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Ooooh yummy, thank youSmiley Happy!!

When I was on an exchange many moons ago in France, lady of the house made a choc bread pudding, was the most delicious thing I had ever tasted, did get recipe and was made at home, but it disappeared.........so if anyone knows how to make this..............

You are being superly busy JCJ, in fact it's making me tired just reading about your escapadesSmiley Happy, no really it's fab when you do get all those "I'll do it later jobs", done.

 

Well non stop rain here today, luckily no venturing out for me, hurrah. Have been catching up with paperwork, bit difficult with broken fingerSmiley Very Happy

Hope you are feeling a little better FF xx

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Dinner is baked ham, roasties, Yorkshire pudding, broccoli, cabbage, peas and my newly invented ham gravy, followed by bread and butter pudding and ice cream. 

 

I've been slaving away all afternoon making spiced Bramley apple chutney to use up some of the apples from our tree. We have hundreds this year!! The whole house stinks of boiling vinegar despite me having the extractor on, the door shut and the window open! 😞

 

I think we'll be giving a lot of apples away!! There's a limit to the amount of room in the freezer - and to the amount of time I want to spend prepping them!!

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There were a lot of flies in the cottage in Wales, and loads of them persistently bothered me, especially the first night I used the hot tub - buzzing in my face then falling in the water. I'd scoop out the "dead" bodies and the da** things would miraculously resuscitate. The process would repeat. I started swearing at them. Two word phrase ending in "off". After a few days swatting at them and swearing, I joked with OH that it was a good job there were no small children around or they would assume flies were called "f*** off"s! Me? Foul mouthed? 

 

I thought the same as FF, Katy, an hour in A&E? You did well there!

 

Cleaned the oven yesterday too - didn't need much because I'm still sticking to my promise to do it regularly (and using teflon shelf liners). Got my chips. Went to sit on a bench to eat them. Rain!! Had to stand under a tree and scoff them! 😞

 

Today, I've not been quite so productive, but I have cut the lawn edge (hands and knees - ouchy- with an old kitchen knife) and uncovered the path again. That job has been on my "holiday to do" list for the last 3 holidays so I'm glad I've finally got around to it - between the showers. Lots of rain forecast for tomorrow.

 

Fingers crossed that Lyn stays away, Katy. Get a fly swatter so you won't be tempted to break any more fingers.

 

Hope you enjoy the book after all that effort to find it! 🙂

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10 people in front of you ......and emergencies.....and you only waited an hour?  That's amazing Smiley Happy

Sorry you have a broken finger, hope the fly died a painful death. Recommend you get a cat, any fly that comes into my house now gets chased, caught and eaten by Purdie.  Wasps and bees are left strictly alone, How does she know?   I will cross all my fingers that the fly will not cause more problems re Lynn.

Hope Mum is doing well.

 

JCJ, what do you call flies? You have been busy indeed. A rest on the CBA bench is a good idea. Chips eaten in Norecambe do not count.

 

It's got quite a colder here today and the forecast for tomorrow is rain, rain, and more rain.  Typical Bank Holiday weather.

 

 

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Hello paulasSmiley Happy unfortunately it's not a bank holiday here..............so there were 10 people in front of me and emergency admissions................but was taken after around an hour waiting so not too bad, 3 xrays later confirmed broken finger!! So finger taped, must admit was scared to bits about Lynn going into my fingers, prob more worried about that than the broken finger, everyone elses fingers crossed please. Am firmly placed on the "what a twit" bench.

 

Made it up to see Mum before visiting finished so was pleased about that.

Gosh you did loads JCJ and all in one day, shows what a trip to the seaside can doSmiley Happy

Sun is shining today, we have had heavy showers since I arrived home, yuck!

Got the book JCJ, 3rd charity shop, woo hoo so started reading last night xx

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Oh good grief, Katy, what are you like?  Even if it's broken though they'll probably only strap it to your other fingers rather than put a cast on.

