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Evie-S
Community Champion

Re: 11 years on

Brilliantly put Chick. Mairead I hope they can sort out your gallstones quickly and easily, I don’t know much about them. Sending big hugs to you 🤗

Evie xx

Chick1
Member

Re: 11 years on

Greetings Mairead, 

The news was so good you posted it thrice 😊.  Absolutely delighted for you - not that you've got gallstones but you know what I mean. Yes I agree ******g cancer!

All the very best to you and your family, 

Chick 🐥 x

mairead
Member

Re: 11 years on

There was a problem with posting my comments now they’re all there! 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

mairead
Member

Re: 11 years on

Hi ladies

 

 thank you so much for your concern and comments, i’m happy to say I have gall stones  - that seems to be what’s been tinkering with the blood tests!! 

 

Sending love to everyone and thanks again. Hopefully this will be the last scare for a while!! X 

mairead
Member

Re: 11 years on

Hello everyone. 

 

I am sure I posted but it hadn’t appeared in my comments for some reason. Thank you all so much for your comments and concern; I’m happy to say that I’ve got gall stones which has interfered with the blood tests! Phew!! 

 

I was truly scared this time. I hate cancer 👊🏼😤

mairead
Member

Re: 11 years on

Hello 

 

thank you you so much everybody for your comments and concern. I’m happy to say that I’ve got gall stones which have been tinkering with the blood results! I’ve never been so relieved; I was really really worried this time. 

 

Blinking cancer! 😤😣

 

 

Ruby1
Member

Re: 11 years on

Hi Mairead

 

I remember you as I was diagnosed in 2007 and think I probably joined these forums later in the year.  Really hope all is okay.  These things are sent to test us, aren't they!  I've also had a few scares.  It's almost 12 years since this all started for me.  I've just had loads of scans and tests as I wasn't well, but it seems to have resolved itself now, and it wasn't cancer related thankfully.  

 

Thinking of you and sending big hugs

 

xx

Chick1
Member

Re: 11 years on

Hello Mairead, 

My fingers are crossed for you too for tomorrow's scan.  Hope you have something nice planned today and you can just get on with enjoying it.  

Take care, 

Chick x 🐥 

Evie-S
Community Champion

Re: 11 years on

Hi mairead - I just wanted to send you a big hug and wish you all the best for Monday. The waiting really is awful as your mind goes into overdrive. If it helps you do chat away on here anytime especially over the weekend while you wait, everyone understands the anxiety before scans etc. Looking back to your first message, I would recommend counselling - I had some and it has helped me a lot.

Evie xx

mairead
Member

Re: 11 years on

Thanks chick my scan is on Monday now 😩 I’ll let you know how it goes; fingers crossed! X

Chick1
Member

Re: 11 years on

Hello Mairead, 

How are you feeling about it all? How incompetent of your health service, in my opinion.  I am surprised that they could not give you another appointment at the time as it was their error. I hope it comes soon. 

Best wishes to you, 

Chick 🐥 x

 

mairead
Member

Re: 11 years on

Thank you everyone! 

 

There was a technical glitch with the booking system so when I arrived at my appointment they couldn’t see me and I’ve git to wait again now! 🤬

Chick1
Member

Re: 11 years on

Hello Mairead, 

Just wanted to wish you all the best for tomorrow.  Hope you are feeling a bit more chilled about the situation.  If you are finding your anxiety going overboard,  you can always ring the nurses up on here and chat it out.  You could also ring GP and ask for a short course of meds to reduce the anxiety feelings.  All the best to you, 

Chick 🐣 x

mairead
Member

Re: 11 years on

Thank you both for your kind words and replies. I have to wait till Friday for the scan then undoubtedly a further few days after that to get the results. 

 

Its just so hard and I’m getting annoyed and frustrated that even with the amount if time passed, I’m still living with it. I’m so so frightened that my daughter will grow up without me like I had to grow up without my mum which makes it all the worse. Pre my little girl I’d have probably listened to the dr as he only wants to scan me as a precaution but I can’t help but automatically assume it’s the dreaded beast coming back. 

 

I will look to find some groups as that may help, thank you for your suggestion. Xx

 

 

Chick1
Member

Re: 11 years on

Hello Mairead,

 

I am so sorry to hear that you are going through such a difficult time at the moment.  The trouble is you can do nothing else but face it head on and go through the recommended scans and tests.  I was diagnosed in Sept 2016 and have already been through 2 recurrence scares (bone and mastectomy site). 

 

Irrespective of your  outcome, I think you are right in trying counselling to assist you in managing thoughts and feelings before they end up overwhelming you.  Hopefully you have a Maggies type centre or other support centre where you can access services timeously.  It can be easier and more productive  talking to people  we do not have a personal relationship with.

 

Forgive my clumsy expression if the following comes over patronising.  Wow - what a lot you have been through at such a young age.  To have had BC and undergone mastectomy and treatment at 22 - then to have successfully got on with your life as you have is admirable in my opinion.  Just hold on to that tenacity, resolve and the beautiful things in your life like your daughter and the love you have,  to try and  keep the demon thoughts at bay.

 

I hope you let us know how things go for you.

Wishing you all the best,

Chick x

 

 

 

Sue C
Community Champion

Re: 11 years on

Hi mairead

So sorry to read that you're struggling right now. Bc sadly never goes away totally in our thoughts and any abnormality that occurs, we will always think the worst. However, the last couple of scares that you've had, turned out to be nothing, and let's hope this one will be too. My daughter recently had a high reading on her liver, but on a second blood test it then resolved itself. Doctors will always double check things just to be on the safe side because of our history. 

I wish you all the best and let us know how you get on. 

Sue xx 

mairead
Member

11 years on

Hello

 

i joined BCC in 2008 when I was 22 years old, having just had a mastectomy and had started hormone therapy. 

 

I I have a long family history of BC and was under a genetic consultant at the time of my diagnosis and was lucky to have caught the little bugger almost straight away, stage and grade 1, ER+. 

 

Lots has happened over the years, I’ve ‘grown up’! Found the love of my life ten years ago, bought my own house, great job, engaged and I now have a beautiful baby daughter who has literally made my life.

 

in June last year my dad died from pancreatic cancer, it was a long Illness and expected but heartbreaking, but as I was pregnant I had the baby to focus on. When I was37 weeks pregnant I found a lump in my collar bone, I had to go for an ultrasound and it was just an inflamed lymph node so that was a relief. A couple of months after my daughter was born I found a lump in my armpit, which turned out to be a fatty lump. Now due to just having a bit of a check up my ALT liver results are showing abnormally high and I literally am bricking it. 

 

I’ve become an emotional and nervous wreck and I keep thinking that it’s going to come back and I’m going to leave my baby without a mum, and I had to live without my mum as she died of BC when I was four. The dr said that I need to go for a scan but has tried to reassure me that it’s probably nothing but I can’t help thinking the worst. I’ve always tried to be positive when it comes to BC but I’m struggling - I’m sick if it consuming everything; my daughter is six months old and I’ve had three scares during that time and I’m becoming exhausted by it. If it turns out to be ok I think I’m going to go counselling - my friends and family don’t understand, not really and just tell me to be positive, it’s 11 years on etc etc. I feel like I’m starting to develop anxiety, it’s prob a mixture of everything that’s happened and continues to, I just want some peace.

 

Sorry to go on, I found this forum so comforting when I was in the midst of my diagnosis and some years after, it’s nice to vent to people who understand. 

 

😊