Hello all! Sorry I haven't been on since last chemo. Hubby didn't think it was healthy for me & wants me to move on now that the worst is over. Have my last radio on Mon 15th!!:). Hope you are all doing well. I will scan over the last few posts & see what you have all been up to xxx
I am definitely on the grumpy step this morning.
Lovewine - I totally understand what you are saying about the delayed reaction. I can't quite believe what has happened this year when I look back and it feels overwhelming. Meet wonderful new partner, get diagnosed with cancer two months later, embark on treatment, partner amazingly supportive, partner gets ill (you can probably put two and two together following my previous comments about "someone very close" and depression), partner becomes ex-partner, treatment rumbles on. It seems neverending and yet the thought of going back to work, Tamoxifen, radiotherapy all still to come..... I can't even imagine the point where I put all this behind me and just get on with life and even then it's not going to be the life I was imagining for myself earlier this year. I have an appointment with my counsellor today thank goodness - maybe she can help me get some perspective.
To add to it (sorry for the rant!) my seroma has reappeared. Having thought I'd seen the last of hospital for a few weeks I have to go in this morning for the nurse to have a look. They don't want to drain it so looks like I will have to live with it for a while and see if it reabsorbs. It's very uncomfortable as it rubs under my arm when I'm walking. Other than that all looks ok after the surgery. I didn't have any dressings on afterwards so have had little choice but to look! Will have big scar on my back but it will fade in time. Won't know how the two boobs compare until after it has settled and i've seen the effects of the rads. Hope all goes well with the results on Monday Lovewine and I hope you are happy with the outcome of the surgery once settled. You too Joan.
Gosh what a lot of nails going. I don't feel in the clear with that then. Mine look like I'm smoking 20 a day but no signs on coming off yet. Will reapply nail varnish today and ignore them.
Rosie - good luck today. Hope you have a lovely weekend and a happy birthday. Glad to hear that your dad has stabilised.
TLJ - I hope your son settles well. I'm glad you feel your fitness levels are recovering. I am desperate to get back to more activity. I have walked almost every day throughout all this which has helped enormously. I was quite pleased that I walked my daughter to school and then did a bit further 48 hours after surgery! Looking forward to the 12 week point though when I can start doing more.
Wildpurl - your energy levels seem impressive as always! How long after surgery did you get back to pilates?
Have a good day everyone.
Thank you for all the good wishes for my op yesterday. It all seemed to go as well as could be expected. I didn't even have to wait very long as I was moved up the list. The surgeon said it went well and she seemed pleased with her handiwork which is encouraging! I stayed in hospital last night but was home by lunchtime today. It's pretty sore - a lot more so than the last op but under control so far. The scar is on my side and back and quite long but the breast is untouched.
Joan - sorry to hear about your picc line troubles but pleased that your oncologist meeting went well and you have stopped worrying so much.
Lovewine - sorry to hear about your son. I have some (very recent) experience of someone very close to me suffering from clinical depression and cutting their meds. It is extremely hard to deal with and very confusing and worrying. It's difficult to know how to help and be understanding whilst trying not to get dragged down yourself.
Blackrock sands - that reminds me of my childhood. I have memories of being in the family Ford Zephyr and driving the car on to the beach. I'd love to go back and see how it compares to my memories!
Jos good luck for tomorrow, the plastic surgeons can do amazing things hope you're pleased with the outcome and discomfort is minimal.
As for the other stuff, what rotten timing, at least it wasnt acrimonious and if it feels right maybe you can get things back on track some time in the future .
Joan your picc removal sounds pretty horrid reminds me of my drain removal post mastectomy, district nurse didnt devac bottle properly so developed into a tug of war session very unpleasant. At least its done now
Hope your husband liked his surprise camel wish I'd got one but they're probably only available for big birthdays I suspect it was a delicious cake though !
Rosie I would be going totally stir crazy not driving for 2 months though you've probably been so sore you've not been tempted hopefully things will improve for you soon and you can do more without any discomfort Ive had all kinds of issues with my left arm and chest muscle since my ANC surgery my recon often feels tight like its been strapped onto my chest so I have some understanding of what you're feeling just now
Wildpurl your holiday sounds good but a little too energetic for me at the moment and you are so organised planning menus etc they do say the key to everything is preparation so I am sure you'll all have a great time.
I am keen to get next treatment done now although I am only just starting to feel SE free from last one, just want to reach point where I dont have to go back again for more poisoning and the SEs will go for good, soooo fed up of the yukky mouth and sleeplessness.
Lovewine sounds like you're getting your strength back now and starting to do some nice things again will you be getting back to work soon I think you have your own business?
Apologies to those Ive missed need to post this before it disappears into cyberspace.
Good morning all.
Hello Tulamo and a belated Happy Birthday. I'm glad you had a nice meal out. How old is your son? Pleased to hear that the vegetable based dye worked. I'm still at the fuzzy stage at the moment so still wearing my wig when out but looking forward to the day when I feel comfortable without.
Wildpurl - Snowdonia sounds great. Glad you're enjoying other days out too.
Lovewine - the day with your son sounds lovely. I always like the idea of picking up bric a brac/charity shop bargains but I never quite get around to looking!
Rosie - sorry to hear your dad isn't well and i hope there is a diagnosis soon so that you know what you are dealing with. It sounds like you had such a long and difficult day last week - it just goes on and on doesn't it. I hope the discomfort eases up soon.
Cassie - sounds like you are doing well being back at work full time. I am inspecting my eyes every day for signs of little lashes but nothing much happening. I managed to hold on to my eyebrows. They have thinned but they were quite thick to begin with so look ok.
I still have my very large seroma but that will get drained off during tomorrow's surgery. The shooting nerve pain in my arm has subsided a bit. The GP gave me a low dose of amitriptyline - not sure if that helped the pain but I have certainly been sleeping better!
So, second surgery tomorrow. Feeling nervous and rather low. Not helped by ongoing relationship/friendship issues. Ridiculously bad timing. I'm expecting to be in hospital overnight so will catch up with you all later this week.