Glad you’ve not got Covid buddyfan what a roller coaster. I know what you mean about immunity but still best stay clear xx
Jencat how are things with you? Xx
hi buddyfan ❤️ Glad the antibiotics have sorted the uti ❤️ And I’m glad you didn’t have covid-19. Get your strength back now before resting the chemo tablets and keep safe 😘💕💕✨✨Shi xx
I'm clear which is a shame. Had I been positive I might now be immune. However, all the tests showed a urine infection, so I'm on antibiotics which I can already tell have worked. Means I can't restart chemo tabs yet, so actually feeling like a real human being again instead of old hag. My temp is back to normal. So business as usual.
Buddyfan ❤️Are you ok and Covid-19 clear 🤞🤞please let us know how you get on, are you back home ok now? When will you get X-ray results 🤞❤️ Hows your hand been? 💕💕✨✨Shi xx
I've been tested for covid as my temp keeps spiking. No cough though. They did a portable xray in the room this time and I had to use the door from the room to the garden. No contact with the main hospital. Xray result no different to last week. Our oncology unit has a great set up.
My lung thing is permanent, from my accident in 1979. I have decreased function on left hand side, a high diaphragm. I usually refuse a chest x ray because I know that's why they detect reduced function. But in present situation thought best have one.
Buddyfan ❤️What a Tattar you had yesterday 😳 glad your hands seemed better today 👍 and hope your temperature returns to normal soon and lung improves so you can continue with treatment ❤️ You are fabulous and keep safe ❤️ 💕💕✨✨Shi xx
Feel like I could do with a fur baby.
Bit of a to do yesterday. Had to have routine blood test to check ok to have next cycle but had to tell oncology I had temp 38.6. Because my lung function slightly depressed they wanted an x ray. Even though I know that my left lung has decreased function. Anyway they put a mask on me and wheeled me to X-ray. At which point xray went ape **bleep**. Not the protocol in case I had covid. They completely emptied the dept. Reception staff everyone. Actually there were no patients there anyway, I guess they'd already cleared them. The hazmat suited X-ray person got the poor unprotected nurse to put the plate behind me. Basically they wouldn't touch me even in a hazmat suit. Anyway lungs fine. Prob a virus but not covid. Although they didn't test. Hand has been awful last three days but ok today so I think I'm on my way out of it. But can't start next cycle until they know my immune system can take it.
Hi Jencat, nice to know you still have a fur baby with you, I know they are all different but all lovely and special little indivuals ❤️ Hope you and the girls all keeping safe ❤️ You and your family too buddyfan ❤️ Big ✨✨💕💕💕Shi xx
Morning Shi, part two of my message back to you 🙂 I've still got a cat, Poppy, Oscar's sister. We got them both as kittens from a rescue centre. She's a lovely affectionate cat too, but it was always a bit more on her terms. She's seems to
want more cuddles since Oscar died and spending Wed time with me, I think she's missing Oscar too xx
Glad you were able to get a break away with your girls to remember your dad Jencat.
it was the 2 year anniversary of my Dad’s death on Sunday. Sending love x
Hi Jencat ❤️I’m glad you and the girls were able to celebrate his life all together ❤️ Have you thought any more about another cat? I know it’s early days but you’ll be able to give one a beautiful home and lots of ❤️💕💕✨✨Shi xx
Shi, I'm going to send you try replying in two parts as I keep losing my messages to you! The girls and I decided that Dad would want us to do something nice last Tuesday or although there were still some tears of course. We stayed at my ex's caravan, which is only a few minutes from a fairly remote beach, so we were able to have a nice walk together followed by fish and chips xx
Shi, I keep trying to reply to you, but for some reason your posts seem to not send or I lose them! I will try again in a while! xx
Hope you had a lovely time in Iceland Susie 🙂 Thank you for your kind thoughts. I'm coping with the chemo ok so far, but still in some pain from.the bc. Hope you are keeping well and say hello to the girls from me x
I've just returned to the UK after a short break to Iceland and caught up with your news. Thinking of you and sending hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤xx
Thank you Jill for your kind message. You're right, cats are very calming and I found them to be a great comfort when I went through chemo last time and during my dad's illness and death. Oscar was such a lovely affectionate cat, where I was he'd be there too xx
Jencat sending you a big hug - what a difficult week for you .I still miss all my cats - had quite a few -4 at one time - 2 sets of brothers that didn't get on ! They are lovely calming companions .
