Bit of a meltdown this morning. First off, managed to boil the Xmas pudding dry, then the i-pad decided it didn't have an internet connection, although no problems with other devices. Minor problems in the overall scheme of things, but at the moment it seems it's not taking much to knock me off balance. I'm also getting really screwed up about a couple of work-related events I'm going to this week when I shall be meeting new people and people I haven' t met since diagnosis. And although my prothesis was supposed to come last Wednesday it hasn't, so I'm worrying about what to wear which is neither too baggy nor too fitting. I think that's all tieing in to my anxieties about getting back into work.
Moan over. On to what I had planned to do today, respond to some of the posts over the last few days.
Lovewine, your dad is certainly having a rough time, and what a worry all the uncertainty must be for you and your family. I'm sorry that you are having such bad side effects, I would think if you didn't have neuropathy when you were having chemo it is more likely the result of Herceptin. Have you spoken to the medics about it? Good news about ytour husband's diagnosis, although with 6 gall stones it's no wonder he was in pain. With all those worries on your plate (and the ongoing anxieties about your son) you deserve all the Tassimos you can drink.
Rosie, glad you managed to speak to your dad, even if only for a very short time, and that your son and family were able to visit him, I can understand that the anxieties about him, on top of being so far away from the family over the past very difficult months will have raised all sorts of questions in your mind about your future in Cyprus. Can you try and put it on the back burner for a while, at least until you are through with radiotherapy and not having to face that exhausting journey?
Wildpurl, glad you managed to get your gardening done. I was quite pleased with my efforts in that direction on sunday, managed to get the last of the bulbs in and tidied up the worst of the dead bits. But then in the afternoon fell asleep on the sofa! Hope you enjoy your conference and that the chaos wasn't as bad as you feared. I can understand that the uncertain situation at work is destabilising, but it does sound as if there are some opportunities for you and you have some useful contacts.
Cassie, your nephew's graduation ceremony sounds wonderful, and Gloucester is such a lovely cathedral. I don't think we were offered champagne at either of our daughters graduations! It must have been such a poignant moment for all of you.
TiJ, glad all went well with the port removal. I don't think it's surprising that you still felt like a patient. But I guess that feeling will fade as we all resume more of our normal activities. and it certainly sounds as if you have plenty to keep you busy.
Hope everyone else is having a good day.
I am not finding much time these days to contribute to the thread what with work being so busy. Yesterday I went to my nephews graduation ceremony at Gloucester Cathedral it was so lovely to see all the graduates receive their degrees and prizes the sun came out too such a perfect day. We had canapés and champagne in the cathedral then I took my nephew and his partner and my younger daughter for lunch in the Quay area, it was just perfect. My nephew bless him does not have any parents he lost his mum when he was just 17 and then his dad, my older brother when he was 24, it brings a lump to my throat just typing it, I cannot imagine how hard things must have been for him.
Rosie the end of your RT is now in sight, what a relief that will be with all the travelling involved.
Wildpurl your ceremony at the Southbank sounds very prestigious I am glad you managed to meet up with some old and new colleagues, it sounds as if you have been having a busy but nice time.
Tij Glad things went smoothly with the port removal, very brave cycling I could not do it in London!
Lovewine I hope your dad is getting better and able to return home soon.
I took the plunge and had my remaining pre chemo hair cut off today, it had served it purpose, but the Ken Dodd wispy look first thing in the morning had to go lol.
LOL you guys and your Tassimos! The hot chocolate ones do sound rather lovely though.
My eyelashes haven't fallen out so I think I have got away with tinting them! Today I have been to the gym, done laundry and housework and am working on a sweater I am knitting. I am still quite tired so planning a peaceful evening. Tomorrow, weather permitting, I hope to spend some time in the garden.
I don't feel like a cancer patient most of the time now, but occasionally I realise I don't feel as strong or as confident about something as I used to, and I also sometimes think it is not good to rush back to normal, and that I should be more aware of my situation and of how things have changed. After reading the article Lovewine posted I thought I was probably in rehabilitation now; before all the upheaval at work I was fairly settled back into my job with my reduced hours and happy that was the right thing for me. The changes have interrupted that a bit, and now I do feel quite lost and uncertain about what I would like to do and where I will end up.
Lovewine, I hope that your Satuday has not been too stressful with all the driving. Glad to hear your Dad is being allowed home.
Tlj, the port removal seems to have been very straighforward, which is great!
Rosie you are in limbo at the moment, going through radiotherapy but you know it's not for ever, waiting to be able to start Herceptin, but you don't know when; it must be very difficult for you to plan for returning to work or other aspects of normal life, plus you have the uncertainy about your Dad. I'm not surprised you are feeling that you don't know what is going on or what will happen. I think you might feel better once the rads are finished, as they take up so much of your time that you must find it difficult to fit anything else in.
Have you thought about what you want to do with respect to your involvement in the school once you have more time and are feeling well enough? My work had an Occupational Health expert call me before I went back to work after surgery and again when I was having chemo. She tlaked about how I was feeling and what my options were and proposed a phased return to work to build up my stamina. Maybe it would help you to think about those things and make a next steps plan?