my GP did the prescription for me. Not the Hospital radiographer or my oncologist.
The chemist did find it on their list of items that can be obtained by prescription.
I would go to your GP , fill in a repeat prescription form ( this is what I did) and then told the receptionist that it wasn’t a repeat prescription but a new one. Then I told her that I was due to start radiotherapy.
I left it at that and she said she would ask my GP on my behalf.
Anyway, it was approved.
Worth a try.
Update on my massage.
I was booked in at my regular salon ( where they use gorgeous Elemis products) but they were not happy about delivering a full body massage as I am still going through treatment as far as they are concerned.
So the lovely therapist gave me a hydrating facial and foot massage.
They also said that when cancer treatment ends they want a doctors letter stating that it’s ok for me to have massage treatments .
They were very apologetic about the misunderstanding but I am ok with what they offered me instead as it was very relaxing.
Implausible and Nettienoo, glad you both agree with me! Infact, after I had my weekly line flush I would sometimes go for a McDonalds afterwards and would tell the chemo nurses that was what I going to do! (I seemed to have a bit of a craving for them, not sure why because I rarely eat it normally) They always said if that's what you fancy, have it! They just seemed to be pleased I was eating and no-one said I don't think you should because of the possible weight gain.
As regards deodorant I had a little experiment going on because I was told not to use it on the side I was having rads-I think that side must have been affected because I didn't seem to sweat more or be smellier on the side I didn't use it! My rads onc told me I wasn't allowed to use it all last Summer even after I'd finished having radiotherapy. He told me I'd have other Summers to wear deodorant xx
Afternoon all, just an update on my progress today. Managed to see a GP who was an Honorary trainee whatever that might mean. Anyway he was very nice but didnt have answers to any of my questions and had to make various phone calls. He thinks my pain in abdo is chemo related and the rib pain is due to the fact that cartilage heals quicker than bone, or vice versa, cant remember and should start to settle down in a few more weeks. Ditto with the other abdo pain and checked whether I could start on probiotics which I can. Whilst looking at my records he found a letter from the oncologist saying that I should be prescribed Anastrazole after chemo so he's queried that but still waiting for an answer. I told him I would really like to get rads out of the way before taking on another load of potential side effects. Asked about the Watergel R1/R2 system and he couldn't find it on his prescription list so that was a no. Also told him I am being driven mad with itching and we decided I should start taking the antihistamines again so got him to presribe that at least. Ended up in floods of tears because he was being nice and caring towards me. My appointment lasted 45 minutes and I did keep apologising but just kept breaking down. Sarah I think if I had to go back twice in one day for rads I would be in tears so well done for just getting on with it. So now I have to decide whether to order the watergel system and pay for it myself or trust the Aveeno as Ive just bought loads of it. When you apply do you do it straight after zapping and then at night or do you wait until you get home? The disadvantage of the watergel system that I can see is that I have a large area to cover and the sachets might not be big enough and then I will have to buy another set. Oooh dont know what to do. Cant bear the thought of another load of blisters and sores to deal with.
On the sweaty armpit question I dont think I am sweating so much but saying that I am sweating everywhere else so who knows. Now do you apply your cream before or after deodorant or crystal rock in my case? Too many questions...
Hope everyone is ok x
PS loving the hair pics Sonia and Seaside. I had mine cut last week and it doesnt look too bad but it is still falling out but regrowing as well. Im sure there are natural colours you can use but cant remember what
Been quiet again as I felt rotten this morning - could not get off to sleep and was so wide awake that I didn’t want to take a sleeping tablet as they don’t seem to work unless I’m a bit drowsy to start with. So I was awake until the early hours and then when I got off it was only for a few hours and I woke up feeling sick! None of that nonsense during chemo! So I was then off and on from about 4.30 onwards, including going to the loo and changing beds! The stomach ache moved downwards after a while and then eventually I thought I’d better get up and all I’ve had is a cup of tea and a chocolate bar. Getting quite hungry now. Not exactly how I wanted to spend my last day before back to work!