 

You know what I call flies - that's even more appropriate now?! 🙂

 

Had a spurt of activity: 4 loads of washing done - drying on airer because it started to rain just as I went to peg out the first lot. Intermittent showers and sunshine ever since; cleaned bathroom; defrosted and cleaned freezer; simultaneously copied 4 audio CDs for YD (I make a compilation CD every year, for the car, for our little camping trip and she likes them so much she wants copies for her car for her commute to work :))

 

In a while, I'll walk up and fetch my prescription, post the CDs and get my Friday chippies (will studiously ignore the fact that I've had chips twice this week already!) Having a little rest on the CBA bench first tho'. 😛

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You might get lucky and be seen more quickly with it being Bank Holiday, and people busy doing other stuff?  I don't know what A&E's are like in your part of UK x

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Update chemist says go to A&E what????xx

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So am I, can't get off the "CBA" bench...................such bad behaviour!

Think the more I have to do the "lazier" I feelSmiley Frustrated

 

Well, well, was home for around 10 mins yesterday and had just opened all the windows when a fly flew in, utterly detest flies and go a bit crazy trying to get rid, soooooooooooo decided to swat it, missed fly but think i may have broken my finger hahaha. It is treble it's normal size, a little hot and painful. Will ask chemist when I go into town, can kill two birds with one stone tonight if it is, visit Mum then off to A&ESmiley Very Happy

It's tiring thinking about it so will have to sit a little longer xx

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Oh no, no, no, FF don't crawl up the M.way - makes *my* knees scream just thinking about that!  I like your idea of going by train on the Monday so you can rest and enjoy the next day, like Katy does (as opposed to "What Katy Does" or even "What Katy Does Next"?! :)) However, as I said to Katy, you will have to ignore each other so you CAN rest and recover; otherwise you're just starting MMU a day earlier! 😄 .The train takes longer but at least you can relax a bit more than when you are driving?

 

I'm struggling to get back into it. Hence still sitting here in my dressing gown with a coffee. Washing machine is on. Blue glass collection is back on the landing window sill, but that's as far as I've got in my great long list of jobs to do today!

 

Hope you are not having to run around too much today, KTC, so you can recover from your coastal hikes! 🙂 xx

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Glad you are both home safely.  I'll be there next year if I have to crawl up the M5/6.

 

Did you meet up with Grumpy?

 

 

 

 

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Arrived in Norcambe an hour late and arrived home an hour early woo hoo!!!

Lovely time, walking, talking and eating.................the usual for me then???

There was a big empty space where you would usually be FF, you were missedSmiley Sad

Came home to sunshine, a little chilly but all ok.

Hope your camel behaved on trains JCJ, have to post yours FF, that will be traumatic for R**** M***!!

 

Mum's birthday tomorrow so we are going up with a cake, can we have a candle?? Prob not xx

 

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Home. It's much warmer here than oop North! 

 

Back to reality. 😐

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Covered some miles along the prom these last 2 days - in between the showers. Boosted Norecambe tea sales considerably! I have a camel misbehaving in my bag! 🙂

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Glad you've arrived safely Katy.  My mistake was being pigheaded enough to think that I could act as usual and it's backfired on me big time!  Perhaps if I'd taken action some months ago, instead of sticking my head in the sand Smiley Sad

 

Fair warning though girls, next date for MMU will need to be a week earlier, in the teens rather than the twenties. Also I will do as you do Katy and travel on the Monday by train.

 

Have a lovely time, get out your unbrellas the forecast is not great.  Give my best wishes to Grumpy.

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Glad you're there safe. I've been checking Benchland every 5 minutes since 8 o'clock. 🙂 

 

Have a restful night. My train arrival time now changed to 14:02 so I've now got a 40 minute wait at Lancaster. I have a sandwich and some fruit from Sains****'s. I guess that's when I'll eat that!

 

See you soon. Can't wait. 🙂

 

Gutted we won't be seeing you, FF - or the promised Purdie photos! 😞

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Am finally here train was stuck for around an hour!
Felt sad on arrival FF, will be strange without you.
See you tomorrow JCJ xx

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Aaaah FF, as long as you do start to pick up, fingers crossed it will be before the 6 weeksSmiley Frustrated

Thank you for dinner has set me up for todays travels..............

Will be leaving shortly, will not arrive until around 8pm, hopefully time will pass quickly!

Tiara is placed on head in preparation as will be travelling first class, may even wave from train windows haha.

Am just about to search for a book, if I can concentrate long enough to read.

Will post when I'm safely in room xx

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Magic bus, broomstick or even the Weasley's Ford Anglia...... I wish they were available too, especially as Grumpy seems to be joining the party. Aaaaagh!

