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January 2021 Chemo Starters

Gelbel
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@Pesto / Gilly,

Sorry, I really meant to say thank you so much for helping. I thought of it as I was typing, then, chemo brain thing that I am, I forgot. x 🤗

Gelbel
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Hi everyone,  thank you all for your lovely words.

I've just been out with 2 girlfriends for an epic 4 lap walk of our local park. Ooohhhh my trotters! Do you know @Erin they said practically the same as @Shi - think of all the fun we can have with wigs and when it comes back.... they added unlike those with permanent alopecia. It's just utter pants we can't all go shopping together at the moment. Bless, they've offered to go and buy wigs for when we can go for a drink, or a bite to eat - we can all look amazing, different versions of ourselves. And one's taking me for make-up lessons at a discrete place she knows as soon as they re-open. That reminded me that my Trust's hair lady said she does virtual sessions. Think I'll book one - I need to stop me looking like a pale pink football and find some cheekbones. And, bless her, one chum reminded me what we learnt at a Clinique night we went to.

So I'm still not bouncing like Tigger about it but I'm trying to own it rather than it owning me. Will call my hairdresser to take it all off... not yet though.

I'm sorry to hear most of you are grotsville today. I wish you all comfy evenings and lovely, restful nights.

Me... I've had a roast chicken dinner in the slow cooker all day that I'm going to dive into as soon as the cauliflower cheese bubbles and browns. We've a couple of iced shortbread biscuits for pud thank to one of my friends.

I need to warm up... got a bit chilly nattering socially distanced on the drive as I handed over my unopened grapefruit juices. Just as well I read that we can't drink it, no one told me when I asked if there was anything to stop/avoid. 

Looking forward to the new James Nesbitt series tonight, even if it stops me watching some Spiral.

Love and hugs to you all.

Angela x

Erin 35
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@donkeywoman Thank you for your lovely, support words! I hope you managed a more productive day than me today! Slept the whole day through! I felt like superwoman yesterday with extra steroids and stronger anti sickness meds but have definitely crashed and burned today. Lovely to see some sunshine up north though - long may it continue!

Sending love and get well wishes to everyone finding it hard today! Cancer is hard enough without battling it during a pandemic! One day soon we’ll be enjoying those glasses of wine with our friends again and all this will be over! Xx

Erin 35
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@Belinda_F  Thanks again for your lovely, supportive messages! You lovely, brave ladies offering such comfort to others at such a difficult time personally - I think you are wonderful! I seem to have resorted to hermit style coping mechanisms! 
After an initially great day yesterday after round 2 of FEC on Friday I have crashed and burned today. Slept the day through until after 3 but managed to rally myself for an hour in the sunshine in the garden with a fluffy blanket this afternoon, which has definitely lifted my spirits! 

Starting jabs tonight though 😔 hate them! 
I’m exactly the same on the phone! I hate it! Put off answering and calling back as long as I can. Definitely more for whatsapp or messenger! Xx

Erin 35
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@Shi Thank you for your lovely message. Some funny wigs sounds like a good plan! She did sit behind me singing ‘Mummy has a baldy head’ while my husband shaved my head! 😂 
On the bright side - showers are quick at the moment with no hair washing or shaving to do! Xx

Erin 35
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@Fruitcake Thank you so much for your message! I came across this charity and Gracie’s little dolly actually arrived yesterday morning! They are a lovely charity offering all sorts of free products ladies - get on and have a look! I got some lovely hand balm and another headcap with the doll for my little girl, all for free! 
The lovely ladies at my chemo centre have given me a book to read with her too called Mummy’s Lump but it goes into a lot of detail for a three year old. 
She’s dealt amazingly well all things considered - she just doesn’t like to see my bald head, which I definitely understand! I still remember my great auntie losing her hair to cancer when I was about 8 and it was scary! Just hope she’s too young to remember any of it!
Xx

 

Fruitcake
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Hope no one will mind me visiting your thread.

I have lurked on these boards through my own treatments last summer but only registered now so I can respond to you @Erin 35 with your scared 3 year old. The charity  Cancerhaircare.co.uk in their section on children offer free dolls knitted by volunteers to help you explain hair loss. You can even choose skin colour and request it be wearing a dress in your daughters favourite colour which all seems a brilliant idea. (I have a granddaughter your child’s age and dreaded frightening her but consider myself very fortunate to have had success with the cold cap and kept 50% of my hair, enough that only I notice the difference. Same charity supplied a kit of hair care products at my local hospital at my first chemo treatment.)

