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Sooooooo glad your appt went well JCJ, happy the girls were able to take your mind off thingsSmiley Happy!

Brilliant they are on their way and not too costly!

Was just thinking this morning have not had any leg cramps for a while, mine were periodic not nightly, so possibly was the ta"poxy"fen?? What do you think you will do? Feel taking ta"poxy"fen just gives you that added security.

Anyone who is now diagnosed in this area will now only be seen for a year, then that's that. (unless you are in a trial) I think that's scary.

New carpets tomorrow woo hoo and lots of blades......another T shirt design methinks..........xx

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Onc checkup all OK. Luckily no blood pressure taken as I'd had a very stressful afternoon due to children's behaviour followed by traffic jam laden journey to hospital!

 

Onc repeated that it's likely that I will stay on Tamoxifen for up to 10 years, but that I can come off it before then if we think it necessary. She said that every extra year is added benefit in preventing cancer returning. She also suggested, perhaps in my response to complaints about cramp, that I could come off The for a few months and see if I felt any better. If not I could just start taking it again. I could swap to AI, but she said they are associated with joint pain and as I already have some joint issues, that probably won't be the best plan.

 

Latest news fro. The girls is that all the car problem was was a bulging tyre (good call coming here instead of going on motorway. It could have blown!! 😱) which has been replaced for £36 and the exhaust will need some new parts when they get home, but not urgently. They are on their way to the campsite. May even be there by now! Smiley Happy

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Well maybe I shouldn't have moaned about not being able to help the girls out! Phone call at 4pm. Can they stay the night with us. They were en route to Snowdonia and the car was making odd noises and juddering. As they were only half an hour away from our house, they made the sensible decision not to join the M6 but come here instead. I've fed 2 very stressed young women (luckily Sunday dinner is an easy meal to stretch from 2 to 4 at short notice!) and administered gallons of tea. They seem more relaxed now and will take the car to our garage in the morning and hopefully it can be fixed quickly. Campsite is booked - and paid for- for 6 nights so one night's delay not too bad, especially as it's raining heavily tonight and forecast to be better tomorrow. It's no fun putting up a tent in the rain!!

 

I'll be at work tomorrow, and at my onc appointment straight after, so I'll not be much use to them then, but I'm very glad to have been able to help today. Fingers crossed it's nothing too major on the car. At least they've kept me off the jittery bench this afternoon! Smiley Happy

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Wasted £5.95 on stanley blades, son brought his own!  I expect they'll come in useful sometime.  Now sitting looking at grey underlay and half the furniture is in the conservatory, makes the room look bigger though.  Only the two sofas, the tv and the keyboard left in the room.........talk about minimalism!

 

Son-in-law also turned up to assist with the carpet but he was a bit late and it was almost done so he turned his attention to my garden (he is a landscape gardener) and I am also weed free now. Result!  I do feel a bit guilty as I could have done it.  I only like to shout for help when I REALLY can't do it myself.

 

Yes, I did finish the cushions and I am very pleased with them, the fronts are expensive material that I bought and the backs are made from a duvet and pillowcase set that I no longer needed so that works out at half price and custom madeSmiley Very Happy   I wish I knew how to put pics up.  Actually the chappie that fixed my laptop also does lessons and I might well invest in a few, as I could do with knowing more about computers and all the courses that they seem to run around here are when I'm at work. 

 

Babysitting duty tomorrow, little bit worried about all the exposed carpet grippers but she had no problem with them today and I'll watch her like a hawk.  It's only for an hour or so.

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Hellooo lovely loonies,

JCJ - Thanks for the enlightenment of Mr Futon. Where are you and your daughter going for you camping break??

Katy - Thanks for your appointment well wishes, but it's just a consultation with results so far withOUT the further detailed liver scan "that still hasn't happened and is yet to be done" ones. Mmmmm, am intrigued as to what your cowboy dress is gonna be like - YEEE HAAAA. Altogether now - Dum de dum de dum "Stand by your mannnnn" or in the case of your tailor "mannekin" (guffaw).

Charys - good to see ya. Don't you think your boob will reduce back down again once all your Rads are finished and so hopefully your new bra will fit again.