The only one happy about this is Purdie, who has unpacked her suitcase and is turning cartwheels in the catio.  No cattery for her. However due to the short notice in cancelling her visit I still have to pay half the cost Smiley Sad  Can't blame them, if I'd cancelled earlier they could have re-let her "room".

 

Oh , a decent dinner at last, thank you JCJ. Also haha the curtains but I can top that .....for 30 years my husband's clean socks were kept in the top drawer of the dresser and he still used to ask where they were Smiley Frustrated Glad you're happy with the decorators.

 

Katy, I feel fine as long as I do nothing much, I've got the new meds. Drs. say they'll take about six weeks to kick in, so we shall see.

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First ''proper" Sunday dinner for 4 weeks. Really enjoyed it:

Roast Welsh lamb, Yorkshire pudding, roast potatoes, smashed roots, cabbage, peas, gravy and mint sauce followed by home made windfall Bramley apple crumble and custard. You're welcome.

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Hahaha the curtainsSmiley Very Happy

Glad the decorators did a good job JCJ.

Magic Bus and broomstick I wish they were available for you FF, hope you are feeling a little better.

Grumpy just let us know what's what, look forward to seeing you, The Duchess and ASBO boySmiley Happy

 

Chilly and pouring with rain here yuck!! 

Am almost organised, just to pack stuff I need in the morning, woo hoo!!

Are we having dinner tonight JCJ? xx

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If only the broomstick was a real option, FF? 😐 When my children were young and we had to have the annual decision about which teddies they could bring on holiday, (limited to a maximum of 4 each - we have hundreds!) I cunningly invented The Magic Bus which Bruno, the biggest teddy, would "drive" and it would bring all the rest of the cuddly toys to camp in the field next to us. Those furries that came with us could then join their friends for various activities (jet skiing, rock climbing, canoeing; we got more inventive as the years went by!) whilst we were out for the day. YD and I still joke about The Magic Bus sometimes, and wish it was a "thing". 🙂

 

Grumpy, we will be on the prom from about 3pm on Tuesday, weather permitting, until tea time in the chippy, or we could meet for, or after, breakfast at Rita's on Wednesday if that's any good for you? It would be good to catch up, and see the doggies again.

 

Forgot to say; decorators did a good job. There are a few things that I'm slightly disappointed with - places where the job doesn't seem completely professional - but it's at least as good as I could have done and we had none of the hassle. They left the place tidy - the carpet was cleaner than we left it! - no spills or spots - and there were just a few painty water splash marks in the kitchen sink. So I'm happy. The colour they chose (I asked for it to be similar to what was already there) was "Holiday Blues" - how apt??! 🙂 Gradually getting everything back: pictures on walls, enormous bookcase back in place and refilled, light shades back up, front door curtains ironed and put up. (OH: (seeing me ironing them) where are you planning to put those curtains? ME: where they've been for the last 20 years; on the front door!)

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JCJ you were NOT whinging and it;s not about nothing.  It's the transition period between one stage of life and the next. It's difficult and you have to shout/scream/cry and get it out of your system before you can move on.

 

It IS the journey girls, if I could be transported to Norcambe ("Beam me up Scotty!") I'd be there.  Eight hours on trains or a six hour drive?  No, I just can't do that and I'm p****d off about it. But pottering about at home, going to school, doing the usual things I'm ok.

 

First day on new meds. I'm told they will take a couple of weeks to kick in, so here's hoping.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Ooooh - is MMU this coming week???

If you let me know, I could come to see you, with The Duchess in her trolley (wonky back legs) and the ASBO Boy, for a trot along the prom. Can't walk far due to having had my veins 'done' so a bit slow on me legs....

Love to all

Grumpy

 

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Aaaah FF, so sadSmiley Sad, it won't be the same without you but you need to be well and it's a long journey. Really hoping your new meds work asap, please keep us updated. Big hugs flying your way.

We will send you photos and hopefully chat to youSmiley Happy MMU7 will be extra special xx

 

 

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Oh, FF! I'm so sorry. I had no idea you were feeling so ****! And there was me whingeing about nothing. I was only thinking to myself, yesterday,  that the cooler Morecambe weather would make you feel better - but it's a heck of a long journey if you're not well.