Pesto
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@Belinda_F 

 

In Lancashire, Bury actually where I was born, any left over Yorkshires used to be dished out as puds.  Think large fluffy pancakes with lots of sweetie goodies

 

Re treatment I am on 21 days oral chemo, 7 days off plus letrozole every day.    This time mid session has really hit me for six, I could get a job batting for England... But if it is working and I think it is it is well worth the hassle.  I just hope they don't stop it as it will be my third round.  It really feels as the growth in boob is diminshing, can't say for the rest of me 

 

Sorry to hear not good, but don't force yourself into getting up.  The weather here is grey and miserable, with the rain you can't see but soaks.  Not a day for going anywhere apart from the sofa and the tele.  When oh when are they going to put something decent on without 10 mins of adverts every 15 mins.  That said did watch Marley and Me yesterday, a lovely humorous but sad film.  Great to snuggle into a throw with and a bag of Liquorice Allsorts 

 

Hugs

 

Gilly

 

xxxx

Shi
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Erin ❤️ Try thinking of this as chrysalis stage and once chemo done you do come out and unwrap new wings (hair) and day by day as brows and lashes and nose hair comes back and you skip into rads on the home straight 😁 quick tip when your face hair comes back you can look like a fluffy chic for a bit, don’t shave or iMac it off it does settle. Could you and your little one choose some fun wigs together from amazon fir you both and play dress up together? It might help? Also beauty despite cancer do good scalp care kit, might be worth a look. 💕💕Shi xx

Belinda_F
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hi guys, oh @Erin 35  I did wonder if you were having an horrendous time with hair loss, I'm so so sorry... there's nothing that can prepare us is there, long or short... a huge identity part of us or less. so... I know you said you have long long dark hair... but the additional stress of your daughter is chronically hard... I wonder if there are some story books which explain it to small children, I'll look... but it's so so hard... and then @gerbel you think you'll be OK and it hits you hard too... loves, you're all in my thoughts. I'm washing mine today, very stressful... and then I'll put it back, and won't look again. it's all I can do. it will grow back, just remember.

how many of us are in bed today? a few of us I think.... my best pal came over, and we had literally ten bars of dancing queen before I collapsed on sofa in exhaustion... didn't open the fizz in the end, which I was glad about, feel so tired and toxic today, don't need anything additional... but we had fun anyway... as much as you can with someone who can barely move. Still, last jab last night, so some hopefully normal Ish feelings on the way this week. 

@donkeywoman I'm so the same with the phone! horrendous phobia... but I do like a whatsapp voice message, 😂 leave very long ones it has been known... but it's an issue for me not chatting on the phone as its the normal isn't it really...I think my friends are use to it now, and put up with me... 

going to try to get up... 

@Pesto when is your next treatment? has anyone done weekly taxol? groan...do you have Yorkshires with sweet foods???? never heard of that! 

hugs for now all x

 

Pesto
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Morning all

@Lewy2803 

 

Brilliant idea re all meeting up.  Count me in.

 

So sorry you are feeling cr@p. Hang on in there you are like the rest of you remarkable ladies - doing brilliantly.

 

Agree re the fan, I need a Punkawallah  ( like the one they had in  Aint it half  hot mum )

 

To all of you, have a great Sunday even though all days of the week meld into one at the moment.  It will be Easter bunnies soon and loads of chocolate.  One can dream of enjoying....

Hubby had his jab on Friday and is feeling the after effects as is Daughter who had it yesterday .  Maybe I should get my snazzy nurses outfit on with my high heels ( Those were the days ladies ) and return favour of  the looking after, but then again I have told him to take paracetamol   lol

 

@gelibel, daughter still on the hunt for information in Leeds.  She thinks she might have a contact up her sleeve and if well enough tomorrow to be in her office will try to contact her / him

 

Big hugs all and those who fancy a  home made Yorkshire Pudding shout and I will deliver, either with gravy, custard, jam or cream

 

Gilly XXXX

Lewy2803
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Hey everyone

well tbh I feel pants today but that’s ok. Steroids finished yesterday (I only have them for three days too DW) and started the dreaded filgrastim injections yesterday. I have 5 days of them and last cycle that was the worse 5 days as it had such a horrid effect on my bowels/waterworks. I took the injection last night with co-codamol and clarityn then had an Epsom salt bath and straight to bed. I did get some sleep but had to keep getting up to wee. But muscle aches definitely better than last cycle. This morning tho gosh, I ache. Am up, watched America’s cup this morning, felt so sorry for Ben Ainslies team losing out in the semis but well done Italy! 
thinking of going back to bed soon as more comfy. 

thanks @donkeywoman, guts holding up much better this time and have meds if needed too  

my hair really going now - but still have loads too. I think when you see it come out it looks like loads doesn’t it. I started thinning 2 weeks after first treatment and am using cold cap. The nhs wig is brilliant tho. So thankful. But don’t really need it yet ... just wearing comfy beanies

had a lovely gift from https://www.chemogiftbags.org/ - a jam packed bag full of things that are so helpful. My friend had nominated me for one. So thoughtful. Best thing in there for me is the hand held fan. Those steroids play havoc with the internal heating! I feel like that old ready brek advert!

thanks for the kind words about my sisters. My surgeon was amazing when I told her about my sister who died. She put her hand on my knee and said that isn’t going to happen, we’ve caught it early. My cancer is different to my sisters and tbh by the time she found her lump it had already spread. Plus she lived in a dif country and didn’t have access to the amazing licensed drugs we have here. My little sister is putting a brave face on but I know she will be worried. All I can do is support her as best I can. 

take care everyone ..... I think we should try and meet up in the summer after this is all over xxxx

donkeywoman
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@Erin 35 and @Gelbel so sorry to hear about your hair. We just can't prepare for how we will feel about the next loss, can we? Really hope the soreness reduces now that the hair is less (that's what I found). And that you can wear you wigs more if that feels better. 