On the sweaty stakes you know I’ve not been a dry person!! 🥵 my armpit on the good side has been a bit whiffy, all I can smell on the bad side is the dressings! I tried to pluck a few hairs out the other day as when I pulled the outer dressings off I had some quite long ones hiding underneath! My hair seems to be growing back everywhere except my eyelashes. My eyebrows look a little odd, it’s like the hair is dark and thick at the end and thinner and lighter at the root. But I don’t think I have any less of them still.
So I’m going to find something to eat now that doesn’t mess up my dinner and then wash my hair. I have to sleep tonight or I will be totally wiped out for work and oncologist appointment tomorrow.
Hope everyone is having a lovely day xx
Seaside Sar, looks like our posts overlapped.
love the hair, I had mine cut 2 weeks ago, I’m having a colour problem too, my hair dressers going to look into a natural colouring xx
I started writing this yesterday and found it on the lap top today, so I will continue
Susie, I could have written this as i feel exactly the same.
"As for the chat about dealing with and reacting to our diagnosis I sometimes wonder if I'm still in shock from the diagnosis and don't quite comprehend that all this treatment is actually happening to me. Weird or what?"
I feel like I am going through the motions but not digesting whats happening.
I love your elephant top. Oh the rosy cheeks I remember those well. Enjoy Dibley's stay.
Rosina, enjoy your massage, I have booked in for one next Wednesday as part of the BC centre.
MJB, I hope you enjoyed your coffee, it must be lovely to have your daughter home for the summer.xx
Trixielady, thanks for think of me today, hope you are keeping well.
Implausible, What a palaver. Hope the rest of your day has gone more smoothly. I asked this morning about when I would start the hormones, she didn't have a clue, so will ask my oncologist, and hopefully I will see him in the next 2 weeks at one of the med reviews. I am having Goserelin (zoladex) a pellet under the skin monthly, and Exemestane (Aromasin) in tablet form. The Dr did review my skin, which they didn't at the skin review just asked was I using cream and did I have any sore skin.
I will have to starve myself at this rate to loose weight i really want to loose weight before both of the operations.
Marilyn, no wonder your fatigued, at least your herceptin nurse is realistic, the dr I saw today said i should get tired. Really !!!
Re being braver. I never needed a wig, so can't relate 100% to that, but I take my boob (prosthetic) off daily, but wouldn't dream of answering the door or leaving the house, but I have started to answer the door now, and not one person has batted an eyelid. I kind of think this is me now, hopefully not forever, but for now.
Daisydi, I hope your not in pain today and the chest pains have decreased. xx
Nettinoo, I hope that temperature has stayed down xx
Rads went okay today, 6 down 9 to go, no redness yet, sightly stiff shoulder today, but think that's the way I slept, but will do extra exercises. weather is changing for the worse just as the kids break up tomorrow what joy. Hopefully the sun will come back or at least it stays dry to enjoying doing stuff outside.
Hope everyone else has had a good day. xx
Hello lovely ladies,
I am officially 6 weeks post chemo today so I celebrated by having my first haircut. The colour is a disaster so I will be wearing some headgear until I can even it out.
Just at the hospital having my Herceptin injection. Appointment was at 3pm and it's now 3.50pm....still waiting.
OK, 4.10 and it's done now. Not as painful as last time because they were so busy that by the time they got round to injecting me, it had come to room temperature. Yay.
Rads this morning was interesting. After my usual zapping I had to lie still for a further 10 minutes while they measured me up for the booster which will happen during the last week. They basically attached a metal device with several long rods to the normal machine. This then rested against my scar so it can deliver an intense boost to the area where the tumour was. They then had to trace the exact position of the device and take photographs. I got myself a nice physics lesson while they were doing all this.
Now for a catch up with you lot.
Nettie, I'm glad your temp came down. Must have been a worry. Hope you're feeling OK now.
Cor blimey, what a palaver with your rads today, Sarah. Much as it would have been amazing to see you in MK, I wouldn't have wished that journey on you. Glad it got sorted in the end.
Sonia, hope your zapping went well and your meds review. What was that in the end?
