You might want to reach out to the charity Maggies. They've been so, so wonderful in terms of support, during and after. After my second diagnosis, I did a course called 'Where Now?' which was all about dealing with life after the medical side had stopped - a time when it's so easy to feel adrift.
I believe they're doing a lot of support online at the moment, worth a look.
Hi, one charity that has been super helpful for me through all these years is Breast Cancer Haven. I used to do the classes / counselling in the Leeds centre, but now everything moved online to zoom: there's a monthly group for "end of treatment support", I attended for the first time last week, and it was great (as my counsellor has had to cancel a couple of times due to personal issues and I was missing the support...).
It showed me I'm definitely not alone with my issues. It was a small group, I think 7 ladies plus the moderator, who's also a lady who's had breast cancer.
I don't really have anything to add than to say I think it's "normal". I am not quite two years post diagnosis, and I have good and bad days. But like ScarletBea I switch sides if there are cancer ads on TV, and feel I just can't deal with that. I even stopped coming here for a very long time, because I couldn't even cope with that. I am having a bit of a downer recently and feeling anxious. Where I live there is no ongoing support from BCNs, and I am completely in the hands of my GP, who isn't really "open for business" at the moment, and I don't really feel gets the emotional impact of BC at all.
So - no help from me, other than to say I am in a similar boat and it's good to know I am not alone...
I also had mine in 2016, and I'm in a sort of similar place.
When I had it, during the treatment, the year after that, I couldn't read enough about breast cancer. I went through all the books in the library, memoirs, tips and tricks, this forum... Now, I simply can't hear about it. Any mention of cancer (for example on TV) leaves me feeling nervous and anxious, and I really don't understand why - it's something I'm still working through...
I didn't have the usual check-up this year due to covid (they only gave me a mammogram) and although that was back in May, I'm always wondering if the nurse would have found something on the treated side - I needed that support and confirmation...
I only came here to the forum today to complain about tamoxifen, they changed my brand again and now I'm just feeling really down.
Anyway, I think all these feelings are perfectly normal, but knowing that doesn't really help in dealing with them 😕
Yes coming up to my second mammogram after surgery Jan 2019 and can feel the stress increasing doubt it ever goes fully away .