Oh @Erin 35 it must be so hard to protect your little girl when you feel so vulnerable yourself... 

Never feel bad about not coming on here, it's just meant to be a supportive place, no duty... we all have enough that we have to do, people to care for etc, this is our place to use or not as we want.

I am so with you about women friends,  I'm missing just being near them and sharing. I hate talking on the phone so most of my communication is on WhatsApp. I do like doing audio messages , but it's just not the same... But we will get back to them.

I'm doing my usual swinging from one emotion to the next. Felt quite calm first thing, but now feel rubbish,  have no energy for anything. Managed a bit of breakfast but everything tastes horrid. I will try a wash and getting dressed. But if that doesn't help, I may go back to bed!

Love to all and special gentle hugs for anyone not starting the day in a good place. And high fives for any who are!xx

Erin 35
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@Gelbel I’m with you there lovely! 😔 the last of mine was all shaved off last weekend after a shower took masses of it and this is the first time I’ve even been able to face coming on here in a week! Not because everyone wouldn’t be amazingly supportive, I’m just devastated! I bought a lovely human hair wig which I really do like but my head is so sore I can’t wear it all the time like I’d planned. So far it’s made it to my Covid jab and round 2 chemo then I’ve just been living it comfy hats. My little girl is only 3 and is terrified to see my bald head. I don’t blame her really - I can’t look at it either! 
I know what you mean about friends - I just want a hug from them! They’ve been so lovely and sent lots of flowers and beautiful gifts, but it isn’t the same as a good old rant and a few glasses of wine! 
Hope you’re doing ok ladies! Sorry for being so distant - this is bloody hard isn’t it! 
Love to you all Xx

donkeywoman
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@Lewy2803 sorry, just looked back on messages and reminded me about your sisters. How difficult it must be for you both,  to have lost a sister and now be going through so much. Fingers crossed for your younger sister,  sounds as they are being appropriately cautious. And you are on a curative pathway of course. Must be hard. You sound a very strong person, but remember to offload here if it helps xx

donkeywoman
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Morning all, 

I know it's a bit early,  but I was in bed for 8pm last night... not too bad a night, just kept the radio on and dozed plenty. End of steroids now, I just have them for 3 days tho I think some have them for longer?

@Pesto (my phone won't tag now) sounds as though you've rested like you have to the last week. Hopefully as you get into your third you will feel a bit brighter 🤞. And @Mumboo, glad the nausea is better and your cake hamper sounds fabulous! I'm so glad you were having a ready meal and hope it was good. I keep reading posts about wholesome home cooked meals and smoothies and realising that I've had a cup a soup and a bag of hula hoops! I'm going with what I can face...

@belinda f, did you manage to celebrate your friend's 50th in some way? Hope so...

@lewy how are you getting on? Hope your guts are behaving better this time round..

Enough waffle,  back to the radio. I'm not putting any expectations on myself today, I did 2 lots of washing yesterday so that's my contribution for the weekend. 

Hope all your Sundays are as smooth as possible xx 

Pesto
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Hi all.

Though I had better touch base, been very slow this week at commenting, but have read all your lovely posts and it is great to hear of so many getting to the end and or feeling better.

 

This week mid cycle for my 21 day chemo and it has been very trying.  Slept most of the week getting up very late, little snack and on sofa in front of log burner, asleep again for hours.

The hamper sound delicious....  treats or what !!!!!

 

Going to the supermarket what a day out, I would dress in my Sunday best for that including heels, a big hat and posh gloves......

 

Stay safe all.  The netflix dram sounds just what I need at the moment, will try to download.  Thanks for the suggestion.

 

Hugs all round

 

Gilly

 

XXX

 

 

FlorrieBee
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Hi everyone, how are you all?

On my phone at the moment, not sure how to tag everyone but good catching up on a few posts.

Oooo, I keep seeing people on TV with a glass of wine in their hands, sooo jealous. I also haven't touched anything since new year, can't face it and very much looking forward to that in the summer! Picnic and hin sounds fab but mine would have to be Prosecco, love gin but it doesn't like me.

So I have kept on top of my nausea this last few days and now understand what you were all saying about getting the munchies, can't stop eating the last two days! My beautiful friend dropped off a basket of sponge, banana cake and almond cake last night so I'm spoilt for choice! Sainsburys taste the difference curry for supper, easy option but looking forward to it.

So pleased some of you have managed to get out for a little air, have really missed my walks this week but very fatigued. Must get out tomorrow!

My last day today of steroids and injections so fingers crossed some sleep may return 🤞

Very lazy day and started watching Firefly Lane on Netflix, I'm totally hooked! Bit chick flicky but love it, makes a change living in an all male household 🤣 (except for our one dog) 

Hope the rest of the weekend is kind to you all, you get some sleep and enjoy a little food even if we can't have a drink for now. Hugs all round xx

Mumboo
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Hi ladies, 

Well i know what you mean @donkeywoman about being steroided up!! After a bit of a rough day yesterday, i managed to get some half decent sleep last night, so with that & the steroids this morning, i prepared breakfast, slow cooker meal for tea, cleaned the bathroom, put a wash on..all before 11am! Have now been lying in bed having the occasional nap since midday!! Steroids worn off!! 

