Progesterone, assorted other hormones and fluffy cake

[delly]

Errrrr, i heard you all breathe a "Sigh of Relief" earlier, when I said I wouldn't be back till tomorrow.  Soooo, I thought I'd catch you all out with a very cheeky, sneaky visit. So Ha bloomin Ha - tough boobies babes. That's "Sha Up Essex" speaky again. Apologies to those of you who are actually from Essex!! Yes I AM taking the Proverbial 'P' again.

I'm sorry about this, 'cos I don't want to be a "downer" on all your lovely days, so forgive me for that but I find it's good for me to get it out on here sometimes. And thank you, in advance for your patience and allowing me to offload.

I'm in a right state today. Managed to keep myself together yesterday up until coming off the phone to SweetSue and before my last post. Terribly teary, but letting it out. I'm soooooo glad I'm going to be in the company today, of people who are so very dear to me and that I love and care so much about. Who were life long friends of my parents, have known me from being born and that I know love me equally as much. Very "special" to me in other words. Think it's gonna be giggly, but also teary and emotional.

I was saying to Sue, last night, and I'm probably repeating myself on here, how I used to be a very emotionally retentive person, controlled, "private", difficult to read, didn't wear my emotions on my sleeve. Someone who couldn't/wouldn't cry in front of people - used to do it in my own privacy. Don't know why, guess "stiff upper lip" n all that, right from being a child.

Well, ALL of that CHANGED, and suddenly. And it was all down to my Dads terminal diagnosis, and being given a year and a half to live. All I wanted to do from that point on, was to tell him how much I loved him, what a brilliant Dad he'd been, and make the absolute most of what treasured time I had left "with" and "of" him. How bloomin sad that it took some drastic for me to be able to be that much more VERBALLY demonstrative - speak my feelings. I've always been a very physically affectionate person so I did always "show" it. But, I realised, to actually speak your feelings is equally, if not that much more important. And from then on, it has extended to everyone and anyone who's already part of, or that comes into my life. It's been a major part in what makes me that much more of a compassionate person, not just the BC experience and loss of other family etc. I think it was Charys I said this to recently, because she kindly remarked on what a compassionate and caring person I was, but she, and Janey are almost shockingly insightful, perceptive women (thanks both of you). What she recognised, is that much of it comes from a position of "pain", and all of that was just from stuff I've written in posts !! What I write, how I write, the upset stuff and even the funny, droll stuff.

All the loveydovey stuff I put down on here to all of you and ANYbody, is all very genuine and seriously heartfelt. Even though I haven't actually met you (which I keep threatening IS going to change !! I'm determined in that it will happen someday hopefully soon, even if I do have to come and physically drag you myself !!), it doesn't stop you feeling. As I mentioned to someone last night - I think it was Teasel - you CAN and DO actually "feel" the love, care, support, empathy, compassion, passion even. This thread literally  "Ooooozes" it. In fact, the whole Forum "oooozes it. But this thread in particular.

Sooooo, I just wanted to say all of that - verbalise it. And I'll keep saying/repeating it, no doubt. So you all have to put up with it I'm afraid - tough, so there.

Love yers to bits and back to a whole again !!  <<< Yerrrrr nice

Dellywellydingdong xxxxxxxxxx Now bogoff and let me get on with what I'm supposed to be doin - makin me late. S'all your faults !!!! 

[Cla46]

Happy Boxing Day everyone ,

I'm looking forward to a more relaxed day today . Have a lovely time Delly xxx 

We're off for a long walk and some fresh air before I tackle tonights buffet 😀 Have a fab day whatever your doing 

Love and hugs Clair xxx 

[Dizzybee]

Delly enjoy your day, look forward to hearing about it tomorrow

[Lesley21]

Happy Boxing Day to one and all,

Delly Delicious, stop worrying, Im sure you didn't upset anyone.  And remember Mac's  outfit was for medical reasons, and very handsome he looked too,  Have a lovely time time with aunt and uncle xx

[delly]

Good Morning and Happy Boxing Day to everyone.

Lorac and Moijan - I'll have to scan back sometime to see what I said about cats. Was I going on about them having feelings, and poor Mac - being dressed up in a babygrow !! Poor dog. Thank You both for you Xmas Day wishes, I was absolutely fine, pretty much occupied on here, the laptop and lots of lovely phone calls and text messages. It was so lovely to see you both "on" yesterday. Had to giggle at your lunch description Moijan - the Queen n all!!

Anyway, thank You all so much, dear friends, for thinking of me yesterday. Hope you all have a lovely, more peaceful and restful Boxing Day. 

