Nice to see so many people coming to the end of their treatment. I'm getting back into the swing of real life but having ups and downs along the way. I woke in the middle of the night to the thought, "That's right I've had breast cancer". It was as though I'd only just realised. I think the next year is going to be a bumpy one emotionally. It's true we cope one day at a time during our treatment but then we have time to reflect and that can be tough. I felt quite revived by my trip to Rome, then a bit deflated when I went back to work because a) a much loved colleagues is leaving-we're only a team of 4 and she's the person I have most in common with in terms of outlook/work ethic, so work is going to be a very different place....and b) Strong chance of closure by June 2014. This made me feel quite anxious for a few days and I was beginning to fear that maybe the tamoxifen side effects were kicking in early. However, working with young children is quite rejuvenating so by the end of the week I'd shrugged off that worry (what will be, will be) and now I feel back to my old self.
Tamoxifen is def giving me a dry mouth, leaving a slightly sweet taste (I think it's the coating) but after taxotere, I scoff at it's feeble attempts to affect my mouth. I am getting clammy moments (a continuation of chemo side effects) but that's really quite bearable. Actually, I'm suffering more from cold flushes. I am absolutely freezing at home-despite astronomical gas bills (cancer aint cheap). So only 2 weeks into the pill popping but so far so good. I'm not being complacent because I think things get bad around month 2 and by year 5 people seem to be quite worn down. I may not take it that long if it gets bad though. I was only 6/8 for oestregen dependency (7/8 for progesterone) so feel I can play dice with the number a wee bit.
On the down side I've to go and see my oncologist this weeks because of chest pains I had after last herceptin, I'm keeping everything crossed that it was a flukey moment because herceptin is the main weapon in my armoury.
Qd-sorry to hear about your husband. Fingers crossed for him. A job loss is hard to take, particularly as we get older and options narrow. Brilliant news on your scan though!
Wendy-Hope the news is good for your daughter. I haven't gone down the genetic testing route yet but it is lurking along the line somewhere. I also have daughters (and a son) and I could not bear for them to ever have to deal with cancer.
Lisal-Sorry to hear about your nasty side effects. I just hope that at day 9 you are about to turn the corner. I found salt water very effective in keeping my mouth ulcer free.
Cybele-Sorry about the dental hell. That is just not one bit fair! Glad your swimming has recommenced. I've joined my local Virgin Active club and have done 2 sessions, 50 lengths each time (with breaks for the jacuzzi and steam room). I'm not a strong swimmer. Never learned to swim properly, just taught myself-so it's head above water stuff and probably not gaining much exercise wise but feels good anyway. Got a call from one of the young pups at the club to ask me when I wanted to book in for my 'programme'. I think they meant on the exercise machines. I think that may have to wait till I have hair because I don't think a wig and beret ensemble would work on the running machine alongside all these young girls with their bobbing ponytails.
Good luck with the radiotherapy Lolly. For me it was an absolute breeze. My skin barely changed colour and i found it all very relaxing.
Hamley-So glad you've got your 1st Mx over. Must be quite a relief to have that cancerous area gone! Take it easy with your recovery and be good to yourself-'lots of treats' would be my prescription.
..............and to Cressida, out there in the land of the long-lashed cow, hope you are having a blast!