Tat - hahaha, your bra stuffing cracked me up!! A BP badge is winging it's way. It was never the same after Val Singleton and John Noakes left. Can't remember the other fellas name. Was it Peter Pervis.  Got a badge for a colouring competition once, and a set of pink plastic Lady Penelope beads and matching hand mirror from a comic colouring comp. I know - just call me Bottidelli! And no, it wasn't recently, it was 50 yrs ago (arrrgh!). Fingers crossed for good scan results flower.

 

Love to everyone Delly xxx

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Did you ever get those cushions made, FF? 

 

I've been on the craft bench today too. Mended OH's vile summer gardening trousers that were really beyond repair, but he can't find any he likes to replace them. Had to patch leg inside and out as the original fabric too fragile to sew a patch on!

 

 Whilst watching the tennis, and then after, reading, (love the no-hands reading possibilities of my Kindle.!)  I knitted half of mummy snowman.

 

I have also made 3 birthday cards- that's July & August birthdays sorted. 

 

It's been a bit grey here, but the washing dried and we haven't actually had any rain. B***er! That reminds me: I haven't watered my tubs at the front of the house! Too late now. Not going out in my nightie! 😆

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Got the stanley blades, all systems go.  New carpet is for sitting room and hallway.  Old carpet beyond cleaning (tried that) but it was cheap and it's lasted 9 years so I'm not unhappy.  Old one was cream colour new one is somewhere between cream and brown, mushroom? darker than the old one so hopefully it won't show any marks but still light enough to keep me happy. What I want now is a new fireplace rug to complement the new colour scheme but all the ones i've seen that I like are far too expensive!

 

Have managed to get the washing done and dried today.....result!  Forecast was not good and tomorrow even worse so I'm glad about that

 

Have sat on craft bench attatching ribbon to t-shirt but it wasn't going well so gave up and read a book instead. Will try again tomorrow after carpet removal. 

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Sooooooo scary FF, your heart stops and your tummy twirls, horrible feeling.

OOOOOH new carpet?? Where's it going? what colour?

If you wait until Tues you can put some carpet on new T shirts, just a thought hee hee!!

We have sunshine here, woo hoo xx

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Ribbons and beads FF? You do disappoint me. I would have expected Lurex and rhinestones at the very least?!

 

I feel your anguish about the NHS letter. Why do they do this to us? I hope there's a part of the survey that lets you tell them just how scary it is to be sent surveys when one is awaiting scan results?!  I had a text message from the hospital this week. I was just launching myself into full panic mode when I remembered they always send a reminder a week before my annual checkups!

 

Well done for surviving getting through your first week. Always hard when you've been off ill for a while. Have a restful weekend. Don't want to distract you from your craft bench but ...... weather permitting..... there's tennis on!! Go Andy!! Smiley Happy

 

Finally stopped raining here. Actually had some sun this afternoon and I had to deploy the newly functioning air con!! 🌞

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TGIF - I have survived my first week back at work and I'm ok. Result.

 

Letter with NHS written all over it caused severe panic today but was only a request to take part in a survey. I, of course, thought it was a emergency recall because they'd found something on the scan. Never been so scared in all my life. Or relieved when I read it.

 

On the craft bench tonight and all of next week or two.  I have these four new t-shirts, they need personalising and I have ribbons and beads.  Rather boring t-shirts will be transformed into works of art. New trousers might get the same treatment.  Keep busy and don't think about the scan results..........

 

Son coming over on Sunday to remove old carpet (must remember to get new stanley blades tomorrow) and new carpet being fitted on Tuesday.  Shoes will be banned........

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Calais can wait another week, JCJ............

Am on the "fed up getting wet" bench, will it ever stop???

Looking forward to seeing all the new outfits FF, Scottish stuff, you can't get any better, haha!!!

May wear cowboy frock if it turns out nice, if not it will be banished to the back of the wardrobe.

YD soon off on her travels, away next week then back at work for a week then off again, lucky her!

We are waiting for a bargain lodge, fingers crossed for 5 adults and a baby, lets hope there will be some sunshine in July??

