Rosie, you were definately NOT being harsh 😃 I valued everything you said and it really helped me focus and drag me out of my ‘poor me’ moment. Sitting at home and being unable to do much unfortunately let’s your mind wander, and for me it left me thinking about this whole last year starting with Davids death.
I realised how much mental strength and bravery I had to go through with treatment and looking after two very distraught kids and still work at the same time. I took on too much and forgot about me in all of it. It’s at that point I broke down and thought blimey how have I managed.
Like you, I normally just put my head down and tackle what’s in front of me and emotions don’t usually get a look in because you kind of know that it could be a slippery path if you allow yourself to get overly emotionally involved at the enormity of everything.
Im so happy that you’ve felt well enough to get out there and do normal things. I’m looking forward to doing lunch with friends etc! 😃 I’m glad you have an understanding boss, it’ll just take the pressure off you knowing your supported when you have off days. In a way I’m envious of you working ladies, I do miss my job, but my headspace couldn’t commit to going back to work and being as effect as I was before all of this.
My job now is to put the kids first again and to wind up my ex’s estate, sell his house etc and deal with creditors etc. because although Lauren is 18, no one expects her to put herself through that whilst she’s still grieving and doing A’levels. I’m so proud of her, she has gained the college placement she wants next year 😃 Both of my daughters make me very proud, if only their dad could see them.
Its always lovey to hear how you are doing. I’m now 2 weeks and 3 post op. I have a little more bend in my belly 😃 every day is slightly better than the last. xx