Am definitely have to get back to the doctors soon to discuss this head problem I'm having. Only way I can describe it is, I feel like something short circuiting, like a loose wire somewhere. It isn't all the time. Am off with soup, very gooey chocolate deserts and other goodies to Aunty M and Uncle A's today and am staying over in their residential guest room at the sheltered flats. So shalln't be around until tomorrow.

Bye for now.

Love to everyone,  Doolally xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[delly]

Oooooo - flip. I was only JOKING when I made comments about dressing cats up and taking the mickey as to how they must feel!!?? - honest. Have I upset someone?? I'm a bit flummoxed at the mo'. No,seriously I think I'm having some kind of memory lapse. Not at all on the same plane. Spoke to Sue tonight and had a weird lapse in my thinking with her too. Am goin to bed. Everythings feeling aAll a bit weird at the mo - sorry xxxx

[Lesley21]

Ha Beth, boys and their toys, can just picture Mac trying to figure that one out.

lovely  peaceful day day, just Himself and me, now all cosy and comfy.  Tomorrow will be complete opposite at my friends, lots of grandchildren, youngest born on Friday night.  Still her and I can sneak off to the kitchen if it gets too noisy and no one will complain, that's the one thing this year, everyone is treating me like I'm made of  fine China lol.

Hope you're all enjoying your evenings and not suffering with idesgestion.  Why is it, the more you eat the more you want?  

[lorac170]

Delly,
As long as Penny gets fed every 10 mins (and Patch) they don't mind in the least getting the mickey taking out of them. Only joking pet but both of them are rescue cats and food is a giant part of them being happy 😊 and I'm happy to go along with it. Hope u having nice day- all the best darling XXX

[Beth123]

Evening lovelies!

so we've just had turkey round 2 because as you know you just cant eat enough for lunch!!! Hmmmm evening supper of leftovers is just perfect!! You'd swear we were feeding the street with the amount we've cooked lol

This evening, strictly is on the tv, hubby is playing with the little drone he had for chrimbo, watched carefully by Mac who really isn't sure of it lol, and hubby is wearing the onsie I bought him to keep him warm as I keep turning the heating off! All rather perfect!!!

hope everyone is ok and has had a good not too stressful day

Beth xxx

[Moijan]

Sorry Delly, you prodded me re cats and id not seen that...yes, am a cat lover looney....I think animals are so uncomplcated...and...family are the opposite!

i do hope you are havng a lovely day Delly....and at least you can please your bleep self if you want...

someone..was it Helena? (Sorry.......was  Ladybowler) Said she was eating a late lunch at 4 something...well because muggins left the meat out a bit too long...we had to cook it twice as long to make sure! So we had lunch with the Queen and a long break...now eating the xmas pudding!....which to be honest has been steaming for a Cpl. of hours !

all too much, too much, but at least ive been able to avoid the chocolate! ( so far)

peace and hugs,

Moijan💚💚💚

[delly]

Basically Helena - it all sounds fandabidozee. Just enjoy.  "Rudolph the red nosed reindeer, had a  hum he hum he nose . . . . . . !! xxxx

[delly]

Helena - Ok, you've just made me scroll back through umpteen posts to find your venison dish. Hope you feel guilty now.  Couldn't find it, but wasn't it venison steaks in red wine with . . . .did someone mentioned shallots?? yes/no? Soooo SORRY, about saying CASSEROLE !!! I don't reeeally care, I just want an invite next year - capische?? Somebody provide me with a word that suits someoneone who splits hairs? Like myself really, "Pedantic". Haha. so all right then, enjoy your "slice" of reindeer steak!! xxx

[delly]

Yeh Helena, enjoy your chopped up reindeer casserole !! Ha bloomin Ha. xxxx

[Cla46]

Just a quick pop in cuz I miss you all. Lunch was a success and I'm feeling quite merry 😉 welcome Lisa xxxx
Carol Penny is so cute xx
Hope everyone 's day is going well catch up later tons of love xxxx

[delly]

Lesley - tell your sis to stay put and I'll be over. Flip, who wouldn't prefer Florida - seriously?? Don't do Baileys though - too sweet for me. Am deffo a "MontyDildo" woman - freshco's is well favoured. Good stuff. Oooo, I'm seriously torn between Portugal and Florida. Next years new biz venture - hire myself out to others on their ownio's on Xmas Day!! not that you Mums on her own Helena.

Lorac - you're another. You've completely spoiled a perfectly lovely pic of your cat. Don't you know they have feelings and can sense when you're taking the mick out of them. Which you seriously are   Forgot you, so sorry, have now added to my HUG list.