Loads of tasty things fell into my basket today, must be catchingSmiley Happy xx

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Well it's Thursday but I'm ashamed to say I'm no nearer to Calais! By the time they finished destroying the summer - sorry, fixing my air con - it had gone 6pm. I cooked dinner as soon as I got home, but it was 7:30 when I finished eating it. The time I have to leave for swimming. I just couldn't do it. Told myself I'd go for a walk instead. Thunderstorm. S*d the walk! Dashed to postbox, when rain eased off, to post brother's birthday card, and then settled back on the CBA bench!

 

Put air con on, on the way home, to make sure it was working. Lasted less than two minutes before I nearly froze to death. "That's enough of that!" Probably won't need it again now until it needs re-gassing again! Smiley Indifferent

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Yes, I did go shopping and I am now the proud owner of four new t-shirts, a pair of trousers and a jacket and the bank balance is considerably lower!  Went into that Scottish Mill shop which is more my style and their clothing always seems to fit me well. You will see them at MMU4 Smiley Happy 

 

Glad I didn't have a mouthful of tea when I read your post JCJ, as I did indeed read it wrong the first time and then "read it properly" and laughed.  Glad you have got your air-con sorted but that's b******d summer for all of us. We've just had a real storm here thunder,lightening and rain like a Monsoon, lasted about an hour.  It's a lovely evening now!

 

 

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As soon as school hols start (24 1/2 days) YD & I are going for our annual camping trip for 5 days away from OHs. Can't wait. I'm delighted she still wants to do it. We couldn't go last year because camping catering nearly impossible on a virtually fat free (gallstone) diet.

The year before our trip was cut short because I was very ill. YD had to drive my car home while I sat with a bucket on my lap! Smiley Sad

I am fully aware this may be the last time I can steal her away (marriage might change things - and children have not been ruled out!!) so we're going to enjoy ourselves and leave her OH to get on with the decorating! Smiley Happy

Sitting on the FB bench in C*-*P supermarket (no, not cr*p - read it properly! Smiley Happy) Just came in for a mugatea while my air con being fixed across the road, and there was a large slice of tiramisu reduced to 50p. It would have been rude......?

And yes, it has rained every single day since I booked the car in last Friday. I hate to say it but....I told you it would?! Smiley Tongue
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Soooooooo fabulous tatSmiley Happy!!! Both stylish and useful, did you hide behind the bushes or did you just go for it on the towpath?? hee hee!

Fingers and toes crossed that all scans are good, hugs to you tat.

charys, great you are having no skin issuesSmiley Happy I just remember the uncontrollable itching.

JCJ, wowee YD has her hands full, think it's good to have a small hol, hopefully she can forget everything and have fun.

FF, hope you did go shopping.

The new bra is a playtex, tried it on, felt fine, an hour later, not comfortable, seriously I give upSmiley Frustrated

Has poured here ALL day long, no sunglasses needed xx

 

 

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Hahahahahaaha!  Bags were definitely empty 😀  Good job I always carry loads - she did 3 poos in the first 10 minutes of the walk!  

 

Your daughter has a lot on her plate, JCJ. Hopefully you can help her out once the school hols start (how many days?). And, of course, we can take care of the wedding planning.....

 

hope pe everyone has a good day, sunglasses and brolly just about sums it up here!

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Delly - I've been scanned from neck to hips in case there's anything anywhere "because of history".

 

T4T - my first thought was I hoped the bags were empty!  

 

JCJ - my goodness your YD is busy, I hope all goes well and that she gets the job.

 

Life as usual here, school under control....toilets out of order today and not used so didn't have to clean them (told them there was a problem on Monday) easy cleaning.  Weather sunshine and heavy showers typical summer weather!

 

May be going into City tomorrow with daughter ,depends on weather (forecast is awful) taking back and exchanging some of the clothes she bought on Sunday. Perhaps I'll find something to fit me this time?

 

 

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 I hope the poo bags were empty, T4T? Full ones probably more life-like but......ew?!!

 

Scans sound very scary - everything crossed that nothing is found that can't be easily sorted. Hugs.