I'm with you on the alcohol front @Gelbel. Me & the husband would have a couple of cheeky brandies/wine of a weekend but i've not touched a drop since new years eve!  I don't really miss it too much, which is something i never thought i'd say!! I'm definitely going to be a cheap date after all this!!  My friend has just said that when this is all over & we can actually meet up with people, that we're going to go to the beach with a picnic blanket & gin! That's definitely something to look forward to!!  

Hope you're feeling ok @Belinda_F. Regarding your question about my picc line (my chemo brain has actually remembered something!!), they always draw blood & flush it immediately before treatment. It flushed ok, but wasn't drawing much blood & then stopped working completely. I had to turn my head, hold my breath, cough, lie down flat, twist my arm...still nothing. After half hour of trying different things, they sat me up to my original position & it worked!! Crazy body!! 

Hope you're all looking after yourselves lovely ladies. 😘

Xx

 

Gelbel
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Well I am glad I bought a pack of (small) custard doughnuts.... absolutely 💔💔💔💔. Had my usual big Saturday shower hair wash etc. Not washed it for a week and it's coming out. 1cm receding at front and general thinning. Got that feel like it's being pulled out all over. 😢😢😢

Gutted. Have been waiting for it to happen but it's still a shock. I'm obviously not as gung-ho about it coming out as I thought. So it's spurred me into action to stretch the blue rooted wig I bought (well, my mum did!) that's an average when I'm nearly a large.

Utterly fed up as bf said: "We knew it was going to happen." Hubby upset at me being upset - he's not the cuddle I want right now. Other girlfriends are being lovely. Blooming coronavirus- I just want a shoulder to cry on and a hug.

Doughnuts 0, Gel 4, now for the 3 Reece's peanut butter eggs I bought...

Belinda_F
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Hi everybody! so lovely to see your messages as usual... @Gelbel I'm sorry you couldn't face a beer, you'll know when the right time is won't you... I've never not drunk for such a long time, and have a feeling my drinking might have changed forever now... party days which were a common event can now only be couple of times a year I reckon...although that savouring a good glass of wine, oh, sounds so good... one pleasure bc won't take away... 

@donkeywoman that's great you're doing OK so far, breakfast, bed, rest, just what Dr ordered...  do you think you (cautiously) feel better on day 2 than last time? it's so variable isn't it... I'm feeling brighter today, no sickness, no steroids... had little palpitations last night but took a propranerol and got some sleep... til half five or something! anything better than nothing ATM isn't it. Has the cricket finished guys? 

and how are the rest of you doing? 

I'm more active today, pottering, going to pop in garden soon, do some planting... but I find I can do ten minutes of something and then am so shattered I have to stop... this must be what chronic fatigue is like... horrible... 

I've emailed my consultants already about the pain @donkeywoman ~ I went for a walk yesterday, and there was a slight hill, and I couldn't do it... had to stop, sit down, and go down....had wondered if I'd caught covid at hospital last week but no other symptoms... anyway, I'm on it, not overly concerned but cautious all the way now... 

I do hope you guys are doing OK today? and managing some lightness and kindness to yourselves.... big big hugs x

 

donkeywoman
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Morning all,

@Gelbel well done on getting out for a walk, hope your friend was strategically walking at the same time and you had a catch up? I'm not surprised about the booze - I've not been able to face it at all. Usually, even if I'd not been fancying wine, if hubby opened a beer, I would immediately go and crack open a bottle - like a Pavlovian response! Now I just sip my water and don't think about alcohol at all. Hope that goes away once chemo is over...

The weather makes a huge difference doesn't it? I used to just get wrapped up and get out whatever it was doing out there, but now I stare at it, think about it and then cosy back down again. I always get out to see the animals, but actually walking any distance is a different matter. But spring is on its way, which I really feel will improve things.

@Belinda_F how was your night? Hope the palpitations stayed away? I just had them that one night, and they were very wake inducing... I felt much better once I'd had an ecg and check over, and so far they haven't come back. I didn't think of them being linked to the injections, but it was after the 2nd day of them. But I give mine in the morning. Oh who knows, we are having such a cocktail at the moment, aren't we?!

I am definitely steroided up - have that heady mix of being tired and also wired! But i've managed a slice of toast, a glass of smoothie (ashamed to say, shop bought, I'm too lazy to make my own) and my pharmacy shop of medication. So that was enough for a bit, I'm back in bed with the laptop, may find something light to watch in a bit.

Hope everyone is as okay as possible this morning, look forward to updates when you feel like sharing them xx

Gelbel
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Happy Saturday ladies. I'm only going out for a walk in a little bit to get a paper And I may just be 'happen' to bump in to a pal while I'm at it.  I am ashamed to say it will be my first proper walk since chemo 2 weeks ago and that's simply down to week one being freezing cold with ice and snow, and week two full of windy, rain and not going out weather.