Soooo, did RUBY receive my big, flashing red nose "Hug of the Day" today?? Hope you're having a lovely day flower.

Speak to you all later

DoolallyDelly xxxxxxx

[delly]

There's definitely something about Christmas that makes you reflect and think on things differently. Perhaps it's all this "Goodwill to All Men"

Something happened to me yesterday.

You all know I've really not been myself mentally for quite a while now. I always like to "cultivate" relationships with my neighbours - important that you get on with yeh??

Well, I'd really got my knickers in a right twist last year with certain neighbours, about a fence panel having been taken out and left removed before I moved in (They'd been accessing my garden, to do bits of tidying!! - unnecessary, BUT without permission and left this open accessible gap to all and sundry.) which then remained left out of its slot for 15 months, plus tree roots from their side cracking the dividing wall. Shalln't bore you with all the facts. Have yet to consult a solicitor about the proper legalities of who's wall/fence it is or isn't. Was just summat else to have to deal with and didn't, not being in a fit state mentally to. Went totally bananas at them when they replaced ALL the fence panels with new, this March, accessing my garden without letting me know or asking, damaging a load of shrubs, trampling all over the shop. Steam was coming out of all those orifices again. Really let rip, threatening legal action blah blah. Didn't do anything. Had plenty of rants to myself about it, but never did "Get round to it" as per flippin usual.

But . . . .  it always really saddens me to not get on with people. (I'm quite nice and friendly really - yes really) 

So, something made me pop an Xmas card through their door, wishing and hoping they were all well. I was "in" when a hand and card appeared through my letterbox. I opened the door to catch and speak to whoever it was, unknowing that it was said neighbour returning a card. So went out to say Hi and to apologise for all my sh*ttiness about the fence etc. Explained I'd had a load of mental cr*p goin on and had been recently meaning to pop a letter of apology to them both through their door, cos I hate not getting on with people.

D'ya know what. She just gave me a GREAT big hug and said,  "It's okay Adele, know it's been tough for you, but thank you so much for apologising and your card, felt and sensed it was a bit of an olive branch".

Awwwwww - so a happy ending 'ey, and another bridge built. Jeez - think I need my head chopping off or my mouth sewing up sometimes.

Nice though 'ey.  It has become a philosophy of mine, in recent years, that we really DO all need to take care of each other, not just ourselves, which I'm not very good at anyway.

Just wanted to share that lovely little "happening/warmth".

xxxxxxx     

[lorac170]

Oops - didn't mean to make the photo that big although she's a very big girl.  X

[lorac170]

Merry Christmas to every single one of you. I hope you all have a lovely, peaceful, headache free, pain free & happy day. 

This is Penny, our other rescue cat. We think she's about 10 and we've had her 4 years.

All the very best & much love, Carol xxxxxxxxxx

[Janey2]

Happy Christmas to all of you wonderful women. We've had late brunch and off to the pub; hopefully the meat will now cook itself! 🎄🎉🎄😘

[Lesley21]

Done it again, think I need addiction counselling, just can't keep away!  Can't let Himself catch me though, he's taking a comfort break at the moment so it's just a quickie.  Yes thank you all, he's much better again, lets hope it's lasts this time.  We also had smoked salmon and scrambled eggs this morning but I didn't dare have the usual bubbles today, so scared of the "Head" coming back, would love one day off at least. 

Got all teary again reading your posts.  Big hello to you Lisa xx

Delly, my sister has messaged me from Florida where she's spending Christmas with her son who lives there. She's sooooo p****d off, says she wishes she was at home, just her and her dog, and bottle of Baileys and a box of chocs, think she'd swap with you lol xx

[Dizzybee]

Hi Tweazel, Christmas is a great time to make ñew friends, come on in, the sherry's out and the music's playing...

I'm glad to know that you didn't read this thread and think we're all completely mad! Sometimes I forget these are public conversations. 

These lovely ladies have kept me sane over the last couple of months, so huge hugs for everyone, and thank you all for being there, and being wonderful, funny, supportive and suppliers of great pictures, decorations, advice and hugs.

[delly]

Hey Tweazel - same to you lovey, Merry Christmas. Yes they are an exceptionally abfab lot on here. There's so much love, caring and support ooozing from this thread.

Don't just sit and read. Come on in and play with us. How are you?? Is everything going okay with you treatment/ops/recovery wise?? Hope to hear again from you very soon.  

Lesley - thank you, as are all of you in mine. Soppy lot aren't we - yerrrrr nice. Is "Grumpy" still grumpy today? Hope he's feeling better and that you have a pain free head day.

Beth - Here, here and CHEERS to good health and happiness for you/ US all. 

