I understand completely the anxiety you're experiencing and I can only offer you this: Please, please, please contact your nearest Maggies Cancer Centre for help with the emotional side of things.
I had my own cancer diagnosis in the summer but had to wait 9 days for my first consultation as the biopsy results needed to be processed. During this time I went into a very dark zone and although I wasn't choosing the wood for my coffin, boy was it getting close!!! The mind is a very powerful tool. I'm not belittling the wonderful healthcare professionals looking after us in hospitals but Maggies helps with the myriad of emotions and feelings thrown our way in situations like BC. The first time I went (to one at Oxford), a very kind lady asked me if I wanted tea the moment I stepped across the threshhold. Of course I couldn't answer as her kindness had turned me to a sobbing wreck. She sat us down and listened to my fears for what seemed like ages. My husband and I couldn't believe how calm and soothed we felt when we left an hour or so later. They can't address the clinical/medical side of things but they can help put things into perspective and reassure you that all these worries are normal. Their support is available to anyone associated with cancer so this covers partners, family and friends too. It's free and they also gave me some coping strategies for when I wake up in the night in a cold sweat imaging the worst. (I no longer do so...)
No appointment is necessary (unless you want to book onto a group class or a one-to-one session with a counsellor). Look up your nearest Maggies on the internet and just turn up. You won't regret it!
I wish you well and hope the future looks brighter soon. xxx
I just wanted to echo Helena's comments below. I have just been through the same process myself (my appointment at the Breast clinic was yesterday following the two week wait). I also had to attend a clinic for under 40s (I am 32).
My thought process was much the same as yourself. The first couple of days after coming back from the GP, I was convinced it was breast cancer. After 2-3 days however, I just carried on and my mentality changed. Instead of convinced that it was cancer, I became convinced it was not and I almost forgot about it as I went about my daily life I can only hope that you find the same thing whilst you are waiting.
By the time my appointment came around, I then became convinced that I had lulled myself into a falsIe sense of security and it was going to be bad news. It was not bad news at all. After the initial examination I was told it did not feel worrying, I went for an ultrasound and was told everything was normal.
The emmotions that went alongside the waiting are some of the strangest I have experienced in a while, but I would wager that nothing I went through or that you are going through is out of the ordinary. Just keep going day to day as best you can and hopefully appointment day will come around before you know it.
Sending you hugs in the meantime! xx
Just keep comoing on here and we will get you through it.
The trouble is that flipping anxiety monster who likes to take control of our rational mind. I have recently been through a similar thing in that I have had a hysterectomy and my logical mind said it was nothing sinister but in those "quiet" times I was so scared it was cancer, very glad to report it was not and I am well on the mend and about to return to work
Hello and welcome to the forum. You did absolutely the correct thing in going to your GP as any changes in your breast need to be checked out, however, as you have probably seen on here, a change does not mean that it is breast cancer, there are a lot of benign breast conditions that it could be and you are being referred to the experts to get it checked out.
What you are feeling is totally natural and we can all relate to that feeling of one minute thinking that you are wasting their time to being convinced it is something sinister and no matter what anyone tells you until you been to your apt you will not get peace of mind. Try as much as possible to keep yourself distracted.
Sending you hugs