 

On the subject of bras, I finally found some I liked - the first underwired ones I've ever found comfortable. Slightly padded and firm so reduced left boob not so obvious. Bought them last year, because my other bras were suddenly all too big, from that big underwear store. 2 pack. Black one has had to have a new hook and white one has been washed so many times it's grey. Tried to order them again and they are no longer available. Grrrr! Bought something similar, but they're not anything like as comfy or flattering. Back to the hunt.

 

Charys, I had to go braless during rads and a couple of weeks after. Only braved a bra if I had to leave the house (E cup not a pretty sight unsupported at my age after 2 children!!) When I had to wear them, I made my existing bras fit better over tender swollen boobs by buying those bra extenders that hook on the existing fasteners. I got mine from Mr Futon, but that household catalogue that comes door to door also sells them (Better beware?! Smiley Happy)

 

YD phoned tonight. She had a job interview today, goes on a camping holiday on Sunday, for a week, exchanges contracts on the house almost as soon as they get back, has to arrange for a kitchen to be fitted, find and book a removal firm that's not going to charge silly money, decorate the house as the current colours are vile, and move in on 8th July. All whilst continuing to do a stressful job she hates. Oh yes, and plan a wedding for next May! I'm stressed out just hearing about it - but there's b. all I can do from this far away, other than be a sympathetic ear on the phone. I wish we were nearer so I could help, even if it was only making the odd meal while they are kitchenless!

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Don't get me started on bras!  Why are post surgery ones so ugly?  Why are foobs so expensive and so variable in size??

 

On a tangent to bras, this is the only place I feel I can share this ridiculous life hack.... This afternoon I drove to the start of a nice walk that includes some canal towpaths.  Parked, dog out of the car, boots on and started walking.  Noticed almost immediately I had forgotten the soft foob I use when I can't be @rsed to wear a proper bra.  There were loads of people on the towpath and it was humid so I knew I would need to take my jacket off....PANIC!  You can't hide a monoboob when it's a DD!  However, I grew up in the days of Blue Peter every day after school, so a quick bit of improvisation with scrunched up poo bags and tissues and voila!!  I did the walk, accompanied by a slight rustling noise, but without scaring anyone Smiley Wink

 

Hugs to everyone having scans.  Had a full CT with contrast followed by thoracic MRI with contrast yesterday.  Shove up on the jittery bench, please?

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Hello ladyeeeessssss

 

ive not been on this thread for ages, concentrating on the flipping RT sessions......need to read back and catch up with any news. All going ok, apparently my skin and reactions are 'pretty good' in the positive sense of pretty good, not the 'lots of reaction' good....ok, I, confusing myself now. Hope all are ok xxx

 

as for the bra issue ...I feel your pain Katy....I have so many new ones that feel ok at first and then they aren't. I think I might have had luck recently with playtex non wired 'ideal beauty' in antique something or other colour. No harsh seams etc etc. Then my boob got bigger with RT and now it's no good....I swear I have wasted so much money on bras in the last 4 months that I could have donated to BC charities instead.

 

talking of charities and the like....I was talking this week to an old guy at the RT unit, there seem to be lots of prostate cancer men when I go for my sessions. Anyway, I was asking if there was any support in place for the men, like our BC nurses ( mind saying that I've only seen and spoken to mine 3 times, but the option is there for me to contact her...) . He said that there is no support network currently in place for their cancer, and he feels so alone. :0(

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Wishing you well with your appt delly, lets hope it's easy this time.

No, def no sewing skills here, have taken cowboy dress to a tailors, still not sure I'm going to like it cause they couldn't do what I wanted cause he said it would look HORRIBLE, what???

So gave in and am doing what he wanted, mmmmmmmm!

Glitter, flashing lights, beads & baubles, rhinestones,cowboy belt with initials and ofcourse the tinsel!

Been on phone all morning, booked assist for Norcambe, ordered transport for next lido and thanked Lynn lady for my new combi.

