I think that maybe some of you will pop in over Christmas, so I want to wish you all a Happy Christmas and a Healthy New Year. Thank you for all your support over the last year. I am, honestly, not sure that I could have done it without you.
Any Crackers (or lurkers) who want to stay in touch and be invited to a get together next year, please send me a PM with some contact details. That way I will get an email notification.
Love you all, xxxxx
Crackers (one year on)
Starting chemo in December,
Toxic drugs in an IV shot.
I know of no reason,
Why poison in the season,
Could ever be forgot.
Maire gathered her companions,
And so the Crackers did contrive
To get through the onslaught of poisons
And to come out alive.
Three score barrels of poison,
Will send you mad beyond reason,
But, by sticking together, we got through alive,
Crawling out of the dark; starting to thrive.
So give us a break,
A drink and some cake,
We’re tired all the time,
Our joints are just pain,
Our brains work part time
And we want to complain.
So, FEC off to cancer,
And all it’s evil treatments,
To hormone interceptors
And scans and appointments.
Well done girls, bl**dy well done,
We’re here, we’re alive and we are moving on,
Hip hip hooray for the Crackers!
Long live the Crackers!
It was my husbands birthday yesterday. we had a family celebration in the pub - a far cry from last year when I had my first chemo.
"So how did you celebrate being 60 last year"?
"Um 7 hours in a chemo ward watching my wife getting poisoned".
BUT the poison worked so roll on Christmas!!!!
love to all x
Apart from the nails breaking all the time its been ok. I do know all the staff at the hospital really well now. I cant believe we have been every 3 weeks for a year.
I had FEC chemo in 2009 so my veins are worn out, and since it was chemo again and herceptin for the year the port seemed a better option.
I have worked all the way through, for me it was better not thinking about it all the time and mostly have felt ok.
Good luck for the last 2. Looking forward to hearing that you are done. Think we are the last 2 to cross the finish line.
I've just 2 more to go Mz.Will be finishing at the end of January. I've had all mine via veins in hand but usually takes a few tries. Looking forward to getting to the finishing line. Not that I feel bad but am hoping to feel some benefit once it's all over. How have you been with the heceptin?
Bet you're glad it's all over.
Just been reading the last few posts and it is comforting to know that you all seem to be feeling the same as me.
I was diagnosed on 31st October 2012 - lumpectomy 10th November and I too, like Maire, started my chemo on 28th November. So late in the month I sort of fell into the December Crackers group. QD I also didn't know whether to be elated or cry. I felt weird really as if it had all be a dream (or nightmare!!!) Back in November 2012 I thought my world as I knew it had ended but I'm still here and life goes on just the same as before it all started.
Haven't yet had my annual check up and mammo. I was treated privately so not really sure what happens next. Really looking forward to Christmas which is a big event in our house and it was just not the same last year even though we tried hard to be "jolly". I hope all the ladies in the group have a lovely, peaceful and healthy Christmas and new year - indeed I wish this for everyone on the forum.
I haven't visit the site so much lately mainly because most of the time I forget about my own connection to cancer which is a good thing as it helps me to be normal. Then I read something in the paper or hear something on the radio which brings the big C into my mind and then I remember and come back the this site because you all gave me so much comfort whilst I was going through treatment. Especially because I didn't tell anyone I had cancer other than my husband and children and best friend so this site was somewhere that I could open up and talk freely to people who knew what was going on in my life. Thank you to everyone and I truly hope you all go from strength to strength.
hi all my diagnosis anniversary today. feels a bit odd. dont know wheteher to cry or laugh- so did both! love to all x
It seems such a long time ago we were all just starting our treatment we have all done so well. Just got to live life to the full.
I can't believe a year has passed. This time last year I was hours away from my first dose of chemo. I feel a bittersweet nostalgia about it all. Weirdly!
It's def an experience I will never forget and hope never to repeat. Thinking back to December 2012 I remember a sense of life standing still and a desire to hibernate till spring.
I hope all the Crackers have fantastic Christmasses this year-and good luck with the mammo results Lolly.
Well thats my mamo over and done with till the next time all i have to do now is wait for the post to drop through the door in two weeks time.
hope you are all well
hi to you all long time no speak, ive not been on here for such a long time thought i would pop in to see how you are all doing, got a lot of reading to do, lol.
i am back to work full time now and doing ok, my hair is growing back quite even all over very thick, but want it to grow quicker, but got to be patiant.
my right hand has been opperated on for Carpol Tunnel, it healing quite well, been about 27days since opp so slow progress but it is a progress, got to wait 3 months before they will do the other hand, but cant wait till i get it done.
go my mamo tomorrow first one since BC was found so hoping all is still well get results in two weeks time.
will keep you informed as to the results.
anyway Crackers keep smiling we have all come through a touch year,
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Yup-I've been getting a lot of pain in my hip. But the intensity comes and goes. That oestregen was pretty useful stuff. Sorry about your pain it's pants.
