Babies and other people getting pregnant

[Goldie112]

Helloooo

I just wanted to drop in and see how you are? Did you manage Tuscany camping without melting? 

I hope you're ok anyway? 

Just wanted to check in and say hi

All is ok here, no real news, but fine

Sending lots of love and thinking of you anyway xxx

[Goldie112]

Sounds like it's been intense - it's horrible when something happens like that and you feel it's the end of everything. Maybe it all just needed to blow up to calm down - sounds like things are a bit calmer now? I guess it will just be something you have to take day by day for a bit. Sounds tough. Sending you a big hug. 

On the hot flushes front, I do recommend accuncture if you can find someone but I guess it probably depends on the practitioner too, (I love mine, and it's definitely like getting counselling too!) - what else have you tried for the hot flushes? There are some diet things you can do like diet, avoiding caffiene etc...

Re dog - yes he knows, he just doesn't know what to do. I'm not sure whether that is good enough, but at the same time I feel a bit stuck as well. we shall see xx

[Runningfree]

Oh no...that is a shame about the dog; I’m sure your husband is right about the ball but that still doesn’t help the situation....You must tell him how nervous and insecure that must make you feel in your own home.

Hormones are wicked aren’t they, very little we can do but soldier on sometimes.

I guess you need a bit more time for things to settle, it’s still early days.

I’m seriously looking around for a reputable acupuncturist... we’re supposed to be camping in Tuscany in August and I can’t even get a nights sleep here without night sweats !!!!!! Lol

Things have been terrible here. Monday night my husband and eldest had a full blown fight. To cut a long story short I moved him to mums.

I’ve felt almost bereaved this week, barely able to concentrate on anything. It’s also affecting my relationship with my husband.

That said, he’s come home today and at the moment all is fairly calm.

Im sitting here writing this when I really need to sort them all out for school tomorrow!

Mum has enjoyed his company by the way, so there was some good come out of it.

[Goldie112]

Oh gosh that's a lot going on. It doesn't sound like you're getting too much time for yourself and self care. Promise me you'll do something nice for yourself, even if it's just setting some time to have a bath or read or whatever chills you out.
I'm ok thanks. Bumbling along. No periods again and just fat and frumpy and hormone -y really. Have a two friends who are having a few mental health issues and one who's mum's had bc. She had a lumpectomy and lymph out but is skipping chemo and is having radio and hormone treatment so now they know what they are dealing with. I'm going to tak3 her some aloe Vera gel on Saturday as it really helped me.

Other than that all has been fine apart from this morning where the dog had wedged the ball on the other side of the kitchen door i tried to stick my foot around to move it so he went for my foot. Which makes me hystetically cry. It hadnt happend for months and i thought it was over and I don't know what to do. My husband says he just does that with balls!! It's making me question everything again. I suppose I'm still I shock.im not hurt as I had my shoe on.

[Runningfree]

Hi Goldie....

Still battling on at home. My eldest boy has suddenly become withdrawn and depressed and has started skipping school. Since he has passed his driving test he’s been harder to pin down.

The middle boy who’s 15 is in a deep and meaningful relationship with a ( lovely) girl who is not quite 15 but looks 20! I worry my youngest is missing out...I just never sleep anymore just lie there and worry!

My husband just shouts at them, telling them he’s about to have a meltdown. We seem to have a scene every night at the moment. 

Mum is very tired but so much better than she was. I have Wednesday off which allows me to get her to her warfarin clinic which has been a godsend.

Have been off this week, the weather has been amazing but I’m either too hot or too cold! That’s 2 years of menopausal type symptoms, when will they ever end!!

grumble....

How are you?

x

[Goldie112]

That does sound weird 're your mum but if she is ok in herself, that's good and you can keep an eye on her.
What are the shenanigans? You ok? Xx

[Runningfree]

And he’s still grumpy 😬xx

[Runningfree]

Hello... how’s things? 

mum (eventually) got called back in.

Bit weird really, her bloods are loads better but the scan was very poor quality / inconclusive so  they are assuming there is nothing there!