Have ordered ANOTHER new bra and am hoping, fingers and toes crossed that it will be comfortable, maybe use Mr Futon to sell the umpteen others I have purchased, haha!! Seriously am sooooooooooo fed up re brasSmiley Frustrated!

Another awful day here, non stop drizzle soooooooo have had lots of muggateas, bought giant cookies yesterday so thought I would munch one, only partially eaten, I don't like it, that must be a first xx

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Mr Futon relates to a post of mine yonks ago. I'd sold a futon on a well known auction website and I put the purchaser's phone number in my phone as 'Mark Futon Ebay'. It sounded like a posh doubed barrelled name which amused me enough to mention it in Benchland. Ever since aything bought from that auction site is referred to as coming from Mr Futon. Typically bonkers?! Smiley Happy

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Hi Loopy Ladies,

Thanks for the update on my lymphoedema question of you. Yes JCJ, I always have to have BP cuff on an ankle with having had node clearance with both masts. It was a radiographer at my scan appointment (not anaesthetist as I'd put), that couldn't manage to cannulate either of my feet. Who then booked me to go back a couple of days later and kindly redflagged me to have a anaesthetist organised to carry it out. But that didn't happen - had a junior radiographer saying she was going to do it. Politely Told her no way, totally lost it, got dressed and stomped out in disgust. But, I still haven't done anything further about it, it now being 2 months ago, due to my low mental state. Takes me ages to get round to or sort anything when I 'm like this. However, I've an apptmnt to see the gastro guy again in a couple of weeks, but of course it will be without these more detailed scan results. No doubt he'll book me another one, but I shall make my dissatisfaction in how I've been ill managed (polite for being pi**ed about) known.

 

KTC - glad to hear your new sleeve is helping. Yeh, your very UNfortunate experience is exactly why I so diligent about cuts, grazes, bites, avoiding sunburn etc. to arms. Cowboy girl ey? lf we start hearing strains of "Stand by your man" or "Blanket on the Ground", we'll know who they're coming from.

Sounds to me like you're all pretty expert with sewing and knitting needles.

FF - hope you get what you need and want from your workplace problems. That's tough for you. My Fingers also crossed for your scan results being clear. What did you have to have scanned Foxy??

 

Somebody put me out of my misery and explain who/what Mr Futon is??!! Are you meaning ordered on line from your couch.

Feisty - if you're looking in, hope you're okay

Love to everyone

Doolally xxx 

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Thanks for the hugs Katy.  I don't use invisible ink and have no idea how I do it.  It just happens. Can't blame new computer as it happened with old one as well.  Yes, I'll let you know as soon as I do.  I'm well now, meds working fine, so I'm not TOO worried but still swithering between hopeful and scared that something will be somewhere........ even if not too serious. 

 

School have had the glitter out again today!  Really??  Exec. head at yesterdays meeting asked if anything could be done to make my job easier.  Why didn't I say please ban glitter? 

 

Both anklets looking good JCJ, please stick to one at a time as I don't want to think of you flat on your face with your ankles tied togetherSmiley Tongue 

 

 

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2nd new anklet arrived.

Wearing one on each ankle as suggested - but won't make a habit of that because I'm afraid I might manage to tangle them together and end up flat on my face!

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Just picked up my automatic repeat prescription. Finally, the Zoladex is no longer on the form for me to tick - it's only two years since I stopped having to have it!

I notice my medical exemption card runs out Feb 2017, so I must remember to ask onc about it when I see her for routine annual check up, next Monday. Ooh er! Next Monday! Where's that jittery bench?

 Last year, she said I'd probably stay on Tapoxyfen for 10 years and not change, as originally planned, to an AI. She's better stick to that because I now have 2 1/2 months of the stuff stockpiled!!

Edit: don't like photo - another reason for not wearing anklets on both feet: left ankle fatter due to 3 separate sprains in the past! Smiley Sad

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How do you do it, FF???

Woohoo for new anklets JCJSmiley Happy!!

You can now wear one on each ankle, was thinking tiara would be a good look...........