Dellywelly xxxxx

[Beth123]

MERRY CHRISTMAS YOU AMAZING BUNCH!!!!

just wanted to say a HUGE MASSIVE GIGANTIC Christmas thank you to each an everyone of you on here. Your support, patience, humour and daily hugs have got me through this horrible journey and I'd have been lost without you all.

have a fabulous Christmas, no matter who you are with or what you are doing.  You are all my virtual ether family and I love you all!

merry Christmas ladies!!

beth xxx

[delly]

Hey, Lovely Fluffies,

Awwwww, Thanks, but I'm absolutely fine, really. Got some lovely music playing and just rousing myself to shower, have a kitchen clear up and tidy, then make a mess again. Just been ordering some cds. Said to Sue, music's a good drug for me.

Hey Sue, Good morning, and a Very Merry Christmas to you too. Sue's on her ownio too, but unlike me, I think she quite likes it,  Your dinner sounds yummy. Right, am on my way down - see ya in about 4 - 5 hrs !! No spoiling required, I appreciate "time" spent with "special" people more than materialistic things. You're looking very fab in your photo, but I did say I'm more interested to meet your beautiful Leo than yourself !! Corrr, he's a very, VERY gorgeous boy isn't he.

Lily - yeh, same as Dizzy, hope you've had a good journey. 

This is soooo lovely to have you here in spiri, no doubt with spiritst (<< i've not even had any alcohol yet!!).

Gawd, you're all such a load of sweetiepies - honest you are.

Loadsa love to you all

Doolally xxxxxxxxxx

[Tweasel]

Hi ladies. I have been reading this thread for weeks and just wanted to say what a fab bunch you are. Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas. Lisa xx

[Lesley21]

I just couldn't resist and had to have another peep on here before getting dinner on.  Delly, you are not alone, youre here in all our hearts xx 

Sue what a fabulous photo, enjoy your dinner, and that goes for all of you xx

[Sue H-S]

MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all

Had a nice peaceful and reflective Heiligabend (Holy night - German name for Christmas Eve) and am now looking forward to an hour at the pub and Christmas dinner - guinea fowl, potato dauphinoise, red cabbage with apples and spices, brussels sprouts with pancetta and cream.

Opened my pressies - fabulous music cds and a fabulous might sky projector - so I shall now be able to go to sleep with a starry sky above me!

With last chemo on Sept 1 and rads finished on 26th October have come a long way.....last Christmas I had just received my mammogram recall letter......

Now I am looking forward to a New Year, making new friends - and of course the visit of Delly! Down here in the distant South - so I can spoil her for her impending birthday as a Thanks for all of the support she has given me and so many others on this forum.

                                                  

Hugs to all and may the New Year bring you health and happiness.

Sue xx

[Cla46]

Happy Christmas everyone <3.
love and hugs xxxxxx
I'll raise a glass to you All at lunch time.
Delly although I'm not with you in person I'm with you in spirit my lovely xxxxx

[Dizzybee]

Morning all you lovely ladies!

Hope everyone is enjoying a lovely morning, Delly , glad you're feeling better this morning, and Lily, hope you arrive/ have arrived safely.

Love and a merry Christmas everyone.

xxx🎄

[Charys]

Special mention for Lovely Delly, as she is alone today. With you in spirit x

[Charys]

MERRY CHRISTMAS lovely ladies. May your day be happy x

[delly]

I'd already fallen asleep Helena, but think my hunger woke me up. Aaaah, how lovely, Portugal - warmth, Vitamin D and. . . . . SHERRY !!!! I'll have to go xxxxx

[delly]

Well Good Morning you two.

A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS to you ALL too. Have a wonderful day all you lovely "Fluffies".

Helena - thank you flower. Feeling tons better at the mo'. Think the sherry helped - told you it was fortified !! Was munching on Dolcelatte cheese and biscuits in bed at 5 this morning!! Not much sleep but happier frame of mind and very excited about the upcoming w/end down South with Sue.

Loadsa love

DellyDingaling xxxxxx

[Lesley21]

Just a quick check to wish all my favourite ladies a wonderful happy Merry Christmas.  Enjoy whatever you're doing today with friends/family/cats/dogs.  Eat, drink and be merry xx

[rubycat]

Just shoved turkey in the oven, haven't had time to read yesterday's hilarity, just wanted to say HAPPY CHRISTMAS to all my lovely friends here and to all our readers.  xxx

[delly]

Thank you Darlin- Dizzy.

I have managed a fortifying sherry or two. Is healthy and good for the constitution you know. Desperately need to get some food in me though. Ab no appetite, and already a skinny runt.