 

We will miss you and it won't be the same without you, but you must rest and get better - ready for MMU7! Expect a phonecall on Tuesday and/or Wednesday from 2 lunatics on The Prom (or in The Kings).

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So glad you had another good day out with OH. As you said.......you can do this, it just takes adjusting to different circumstances.

 

On a different note.....and I'm totally gutted about this....but I won't be at MMU6.  I've been unwell for a while now and I've tried very hard to get better enough to be there. I've followed all the Drs. orders and taken all the meds. and told myself that I'd get well and be there.  Even this week I thought there was a chance but tonight I have to be realistic and accept that it's not going to happen.  

 

Tomorow I collect a different med, from the chemist and I hope this one will work better and I can get back to some sort of normalcy.

 

I'm gutted, I hope you two, Katy and JCJ, manage to have a good time together (how dare you you have a good time without me!) in Norecambe/ Mancaster.

 

 

 

 

 

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Fingers crossed for ED's doc appointment, KTC.

 

We went out again today. I offered to go off on my own but OH wanted to come. We went to Yns Hir RSPB reserve (where they filmed Springwatch - or was it Autumnwatch?) OH stayed in the (very scenic) carpark, pottered about and listened to his CDs in the car (probably annoying everyone else as he disturbed the peace!) I went on a lovely walk along some of the trails. Lovely views (but the only birds I saw were on the feeders in the carpark!!) It felt sooo good to get a decent walk, and OH enjoyed himself too. Win. Win. We can do this! 🙂

 

We stopped at a pub on the way back and ate a meal in the beer garden, which was roof top height with a view of the hills. Felt very guilty making the waitress climb all those steos to bring us our food. We had Glamorgan Sausages, mash and peas. Didn't realise they're not "proper" sausages but a vegi version made of leeks and cheese. After the initial disapointment, I have to admit they were very tasty.

 

Had my last soak in the hot tub tonight, looking at the mountains and the stars. Mostly packed up ready to go home tomorrow. It's going to be so hard to leave this place and go back to the flat, overcrowded midlands 😞  I'm glad I've got MMU6 to look forward to. 🙂

 

Slightly anxious/excited to see what state the house will be in when we get back. Was it a good idea to let an unknown decorator have free rein of the place?? We'll soon find out.......!!!

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It was great that you had a good day out JCJ, these trips will now be your new memoriesSmiley Happy

Have been catching up today, didn't leave house at all!

Am up at hospital tomorrow to meet with the team that's looking after Mum, usually go into town on Fri but think I will be too late so a Sat run around anticipated.

ED has had her appt moved forward and is seeing doc tomorrow about referral.

It's actually chilly here tonight brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Am usually so organised and have my bags packed not this time, will have to get things sorted over the weekend, will be in Norcambe on Mon, woo hoo!!!

Remember and text me so I can meet you from train/carSmiley Happy xx

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Thank you girls for you kind, supportive words!

 

B***er, Ali, I've just been in the retail establishment you mentioned - bought corn on the cobs, steak and new potatoes to cook for dinner; yummy! (Threw in some 'shrooms and frozen mix veg that we already had) if I'm in there again before we leave on Friday then I'll get some. That's got to be one of the most scenic C*O* carparks in the country? It even looked stunning today after it's been persisting it down all day.

 

Had a talk with OH last night and we've been out today, inspite of the rain, and visited the Centre for Alternative Technology which is only 8 miles from the cottage. We went there in 1984 when IIwas pregnant with ES - it's changed a bit since then! I drove (and threatened to put a bag over his head!) We pottered around a bit and had a mugatea and a slice of carrot cake in the cafe. Feel sooo much better for getting out, although the tears and explaining my frustration almost certainly helped too! I said, if he wants a rest day tomorrow (last day here :() then I'll go off on my own for a couple of hours.

 

Can't believe we'll be in Norecambe this time next week. Won't be able to compete with your neatly coiffured barnets;  mine will be it's usual straggly mess. 😄

 

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JCJ if you're still in Mach pop into the c**p and look for Tregoes chocolate waffles. They come in a small square box of 6 and are quite the most delicious thing to enjoy with a cuppa while relaxing. Life doesnt always play fair, sometimes simply ''it is what it is' . We Benchies are used to adapting and finding pleasure in the small and everyday joys, and chocolate waffles are most definitely in that category x

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 I've been out all day in local City with Daughter and two GD's trying to find school uniform for them and trousers for me. Some success with the elder one but to try getting school stuff for a petite 4 yr old going into Reception is not easy, in fact it's nearly impossible!. As was trousers for me, no luck whatsoever but I came home with not having spent a penny, Daughter bought the cup of of tea I had sitting on the wall of the Cathedral Green.