I might buy some low/no alcohol beer/wine -  I just could not face it last night, I felt slightly queasy at the thought. I nearly clobbered my husband when he cracked open a beer and said: "Cheers!"

I hope you are all coming out of your side effects, or, if they are hanging around, they are manageable.

Enjoy your weekends and whatever you have planned... or not.

Love and hugs.

Angela x

donkeywoman
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Evening all 

@Belinda_F maybe you need to call the nurses about the breast/chest pain? May need checking out? I get more indigestion than usual, but that's not the same..and I have just the one breast now! 

Glad you had a good walk with your friend and it helped your mood. But the bad sleep and palpitations sound very wearing. Hurray for last jab today, fingers crossed for a decent sleep. You are probably tucked up cosy now.

Treatment went fine, I'm glad I had it. 2/3rds of the way through seems much better than half! I'm shattered but am going to just try and go with it. Magnesium deficiency can also cause fatigue,  tho that,  anaemia and chemo doesn't bode well for an energetic time! 

@Gelbel hope you are having your beer and forgetting about vaccination debacle for a bit. And @Belinda_F hope you get your sip of sparkle with your bestest pal tomorrow 🥂🍻💕

And hope everyone is having as good a Friday night as possible in these strange times. Night night 😴 xx

Belinda_F
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PS, quick question guys, has anyone had any breast pain with chemo? I can't tell if it's in my lung or breast, but definitely there... x

Belinda_F
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hi guys, so lovely to read your posts... I'm so glad so far so OK post treatments @donkeywoman @Lewy2803 and @Mumboo ~ I hope the sickness meds are doing their jobs and staving off the worst of it? what happened with the Picc Andrea? so sorry to hear that... I had problems with my port too, but all OK... in the end and at least not painful...I hope?? 

@Lewy2803 you sound positively spritely compared to last time, what a relief! 

@donkeywoman ONLY TWO TO GOOOOOOO!!!!! I hope you're glad you decided to have treatment without delaying, and how are you feeling with your anemia? 

@gerbel I can't believe you're having all this hassle with the jab!!!!! you'll get there but my god, you don't need that ATM. what you do need probably is a beer or two,  lol! I do hope they go down well...I too am planning a quarter, yes, a whole quarter of a glass of fizz tomorrow! my best pals 50th and despite feeling unholy awful after a tiny drink in round #1, I'm going to try again... lots of Oj too... might even have a little dance.... 💃 

@Lewy2803 I'm so so sorry to hear you lost your sister to bc... that must make the anxiety many fold, and such a loss. Your poor sis too... thank god the Drs are being super cautious... when are they biopsying? any family bc is so hard isn't it. you must miss her so much. But what a blessing too that sis is so supportive... curry sounds wonderful! actually, spicy is going down really well for me ATM too, enjoy! 

so my day improved after an awful sleep. think the injections gave me palpitations and took hours to get off. last one tonight thank god. despite my usual grump this morning, a friend drove for a walk with me, first time out in a week, and a good natter was just the elixir I needed... I so enjoyed it... and am SO shattered now. fire, dinner, cocoa and bed... Ahhhhh.... 

big big hugs all x

 

Lewy2803
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Glad all went well Mumboo and Donkeywoman. I had a great night sleep which I wasn’t expecting due to taking my steroids at 3pm as had forgotten!! Hubby said I snored loudly all night, so great to get my own back!!

Starting to feel a bit fatigued now and have just taken an Ondansetron but not feeling nausea at all luckily. Hope you improve soon Mumboo.  

My little sister just brought round a Sri Lankan curry for my tea and some soup for tomorrow bless her. Not sure if I told you before but we lost our older sister to BC in 2016 at the age of 49 so I think little sis in particular is finding my treatment very hard. She is only 48 but was advised to get an early mammogram due to family history. She went and they found two cysts (now drained) and is going back for some biopsies of some calcification but they have made clear to her that this is precautionary and they really don’t think it’s anything to worry about. God I love our NHS so much. 

so hope you get the jabs sorted soon @Gelbel. It’s such a worry. Hope everyone else is doing ok xxx

Mumboo
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So glad your chemo went quicker yesterday @Lewy2803 & that yours was straightforward today too @donkeywoman.  Make sure you rest up now. 😘

Mine went ok yesterday. They did have a bit of trouble getting my picc line to work, but it did in the end. Phew! I did feel quite ropey & nauseous last night, more so than previously. Have had to take Domperidone a couple of times, but fingers crossed that will improve. I need to nap but it's just not happening today. Just cleaned the kitchen!  Bloody steroids!!! 

I'm so sorry to hear of the nightmare you're having with getting your covid jab. Why on earth is it not more straight forward!  This is the last thing you need to be chasing up at the moment. 

Hope all you other lovely ladies are ok. 😘

X

Gelbel
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No joy. Fuming as a colleague a few years younger than me (I'm 58) in South Devon with no underlying conditions has just booked hers. My practices co-ordinating GP called me this am to say hospital should do it and not to be put off if they say no as obviously GP-led preferred but if day doesn't suit in cycle they should step in. Going to have a word at clinic on Tuesday #ComputerStillSayingNo and Matt Hancock & pal not answering their tweets!