MBJ, hope you enjoyed your haircut. Nice to do something normal, isn't it?
Marlyn, werewolf hair...that made me chuckle! Hope the Herceptin went well for you today. Are you having injections too?
Rosina, you're a busy lady! Massage sounds good though. Good luck with the hike tomorrow.
Susie, hope you get some sleep tonight. Lovely pic of Dibley 😊
Trixielady, how are you feeling lovely? How many Herceptins have you had now?
Hope everyone else is OK today.
I'm continuing my 6 week post chemo celebrations with a Chinese takeaway tonight.
Love to all.
Rosina, growing blueberries in the ground? Guess you've got acid soil as they don't like clay. I'll have one geolous hubby if you have acid soil. On the underarm sweating I must admit I haven't noticed anything embarrassing with my post operation left arm which isn't getting the full deodorant treatment. May experiment but maybe not until my sister- in-laws visit on Sunday. Body massage sounds great. You deserve it. xx
Marlyn, what a lovely nurse full of so much positivity - not - .On the weight loss front it's fine to lose just a little at a time. Remember small steps. xxx
Firstly a huge THANK YOU for all your replies to yesterdays news. I think I'm fairly well stocked up on just about everything to either stave off or treat some of the possible side effects of CT, notably the T☹☹😵. Taken both lots of steroids for today so will wait and see how sleep pettern goes tonight. Also looking forward to red rosy cheeks which I'd forgotten about🤡.
MBJ, Marlyn I'll be having 4 rounds of CT at 3 weekly intervals, so long as my body behaves itself as it did with FEC🤞. As for the chemo bus is that the one that keeps going round and round the North Circular route? You never really know when you're going to reach your destination on each trip round🤔🤔. Good news on the boob front Marlyn. Scans are going to be the pits though, putting us through all that stress, etc beforehand and waiting for results, but they are there to help us. At least that's what I keep telling myself.
Edinbird thanks for the offer of support now that I finally have a definite diagnosis. I haven't read too much about triple neg, nor HER2 pos to be honest, as I couldn't see the point until I knew for sure which way things would go. Hope your sore arm gets better soon. As I mentioned before I gave up wearing a bra at night and I seem to be fine. Gone more tha a week now without growing a tennis ball🎾, just a bit swollen and lumpy.
Rosina, what on earth was wrong with your original quote that I can't repeat, especially after what Implausible got away with the other day😅😅😶😶.
Daisydi, Seaside Sar, Trixielady, sonia28, Implausible and Nettienoo, thanks for you comments and kind words. The nervous adrenaline rush did tire me in the end but I managed a good night's sleep so Billy bonus😴😴😴😴😴. The wine and pizza were yummy. Wonder when they'll next taste as good🤔🤔🤔? Glad your temp came back down Nettienoo. Guess I'll be back to checking mine from Saturday🌡. Hope today's zapping goes ok sonia.
MJB congrats on getting a haircut. Even though I only had a bit of a tidy up the other day it felt good to be doing something close to normal. Hate the new grey and white hair though🦍🦍🐨🐇🐇🐺🐱.
Implausible what a pain in the 🐎 It's supposed to be an a s s. Hope they soon get the rads machine working properly.
OK, this is what I found yesterday had to buy it.
That's enough of me waffling for now. I'll see if anyone's been writing while I've doing this post.
Take care Susie B xxxxx
Hi, no sweaty underarms on this end either.
I use a lemony solid deodorant bar under ( from Lush) the good armpit and the other side gets a rub on the top end of my arm ( not arm pit it’s still sensitive in there ) or I just spritz on my Clarins splash .
Picked up my R1/R2 system from the chemist today so ready for Monday.
Implausible your day sounds very frustrating.
I am going into school tomorrow morning. Then it’s up to Windsor tomorrow afternoon with my friend Liz ready for tomorrow’s hiking .
Booked in for a full body massage in a hour’s time because I feel that I deserve it.
I have heard the same about anastrazole (sp?) that it makes losing weight super difficult. I don't yet know if I'm going to be on that one or the other one (letrazole?), but from what I understand, they both make you tend towards "pudginess" in the same way that being on the pill used to until they brought in the mini pill....