 

See what FF thinks?   I have now read the messages and I'm happy with any menu as long as there is steak on it but I have quite a fancy to mooch about Mancaster as it's something different to do.  Thanks for doing the research JCJ. Why don't we decide on the day...... after breakfast at Rita's?

 

I understand your tears for a life that's gone but the life that's new can be just as good with some adjustments.

 

 

 

 

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PS, FF check your messages Smiley Happy, hahaha xx

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Aaaah JCJ, it's ok to cry, it is difficult remembering the things you used to do together and it is sadSmiley Sad that things will never be that way again. One good thing is that he is not unhappy and he is enjoying his new type of holiday, perhaps you can have the odd day exploring? You don't have to go far and sometimes it is just nice to be on your own. Big hugs xx Enjoy your hot tubSmiley Happy

 

Was really late going into town today, sat on the "CBA" bench for far too long, though managed to do almost everything, so pleased. 

Am now stting on the "FB" bench honestly can't list what I have just eaten..............bad behaviour or what?? xx

 

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Check your direct messages, FF. Nothing to worry about!

 

Having an enforced lazy day because OH can't/won't do anything. I shed some tears this morning in frustration at what PD has done to him and how it's already restricted both of us. At least he's mentally happy and not sulking, so that's better than it could be! He gets so anxious when we go anywhere in the car - even if I'm driving - and his knee and foot hurt so he can't walk much. There's nowhere flat to walk from the cottage anyway, and the road is bendy with no footpath. He's happy to sit about all day watching television and reading but there's so much I want to do. I'm not ready to be an immobile OAP yet!! 😞

 

Sorry. I feel better for getting that off my chest. And the tears helped - didn't let OH see them tho'. I know I should just be grateful we can afford to be in this lovely cottage and enjoy the view and the peace and quiet. Get a grip, woman!!

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Rising Sun or Star, they are both in the sky, hahaha, or were you deliberately trying to "lose" us JCJ???

Have walked down from station before so am ok with that, don't know if there are any tasty places in Norcambe? We'll see what FF thinks.

Have had hair chopped and it's short, not sure about it, but it's been raining non stop so it's a little flat am hoping it's livelier tomorrowSmiley Frustrated

 

YD arrived home safely, she has also been unwell prior to holiday so had doc appt today, she has to have blood tests...............she is going to be referred to genetic testing place. ED's appt is not for a couple of weeks so she will also be referred and will be able to ask about GD then. Mum is so so............multi team had a meeting today so further testing over next couple of days then will find out results on Wed.

So am sitting on the "doom and gloom" bench.

Norcambe break is much neededSmiley Happy xx

 

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Re last comment: not implying we WALK from Norecambe to Mancaster, but railway station isn't in centre of town!!  🙂

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Pub was actually called The Star - no idea why I remembered it as The Rising Sun. Hope you didn't get lost due to my mis-direction. Oh, you didn't, FF, you had the garlic mushrooms starter. 😄

 

Absolutely stonking sunset sky on the way back over the mountain road back to our cottage from the pub. Beautiful. I am soooo full. Fish pie, chips and peas followed by chocolate brownie ice cream - which was enormous - and now I feel slightly sick! Missing my roast dinners: that's 3 weeks in a row without now!!

 

Are we still thinking Mancaster for Wednesday dinner? Or do we want to stay in Norecambe? Don't want to make you have to walk further than you're comfortable with.

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I avoided the low flying aircraft and dinner was lovely. I especially enjoyed the creamy garlic mushroom starter.

 

Heating?... ....just noooooo, no need for that down here, although it is cooler and raining on and off.  It's just lovely at the moment.  I hope we have sunshine at Norecambe too Katy, just not 30 degree temperatures Smiley Happy

First on my to do list tomorrow is to make a hairdresser appt.. Like you I can't be seen at Norecambe other than beautifully coiffed.