I really hope you all feel OK after your latest cycles. Is it me or is the passing of 21 days (in my case) between cycles taking forever? Is it because we live day to day or because we tend to count them to tick off the side effects/nadir days? 😫

I am going to have (try?) a beer or two tonight. 😟

I hope you have calm and peaceful weeks.

Love AnGELa x

donkeywoman
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Hi all, how is everyone feeling today? Hope @Lewy2803 and @Mumboo are as good as possible after yesterday's treatments. And that @Belinda_F you are feeling a bit of respite from all the poking and prodding? Any luck with vaccine chaos @Pesto and @Gelbel ? I love the collaboration you have going on 😊.

I'm just out from number 4, waiting for my lift home and enjoying a bit of fresh air. All went fine, now just ready for a nap...

Hugs all round xx

Pesto
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@Gelbel 

Good for you.  Go get 'em give them 'ell, and then perhaps a quick kick in the rear

have set daughter on the case.... ( Tracy beaker in drag ) and she is looking into if she knows through her contacts.  The good news is she is brilliant, the bad if she can't find anyone there will probably be nobody.  Fingers crossed, and she finds someone to help you.  No fee just a big hug.  The beauty of this forum is someone some where will know something.  Her tarantula feelers are out......

 

Gilly

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Gelbel
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That's poor about your chemo nurse. Slightly different - when I had my Mx, the other 2 ladies having surgery that day BCN came on the ward to say hi to them. She came and introduced herself to me as she's in the same team as mine. That same nurse then did my 1st post surgery call, in her words as it was easier for me to talk to someone I'd met. 

My official BCN and her now tend to alternative when they contact me.

Gelbel
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Hi @Pesto 

I've looked everywhere and not found an NHS page with are you happy with this info at all. I'm in Leeds.

I've just tweeted them and asked if they'd have the decency to reply this time...

Pesto
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Have a look at all the NHS sites...  

 

One should ask if you are happy with the info...  I selected no and BANG straight into the booking site re the back door.  Flook probably, Where in the country are you

 

Gilly

 

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Lewy2803
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I have a chunky tummy too!! Mind you I’ve lost 5kg since this month - all that diarrhoea was worth it lol. But yes I totally get that about intramuscular- just wondering why in the tummy last time?? Just makes me think they really didn’t know what they were doing!!! Hey ho. Apparently no harm done. 

donkeywoman
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Hi @Lewy2803 glad you are home without your mammoth day like last time.

Re Herceptin jab, I've always had it in thigh. It's an intra muscular injection and has to go in quite slowly. I would have thought it would be quite sore in a tummy, even in one with as much chub as mine!xx

Lewy2803
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Hey everyone

Just a quick note to say I’m home. Still 4 hours but much better than the 11.5 last time!! Slight headache and have the steroid glow but other than fine so far. They reduced my Doxi and Carbo slightly from last time and I have some diarrhoea meds just in case I have the same reaction again. Let’s hope not. I saw my husband eat 2 week old chilli from the fridge at lunchtime .... I really don’t want us both competing for the loo!! Cold cap was a lot colder this week due to thinning hair - had to really grit my teeth and persevere.

Those of you having Herceptin ... a quick question. Last week they put it in my tummy. This week, am told no it has to go in alternate thighs never in the tummy! Has anyone else had it in their tum?

I asked about my chemo nurse ... she is named in my chemo book.  Apparently she was on the ward today ... never introduced herself!! So will make a point of introducing myself next time. Right off to milk some sympathy from the boys  have to say hubby done well and is roasting a chicken for tea - I had earmarked that for Sunday but as I will be in chemo coma by then, he can source an alternative!

hope your ok @Mumboo and big hugs to those having treatment tomorrow and those feeling bleughhh!

 

Gelbel
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Thanks Gill, Swiftqueue's not available in my areas. Well Google and playing with the urban not showing anything. 

Pesto
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@Gelbel 

I have just posted a link re the covid jab, if you still can't get an appointment take a look, if you can't see it come back I will PM you

 

hugs

 

Gilly

 

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Pesto
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@donkeywoman 

 

yes thank you Humphrey managed, but like his  human daddy is still very grumpy...

 

I am pretty sure there is a Maggies in Newark, I much prefer Newark to Nottingham, parking is always so much easier and very often free, the hospital there is also lovely as it is much smaller.

 

Well done you re the phone call, though I do find them much easier than face to face, much less daunting, no masks so the conversation is easier to hear.  And yes regarding the being in control bit, even though I am quivering inside normally I manage to sound very pragmatic, positive and calm

 

 @Belinda_F ...Where are the big panties.... , gosh I can remember my lovely late Grans bloomers billowing in the wind on the line.  Underwear or parachute.....  was never very sure, but I can't remember lace adorning a parachute and it was round both legs at the bottom, just above the knee.

