@Jaybro The article on Future Dreams was amazing. So incite full with the psychological aspects of dealing with BC Thanks for recommendation as I’d never heard of them
Thank you @Silver6 im feeling so much better today after letting it all out. (And a trip shopping helped) although I’ve changed shape and my colouring has changed due to lack of hair but feel it is what it is.
love and hugs x
No problem at all😊 I’m delighted I could help.
The hardest part of my BC experience has been the psychological effects (I suffered a huge life changing trauma when I was 13, and thought as I’d “coped” with that then I could manage this! 😬 wrong!)
Since my BC diagnosis I’ve learned what self care really is and can testify to the old adages “time is a great healer” and “patience is a virtue” - especially after all the treatment stops. Enjoy the summer, be selfish and take all the time you feel you need before going back to work. I’ve read so many times on here about people regretting returning to work too early
lots of love
I am sorry you are feeling so down right now, it is difficult when the World and their Granny seem to be celebrating and try as you might, you just cannot find any joy inside yourself. I think having been down the BC path twice the years I may have a little understanding of what you are feeling as I am sure many others on this forum will too.
I am blessed with a large family, and yet since my diagnosis and Treatments spanning from 21st December finishing Rads only last week, I too have felt so 'lonely and isolated.' I realise that may seem strange, but no one can relate until they too have trod a similar path, so I feel as though Im in a glass cube in the middle of a crowd, smiling and laughing on the outside but weeping and screaming on the inside. But I know, with time, these feelings will abate it's a question of 'coping' until then. Speak with your GP perhaps some counselling may help you, and when feeling stronger going back to work part time or even volunteering, reaching out to others in a similar position or less fortunate can also help.
In the meantime, continue to talk through your feelings on the Forum to others who really do understand or phone and chat to one of the Breastcarenow Nurses. (((Hug)))
Thank you so much @adoptedmanc you have made me feel so much better , someone else feeling the same makes me realise it’s as you say, most probably residual tiredness, shock of what Ive been through and finding my new normal.
I'm so glad you’re back at work now, I’m probably going back in August. I want to enjoy the summer after what’s been a long winter.
Having voiced my feelings I feel a lot better It helps to talk. Thank you for replying
Love and hugs
Thank you so much for replying @Jaybro Im so sorry you’re feeling this way. I will definitely take a look at the websites. I’m feeling much better now I got it off my chest. I also think I need to make the first move as people are nervous as you say.
Love and hugs. Sue
I’m sorry to hear you are struggling at the moment: I think I can relate to how you are feeling: I felt very low in December which was a couple of months after I finished my treatment.
At one point during my treatment I asked my oncologist when she thought I should think about returning to work to which she replied “when you are crawling the walls and you think there’s nothing else you would rather do”: I was very low before Christmas and tried to rationalise my feelings and decided it was either due to residual tiredness from treatment, the fact that Christmas was coming so I “should” be celebrating (I’m with you Jubilee celebrations, my family isn’t “joining in” we’ve left the country 😂) or I’d reached the stage of being ready to return to work.
I went back to work in January and I’m feeling much more like myself, having the work hat to put back on. I have most definitely changed following my diagnosis and treatment but am managing to feel very positive about those changes. In terms of talking to people I feel like my breast cancer is now “yesterday’s news” so don’t feel compelled to say anything or else have developed a stock answer for those that want to quiz me!
You are an amazing person and you make a difference: you have friends who will be in absolute awe of you and what you’ve been through and your friendship and experiences will be so valued be people you know or even people you don’t know.
Take care and I hope you start to feel better soon
I’m so sorry you feel so isolated. I found that it is, in a way, a very isolating experience as no one can truly understand how it feels to be us. At the same time, I was surrounded by friends wanting to help by giving me lifts to the hospital, sitting chatting with me while I had chemo etc. Now I have a Stage 4 diagnosis, it’s different. Most people don’t know what it means - I’ve just got cancer again - and those who do understand don’t want to face it. They are also frightened of passing on infection from their grandkids etc so I am left abandoned!
It sounds to me like you’re being very productive, given what you’ve been through. I have peripheral neuropathy from my primary chemo and can no longer feel a needle so my passion for creative embroidery has been challenged! It’s also good that you meet up with someone most days and you’re getting exercise. But that sense of being alone stems from having a traumatic diagnosis and traumatic treatments that others haven’t had. I’m attaching a link to an excellent article one of the nurses posted a few years ago. It explains so well why we feel as we feel so I hope you’ll read it repeatedly and take things in when you’re ready. It’s still early days for you, emotionally rather than physically. There’s also a website www.futuredreams.org.uk which has some useful online resources for moving on with life after cancer. Maybe there’s something there for you. Meantime, keep up the crafts and swimming - sounds good to me.
Hi Sue ,Im sorry you are feeling so low . I think having cancer is a very lonely experience even if you have people around you.Only people who have been through it can really understand how being faced with your own mortality affects you .It’s very common to feel deflated and low after you come out the other side after you finish treatment . It does get better and you will feel more “ normal “ as time goes on . If you are still struggling mentally after a few months some breast care teams have access to a psychologist to offer some input .Lots of support here from people who understand x
I Finished my treatments two months ago and I’m recovering well however I’m finding that I’m isolating myself. I’ve noticed I avoid people as I really don’t want to answer questions, they avoid me as they don’t know what to say and therefore I’m left with very few friends. I only have one son nearby and no other family close to me. I haven’t started back at work and I’m at a loss what to do with myself. I read, I paint, I knit, I crochet I swim it’s still I feel alone. I make sure I see someone most days for a coffee or a chat, I just don’t know what to do with myself I feel so alone that I honestly wish that I’d never gone through with this and that the cancer had got me.
I think things like Jubilee weekends make you feel more isolated and alone when there’s no family around to have a barbecue with et cetera. I’ve been to the local fetes and Beacon lighting etc but I feel so empty and such a changed person.
Thanks for listening