Glad that your Mum is making progress .  She must feel so much better to be less confused and able to communicate with you.

 

I should have spent this week at work and then had the next three weeks off but the European Championships put paid to those plans.  Instead I've spent this last week glued to the EC and will have to work next week and then have two weeks off.  Worth it, I've fully enjoyed watching all the events that have happened and haven't we done well Smiley Happy

 

 

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I know!!! Thought it was just me, it's sooooooooooo cold and absolutely pouring with rain here. Brrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!

Looks like the "Rising Sun" then???

Am hoping for sunshine in Norecambe, sorry FF.

Hair is being chopped tomorrow in readiness, can't come down with a mop head. Have you looked again for yummy places yet? Decisions, decisions............ 

 

Mum is not so confused now, colour better, still very frail, walking not good at all. She has a leg splint to see if that helps, so a def small improvement.

YD home tonight, feel as though she has been gone for months.

Am also off with ED tomorrow to talk over her birthing plan with midwife, lots of bother with previous births so think it will be a section this time. So feeling a little nervous.

Sat in a well known coffee shop for hours yesterday, seat was a little hard, didn't feel it then but do now, haha xx

 

 

 

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Good grief! We actually had to put the heating on last night!! Wet and windy afternoon and evening which made me grateful for the solid walls and roof! No hot tubbing - although I am tempted to try it in the rain, not when it's blowing a hooli though: far too chilly for the exposed regions!

 

I hope it's cooled down a bit where you are too, FF.

 

Don't overdo the running around, Katy, take time for yourself.

 

Sunday dinner at The Rising Sun, Dylife, Powys. Probably. If OH CBA this week. Otherwise it'll be sweet & sour chicken and rice cobbled together in the cottage. The view will be good either way. Watch out for low flying jet aircraft if you're arriving by broomstick though: could take your head off!! 

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It's a small world indeed haha!

Right, everyone in the hot tub now, woo hooSmiley Happy

 

Nipped into town superly early, all jobs done, feel as though I'm chasing my tail at the moment..........

Been sleeping this afternoon, so there was method in my madness (town).

Pouring with rain here, aaargh, have decided to go to chippie but will have to wait, too wet.

So will sit on the "CBA" bench for a while xx

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Major breakthrough!! OH actually joined me in the hot tub tonight and, after initial terrible anxiety, he relaxed and enjoyed it! The stars were a. maze. ing!! I was in there two hours!! Where did that go??!!

 

Yesterday we spent in Machynlleth: takeaway salad lunch from a 5* rated deli then I left OH to browse the bookshop (took him quite a while to realise it was a specialist bookshop selling only books relating to hunting, fishing and shooting - glad I wasn't with him in that embarrassing moment!!) and the books in the 2nd hand shops, while I mooched in the tourist tat shops and went for a walk. I had a cup of tea at a pub and I met a colleague from school!! We both said "what the BL**** he** are you doing here?!!" I was sat at a table outside and she was with her family inside, sitting by the window, in effect right next to me! What a coincidence! Quick chat about what we were doing/where we were staying and no mention of work! 🙂 OH joined me at the pub and we had dinner in the beer garden.

 

OH didn't want to go anywhere today - needed a rest - so after a salad lunch, I took the car into Machynlleth and did a food shop then I drove back past the cottage to a viewpoint that's marked on the OS map. We can see cars parked there from our "terrace". When we drove over that way as we arrived on Friday it was shrouded in cloud, but today the view was stupendous and a tiny wee white dot in the middle of miles of scenery was our cottage!! I'm quite glad it was cloudy/foggy when we arrived - somehow the steep, bendy road seemed less scary when I couldn't see the spectacular views! I sat in the car and enjoyed the view whilst munching on a (shhh! Talk quietly) chocolate bar that I'd had to buy to get 20p change to use the public toilets in town!!  Such hardships? 😛

 

I'm hoping we're going to the seaside tomorrow. The weather forecast for the weekend is rain. It's been intermittent cloud and sunshine today and a pleasant temperature - that typical British summertime too hot for 5 minutes then a bit chilly when the sun goes in, repeat all day.