GS napping whew, pouring with rain here, yuck! xx

PS FF, let us know as soon as you find out, hugs flying your way xx

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Did you write the second half your post in invisible ink again, FF? Or is it just my tablet showing the big grey gap? Smiley Happy

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We're not used to hospital appts. on a Sunday are we?  Glad to know you were thinking of me.  Thanks for that, it is comforting to think that you are fighting my corner!

 

Meeting with executive head was ok, more of a form filling exercise than anything else. Another meeting in September to review things.

 

JCJ - you have just scared me half to death wih your post about booking the Madlands for the 24th.  My first thought was sh** I've booked the wrong week at the travelodge!!!!  Then I checked and all is ok, jeez, I have no idea what I'm doing these days, I need to got my head together!  At this rate I'll end up in Yarmouth wondering where you all are..............

 

Weather foul, humid and rainy, how am I supposed to get the washing dry?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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New ankle chain arrived from Mr Futon. Not as nice as the lost one but it's quite pretty. Another one also on its way. Both together only cost a fiver, so I've not lost much if I lose them! 

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Afternoon tea at The Madlands booked for Wed 24th August at 3:15pm, provisionally for 4. I said no butter or spread for one of them and I'll let them know exact numbers nearer the time.

 

See how confident I am that your scans will be fine, FF? (Crosses fingers still) You will be able to fatten up on all those yummy sandwiches and cakes! Smiley Very Happy

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Joining you on the "Doh" bench, I too remembered the 12th but also thought it was today, soooooo FF sooooooooo sorry.

Glad scan is over for you, hoping results are good and you don't have to wait too long, fingers and toes crossed for you.

Am also on the "beached whale" bench, too many caramel slices, will have to send them to FF and JCJ asap!

You are right dress will be perfect with the additions, am excited to stick them on, will be so pretty!!

Might wear it to Channel swim finish line xx

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FF, I was thinking about you today. Remembered your scan was on 12th but thought that was tomorrow! DOH!

 

Fingers crossed for speedy non-scary results. If your GP referred you, that is where you have to go for results - at least that's what happens here - that's why I was bounced between docs' surgery and hospital for 4 months last year. Really hoping your problem is as easily solved as mine was!

 

Oh the joys of the M6, Grumpy, we 'enjoyed' them for several years: 3 when YD was at UCLAN in Preston, and then for 4 years after, when she lived in Garstang. Really miss visiting Garstang but don't miss the M6!

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Drove home up a fast flowing river, otherwise known as the M6.

Holiday shorts were NOT a success, more a sort of beached whale impression.....

Grumpy 

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Had my CT scan today.  Daughter and I decided to make a day of it in the City and do some shopping as well. She was extremely sucessful in buying new clothes, I was not, nothing I tried on fitted, she bought five dresses and a pair of trousers!  I bought nothing. I have not got anything to wear if the weather gets warmer, I have lost so much weight that nothing I own that is summery fits!  But I am now, fortunately, putting on weight.  NEVER before in my life have I been glad to put on weight!

 

Scan was ok but I was not allowed to eat for four hours before it and I was really hungry.  Straight to the hospital restaurant after but although the food there is REALLY good when fresh, it was suffering from being kept warm for hours, so had  a sandwich, portion of chips (could have been hotter)  and apple pie.

 

Results of scan will take about about two weeks,no idea whether I will have to go back to hopital and see consultant about it or whether GP will tell me, obviously both will get the result.......perhaps it depends what they find?  I swither between I have no symptoms now so I'm ok and oh my God what are they going to find?  I had no symptoms when I had a routine mammo and suddenly I had cancer!  What I don't want is an early response!!

 

Meeting with executive head of school tomorrow, not too worried, I have several cards that I can play if they are difficult.  They talk about their concerns for my welfare?  I can give them plenty of cases where they don't give a monkey's for it.......all documented.  Bring it on.....

 

 

 

 

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KTC, you just need to add some rhinestones, sequins and maybe even a sprig of tinsel and you'll feel right at home in your denim dress! Add a tiara and Doc Martins and you'll be the perfect picture of the best dressed woman. Tee-hee. Smiley Very Happy

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haha JCJ, glad skirt is fitting you now, woo hoo!

Have just purchased a denim dress, wanted one for ages, now I have it, feel a little bit cowboyish??

