly localised sensation so I have an ultrasound and another xray this upcoming Tuesday.  

Hope all goes well for you on the 12th October 💞

Bluecat 

[fk101722]

Got my appointment through for 12th October which seems like forever away. Has anyone ever had an indent that has turned out to be benign? 

[fk101722]

thank you again Evie, hoping I hear something about an appointment this week x 

[Evie-S]

Thank you for coming back with the update, and for your very kind words. I am glad to hear that you chased the appointment and that it has been marked urgent. I will keep everything crossed that you hear very soon.

I wish I could tell you not to panic, but we are human and it is natural to worry when we find something unusual on our body. We somehow have to find a way to cope/deal with it so we don’t drive ourselves insane. I advise people not to google but I am guilty of not always taking my own advice, and then scaring myself further, so I totally understand what you are saying. I am always looking for that site that will tell me “all is well, stop worrying”.

Do try to remember that there are lots of innocent explanations for breast lumps and changes, but you have done exactly the right thing in being vigilant and getting checked.

I am so pleased that you have reached out to this lovely forum and we are all right here for you, holding your hand and giving you strength. As my favourite Winnie the Pooh quote says “Remember you are braver than you believe, stronger than you feel and smarter than you think”.

Hugs, Evie xx

[fk101722]

Hi Evie, 

Thank you for taking the time to leave your lovely message. I spoke to the GP yesterday and they have now marked the referral as urgent so will hopefully be seen in next 2 weeks. Feel very certain that something is wrong, very scared about inflammatory breast cancer as I now have this slightly red area. I know I shouldn't Google but so hard not to. Panic has definitely set in and I sm struggling to carry out my normal tasks. 

[Evie-S]

Hi fk101722 - I’m so sorry to read your post and sending you a big hug. Any waiting is just so so hard isn’t it. For your own sanity maybe you can call your GP’s secretary or the hospital itself to chase it up, just say you are worried that perhaps it has been lost in the post? How long have you been waiting?

While you wait you need to try to take one day at a time, definitely stay away from Dr Google who really doesn’t know you and your specific case and be kind and gentle to yourself. Someone suggested to me that I set aside a “worry time” each day, say 3-3.30pm, when I would allow myself to worry. So if I started worrying at noon I would tell myself that I wouldn’t think about it then, I’d wait til 3 - and the chances are I would have forgotten about it by then. I don’t know if that makes any sense, it’s not always easy but it did help me. Another great book told me that “Fears are NOT facts”.

I hope someone will be along to chat further, but you might want to call the lovely nurses on the number at the top right of this page. Or if I can help in any way, even just to listen, please come back and chat. I very much hope that you will get some reassurance very soon. Evie xx

[fk101722]

still waiting on my appointment, had a letter telling me there will be delays due to covid so my panic is rising. I have also noticed a discoloured red blotchy area on the same breast I have the indent so feeling sick with worry. Looks like lots of spider veins. Has anyone experienced an indent tbat has turned out to be benign? So scared xx