I'm determined that I will try to lose the bulk of my recent gain before they put me on those hormone treatments, and then it will be a battle to maintain rather than an even harder battle to lose. That's the plan anyway! Fingers crossed.
I think I'm seeing my onc again 2 weeks after the end of rads, so I assume that's when he will want me to start the hormone meds, so that gives me - let's work this out - 3.5 weeks to lose 2 stone. Hmmmm. Might be a bit of a squeeze!!!
what a nuisance having to go back twice in one day, this happened to me on my last one....that will knacker you out!
My herceptin nurse said no wonder I'm fatigued....chemo will apparently take around 6 months to leave my system, then rads will linger...now she says herceptin makes you tired! Oh blimey...
on a positive note i have managed to loose 2 pound...ok...it's taken 3 weeks and I seem to be virtually starving myself but it's going in the right direction...on a parting note the nurse said....oh your on anastrozole aren't you..that will make you gain! She was certainly full of the joys today!
Looks like I might have made the trip to Oxford this morning for nothing, as their rads machine is broken and they are waiting for the engineer to turn up.
He won't be here for another half an hour and they don't know if he will be able to fix it in a timely manner, so they might end up sending me home and tagging another day on the end of my schedule. Which will be a pain in the butt! Never mind, these things happen...
At least it gives me some time to catch up with you lovely lot....
MBJ - great that your family are reunited now for the summer months. I don't even like the fact that my middle son lives up near Liverpool as that is so far away, let alone a different country/continent!
And yes, I've always believed the same as what you've been told at SW - weight loss happens in the kitchen, not at the gym. It's definitely more about the inward calories. But I really find that I need both....as the exercise keeps me honest with my food. If I've sweated away at the gym for an hour, I am damned if I'm going to negate all that hard work by having a doughnut!!
When I go back to the gym for good in November, I'm going to treat myself to 5 personal trainer sessions with the PT who specialises in post illness / treatment rehabilitation. I don't want to push myself too hard but I also don't want to not push myself hard enough. I can't wait to get back to a decent level of fitness.
Talking of sweating, here's an odd question (especially as I know a lot of you are having hot flushes). Is anyone else sweating less since chemo? I've discovered that I don't need to use deodorant any more. My armpits just don't seem to sweat or smell any more. It's very weird.
(Or maybe I do still stink but chemo has ruined my sense of smell )
Trixielady, yup still getting chauffeured to Oxford and back every day. I feel really bad for my lovely driver today. I told her I was going to be "in and out" as I have no other treatments today. But then of course I found out that the machine is broken! She is going to have a long wait
As for wig off moments (or in my case cap off moments as I haven't bothered with a wig).... I seem to have reached the "who cares" stage and I am braver about it now. But just a few weeks ago I was taking the bins out on bin night and someone I half know walked past and said hi, and looked at me a little oddly, then I realised I didn't have my hat on after they had walked on. I was mortified! Especially as I don't think they knew that I was going through cancer treatment. Oh well, they know now!
Oops re the car bump! Glad there was no damage! Good luck with your return to work interview. Must be quite daunting after such a long break. I had 14 months off about 12 years ago after being made redundant (through choice, I had a big payout and decided it would be nice to have some time off), and going back to work after that was a little scary at first. Although I soon settled back in, as will you I'm sure.
Rosina. Your "how is this happening to ME???" moment was very relatable! I never thought for a second that I would ever get breast cancer. No family history. And although a bit pudgy I've always been fairly fit. Never smoked, barely touched alcohol, veggie since I was 15, breast fed my kids. All the stuff they reckon will keep the beast at bay..... I always figured I would drop dead one day of a stroke like my mum did. She was in her 80s by then, mind. And my dad lived to 92, all my aunts and uncles lived well into their 80s or 90s. My great aunt lived to 108! I thought I had all the time in the world....