 

Fresh flowers are a wonderful bonus at the moment.  Lilies have always been my favourites but the last bunch, John had to remove to the hall because of the smell.  Bless him he has been putting up with the bouquet from the trumpets for years as they have always made him sneeze

 

John has managed to book his covid test as has daughter without a letter. He goes tomorrow, she on Saturday.  Daughter saw something on FB, sent him the link and both were lucky

 

 

Link is

 

https://nottsccg.nhs.uk/covid-19/covid-19-vaccination-programme-what-you-can-do-to-help/?fbclid=IwAR...

 

I realise it is Nottinghamshire but could there  be others local to you all.  There were two sections, one for over 65's and one for cat 6....  carers vulnerable etc, both did the cat 6 as they help to care for me and no problems at all.  Both will be much happier when jabbed even only once at the moment as both have to out to the shops etc, daughter working from home but not all the time, both very worried about bringing it  into the house due to the covid idiots and deniers out there

 

Hugs all round

 

Gilly xxxx

Gelbel
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Forgot to add - I'd like a cock! With all the fluids we (are meant to be) drinking it'd be so handy. I swear the loo is my 2nd home - see back to toilet convos again!

Have a good evening. x

Gelbel
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What a lovely poem @Lewy2803 - sat at my desk with tears pouring down my face. You watch the boss call me...

I'm still good today thanks @Belinda_F though lightly knackered as I was awake half the night - 1 snotty email for Matt Hancock and the vaccine minister was concocted that I am still debating about sending. It's like fix your database before you add 1.7m others and you have a week to do it before I go to the press. BTW next week also happens to be my next chemo - a wonderful photoshoot opportunity as I am injected with bright pink poison! Although I might have to go with Friday appointments with my GP - going to try to get a cancellation tomorrow. Least it's good to know they are doing Fridays for the foreseeable - problem is the day they could give me the vaccine is only day 15 as chemo day is Friday (at the moment). I'll also speak to my team at clinic on Tuesday.

Thanks for the cake. I can't stop eating at the moment. Problem is, last week I wasn't putting any on, this week. Boom! 🐖 I've a real urge for a paneer curry so that's my tea tonight, hubby's been talked into left overs. You'd giggle at this... I've mentioned he has Crohn's. So the loo and going or not (more not in his case) is always a topic of conversation. He has quarterly appointment with the dietitians because he really struggles to eat - he can make a bag of crisps last several days and don't talk to me about how long a bar of chocolate/packet of sweets late. 🙄 He had to take today's call on the loo. Oh the irony. 🤣

I hope those of you having treatment today have had smooth hospital appointments and that you don't feel too poorly. Really I hope you don't feel poorly at all. 🤞 For those of you going through the mill - I so hope it's only for a short time and you start to feel better soon. 🤗

Love and hugs and peaceful, sleepy vibes.

AnGELA
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donkeywoman
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Hello everyone,

@Mumboo and @Lewy2803 - hope today is going smoothly and you will soon be home and resting. @Lewy2803 me too re a few tears at that lovely poem. I don't feel much like a warrior, but I am certainly fighting a battle with myself about keeping going. I am amazed that I find this forum so helpful - I've never been a social media, joining groups kind of person. But there is something special about being around (virtually) people in the same position. Thanks all!

I had my chat with the oncology pharmacist today. My HB has dropped - 92, but he said it is fine to have chemo tomorrow. I told him I'd have a rough few weeks and asked about a dose reduction (of the Docetaxel). He said that isn't recommended, but that I could have another week off. I'm not keen, so agreed to have it tomorrow and then review next time... He was very kind and knowledgeable and I feel okay about tomorrow, now. I had a  wee moment of 'can't do this',but it soon passed. My husband heard the phone conversation and praised me on how calm and knowledgeable I sounded.. I think that is a bit of a problem for me - I just go into nurse mode and I don't think anyone could tell that I'm struggling. Even when I say I am, I think I sound fine and very controlled. I told hubby that I even do it with him, though I don't mean to. I don't know if it's a problem or not. Any views? 

Anyway, I've enjoyed images about big girl pants on this forum, so I will get them on tomorrow.

How is everyone feeling? @Belinda_F how are you doing today? Really hope the ickiness etc is calming down and you can have a bit of  a life. @Pesto hope your dog got his wee, in between showers? It's been nice here at moments - I don't think we are far away as I live near Matlock. 

@Lewy2803 - great gift from your friends. I was a bit overwhelmed with flowers and presents at the start of all this, but it's all calmed down now, obviously. But today, on a day when I'm having a right wobble, an old nursing friend sent me flowers, great timing, and he wouldn't have known where I was in the cycle. I have mixed feelings about flowers that are flown in from other countried, but sometimes there is something wonderful about fresh flowers.. 

Pouring with rain now, glad I got my hour outside before it started. 

Will check out those websites, @Belinda_F - there is a Maggies in Nottingham, but that's too far for me. I had a friend who did stuff there, she found it a lovely sanctuary.

Hugs all round xx

Pesto
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@Lewy2803 

And everyone else of course.  Good morning 

So sorry to hear your sleep tribulations, I have in the past listened to Sarah Raymond ( Sleep meditation ) on my phone, she has such a soothing and hypnotic voice, I rarely get further than a few words in before well away even for a short time .  I can try and send the links if you like but very easy to find on u tube, just type her name and sleep meditation.  Several appear, I personally go for the beach and the waves.....