They will re scan her in 6 months.

She’s happy about it, feeling really positive.

Who am I to dampen that, but I just feel a little  sceptical.........

The weather is lovely; still some shenanigans at home but I’m still soldiering on!

xxx

[Goldie112]

Yes at least we have the sunshine. Hope his grump stops soon. Mine is intermittently grumpy too but mostly just tried and a bit broken. We've seen quite a few people this week and I think instead he could have done with just relaxing. I have a heavy week next week in work so haven't managed muxh in the house this week just haven't felt like it. I am rubbish. Ah well. Now I can just blame it on the bag of hormones x

[Runningfree]

Still no news regarding Mum....

more arguments at home, my husband is just SO grumpy!

Mind you my eldest isn’t helping. I see his point sometimes, I think he feels like we’re being restrictive.And we are, but he’s not always the best judge of a situation or a person. He doesn’t seem to realize that if he makes a mistake now it could ruin all HIS plans. And he’s only got a plan A ( medicine) which means straight A’s at A level. So going out with his mates that didn’t stay on at school isn’t really helping.

You Must just be a complete bag of hormones...did I tell you I saw the onc on Monday?

He said that’s what I am!!

Difficult to deal with things at times, irrational etc

But at least I’M not grumpy 😡 lol!

The weather has been lovely today, I’m trying to enjoy it!!

How’s your husband? Not grumpy I hope!!

xx

[Runningfree]

Still no news regarding Mum....

more arguments at home, my husband is just SO grumpy!

Mind you my eldest isn’t helping. I see his point sometimes, I think he feels like we’re being restrictive.And we are, but he’s not always the best judge of a situation or a person. He doesn’t seem to realize that if he makes a mistake now it could ruin all HIS plans. And he’s only got a plan A ( medicine) which means straight A’s at A level. So going out with his mates that didn’t stay on at school isn’t really helping.

You Must just be a complete bag of hormones...did I tell you I saw the onc on Monday?

He said that’s what I am!!

Difficult to deal with things at times, irrational etc

But at least I’M not grumpy 😡 lol!

The weather has been lovely today, I’m trying to enjoy it!!

How’s your husband? Not grumpy I hope!!

x

[Goldie112]

When will you hear re  the tests? Hopefully it is a turning point for her and she's on the way back up - it's good that she's being positive regardless eh? I expect you're still worrying though, but there's nothing you can do until you know if there's anything you have to deal with. How's your eldest? Is he any better?  Sounds like you've still got lots going on. 

I'm ok, had a real downwood spiral that went a bit weirdly introspective the last few weeks (questioning all my choices, and how I behave and what I do) so that was fun lol - but I think it's the hormone shifts as I had one period in Feb and then nothing since then 😞 anyway, feeling ok now and the sun is shining for once which always makes a difference. I hope that you got some rest and that today goes ok. xxxx

[Runningfree]

Took mum for her scan today, obviously they didn’t say anything....

She feels loads better, her blood sugar is right down and when we went to the anticoagulant clinic after the scan the nurse there looked up mums last bloods and her liver function is improving...

Mum is convinced as she is starting to feel better that there is not much wrong.

I hope so.

Sitting here in bed, my husband is preparing himself for ‘another night of my thrashing around’!!

How are you??

x

[Goldie112]

I'm so sorry to hear that she's so poorly. Keeping everything crossed for you - really hope she turns a corner. Sounds like you're pulling yourself in every direction. I can't believe your new boss has been off sick! It sounds like it's all just piling on. It doesn't help if your body is all over the place - it means you don't sleep which gives you more time to worry about your mum and your son and everything else in between. 

Maybe after wednesday things will start to get better and you can take a breath. You're probably so tired all the time because the night sweats wake you up, you've got a heap load of responsibility at work you weren't expecting and you're busy worrying about eveyone else.  Try not to worry about that  on top of eveything else. I was with my friend who's also had BC this weekend (I finished treatment in 2012 and she finished treatment in 2014 so we're well ahead of you and even now we still get tired - it's a lot better but every now and then it all piles up. You've got a particularly large amount on your plate at the moment so it's probably just taking its toll. 