Or a little country, or a little bit rock & roll hee hee! Sooooooooooo not sure about it, it will need an alteration maybe after that will love it?

Tiddling down with rain here, sooooooooooo muggatea and choccy biscuit calling me xx

 

 

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Just rest if you need to, KTC - and FF! - no shame in that.

 

I bought a lovely linen skirt in a local charity shop. Originally from the best known department store. I was disappointed that it was very tight, just on the waistband - fine everywhere else, thought maybe it was in the charity shop because it never fit it's first owner, but I have just discovered that the buttons have been moved! Whoever had it before must have done what I did and, having lost some weight, moved the buttons to make it wearable for a bit longer. I've moved them back and hopefully it'll fit a bit more comfortably! Now I'm wondering how many people will be having the same problem with all the stuff I sent to charity shops! Smiley Surprised

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Have been on the "zzzzzzzzz" bench, feeling sooooooooo tired, think it's hayfever + tablet, knocking me out??

Love the new frosty boySmiley Happy!

FF, you always feel fine at home when you can do things at your own pace, totally different when at work, hope you are ok.

grumpy, home safe and sound!

delly JCJ is right, had a lumpectomy, then another op for clear margins, 4 lymph nodes removed and some skin removed too, then rads to breast and axilla. Therefore I still have an arm for blood pressure etc, thank goodness, once when I had a canula in they took blood pressure by leg, didn't work!!

Think it must be awful for you, but stick to your guns as lymphoedema is for LIFE, easy to cave into the pressure. You need someone with experience, will make all the difference.

As for lynn, noticed I had a small patch of fluid between thumb and forefinger a few months after op, then sliced my finger ouchy, was laughed out of doc's surgery ( my fear of Lynn) then developed Lynn..............grrrrrrrrrrrrr.Have been told that was prob why I have it.

Upper arm larger than norm, fluid patch down forearm and still between thumb and finger, new sleeve and glove combi is fabulousSmiley Happy! xx

 

 

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FF, it's always hard to get back into the thick of it after a long time off. I know that feeling of seeming fine whilst at home and then suddenly not when attempting to do all the usual things! Can you negotiate for a phased return? Perhaps whoever has been standing in for you can share the work for a while? (Even if it means less money - surely that'll help?)

 

Hope the journey home wasn't too flood-affected Grumpy and that you had a good holiday.

 

I've cooled myself down during this latest hot weather by knitting Cedric:Cedric snowman.jpg

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So back to work today......couldn't do it....after two hours I'd had it. Knackered. Did the main school but have left the other small annex until tomorrow.  This is ok over the weekend but does not bode well for next week. It is one thing to feel perfectly well sitting at home watching tv or reading a book and quite another to be back at work.  Meeting with executive head etc. on Monday may or may not buy me some leeway or I'll be back to the Dr for more time off. 

 

Hope you all have a good weekend, 

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Ladies, our holiday ends tomorrow with drive home, and guess what TORRENTIAL RAIN!!!!

But food in the pub was great HUGE portion of steak and Stilton pie, no room for pudding only red wine..... .

Dogs are totally worn out, the ASBO Boy was too tired to eat his tea so he will get every mealtime until he finishes it. Meg has been a star at Chatsworth today, had lots of photos taken so hopefully she will get over not being invited to THAT birthday party.

Another nip of tincture then bed methinks.

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Re: stop feeling guilty, small rant (BENCHLAND)

Delly, it was my friend who developed Lynn, out of the blue, 13 years post op. KTC is 5 years (?) post op and has had it for at least the last 3.

 

My friend had just 11 nodes removed and then RT to rest due to presence of cancer cells in just one node.

 

When I had an operation (under local anaesthetic) on my right (good side) hand, 2 years ago, I had to have the blood pressure cuff on my leg during the op. My goodness that was soooo painful - like severe cramp every minute for half an hour! Then they wonder why BP is sky high??! Smiley Sad Do you have to have BP done on your leg too?