 

The poem brought tears here too, a fabulous post. Thank you

 

Try to have a good day all, weather is awful again windy and very wet.  Dog not a happy bunny, he needs to go for a wee outside but just looks at  me with his thirteen year old puppy eyes and tells me " Mummy your are being even more stupid today than normal "

 

Any one considering something nice for lunch, feeling hungry, too tired to think about food and cooking, still got my headache so will have to get hubby on the job again  so tasty easy  suggestions very welcome. In fact forget easy...  so long as it is scrummy, I can supervise lol 

 

Gilly

XXX

 

 

Belinda_F
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PS, poem brought a tear @Lewy2803 ~ the strength of those words much needed ATM. thanks so much lovely x

just on support, I called Maggie's and they're open! they offer all sorts apparently and have centres all over.

https://www.maggies.org/

and this looks lovely, offer gifts and freebies, which would be really lovely ATM wouldn't it... 

https://www.elliesfriends.org/

Belinda_F
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morning guys! just a quick BRILLIANT LUCK to you both @Mumboo and @Lewy2803 today! be thinking of you both! and you tomorrow isn't it @donkeywoman ...then just 2 to go if I remember rightly? 

just on coldcap, I use an additional scarf to keep it tight on the bits it's not...and use a medium size inner but pull the straps on outer very tightly, too much so really as uncomfortable under chin. keep going guys, I'm convinced it's helping x

@Lewy2803 I'm so sorry sleep so disturbed ~what time do you take your steroids? I do first thing morning then before 1.30 and is OK for my, very sensitive, sleep....lol on the growing appendages...bet your son really cheers you up with giggles 😂 

back later guys, just wanted to say thinking of you having treatment today Xx 

Lewy2803
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Oh and one more thing (clearly I am not going to get back to sleep!) ......

when I took my steroids yesterday my son pricked up his ears. He studying a level sports studies. He asked if I was going to grow a cock and balls!!! They are studying use is anabolic steroids for performance enhancement and apparently there are cases where female athletes have started to develop male genitalia ! Well it hasn’t happened yet but I will keep you posted. Not bothered about the balls but a cock would be very handy for peeing when out on dog walks!!

good luck today @Mumboo!

Lewy2803
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Oh and btw Mumboo, we had a long chat with my sons school. He’s doing A levels this year, or whatever they decide. When schools were open before Christmas we kept him home and didn’t send him in. He felt safer and knowing he wasn’t going to bring anything home to potentially kill me was the best option decided by everyone. Lots of kids were having to isolate or also had shielding family members so all lessons were also online. So although he does miss out on the contact, he’s still attending class. Not ideal but better than going in. Much easier to explain to an 18 year old of course than younger but it might help!

Lewy2803
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Thanks Mumboo and DW

my treatment is at 1pm better be bloody quicker than last time! Is it #2 for you too mumboo? Great too re cold cap. The wig fitter said it was because the outer cap hadn’t been tight enough but because I couldn’t move my jaw, I don’t think that is the case. Will mention to the nurse!

steroids kept me awake all night ... no joke saw in every hour to 6am. 7am husband comes in, wakes me up to go walk the dogs!! I didn’t go .... ! Will write this and then try to grab another hour or so before shower and arghhh a hair wash!

Will wish you good luck for tomorrow now DW as I feel I may forget tomorrow!

lastly, I just saw this on FB. Seems rather apt. We are all warriors fighting an individual battle at a horrendous time for humanity. Take the little wins, be kind to yourself and post the hell out of your worries on here so we can all help! I don’t bake so these words are my ginger/banana bread!  Take care all. 

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Mumboo
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Good luck with your treatment today @Lewy2803.  I'm right with you!  Mine's at 10:30. You made me laugh with your Friar Tuck comment because that's exactly how i've been describing myself!!  Not the best of looks!!  Ask your Nurse to grab you a disposable surgeons theatre cap to protect your scalp. I've been trawling through the paxman website & got loads of tips. I'm thinking that i don't think my cap was tightened properly with the toggle that pulls the crown of the outer cap closer to your skull...Also it advised that if you are in between sizes, ie small & medium, to have a medium silicone inner cap, but with a small outer cap. You don't want to go too small on the inner cap in case it rides up throughout the treatment. All worth a try?? Good luck. Be thinking of you.Xx

Am totally agreeing with what you're all saying about lockdown. It has it's positive, but also obviously a great deal of negative & such a shame that every Hospital Trust area is different for what it can provide. 

Although i have days where i feel really trapped & frustrated,  i'm also worried about lockdown ending & my kids going back to school. Me & the hubby have spoken a lot about what to do & there's no right answer, but we're pretty sure we're going to keep them off & continue the Home-schooling until my chemo is finished. Last one due 22nd April so that's a very long time!! So sad that my kids will miss out on seeing their friends & running around, but with 30 kids in each class, that's 60 kids & their families that mine will be in contact with. Just too high a risk while i'm on chemo.

What a tough time we're all having, which is why it's so lovely to hear from you guys as you really do make me smile. 😘 Chin up chickens!  We'll get through this!!!  Xx