Michelle, I can only imagine how tough that was telling your children.
Feeling nervous going into the unknown is the norm even with some info/knowledge beforehand.
This is the start of treatment which is good .... you’ll have one treatment done by the end of today.
thinking of you today
Just read the new posts on this thread, Michelle and realised you're starting chemo today, good luck and hugs. It's scary, but I've already realised we're all much stronger than we think we are, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes. I'll be thinking about you today. xxx
The best of luck for today Michelle 💪💪 Its awful having to tell our kids and goes against the grain as a parent to do anything to unsettle them. We kept as upbeat as we could in front of them but honest at the same time , they were fussing around me for a while but they soon got back to doing their own thing which is just what we wanted them to be doing and not worrying about me! 3 years on they have all but forgotten it even happened!
It is so tough and had someone told you months ago you would be dealing with this you would have said no I couldn't do it but here you are doing it! 👌 Xx Jo
I got feedback from my bcn.... no huge surprises on MRI...size is approx to uss and other side is ok. I’ll see what MDT says next Wednesday. Plus I’m HER2 neg.
Sounds as though you have a very supportive husband. I too worried about my hubby but he’s medically minded and has a positive outlook however I have told him he may need to talk to someone other than me about how he feels as things have a habit of catching up. Anyway we prop each other up....
Best wishes and positive vibes for tomorrow
Yes it’s a great sunny day...just been to the seaside for a walk and will be popping back l8r while the suns still shining.
Hope you’ve got sorted somehow today. There appears to be lots to take into account. How’s your hubby / children ?
Sounds as though there is lots of support and good advice for you on here/ other thread.
Ill be thinking of you tomorrow.
Ive not had a meeting with my nurse...she’s just back to work today. I’m finding email seems to be the easiest way of getting in touch. My MRI hadn’t been reported on for the Tuesday MDT...it was a BH when I had it so it’ll be next week. I can’t see why I couldn’t have a courtesy call 🤔 just to give me a heads up .. ie is other side ok, extent etc... just a bit of prep before clinic appt....anything but ‘pigeon post’.
Oh well, hey ho .... feel in limbo
That words probably a throw back to work .... ex NHS !!!
My goodness Michelle, that’s quick but you’re starting treatments so that’s positive. You’ll definitely have lots to sort out. There’ll be lots of information and support from those who have been and are going through chemo now.
Glad to hear you’re looking to have the ‘social stuff’ in your diary also.
I’ll be thinking about you on Friday and hope you will let me know how you’re doing. I’ll keep an eye out for your posts anyway.
Sending positive vibes
Apologies...can’t believe I used the journey word ..... I have lots of words about what we are all going through but I don’t think I can post them !!! What do you call it ?
thinking of you today and everybody else
It must be very difficult regarding your children....I don’t have that added stress.
I think you are right about “ getting organised”... it is clawing a bit of control back and it does help plus I don’t want to leave it to the last minute as I’d end up like a headless chicken !!!
I have a date for surgery which in a weird way I’ll be happy to have ....just get it out of the way but my plan may turn out to be different so I’m not holding my breath. I realise that this journey we are on is complex and very individual.
I will prob start to feel anxious and panicky before appointment to get results/information.... it’s only natural.
You will have more information tomorrow about your chemo which is a step forward although it’s still scary but I expect we will feel more at ease when we have information to work with instead of being up in the air.
Your appointment change could probably be part of the system ... availability of appropriate doc.
I hope the toad in the hole went ok.
sending positive vibes for tomorrow
Hi Cass, I too was diagnosed last week with stage 3 bc, waiting for a CT scan to see if it has spread. Waiting is horrible. Itry to keep as busy as possible. Dog has walks , the ironing is done soon as, drawers have been emptied. Soooo up to date with everything. Trying not to read too far ahead on this site, gave myself a wobbly yesterday , so trying to keep it to what I know now. Should have CT within 14 days. Keep busy, talk to people and use the Forum. I too feel that every twinge is a sign of cancer, my son said 'no Mum, thats because you're 60' Bless him, had to laugh. Take Care Cazzy
How are you today ?
I don’t think everyone has an MRI... docs just want to check extent .... nothing else on my mammogram or USS but I thought I had a dimple but not evident on exam. It’s very individual.
My op is booked for 19th but wle may change depending on mri result. I’ll be contacting nurse Thursday to see if I can glean some information. Preop next week.
Mornings seem to be the worst time for me... the one thing I really don’t have the motivation for is cooking....just want something easy... my husband would probably say that nothings changed !!!
Been out and had bra fitting @ m&s ... got a post op bra and sports bra so that’s something. I’ve sent away for a couple of soft front fastening bras from Asda so will see what they’re like. Xhugx
I had my MRI today. I’m not due appointment til next week, preop, although I’m going to catch up with my Mac nurse on Thursday. Sounds as though you are going to have a good day... positive vibes. It’s good to sleep well and makes such a difference.
Will think of you on Thursday.
Yes, today is going to be a good day. I'm going to gave a good fettle today, so the house should look better by the end of it!
Love the sound of your day, it is amazing the difference having a good nights sleep can make to your overall wellbeing.
Have a lovely day despite the weather xxx
Ladies I so feel for you all at the minute, I will never forget that awful time in the early days when the fear was so over whelming and you just want it all to stop, it's was the lowest I felt throughout .
Things just begin to change as you tick off each stage and without even realising it the days and weeks are passing and you are dealing with it, as you say there is nothing you can do other than go with it and Personally I found none of it was as I'd imaged at all!
3 years ago I couldnt see past the end of the week let alone to all this being over and life ever being normal again but it is , life is great ! We go to work , we chat about our day over tea , go to bed and repeat!
You appreciate the simple things , our motto is boring is good!
Can relate to how you’re feeling Michelle21.
Can feel myself dipping again tonight ... thoughts of MRI / results / all my twinges seem to be too enhanced to be nothing etc etc ... start to get scared. Even Top Gear isn’t distracting me
Waiting for a few good vibes to come back but I don’t find it easy to feel optimistic or hopeful... tendency to be on the dark side when the old brain cell goes into overdrive. I’ll work on it though.
sending hugs to all
Just wanted to send you all hugs and honestly it does get better in time
We are all here for you whenever you need us
Hi Cass, sorry you find yourself here but welcome to the forum. I had a similar diagnosis to you, stage 3 including lymph nodes. I finished all active treatment in January and am now a year post-diagnosis and feeling pretty good and very alive! If you want something to relate to here is my blog for you to read (warning: may contain humour) http://lifeafterlola.blogspot.co.uk/
Try and be kind to yourself and pamper yourself a bit to feel better. It's really tough in the beginning but it does get easier. Xxx
I’ve been around the shops too Michelle21...got a pair of pj’s from Bon marche...front button top with short sleeves..in sale £12. Went into m&s but no bra fitter but have ordered a couple of front fastening sports bras as I understand they are comfy and I’ve booked in for fitting next week. I’ve also had my hair cut short...easier to manage + who knows what treatment I might need.
I do hope your night out might provide a bit of distraction and you get through it ok... I guess it’ll be hard being in a crowd.
sending a big hug
Im having MRI to determine size as I’d mentioned ‘dimple’ although not there all time.
I’m like you with all my twinges ....
I was saying to Fairy Dust that if I was a runner I’d probably keep going....
I do find it hard concentrating at times. I’ve started a journal of sorts...have a notebook I can jot things down in when I feel the need....usually at bedtime. Being on this forum helps too.
Sending a hug and good wishes for ct scan result next week.