Sending a big hug and let me know how you get on on Wednesday xxxx

[Runningfree]

Hello...

didnt see your post.

Been in my own little world.

Mum has been really poorly, she’s got a CT scan on Wednesday as they are concerned about her liver/pancreas. I’m being realistic but can’t bear to think of the obvious...

Her body has gone into meltdown, she’s now gone on insulin and warfarin.Ive been going there after work every day to do what I can then starting again when I get home.

My eldest boy who’s 17 has gone through a bad patch too. Really wheezy at night. He’s normally a very good runner and has gone to being fit and active to lying there or staying out. My husband spends most of the time nagging him. He’s got exams soon as well.

Work is going well but my manager went off sick as soon as I started so we’ve had to cover all her work. At least I’ve learnt all those new skills quickly!

My nightsweats have got really bad again, and the days aren’t much better!!! Lie there in the dark with the covers on then off then on again! In the day I’m on/off with a cardigan etc. I think my husbands bored with the whole thing, says it’s 2 years so time to stop going on about the past... I suppose I should think only EIGHT more years of tamoxifen 😬!.

I’m so glad you’re ok and things are good. Is work fairly settled now?.

My husband has fallen asleep downstairs so I’ve crept up to bed!!

He normally nags me for dozing in my chair! But I’m just so tired all the time.... I wonder why???? 😆 

Hopefully everything will sort itself out. Keep everything crossed for mums scan on Wednesday 

Thanks for checking up on me...

xxxx

[Goldie112]

Hey just wanted to check in and see how you're doing?
All is ok here. I have had one period but now waiting (it's been six weeks) I'm really fat and my body is all over the place but I am generally good. How are things with you? Xx

[Goldie112]

Bless your mum hope shes better soon.
I'm so glad you're enjoying the job that's fabulous.
I'm not sure what's happening here. Need to sort myself out but I've got a weekend seeing family coming up and can't wait. Thst should help a bit. Sending a big hug. Thanks for the advice xx

[Runningfree]

oh no...poor you!

You are probably feeling tearful anyway because of your hormones, but all the other stuff won’t be helping.

Try not to worry/ overthink things regarding your periods. Just wait and see.

Mum suffered a bad reaction today to the last dose of her penicillin, fat lips and a puffy face etc. I left her feeling a little better so fingers crossed.

Im absolutely loving my new job...hope it lasts! Just done 2 study days on immunization, really fascinating. The woman running it was amazing, really charismatic and VERY scouse. Had come over from liverpool; I feel a little sad I won’t see her again.

signing off as broadband dreadful,on and off! This is my third go!!

xx

[Goldie112]

How funny
I was literally just thinking about you. February has judt flown by hadn't it?
Sorry to hear you've had flu. That's rotten. Especially with the new job too. How are you now? Is your heating fixed?
I'm ok. Had a rubbish week. It was my dad's anniversary last week and I've been really feeling it foursome reason. Work has also been awful and the two things collided with me ending up in tears which I hate. Not sure what to do really. Also my periods haven't come back but I feel all hormonal so that's odd. Have my info apt shortly so will have a chat with her then. How's your mum? Is she better now? Hope so. Sending lots of love x

[Runningfree]

Can’t believe it was Jan we last talked.........!

How are you?

I’ve had proper flu... been ill for pretty much all of February!

This last few days have had no running water/ central heating due to cold snap. Thank goodness we could get to mums for a bath!!!!!

x

[Goldie112]

Oh no that sounds rotten bless her. Hopefully she's on the mend now. Must be hard with both her being ill and worrying about your eldest.
I'm ok I met a friend from my old job yesterday and we talked about lots of stuff including babies and dogs. I always feel a bit guilty after talking about what's in my head like it's too much if you know what I mean? Or maybe thst I should keep it in. I don't know.
Anyway it's Friday hurrah! So glad your job is going well xx

[Runningfree]

I LOVE my Welles....and I love bobble hats(my chemo was during the winter, they were the only hats that suited me!!)