I remember after I told my kids about the diagnosis, my youngest (who is 17 today!) said "but mum it isn't FAIR, you are so nice to everyone, you don't deserve this " and my response was "too right!!! There are some right b*itches out there, and I'm a f*cking SAINT!!" - which I mainly said to make him laugh and lighten the situation (he rarely hears me swear!). But deep down I meant it! Why me???? Give it to someone who deserves it instead..... :/
I've got past that since. To be honest I now genuinely think I'm lucky (if the "cure" sticks, anyway). That thing up there about believing I had all the time in the world.... I don't think that any more. And that means instead of thinking "I'll do X or visit Y 'one day' ", I now think sod "one day", I'll do it next year! And my whole attitude to life has changed, for the better. I no longer "stress the small stuff". In fact when I hear someone getting wound up over something petty, I want to shake their shoulders and shout "it doesn't MATTER!!!". Life isn't about work, or money, or possessions, or whether or not Shirley from work nicked your tea mug. It's about making happy memories with the people you love, and travelling, and looking at beautiful art, and stopping to smell the flowers.....
I love this:
"You have been stony for too many years.
Try something different."
Thanks for sharing
Update... engineer has arrived..... fixed the machine in under a minute I'm up in about 10 minutes
Daisydi, hopefully if you get yourself a looser bra it should sort out those pains? Let us know how it goes....
MBJ, hooray for the digger! When my sons were younger they would have been so excited to see something like that in the garden they would have fainted with glee!
Hope you didn't get too cold overnight out there chained to it
Looking forward to see your garden transformation pics
Jencat 100 percent agree. I think the lady on the other post must have got her wires crossed.
Update 2 ....
Well, they fixed it. Ot thought they did.
Then they got half way through my treatment and it broke again!
They apparently can't leave me "half zapped" so now, if they can't fix it, I'm going to have to go to either Windsor or Milton Keynes to get the rest done! I might see Seaside Sar!!!
Susie - such great news that your scan was all clear!! And you now know where you stand with triple negative status and future treatment plans. No further surgery is a big bonus too We will all be cheering you through your next lot of chemo. Hope you enjoyed your celebratory shopping trip and pizza and booze
Update 3 ..... apparently the head radiologist says that the second half of my dose can wait till tomorrow morning. So I have to go to oxford, get the second half of today's zap, then come home, then go BACK to Oxford in the afternoon to get tomorrow's dose.
What a pain in the butt! Heading home now.
Where was I?
Rosina, I can't believe that the mods objected to "may the force...." etc. Perhaps they are more into Star Trek than Star Wars
Nettie just reading your post about your temp spike gave me trauma flashbacks! As you know I did the exact same thing (staying at home with a high temp when I probably should have gone to hospital!), and I did indeed get a big telling off from the onco nurse but after my previous horrid hospital experience I just couldn't bring myself to head back there! Glad your temp came down fairly swiftly, so you could relax again.
Sonia I hope your zapping today was a lot more successful than mine
MBJ how cool is it that you now have enough hair that it requires a trim!!
Marlyn - how spooky!!! I started typing this post at quarter past 9 this morning. Just checked again and you've posted about the lack of underarm sweat too
Am now home, shattered after all the palaver and late for work. Need to wake up before 8pm tonight as I'm off to the cinema for an anniversary showing of Jaws! 🦈
Love to all x
Hope your feeling much better this morning, its strange the day they stopped my chemo it happened to me but like you I'd give up stressing and just took someone paracetamol and rested think id had very few headaches over the last year until that point, good luck for the remainder of your chemo xx
mjb.....oh the neck hair! Only just this morning I have noticed how thick and curly mine is....it's gone nuts....just worried it will continue to grow downwards, I'll be like a wear wolf!
netti....well done in keeping yourself out of hospital love...a bit wiser now aren't we, although I still obsess over my thermometer....and blood pressure machine.....lol
saw surgeon yesterday, she had a good feel of both breasts ( relieved she didn't find owt) see her again in jan after my first mammogram......what a worry that will be!!!!
off to get me herceptin.....good luck to all those having rads today.....( incidentally....rads have destroyed my sweat glands under my right arm.....suppose it will save money on deodorant)
i love you all xxxxx
Good Morning Girlies
Yes experience is a wonderful thing Nettienoo thank goodness it was nothing serious.
