Hello Rachel, I'm so sorry to hear you have lost a dear friend.
I wanted to send you a reply because I to feel like I am drowning in self pity. I lost my brother to Cancer a couple of months ago. Since then my whole world is crashing around me. I can't think straight don't want to do/ go anywhere, just about dragging myself out of bed to go to work. I had BC in 2014 and like you have kept going throughout but this has finally broke me. He was younger than me and I feel so so sad he has gone.
I'm sorry I don't have any answers at the moment ,but wanted you to know you're not alone.
Sending you a big hug and lots of love.
I was diagnosed in July 2016 and had surgery the following month. Today I had to say goodbye to one of my breast cancer buddies who had surgery around the same time as me but I'm finding it really hard to deal with. I feel so guilty. She was such a wonderful lady who helped me through one of the most difficult times of my life. In my eyes she had everything - doting husband, and wonderful loving family.
I've been 'strong' for 2 years. I never really stopped work, just had the odd week off to recover from chemo and now feel that after saying goodbye, everything's caught up with me. Is this normal? I feel like I'm drowning in my own self-pity but want nothing more than to be able to snap myself out of it. Her husband and children are suffering more than me so why am I such a mess??!!!!!