Jencat ❤️ I am so sorry to hear your darling cat has passed on ❤️ I know you won’t feel like even thinking about another cat, but please think about it, they give such ❤️And companionship Jencat it will lift you having a little being to look after ❤️ And come for a lap snuggle while you take each step with your treatments ❤️ I think all of our pets helped us through before and another little cat has got a lot of ❤️To give and you have a lot of ❤️To give to a new little cat ❤️ It’s difficult the first anniversary Jencat and sending big 👭❤️👭to you for that, release a balloon or scatter some petals somewhere or do something that you used to do together ❤️ Celebrate his life ❤️ He wouldn’t want you to be sad ❤️💕💕✨✨Shi xx
Thank you so much buddyfan for taking the time to message me, I really appreciate it x I'm a bit up and down tbh, but it's a difficult time at the moment anyway, not just because of bc and chemo, but my lovely cat died last Sunday and the 1st anniversary of my Dad's death is this Tuesday.
I'm coping with the chemo fairly well, but in pain and discomfort still because of the bc (onc said the chemo will help with this as the tumour shrinks, so hopefully she's right) So glad to hear that your wheezing isn't due to anything serious and something you haven't got to worry about x
Hi Chaffinch, thank you for your kind message x unfortunately my lovely cat Oscar suddenly took a turn for the worst last Sunday evening and died at home with myself and my girls with him. He was only 5. I miss him so much, he was my little chemo buddy last time. An emotional time-losing our cat, starting chemo last Monday and this Tuesday will be a year since my dad died xx
PS The HOPE course I mentioned was a Macmillan run thing. Can't remember what the acronym stands fir but it was about coping with cancer going forward. I found it useful, it got me out of that hole of finding out about the first mets..
Sending hugs Jencat, hope they can support your puss cat for a good while, they are lovely calming companions 😘
hugs to you too buddyfan hope the radiotherapy goes well 😘
Jencat, I don't think it's an NHS restriction, I think it's medical in that you shouldn't have too much radiation to the same spot too soon. My sacrum will have been zapped twice by end of next week. Once with one day's hit last Nov and next week's treatment will be over 5 days, specifically to reduce side effects. I've had the scan and they're using the same tattoo. I think the tattoo is just the line up point, not specifically where they zap.
Hope you're coping with the whole stress side if it. I slept through the night last night, first time for ages. Distraction therapy is the key. I started a stained glass course. Nightmare, hardest thing I've ever attempted, especially since I've got my paralysed arm. But I'll persevere and will have a lovely piece at the end and actually, I would carry on and do other pieces but my back is too debilitating. So, back to the embroidery, much easier.
Enjoy what you can. The HOPE course said note three good things/feelings/thoughts that happen everyday, however small.
Maybe you want to check with your onco if it is technical you can't have the same area radiated two times or it is not offered under NHS. I posted a link in this thread before which is about the radiation therapy for breast cancer in USA. I am no medical but my understanding technically it is possible. Besides, like Shi said, the 1st time radiation is usually to the breast and maybe nodes and collar bone. My (sternum) met is 1 inch exactly right above my tattoo in the middle of my chest. Again I am no medical. I simply guess the tattoo is the borderline of radiation.
I had requested my onco if I can have radiation to the 'dot'. He rejected me and only said my first onco expected it can be cleared by the chemo. After finished all the active treatment, he told me the lesion is 'rotted' (yep, he used this word though my 3rd onco didn't quite understand at first and later explained the cancer is gone and leave a hole. In my recent bone scan (in Dec or Jan), my current onco said the 1cm disruptive tissue is healing
and only one-tenth left and hardly seen on CT scan.
At first, I thought you might be able to get some 'curable' treatment like surgery and immediate radiation to the tumor bed and the sternum 'dot' then chemo.
Oh huge hugs Jencat. I know what you mean by reading things. Last year, I was looking through my online health records for which travel jabs we might need. When I saw that I am on gold palliative care, it really through me. It's that word, palliative, although I know it just means care. Similarly, I daren't ask how long I may have with this increase in bone mets. Had the first capecitabine cycle review yesterday. As my sacrum area is now numb they are going to radio zap it again, but over 5 days. On a plus note, my bloods showed lowered ALP indicating less bone activity. Still no where near the normal level. Also, my wheezing is much better. Maybe I had an infection since before Christmas and the steroids for the rads sorted it. Who knows, I just know I'm grateful that I'm not worrying that it's spread to my lungs.