Well I am sitting in the hairdresser's for the first time waiting to have my neck hair trimmed, don't need anything else trimmed that's for sure, but I have been to Slimming World now with my new hair and everyone said it looked lovely (well they would I suppose) but it's cooler and I have gone past caring to be honest. From here going to go for coffee with my daughter.
Have a good day girls xx
Nettinoo glad to hear you are feeling better.
Good Luck with the zapping Sonia28.
Susie, great news on the clear CT scan, I hope you enjoyed celebrating, we are al here for you during your chemo journey 💕
Im glad your temp came down, it just shows how we have al grown through this journey, but it must have been worrying for you, fingers crossed 🤞 that’s the last scare you have before you feel
your in the safe zone xx
will pop pop back later just going for today’s zapping session, with meds review with whatever that involves xx
Bit of an anxious evening yesterday. One week post final chemo and my temp suddenly started to shoot up and I had quite a bad headache. I had visions of the tedious journey to A&E for assessment and hours waiting to see if I was going to be admitted.
I decided to not panic but wait and see what happened for the next couple of hours before calling for advice. So happy I did because it eventually started to drop again and when it got to a less worrying level, I took paracetamol. It’s 36.2 this morning.
We’ve all come a long way since those early days of ringing straightaway. I’m seeing the Onco Nurse Specialist today and she will tell me off I’m sure. The way I look at it is, if I go to A&E unnecessarily, I am going to open myself to even more chance of infection. I reckon if I can get through the next 2 weeks without getting admitted I will finally be able to breathe again and will begin to feel that chemo is done and dusted. 🤒🙄 xx
Pleased your scan results are good, and best wishes for chemo onwards and upwards stay positive and keep fighting xx
Thanks for the update. So glad the CT scan was clear and that you now know what you're dealing with at least. Hope you enjoyed the wine and pizza. Now we're all gearing up with you for the next step. You can do it 💪
SusieB, thanks for update darling. Pizza and wine sounds like a perfect way to celebrate those CT scan results. I bet you were exhausted this evening with all that nervous Adrenalin rushing around your body all day. Barry’s babes are with you every step of the way. Xxxx
Glad you now know the full story Susie and no more surgery! That's a bonus. Good luck with your chemo x Hope you have had a good evening.
Very pleased for you Susieb.
Earlier on I said ‘May the Force Be with You’ ( without the quotation marks ‘ and the moderator didn’t like it 🤔
Hi Susie B
Great news about your scan results, and at least you know where you are now you have had the triple negative confirmed. I am sure you enjoyed the pizza and what you washed it down with. A nice treat well deserved before you get on the chemo bus again. Xx
Aw Susie I’m so glad they’re chucking everything at you then with chemo as it’s our weapon! 💣 You’re not on Facebook are you? I know I don’t always sell the groups and ours is definitely the best here 🙌🏻 But they can be helpful.
I’ve gotten used to it over the past six months but if there’s anything you want to ask here or by DM then please do xx
Had another lazy day, just heating my wheat bag in the microwave to ease my sore arm. I slept without a bra last night (as the non wired ones were in the other room and couldn’t be bothered to get one!) and it was absolutely fine. So I think I’ll try and stick to the non wired during the day or try and tighten the straps on the others! I’ve not been too sweaty today until just now, blame the wheat bag... I’m bound to get sweaty soon anyway...