My poor mum....

refused to let me get a doctor, I suspect she thought she would be admitted (and she was probably right)

sunday/Monday I was really worried, she was listless and not eating and a bit woolly 

But she’s definitely turned a corner now

Work still going well, interesting stuff

Had problems this week with my eldest; he’s passed his driving test( and he’s still not quite 17) and can’t see why we worry If he’s not home when he says he’s going to be....

How are you??

x

[Goldie112]

Working in occupational health shouldn't you be able to ask for a fan?
Glad my bobble had made you smile. I often wear my wellies too. My OH says I'm embarrassing (makes me realise how like my mother I am) speaking of which how is your now? X

[Runningfree]

I have been laughing out loud picturing you in your bobble hat!!🤣

Actually I have been slack recently with managing symptoms........

Having my own desk will help( I can have bits and pieces to hand...when I get to pay day I’ll get myself a little fan

Trying to wear layers to cope with the drastic temperature swings

xx

[Goldie112]

Yes they do dont they? What a nightmare re the hot flushes it's so uncomfortable particularly at work and even more in a new job. Ask for a fan on your desk so you can cool down quickly without making it a bit deal, that really helped me. And I'm sure you already do this but make sure you've always got water to hand. If I'm really struggling I drop a bit on my wrists etc or even just hold it to cool down if I don't want to swap it. I've been walking to work to get my exercise up and when I arrive my sweaty hair (from under my fetching bobble hat) is plastered to my pink round face and it's always at this point my boss comes in and wants a chat 😂😂😂
It must be so weird to move away from patient care after so long but you're still doing important work and I'm sure all your experience of dealing with people makes you brilliant at it and people appreciate your approach xxd

[Runningfree]

Dogs do settle and grow up don’t they...?

Im ok thanks but out of the blue having a real bad dose of hot flushes and night sweats

Really difficult to deal with aren’t they? And with a new job etc etc

But the job still is going well.. always have my lunch and get off on time!

Do miss the patient care though.....

Also you can get a bit of angst off people thinking you are out to get them!!!!

xx

[Goldie112]

Oh I know she means well and as i said she us right. I think it's because it feels like she's fixating on it and it's a sensitive issue. Maybe because it's my sensitive issue i would prefer to talk about it when i bring it up not every time we talk? Its not like it isnt something I'm constantly thinking about anyway. She isn't very sensitive to stuff like that, just says what she wants which I love about her but is also a bit much sometimes if you know what I mean? Interesting 're your theory, i think as well when you're on your own you don't need to compromise (obviously) which makes it harder to understand people doing it. She's funny actually, really goes on about me doing too much or compromising too much to others but then wants me to do what she wants all the time.... 're dog he's 3. Hes had a fair bit of training. I keep thinking about a behaviouralist too.... need to be in the right mindset to deal with these things haha
Thanks for listening. Hope youre ok x

[Runningfree]

Yeah,waffles...........

Without coming across as a real ‘mummy’, I sometimes feel SOME people who consciously opt to not have children become very strongly opinionated (my sister is in that camp). I  wonder if it is the responsibility thing?

That said it’s not generally there in people who haven’t been able to have kids so maybe it’s certain personality types that have issues with any relationship be it partner, child etc.

I’m sure your friend means well.... I know I’ve said to you things about the poor dog! But only you know how it truly is at home, your husband sounded truly distraught.

I think he needs time to adjust to all the potential changes in life.

I meant to ask how old your dog is? Have assumed he is quite young....could it be that he might settle down?

Are there any training classes your husband could take him to as a last ditch attempt?

I think your loyalty, empathy and respect to and for your husband is the right way to be; probably your friend is jealous deep down of your commitment and willingness to compromise. Which is what a partnership is all about(warts and all). Don’t ever change. No one ever says marriage is easy. 