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Faced with the dreaded prospect of having to get up and dressed tomorrow to go and hang around for hours at the garage to get car air con sorted, I had a little mosey online and discovered I can book an appointment to get it done. Booked for Thursday, after school. Paid for. Sorted. No need to stray from the CBA bench too early tomorrow!! Smiley Happy

 

Moi?? Lazy?? No, no, no. Smiley Tongue

 

I'd better let the Met Office know, though, because by Friday we should expect sub-zero temperatures and/or continual rain for weeks?

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Ooooo 'eck JCJ to your lost ankle adornment - was it valuable? Can't you use a piece of glittery tinsel instead, as it's more easily replaced !!

Katy - can I just have a bit of a serious chat about lymphoedema and avoidance of needles/cannula's in the affected arm. Am I right in thinking that you had a single mast with ANC so are still able to have your UNaffected arm used for bloods or cannulas?? Or was it a double mast and ANC you had??

I ask, because I've had struggles with medics recently, being the latter and therefore always advised to never have arms used, but instead to have any needle procedures carried out to medial (inner) ankle veins or top of the foot. Yes, it's all to reduce risks of infection/lymphoedema to either of the affected arms. I'm 9yrs post op and wondered if anyone has had other veins elsewhere accessed for blood, anaesthetic, contrast mediums etc.

Reading back through your recent posts, and ref JCJ's friend developing "Lynn", are you saying that you developed it 13yrs post op and don't know what the cause was?? If so, it just goes to show me just how important it is that I still stand up to anyone saying - "You "should" be okay under aseptic techniques", which I still get pushed at me sometimes and have to refuse. Nearly gave in to an anaesthetist recently, because she couldn't manage to cannulate either feet for a CT contrast medium. So I still haven't had this more detailed liver scan carried out, due to it requiring someone of extra proficiency to cannulate me.

Hope your new sleeve is helping.

Hi to everyone else. Good to see you back FF and hear you're doing okay.

 

Love to all xxxx 

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Woo hoo JCJ, you are doing really well despite the detours. ....
FF hurrah you're back so glad you are still on the up!
Pssst tat good job we are going to Norcambe!
Feeding the ducks and every bird in the vicinity again today, going to bed exhausted, haha what a drip x x

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Another mile closer to Calais. 42% of the distance completed!  There was some heavy shipping in 'The Channel' tonight; I had to frequently deploy the swerve action. There were also a lot of 'slow boats' - no idea if they were on their way to China, but if so, it'll take them bloody YEARS at that rate!! Clocked 65 lengths, but it was probably nearer 70 with the number of detours I had to make!!

 

Now sitting in the garden with mugatea and a bowl of muesli before going to beddy byes. Smiley Happy

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Said granny is a great character.  I think she would fit in very well with all the MMU4 camel and glitter related shenanigans 😀 

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She clearly doesn't know what she's missing by avoiding Morecambe, T4T!

 

Helloooo FF!! Welcome back. Glad you are feeling better. Weehoo for magic meds! Smiley Happy

 

I'm on the p***** off bench because now it's finally warm enough to wear skirts and sandals for work (only 1 skirt at a time - I'm not that avant garde! Smiley Tongue) I looked in my jewellery box to find my ankle chain. The box is there but it's empty! No idea what's happened to that! I must have lost it somewhere when I was wearing it - or maybe I took it off to put my walking boots on last summer and put it somewhere daft. Smiley Sad

Just spent hours trawling through Mr Futon's stock, but I can't find anything like the one I lost. Grrrrr!

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Oh ladies, I'm on the PMSL bench!!

 

Watching The big C and me' and fabulous 83 year old granny with pancreatic cancer responds to daughter's entreaty to make a bucket list.  "Well, I don't want to go to Morecambe, do I?"  Nearly (only nearly) spat out my g&t!! 

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Hello *waves* I'm back.  Broadband sorted. laptop sorted  Hopefully nothing else will go wrong. Have just read through pages of posts, not going to comment as would take far too long. 

 

Yes, only internet problems keeping me away.  I'm ok, been rough but back to work this week. New meds are magic, working well and making me feel much better.

 

I can play piano/keyboards for  JCJ's crossing of the channel!