Havent been posting as sooooo tired since chemo last week. The steroids hit me hard this time found myself cleaning thr oven at 1.30 am! Barely slept for 5 nights then when finally did feltmeven worse just can't win sometimes.
Chemo went much better than usual it was actually well organised and I was on my way home in less than 4 hours usually there at least seven.
Still finding tax better than fec re side effects and not as low emotionally thus far. My mouth is awful though tongue feels scalded and usual horrible taste.
On happy note booked holiday for November at center parcs in Cumbria and can't wait we've not had a break since June last year.
Just collected our new hardwood driveway gates we've had on order for weeks, eyewatering price but a no brainer for our little boy's safety.
Rosie hope you had a lovely bitthday weekend we went to Kyrenia four years ago it is a lovely spot. Sorry your expanders are still so uncomfortable we are just expected to get on with the problems I havent been comfortable since surgery in April am hoping once chemo out of system body can get on with repairing damage from surgery. You had so much treatment so quickly your body's probably still trying to catch up !!
Wildpurl not long til your holiday hope its even better than you anticipate.
Lovewine great news re surgery results, hope things improve for your son I was married for a very short time to someone with depression he had other issues too they couldnt sort with drugs (like being a complete a**e) it was a long time ago but al my family were beside themselves not knowing if or how to help. When I needed them they were there for me which I eally appreciated . Affairs of the heart are so complicated I am grateful my sons issues are simpler, like not wanting spaghetti for tea.
Jos hope your last week with your sister is good I really feel for you.
Rolicarpit you sorted out your admin people they are the most powerful people in my organisation and call all the shots hope work goes ok I never want to go back at all but will have no choice.
Joan hope you are ok and feeling better now you've had time to digest results
Have to go now son wants to watch tractors on my computer !!
It sounds like you've all been having good weekends. Nice to hear from you Rolicarpit and good luck with going back to work.
I think the time has come for me to have a little break from the board too. My sister leaves this week and I will be back at work in a couple of weeks and I feel like I need to spend a bit less time online with cancer-related things as I get back to my routine and find my "new normal". I still have rads to come of course but I do have a bit of a break first.
All you amazing ladies have been so wonderfully supportive and it's been a pleasure getting to know you and sharing our journeys. Wishing you all the best for the coming weeks. I will pop in from time to time to say hi and see how you are all doing but for the moment I won't be around for a while.
Love and virtual hugs.
Hi rollicarpit,good luck for tomorrow starting back at work!:). I have a meeting with mine 1st Oct. The only side effect I have found with the tamoxifen is the hot flushes in the evening but got used to them & they where worse during chemo so can cope with that. Also seem to have a dry cough but don't know if that's to do with the tablets or not! Good that its cured your headache though! Xxx
Sounds like you have had a nice time wildpurl & hope you managed to rest!
Hope you have perked up a bit love wine? It does get a bit much doesn't it. I call the hospital my 2nd home now! In 28 years the only time I had been there was to have my little girl. Now we're all part of the furniture! I haven't found any side effects at all with the herceptin & the radio has been a breeze. Just irritated the healing process a little. Its all the traveling & childcare that's the worst part of it for me.
Garden looking lovely after nearly 5 years! Still a lot to do but feel better now the ball is rolling. We went out blackberry & sloe picking afterwards.
Some people where meantioning wigs. I wore mine last wkend as I was a bridesmaid & it will prob be the last time as I went commando 2 weeks ago. Hair is very fluffy & about 1cm long! Still not much in the way of lashes & brows:( xxx
Thank you all for your well wishes,concerns & encouragement as always! Sounds like you are all doing nice things & eating lovely food. Every time I have just a cup of tea I think how nice it is to enjoy it with no sore mouth etc!
I had a couple of 'melt down moments' when I finished chemo - getting myself worked up over things that are silly so I think hubby just wanted me to take a step back from it all.
The holiday was great thank you love wine!:). I was a little disappointed when we turned up - the caravan & site was a bit rough! But I was off to radio every day by 8.15am & then we would be out all day doing lots & my little girl loved every minute so if she's happy we're happy!
Yep last radio tomorrow!!:). Herceptin no'6 on wed. This year is going a lot quicker than I thought it would!
Off to get soil & a couple climbing plants as spent the whole day tidying the garden yesterday. Have a big raised flower bed to fill when the time is right. Hope you all have a good day xxx
Less on the grumpy step tonight!
I saw the nurse about my seroma. They want to wait and see if it goes away in a few weeks. They would rather not aspirate unless it gets worse. The nurse took time to explain things and talk about other concerns so it was a worthwhile visit. The counselling session was helpful and then I spent the afternoon in the pub for a colleague's leaving do! Just what I needed and it was nice to see everyone prior to my return to work - it will make it easier.
I hope you all sleep well and have good weekends. I am going to spend the time doing some nice things with my sister as she'll be leaving soon.
Hello all! Sorry I haven't been on since last chemo. Hubby didn't think it was healthy for me & wants me to move on now that the worst is over. Have my last radio on Mon 15th!!:). Hope you are all doing well. I will scan over the last few posts & see what you have all been up to xxx
I am definitely on the grumpy step this morning.
Lovewine - I totally understand what you are saying about the delayed reaction. I can't quite believe what has happened this year when I look back and it feels overwhelming. Meet wonderful new partner, get diagnosed with cancer two months later, embark on treatment, partner amazingly supportive, partner gets ill (you can probably put two and two together following my previous comments about "someone very close" and depression), partner becomes ex-partner, treatment rumbles on. It seems neverending and yet the thought of going back to work, Tamoxifen, radiotherapy all still to come..... I can't even imagine the point where I put all this behind me and just get on with life and even then it's not going to be the life I was imagining for myself earlier this year. I have an appointment with my counsellor today thank goodness - maybe she can help me get some perspective.
To add to it (sorry for the rant!) my seroma has reappeared. Having thought I'd seen the last of hospital for a few weeks I have to go in this morning for the nurse to have a look. They don't want to drain it so looks like I will have to live with it for a while and see if it reabsorbs. It's very uncomfortable as it rubs under my arm when I'm walking. Other than that all looks ok after the surgery. I didn't have any dressings on afterwards so have had little choice but to look! Will have big scar on my back but it will fade in time. Won't know how the two boobs compare until after it has settled and i've seen the effects of the rads. Hope all goes well with the results on Monday Lovewine and I hope you are happy with the outcome of the surgery once settled. You too Joan.
Gosh what a lot of nails going. I don't feel in the clear with that then. Mine look like I'm smoking 20 a day but no signs on coming off yet. Will reapply nail varnish today and ignore them.
Rosie - good luck today. Hope you have a lovely weekend and a happy birthday. Glad to hear that your dad has stabilised.
TLJ - I hope your son settles well. I'm glad you feel your fitness levels are recovering. I am desperate to get back to more activity. I have walked almost every day throughout all this which has helped enormously. I was quite pleased that I walked my daughter to school and then did a bit further 48 hours after surgery! Looking forward to the 12 week point though when I can start doing more.
Wildpurl - your energy levels seem impressive as always! How long after surgery did you get back to pilates?
Have a good day everyone.