So pleased you have the all clear ct scan, and well done on the pizza and wine, I think you more than deserved it! How many rounds of chemo? 4? Every 3 weeks? Well, it goes without saying love but gonna say it anyway, we're all here for you ( and each other) so get ready to board the crazy chemo bus again and here's hoping the ride isn't too bumpy.....lots of love xxxxx
Very quick update. CT scan clear☺. Bloods fine so defo start chemo again Friday☺☹. Finally established I am triple negative so that makes us two together Edinbird👭. Retail therapy huge success🛍🛍🛍😊. Full up after too much pizza🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕. Had wine to celebrate clear CT scan🍷. Now going to totally relax🛋. Start steroids tomorrow☹☹😝. Enjoy the rest of the evening. Love to you all xxx
Surely if the weight gain affecting chemo was true our onc's would have informed us and we'd have been told to be careful what we ate?! I would have hoped so anyway! x
Rosina meant to tell you that there is a post on the radiotherapy section from someone who used the R1R2 watergel system and was very impressed. Think I may see if my doc will prescribe for me x
Thanks for the good luck messages. Nice digger MJB. Bloods done. Now waiting with hubby to see oncologist. xxx
Firstly good luck Suzie B for this afternoon it must be so stressful.
Well look at the photo my digger has arrived and it's not leaving because I am going to chain myself to it overnight 😀.
good luck at the onco appointment.....totally with you ref being in shock about treatment....it still takes my breath away on some days! Me? Cancer? Chemotherapy? Bloody hell!!!! Also the first day I went wig less was so daunting! I remember the postman called...and I thought...bugger it! Your right...he didn't even glance up at me, I was thinking...go on then....look at me god damn you! Almost felt disappointed he didn't...now I don't even think about it......go on.....leave that wig on The shelf....
Just popped to read the posts and do a quick catch up.
Glad you appear to have solved the pain problem Daisydi. It's so easy to think the worst in many situations these days.
Sorry about the lack of diggers MJB☹.
Trixielady, totally with you about the hair, although I'm being very brave and sat here in my living room, wigless for the first time but also paranoid about someone coming to the door. I have my tearful moments too😭😭😭.
As for the chat about dealing with and reacting to our diagnosis I sometimes wonder if I'm still in shock from the diagnosis and don't quite comprehend that all this treatment is actually happening to me. Weird or what? On the excercise front until my diagnosis I used to go on my excercise bike and do stretching, toning and aerobic exercises (dvd at home) 2 or 3 times a week, plus some walking depending on the weather. I will get back to it after this Barrying bc treatment is over. I have started in a small way by integrating some arm and leg toning wirh my post ANC excercises.
I've got my oncologist appointment this afternoon and stress levels are definitely oh💩💩💩💩💩 what was I saying about being paranoid about someone coming to the door. Doorbell just rung and postie has a packet for my son which needed to be signed for. He didn't bat an eyelid. Must stop caring about what others think. Anyway sorry where was I? Right stress levels are definitely up as there is so much to find out. CT scan result, HER2 positive or negative, will bloods be ok, have surgery scars healed enough, etc, etc. Planning some retail therapy and a meal out afterwards at our nearest designer outlet in Street. We were going tomorrow but will be doggy sitting Dibley until Saturday instead. We knew he was staying sometime this week but hadn't firmed up on dates.
Anyway that's all for now. Will get back to you all later this evening or tomorrow and let you know how things went with onc. xxxxxxx
Daisydi, you are doing the right thing by putting your worries out here on the forum so you can get some reassurance. There is nothing worse than trying to keep them all inside. Xx
I know what you mean about the incredibility of diagnosis and all of the mixed emotions that brings.
Although I have picked up the stuff I used to before diagnosis - Soroptimists, Slimming World and Rock choir, all of these groups are dominated by women. On the whole I have fund them very beneficial to my mental well-being, but I sometimes can't help looking at all of these women in total probably over 200 and think why have I been the one out of all these to get BC. Please don't think I want it to be one of them, but sometimes I do feel a bit almost resentful that it's me. Horrible to feel that as it's no one's fault I suppose it's the anger surfacing.
Well I am still drinking my first coffee of the day so better shift and do some house work yuk.
Morning all, thanks MBJ yes it is across the bra line and when I think about it all rationally the original tumour was cut out in October with other bits and pieces cut out in November and January, bone scan and CT scan in Feb which were clear. Maybe I will go back to my sports bras for a while and see if it goes away. I am so fed up with myself for worrying about every little pain (or big pain). Need to get a grip!
yes, re. fitness I loved my swimming and my body balance classes ( mix of yoga, Pilates and Tai Chi) so on one hand I had a very good foundation to work fall back on during this bc journey, on the other hand my initial reaction was one of anger and disbelief that this could even happen to ME 🤬
In my first meeting with the Macmillan nurse I described my diagnosis as ‘bonkers’ which made her smile.