Jencat, re your chemo shrinking your bone mets, I was told that it's hard to spot a reduction in mets in the bone, just due to the bone structure damage the mets will have caused. Just remember, you don't die of bone mets, or at least that's what I understand. 💗🏄♀️🧜♀️🤿🐧🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤞🤞🤞🤞
Shi, from what I can gather, it is the lymph node that caused me problems last time that has reared it's head again! I had a lot of radiotherapy and I assume my sternum must have also been targeted. I'll check with ED tomorrow.
That's lovely to hear about the lady who is 20 years on from her SBC diagnosis :cathappy: Do you remember which thread you read it on?
I've been offered some counselling with Macmillan, which I think's a good idea. Unfortunately the first date is on the 17th March, which will be a year since my dad died, so I don't think it'll be a good idea to go then as I'll already be emotional and I'd like to spend the day with my girls and family. xx
Oh and to add to it all, my 5 year old cat has got kidney failure. Took him for a check up at the vet's today and he's lost more weight. He's got to go back on Friday for a fluid infusion, but the vet said I should start preparing myself that I might have to put him to sleep before too long! He's such a lovely natured cat and a good companion when I had chemo before and couldn't face human company xx
Jencat, sorry to hear you can’t go on the trial. It must feel very daunting having to face it all again. Use the forums as Shi suggested. Remember we’re all here for you. Sending love, hugs and strength to you 😘😘
Jencat, how is the nibble in the same area that you had rads before? Wasn’t that just targeted to the breast first time? I think it’s worth you querying for sure see what your Ed thinks when she gets home tomorrow. I read a wonderful post on the threads a few weeks ago of a lady who was 20 on from her secondary diagnosis 👍 I’m sorry I can’t remember who is was but it is something I wanted to tell you I saw because it was inspirational and she is living well with her secondary 👍 use the threads Jencat, people who are living with secondary will be able to 👭 guide you ❤️❤️ 💕💕✨✨Shi xx
Thanks Shi x I did mention radiotherapy when I saw my onc, but she said I'd already had it, so couldn't have it there again or maybe only one session. I've heard from the chemo unit today, got pre-chemo meeting on Thursday and then will start chemo next Tuesday or Wednesday. I think I'm going to have to dig deep having it, before it was for a cure, now it's not, although hopefully it will noticeably shrink the cancer I think I'll probably feel a bit better when ED gets home tomorrow, she's very positive! xx
❤️Jencat ❤️ not the news we were all hoping to hear for you ❤️ have you discussed some more rads to have a go at the nibble? Might be worth asking, also the ask the nurse facility on here could give you some support and guidance ❤️ you should also ask you unit/local Macmillan if there are any groups nearby that you can join so you’ll have extra support of more amazing people too ❤️❤️all the oct17 girls and sending you big ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💕💕✨✨Shi xx
Just spoken to my onc and unfortunately my tumour isn't a match for the new chemo, so will be starting Carboplatin sometime next week. Feeling quite low as being TN my treatment options are more limited. I was fairly ok about it all before with the spot to my sternum being so small and the possibility of having this new chemo. Now I feel as if the reality of the situation is hitting home and I'm not feeling so positive xx
Thinking of you and sending hugs Jencat. It's always harder to see things on paper. Hope your appointment goes well and remember we are all here for you ❤xx
Sending hugs Jencat, it is hard seeing things on paper. Hopefully good new about the trial, either way they seem to want to throw all guns blazing at it to give you as many options as possible 😘
Sending lots of love and strength Jencat xx It is so hard to see it all written down, I hope you get your plan sorted soon lovely. Always thinking of you 🤗
Sending you a hug Jencat - always harder seeing things written down than delivered by a human being .I hope you get good news about your chemo .x
Feeling low today and the first time I've had a good cry since my diagnosis 3 weeks ago! Received a letter today about the meeting I had with my onc and although it didn't say anything different than we'd spoken about, it was hard to see it all in black and white. It didn't say I had SBC, but a local-regional recurrence, that's inoperable, so palliative chemo rather than curable, which I knew, but found it hard to read. I also had a missed call this eve from my onc, which was probably about which chemo I'm going to have, so upset about that as well now! x
Hi Susie, lovely to hear from you and thank you very much for your reassurance about a delay in treatment. Yes, fingers crossed (and toes!) that I can have this new chemo, although being realistic I know it's more likely that my biopsy won't meet the criteria for it. With the waiting around to start chemo, sometimes it feels a bit surreal that I'm going to be having it again fairly soon, everything around me seems normal! xx