Have just discovered I've been carrying about a medical alert card from my chemo days. Have joyfully ripped it up!
Oh no-what you struggling with?
I'm flushing away but not finding it too bad. My 'fro is getting me down a bit. Feel a bit Art Garfunkel.
yippee Cress! Njoy!
Hi all !
Maire - my hair is growing up and out too!!!! it used to be long and straight. I've always had a fringe to cover my wrinkles and at the moment its that blooming curly it doesnt even reach the first wrinkle! still at least I have some hair so shouldnt complain! x
Well, there is something wrong with my back, but I knew that. I have to wait for the full MRI report, but my Onc rang them and they said it is not cancer. My bone scan was clear. So I don't give a flying f*ck what is actually wrong with my back -
THERE IS NO EVIDENCE OF METS
I am packing my bags and going to Spain.
Thank you sooooo much to every one who cheered me on.
I am never having another scan again. I officially opt out. Unless something springs alien like out of my body I am not putting myself through that again.
Love you all, xxxxx
Not had a chance to catch up on everything,,,,but just popping in to send my love,,,,, Cress - let us know how your results are......I'm 4 weeks away from recon. be glad to get surgery out the way. Hoping they take all my stomach away so that i end up like an ironing board!!!!
And will be good to have smaller boobs! might even run for a bus in the new year!
On the subject of hair; I look like my dad!
love to all
My hair's a bit thin at the front too. I'm blaming Tamoxifen. I've been purple, ginger and now kind of brown. Hair is defying gravity at the moment and contiunes to grow upwards and outwards.
woohoos all round! Marie my nails are just about recovered 5 months on from last chemo though my toenails have not grown back completely yet. just wish my hair would grow quicker at the front. cant decide what colour to go , fed up with being told short and grey suits me cos thats what my sistr whos 11 yrs older than me has!
Woohoos from me too!
I've just had number 14 Mz. My nails are annoying. Keep splitting.
I'm getting 18 herceptins. So four more to go.
Number 16 done and dusted yesterday.
Will be thrilled to have my portacath removed, have hated it all year, but did make chemo and herceptin so much quicker and easier.
My nails are so soft and break all the time. Not sure if its herceptin or tamoxifen doing the damage.
Thanks for all the crossing ladies. You can relax for 2 weeks until the results now.
I have only had breast MRI before. Because I had a variety of scans this time I was treated to a variety of different types of banging. About half way through I heard something that would not have been out of place in a night club (mind you, it's been a while since I was in a night club). I wonder if anyone has sampled the noise from an MRI.
Hair - I have been colouring mine with semi permanent Wella dye. It's great for making my hair shiney. I have stopped for now as I want to go swimming on holiday (also 2 weeks away). I don't want to be floating in a cloud of dye. Bad enough wondering if everyone can tell that one of my boobs is made of shower puffs. I am relying on my hairdresser to decide when to hit it with major chemicals. She thinks it will be OK by Christmas. That is quite a long time after chemo (over a year since FEC-T and over 6 months since GemCarbo). Maybe it's because I cold capped and the hair I had left was delicate - if you grew from scratch it might be different. I am just suggesting you ask a hair dresser's advice.
Survived the bone scan, now for the MRI.
Tell us more about the moving on course - I looked at them, but I would have to get into London before 9.30am. Just too expensive and painful (standing on rush hour trains etc).
bty, I just spell checked this, and it suggests I replace Lisalouw with "luscious"
Need you all to get everything crossable crossed as I have bone scan tomorrow and MRI on Friday. Oh Joy. I was doing so well and not thinking about bl**dy cancer, but it's hard to ignore it as giant machines whir and bang about me whilst they specifically look for it.
If I survive this, remind me never to tell an oncologist anything ever again, and just smile and nod and say I am fine.
Ignorance is bliss.
At least that's one more hurdle overcome Shellebelle. Thinking of you and your horrid dizzyness. Hope you're coping.
Anyone else on Herceptin at mo? I've just had number 13 and it's getting really tough. Don't know how I'll manage 5 more.
The jumping and shouting was a good tip Cressida.