Then, after surgery came grief : what have they done to me ? And blame ( just about everything).
The exercise , the walking and the meditation have helped me become more accepting of all of this.
I also use my cards ( especially during chemotherapy) I should pull one out for today 🤗
I am also listening to Tara Brach on YouTube, I heard this first from her :
Very little grows on jagged rock.
Be ground. Be crumbled,
so wildflowers will come up
where you are.
You have been stony for too many years.
Try something different.
It makes me ‘soften’.
Off to town next, for bits and some walking.
ps 2 years ago I signed up for 3 months personal training at the gym with my daughter ( she had dropped ballet as it had got very exam oriented) and we ended up doing 6 months. We had a lovely trainer lady in her 20s who also said that diet was more important than exercise for shifting weight. My ‘junk food’ of choice is now nuts ( used to be tortilla chips) as they have lots of ‘good stuff ‘ in them.
Sorry to hear the rads Seaside Sar keeping you knackered xx
Implausible pleased you appear to be doing ok on the rads you still getting chauffeured to and from? 8 left, I bet that feels good?
Edinbird pleased your book signing went well and you didn't pass out, I actually done that on Sunday in the B&M so embarrassing!!
Hopefully i can start trying to exercise but I'm not managing to pluck up the courage to take my wig of outside although for a split second last night I found myself outside the front gate with Trixie and then panicked like hell my hubby took over, Its the first time since all this actually started that I'd actually forgotten all about it for about an hour, so ended up in floods of tears, definitely need to be braver, hopefully once the energy returns I can lose some weight xx
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Oh just had a phone call from work its nearly 10 months since I've worked so going in for an interview but saying that I dropping off a sick note for the first time the other day and reversed into the admin's car no damage done haha burst into tears xx
Good Morning Girlies
Well there are still NO diggers in my garden 👹 the building trade blinking useless.
But my family are home for the summer 😀😀 we saw them all last night.
Daisydi have you thought that the rib pain might be because of wearing a tight bra? Well if you are wearing it tight of course,because I had a pain under my unaffected side and like you I thought straight to the worst case possible. But then some level headed thinking made me realise it was on the bra band especially if like me you have gone from underwire (which are not so tight) to a firm non wired which obviously have to be tight to stop your boobs falling out the bottom 😀. Of course your pain may not be in the bra line but just have a think about that one simple reason.
Edinbird lovely photos glad you had a nice day.
Rosina your exercises sound so energetic you must have been super fit before Barrying BC.
As for weight gain I put on a stone and that's without 5 rounds of chemo (I am holding on to my one and only). I have been going to Slimming World now for 11weeks and only managed to loose 3lbs. I have lost more but keep on going up and down lose one week gain the next. I need to up my body magic (exercise). However girls in SW we are always told its the food that will get the weight off not the exercise that's for toning and general fitness. Hoping for a loss this week as I am fed up of paying, because once you are target it's free. I was target for over 4 years until BC.
I am feeling quite envious of all of you planning to go back to work. I can't believe I just wrote that! As I was sooo glad to retire. I think it's because of the normality it brings and that it fills your head with so much other stuff maybe BC can be put in its box for a bit. Good luck workers.
Well I hope everyone has a good day. My family will be here soon I am sure so better finish having breakfast. X
@Susie B wrote:
I'd better start digging aswell after putting in over 3kg too. Who allowed that to be posted anyway???
I had a good Google after reading it and can't find any basis for her claim anyway, so I wouldn't stress.
Obviously in general being less overweight is a good thing health wise all round, but I can't find anything damning about weight gain during chemo specifically.
My plan is to lose it as quick as it went on and pretend it never happened
I'd better start digging aswell after putting in over 3kg too. Who allowed that to be posted anyway???