Nite nite AGAIN.

I'll no doubt be on the thread tomoz, to wish you more direct Xmas wishes. 

Ruby - is hug of the day tomorrow after Lilly cocking up todays - grrrrr woman, threw my arms into a right tizz, never mind the red flashing nose conking totally out (haha "conk" - get it). Still have Sue, Moijan and Anne to go yet. I don't need one, all of you are a constant daily hug to me anyway. Thanks muchly for.

Do love yers

Delly xxxxxxxxxxx 

[Dizzybee]

Good night Delly, hope you feel okay in the morning! See there's one more hardcore member of the crew still up. Wine to finish, and the sherry and the carrot and mince pie to leave by the fireplace...

[delly]

Umph - all left me on my ownio again. I'm supposed to be in bed anyway. But you're all such a delightful distraction that I'm not yet in it. I know, I'm being a "charm the pants off" smoothie again.

I really AM wasted on my own, you know. Sue said to me in our first phone chat "Shame I'm not gay - you sound and seem to would have been an ideal partner" !! What a lovely compliment. Cappie/Scorpio - good combination, compatabiltity wise friendship/realationship wise. As are Virgo, Cancer and Taureans to a certain degree. All very interesting really. Well I find it so.

Nitey, Nitey lovely peeps

Dellydoodaah xxxxxxx 

[Janey2]

I've missed loads today on here and Charys I've roared with laughter (or should I have groaned in empathy?!) at your turkey story. We could do with more meat - my Mum completely gobsmacked at how a 3kg gammon disappeared. Don't know what we are going to eat with pickled onions and bubble and squeak on Boxing Day. A slightly difficult day trying to work out what to do with a drunken sailor - thanks Royal Navy! We had a lovely end to the day though with games and now some Peter Kay. 

Anyway, I can't keep up with all your shenanigans but wanted to add my big big thank you for the wonderful love, fun and support. Happy Christmas you fluffy lovelies xx

[Lesley21]

Dizzy, she's a beaut xx. Clair, sorry your Himself is not well too.  Bad enough the rest of the year but at Christmas, for Petes sake, you think we'd get a break this year at least wouldn't you?  Well, this is def my last post tonight, going to take migraine meds and crawl into my pit even though it's not a migraine, just a thumping banging headache.  Now I know I did drink half a bottle of wine this afternoon so deserve it, but I'd have got headache anyway and enjoyed wine st the time.  I know if I take the prescribed migraine jollop it will knock me out and take away the pain, it is Christmas after all so going to treat myself.

night night, love you all xx

[Dizzybee]

Yes, sorry, that's Daisy looking zonked. Don't be deceived, she isn't your typical King Charles. My last one was so placid you could do anything with her, but Daisy thinks she's a springer, has bags of energy and chases anything alive. And attacks the post, and loves swimming in the sea...

My son ( who thankfully did make it back from the Netherlands) is trying to persuade us we want a puppy now... 

[Cla46]

Aww gorgeous doggies xxxx
Delly my hubby is doing ok xxx
Have a fantastic day tomorrow lovelies I'll pop in at some point
Lots of love Clair xxx

[delly]

Just watching "The Lady and the Van". Read the book years ago but never seen the film. I adore Alan Bennet's work. Very talented in his craft and his wit suits me. Also adore Lady Maggie - brilliant actress, national teasure.

Dizzy - such pretty dogs King Charles. And like children, she? Daisy?? looks so peaceful when asleep.  xxxx

Helena - enjoy your scrummy yummy sounding venison tomorrow.  xxxx

[Beth123]

Mwahhh such a cutie!!!!

[Dizzybee]

Okay I totally fail at this, but anyway, sleepy dog pic, very peaceful at this time of night!

[Dizzybee]

[Dizzybee]

Lesley, not the peaceful way to spend your evening, but your friend sounds wonderful. Like we've said, you find out who your real friends are at times like this. Hope you have a good day tomorrow.

Lily, have a good journey tomorrow, hopefully no traffic problems at silly o clock!

Delly, that sounds like a great plan for your birthday, nice to have it to look forward to.

Beth, hope you've had some Bailey's, I'm sure it's medicinal in cases of Radiated Nip. Mac looks gorgeous, I wish someone had suggested that to us when Daisy had to have surgery on her leg, she had one of those huge plastic collar things. The babygro would have been so much better.

Charys, one turkey sandwich down, 999 to go...

Helena, just hi there!

[Lesley21]

Thank you Helena xx Beth, who needs children when you got a dog that lovely?  Still cry over my two long departed mutts.  Delly, that's so wonderful, so exciting xx