Xxx

[Goldie112]

That's good re feeling less tired. Youre right it takes time to adjust to a new job sounds like youre getting into it.
I'm ok thanks. Feel so much lighter now I've made a decision. Although i text my oldest friend the other day to see how she was and she asked me about the dog and just said 'the dogs got to go'. Which annoyed me a bit as a) I hadn't brought it up and b) she might be right but it's complicated. Then she was all all 'I'm here offering an ear'' when in reality she has an opinion and brings it up constantly. We (me and himself) had a couple of chats about it over Christmas and he offered to get him put down as no one is taking him and he feels it's not fair to put him with a charity but he was so distraught over it I couldn't bear it and couldn't make him. I know she is worrying about me. I know it's a stupid position we have got ourselves into but it's almost as if she'd like me to leave him over it. She is divorced and after a period of years is feeling happy and because I haven't been has been trying to 'help'. When in reality having someone say 'you're not happy' has not helped me really. I haven't told her about the baby thing as a) she's never wanted kids and b) I can't deal with the dissection of it all from her perspective. I think perhaps that because I'm quite laid back and not particularly fiesty (unless properly riled) people think they can say whatever the he'll they like to me. It has been a difficult time. But fundamentally I've learned that after everything we have been through together I do put him above everything else as he is my family even if he has been a bit of an idiot over it. Last time we were talking she also tried to say that because she had a difficult marriage and divorce she understands everything I've gone through with the cancer and losing both my parents, she said ' I know I've not had a serious illness or lost any close family yet but...' which is interesting, my sister who has been divorced was a bit like that over it too, felt like its so traumatic it is worse than anything else anyone else has ever been through. I guess we all deal with our life experiences differently eh?
Waffle over. Oooh that made me think of waffles.....

[Runningfree]

Well
Cautiously optimistic still!!
Feel less tired I’m sure...just need to get used to different role and different hours!
How are you??

[Goldie112]

Oooh it sounds good. Sounds like we need to both take it a day at a time 😀 i think ill be fine just going to deal with each thing as it comes and to be honest nothing will happen in the next few months as I need to let the tamoxifen get outta my system so you can relax and concentrate on beieng brilliant at your new job 😀Dunno re folic acid. Will have to ask xxx

[Runningfree]

Was more worried about you than talking about the job....!

First 3 days have gone well;I’m going to need a lot of training but the whole team are very friendly and helpful (so far anyway!)

I have my own desk, phone etc

I will be running my own clinics (pre employment, return to work etc) but not yet(good job!)

Different pace totally. One of the girls was on the medical ward next to me a few years ago (know her vaguely); she says she still (after 5 years) misses the ‘nursing’,which is a worry but self preservation has to kick in a bit I think and I know it’s not going to get any better on the wards.

I have felt better this week, less in the way of hot flushes.

So we’ll see!

Back to you.....

The thought of motherhood is scary to anybody; but if it happens you adjust and you don’t look back.

Yes the risks are there as an older mother, so you take it all a step at a time and take advice if need be.

I was nearly 40 when I had my youngest... and I reckon I could easily of become pregnant until chemo smashed my ovaries at 48!

I meant to say I have a proper lunch of an hour!

So I’m going to try and get in the habit of saying a quick hello to you then(just in case the day goes away from me!)

Please don’t overthink things in the meantime ,just stay well

Can you take folic acid??

xxxx

[Goldie112]

Don't apologise. How's it going? Are you enjoying it?
Thank you so much for your message. You always make me feel better.
I'm just going to go for it and try not to worry. Although last night i stayed up googling oldee mothers and all the problems people have so ended up beating myself up for not doing it last year lol.
Anyway thanks so much.dont worry if you haven't got the energy to update me about work. Just see how you feel. I'm so pleased youve made the change. It will take some time to adjust but I think occupational health will be a great thing for you. Hope you get to chill at the weekend xxx

[Runningfree]

So sorry I’m late to check in....started new job on wed and have been mentally exhausted! Settled down to wish you a happy new year then read your post.

now.....

You are certainly NOT mad...I’m sure I’ve said to you a good few times that it is a difficult decision for anybody to make but it’s so much harder after a cancer diagnosis 

But you know you just can’t go waiting for a recurrence. None of us knows what’s round the corner.