 

 

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Thank you JCJ for your sensible and kind wordsSmiley Happy

Am much better today, was overwhelmed by "C" talk yesterday, basically most of the afternoon so my head was spinning. Was at the Macmillan Centre, the manager there I know from BC days so it was wonderful to talk to someone who was "clued up", was given really good advice and have also come to the conclusion (pointed out to me) that I am basically side lining the new one..............The shocked look on their faces and my smiley reaction, oh dear haha!!

Think it's because of everything else that has happened in the last weeks.............

ED has her appt next week, YD is still on holiday.

 

Are you still "hot tubbing" JCJ??

And how is your weather doing??

We are a little chilly here, so would suit you FF.

Quiet just now, am popping up to hosp later, this ward has restricted hours, other ones were great because you could pop in any time. Mum actually had some colour in her face yesterday, a small step.

Almost forgot Lynn is doing really well, woohoo!! xx

 

 

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Breathe, Katy, breathe. The fact that your girls are getting tested is a GOOD thing. It doesn't mean they have cancer, it will just flag up if they have an increased likelihood of getting it so that, IF they do, they can be treated sooner and probably more effectively. Yes, it's scary but cancer treatments are moving forward all the time. Do NOT, I repeat, do NOT start blaming yourself for "giving it to them" - even if you all do have the gene IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!! And they may be completely fine!!

 

Lots of hugs. {{{{{}}}}}} xx

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Am on the "how much more c*** can we deal with???" bench.

So I just have to spill it out here, cause don't think I can say it out loudSmiley Frustrated

Both my girls and possibly GD have to see about a referral for genetic testing, am feeling devastated tonight.

The BC age isn't an issue now and because I have another unrelated cancer and perhaps Mum does too, girls are at a higher risk. My brain is scrambled, can't think straight at all, in fact am scared to think too much???

 

Tomorrow is another day,as they say xx

 

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I consulted a dictionary, it's roofs. I've watched some of the synchro swimming but was much bemused by the single person techno class...eh? what?

These European Championships are playing havoc with my holiday plans, I'd much rather be watching them than going to school. I usually get the work done and then have time off but I think it will be the other way round this year.

 

Still horribly hot here but forecast a bit cooler/cloudier tomorrow.  Have to go shopping, no food in the house, I'll go early before it gets too warm.

 

Glad Mum is now in a side ward Katy, much better for her.  Hope you get the right Lynn garments from the clinic,it's not right that your Drs. can't get them for you.

 

 

 

 

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Ah. I get you, Katy! View is definitely better than some flooded roofs (rooves?) and hundreds of seagulls?! 🙂

 

Lazy day today. Cool and cloudy. Some drizzle this morning - but that may have been because we're in the clouds up here! Watched some diving and synchro swimming: didn't realised they did mixed pairs - may have to try some of those moves in the hot tub tonight!! 😄

 

Went for a stroll up the road this afternoon, but it's a bit narrow and bendy so we had to keep leaping in the hedge to get out of the way of cars. Tried to cut back across the field, but it was a bit too steep for OH to manage, so we had to backtrack to the road again. Cooked a quick "camping" meal back at the cottage. I'm definitely due a few pub meals now - though we did have delicious fish and chips from the takeaway last night and ate them on a bench in the park. 

 

Forecast for rain tomorrow and OH has managed to come on holiday without ANY coat! What a dingbat! A good job we're not camping?!!

 

Yummy cake, FF. 

 

It sounds like your mum's new ward is better for her, Katy. I'm glad they're not trying to send her home yet! Glad you managed to "escape" for a while and have a nice tea out. x

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No, not the view in Norcambe!!! The view from the window of where we stay hahaha!!!

Mmmmm................OH is on the "bad behaviour" bench..................I would purposely be in the tub all the time nowSmiley Wink

Glad you are enjoying the tranquility.

FF, strawberry cake was lovely, yum yum.

Have been into town, so glad I went in early as am superly tired, Mum was moved to a new ward where they concentrate on physio, she is not on the ward but in a side room which is much more preferable, had a call from doc on Fri outlining their plans. Mum is up and down so still a wait and see, recovery will be a long process.

Up to see about Lynn tomorrow, my doctors cannot get the correct garments so had a call from clinic and they will get the right ones, suggested a review so am pleased with that.

Went out for tea last night was really nice to just relax for a whileSmiley Happy xx

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Red footed? My mistake. It was a blue footed booby wasn't it?