I have always felt you need to try. Children are a legacy and bring you so much joy.

You’ve had a good bash at the tamoxifen, once upon a time you would have finished it now anyway...

Come off it and just see.

Try not to panic about fatigue/pregnancy/motherhood.....you would manage better than you think!

We have both now ‘gone for it’and changed jobs....

Today I kept feeling that this year was going to see a radical change for me, i think that’s the case for you too.

You have remained unsettled the whole time I’ve known you about babies, I just think this will only get worse if you don’t try. If you don’t get pregnant then it wasn’t meant to be. But I hope you do.

You are brave, compassionate , intelligent and perceptive and have so much to give.

I’m going to check in over the weekend if you need to chat

Sending you a very big hug

cath

xx

[Goldie112]

Hey hope it's going ok? How are you doing?
I'm ok but I've had a bit of a panic about babies and come off the tamoxifen. My oncologist said it would be ok as I've done five years which until recently was all I would have had. I need to give it three months to get it out of my system. Then can try. I'm going to contact the fertility clinic to see what they say 're my embryoes. Am thinking do this year. If nothing happens I will be nearly 44 so can stop and at least I've tried.
Not sure if I'm mad. Not sure whether it's the right thing to do but it's now or never. Keep having little whirls of anxiety about it but just going to concentrate on being healthy and getting fit and then seeing what happens. As you know I've always struggled with it. And even now I don't know if it's the right thing not least because I'm so tired all the time and I wonder whether I could actually hack it after spending so long not having anyone to look after.
Also the threat of recurrence scares me a lot and the worry that id get pregnant and then get ill again. But every parent has to think of these things I'm sure. Also sex is still pretty painful. I've just got some new stuff to try and see if it eases it. I'm hoping it will improve post tamoxifen. I haven't told anyone what im doing as I think I need to process it a bit more. Had chat with hubby and said it's now or never really. Dog is still here but im still trying to rehome him a d will just play that by ear really.
Can't just wait for ever with nothing happening. Sorry to write it all on here but I need to get it out somewhere and don't feel like I can talk to anyone else. Don't worry if you don't get chance to respond I know you have a lot goi g on and it's a big change for you.
Take care xx

[Goldie112]

Just wanted to say happy New year.
Hope the last day of your job went well and this year brings lots of happy times and the new job goes brilliantly xxxx

[Goldie112]

So it's nearly christmas. Hope youre ok and things have calmed down a bit? Im so glad to have finished work nothing to do but relax, cook, eat and drink now 😀😁 sending you lots of love. 2018 beckons wirh your exciting new job and hopefully a better work/life balance. Big hugs xxx

[Goldie112]

Hey well done on the sugar
Sounds manic! Hope youre being kind to yourself.
Im ok thanks manic work too and not ready for christmas.
Sorry to hear about your mum hope shes on the mend. Youve had such a lot going on. Sending you a massive hug and hope you have a fab christmas xxx

[Runningfree]

Hello!!!!!

work has been horrendous...I've been trying to tie up loose ends ( finish on 21/12) and have had to go in on days off..even if only for a couple of hours it killls the day.

I have mixed emotions about going, I think that's how you felt if I remember correctly?? Feel like I'm leaving a sinking ship. Also worrying about change in role i.e. Far less clinical. Also all the typing.... I'm so bad at it!!

Mum has been unwell. Has had heart issues and a bad leg; that said she's on the mend now I hope.

Finding teenage boys a challenge too ( particularly v my husband) ...too much testosterone I fear.

So first day off today in a month where I don't have to go in... doing Xmas stuff this morning 

A bit of good news is that I have managed to give up sugar! For a month. I love sugar in my drinks etc but thought I'd give it a try. Feel much better and have lost a bit of my tamoxifen belly!! Particularly as new job is non uniform so will have to buy new clothes for it.

So that's a quick update... I'm hoping new year/ job will allow me to have a bit more control ( like lunch breaks...lol)

Hope you are ok? I'm so looking forward to some time off at Xmas... have you got any plans??

cath

xx

[Goldie112]

I'm glad. Yes it's annoying 're the big it's making my brain fuzzy lol
Yes it's still difficult 're the dog
Xxx

[Runningfree]

He is a bit better!!

Sorry you are going through a sticky patch, it's hard when things don't go to plan. It will be a great relief once the dog goes.......

We have been extra busy at work this autumn, so many different 'bugs' ... I've always thought the milder weather doesn't help.

xx

[Goldie112]

You sound a lot brighter. Good luck with the mammogram I struggled with mine this year for some reason but I'm sure you'll be fine 😍😘 shame re your hubby it's so hard sometimes isn't it?
I'm ok dog is not sorted yet we thought it was going to be this weekend but it fell through so gutted. Really want him out now. Work is up and down and I've had a virus that just won't got away for the past two weeks so I have been limping along really. Cancelled plans for this weekend and just going to try and rest it out now.
Hopefully your hubby will be all better when he comes back xxx

[Runningfree]

Also meant to say I have my mammogram on Tuesday....eek!

x

[Runningfree]

Feeling a bit more in control of things now I've done all that paperwork for my re registering......

I think I have had a lot on but feel I have let a lot of things slip like just popping on here...Just don't seem to manage my free time very well

How are things with you? Work? Dog?

Had a blip with my husband this week, he didn't feel well and got huffy because I went out and left him for 4 hours( I had SO much to do)

I reminded him of those lonely times in chemo on my own, they forget so quickly don't they.

He has gone to London tonight for a reunion ( just about talking to me from Wednesday, just hate it when he's like it, it's always linked to some stress or other); I should be tackling the house but thought I'd nip on here first.

I have to have an hour for lunch in my new job so might find life a little more organised ( even if it's an extra day a week)

The new car is great!!

xx

[Goldie112]

It's strange the difference a bit of time makes eh?
Sounds like you've had a lot on, I hate changing cars!
Fab re starting in the new year, it definitely sounds like a good time to start afresh and you are definitely due a change. Do you feel like you've had a break? I hope so!
All ok here, had my mammogram and all clear which is always a huge relief hurrah! So that's six years since diagnoses 5 since treatment finished eek!
Sending lots of love xxxxx

[Runningfree]

Hello....

Been away to the Lakes, stayed 2 doors down from the cottage we were in exactly 2 years ago that I came back from to get my diagnosis. But now is now if you know what I mean and it was a really nice break.

Before that was chaos... my in laws were over for nearly a week, never had a minute to myself

I was also doing my professional re validation, which took me ages as it is a new thing.

Just before we went away my car broke down, it's essentially knackered ( much like its owner) so I've had to get a newer one as I will need it for the Occupational health job.

Handed my notice in before we went to the lakes, I finish on 22/12 and should start the new one on 3rd Jan.

A bit nervous but New year seems a good time to move forward

And it will be great to have Xmas off

xx

[Goldie112]

I'm so pleased for you. sounds like just what you need. And you so deserve a break.
😍😘♥

[ladybowler]

Runningfree

Congratulations and a wonderful way to move forward, well done you 🙂  xx

[Runningfree]

And thanks as well Optimissy!

Some days you just feel so upbeat and raring to go!

x

[Runningfree]

Thank you! ( hiding upstairs at the moment.... lol!)

Didnt have interview until yesterday in the end; really nice women ( one of whom will be a colleague),it's so nice when it's obvious that interviewers aren't out to trick you.

So with 8 weeks notice that will maybe even mean Xmas week off with a New Year's start.

No bank holidays or weekends ever again

And more importantly new skills to be learnt. It's funny I suddenly realised I am moving away from cancer a bit,and it will be good not to have to deal with it EVERY day. No uniform either.

30 hours will increase my pay quite a bit and they've said I can work 4 or 5 days, just fit the hours in as I wish!!

Its sort of like a carlsberg job, after all of the chaos a job where I might have some control.

My boss was lovely, said she didn't want me to go but thought I should. 

My husband and kids ( and particularly my mum!) are chuffed to bits.

Hope things are good

xx