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Katy
Blurt away, you are not a total twit - well, no more than the rest of us when we have niggles. Back in June/July I was convinced I had new lumps in surviving breast and they hurt. Had US but no lumps. Nursey told me to lay on my surgery side, then pressed so hard on my other side I almost leaped off the table. It was a condition called Costo Chondritis. Sounds too much like a cross between Costa Coffee and hyperchondriac. Anyway this has spread to my other side now. It sometimes feels as though someone is stabbing me. I know what it is, but it still freaks me out. So budge up a bit, I'm joining you on the "freaking myself out" bench. I'd better bring a nice fluffy blanket to keep us warm.
Mandy, I thought you'd already had your rads - shows how much I keep up to date 
Hot toddies all round tonight - cold or no cold!!
aaaaaaah milly, do be kind to yourself, if you feel tired and are able to have a nap just go for it and do not feel GUILTY
! it's been a long journey.
sooooooooo grumpy's house is "snotland" hope you feel better soon just have to have some hot toddies, only for medicinal purposes of course!
It wasn't me JCJ, i get the blame every year.................hee hee.
well, am perched on the "freaking myself out" bench am trying to calm down but bad thoughts are simmering
, logically am being silly but i know ,you all know, the fine line we walk, had bone scan last year and everything was fine, sooooooooooo realistically have had just a bad spate of luck
! not saying anything to family and friends in the real world but know i can blurt out my worries here............deep breaths and keep calm and stop being a total twit methinks xx
poems, think Mark Twain was correct stating, it is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt
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woo hoo party tonight yahoo be dooby/booby! Tiara and knee highs at the ready, JCJ thank you for suggesting our virtual walk, will imagine walking again in Morecambe, always makes me smile!
Have had torrential rain here today, spent most of the day getting washing up to date, tumble drier being put to full use, hang the cost.................
Have just spotted exactly what you are writing JCJ, off to the "naughty"bench for you xx
Poems, When I was Dx with BC and fell apart, having lost a sister-in-law and, more recently, my sister and a neighbour to lung cancer, the BCN was quite stern with me. She said BC is a 'completely different thing to lung cancer' and yours is curable. So the chap, though insensitive and highly annoying, does have a point!
The trouble is that the very term 'cancer' puts the terrors into us, but it actually describes many many different conditions (and life expectancies!!) even within BC, never mind all the other types! You are right that any one of us with a BC dx could develop secondaries and that that will be a constant worry for all of us, but the survival rate statistics for BC are very good overall, especially for certain types. The really aggravating phrase "If you've got to have cancer, It's the best sort to have" does actually have some truth in it! Though NOBODY chooses to have cancer, obviously!!
Reading his remark, I wonder if he was trying, like my BCN, to calm the woman's worries and point out she had every chance of coming through it?? (Or he could just be an arrogant ****** who's got to be iller than everyone else - they do exist unfortunately - but not in Benchland! )
I found it so helpful, when first dx to hear of people who'd had BC years ago and were still here and healthy!
GIJ, I hope you have cleaned up, the suit is not too scarred from it's adventures and the new chapel has come through undamaged? sounds like htat wasn't a fun experience, but it was lucky you were there to salvage the situation?!
Katy - BEHAVE YOURSELF! Come with me on a virtual walk around Benchland - calling at the Lost Plottery shed for *supplies* en route! 🙂 - instead of galavanting about and making yourself poorly. It's good that you felt well enough to want to go for a walk - and probably a good idea to get some fresh air - but take it steady! As to checking your blood markers, I have everything crossed htat (haha including my typing fingers? ) they don't find any alarming changes. At least they are on the ball and monitoring you so they can start treatment quickly if necessary.
I'm nailing Catherine Wheels and Rockets (they spell F*** OFF CANCER in sparkles in the sky) to posts in Benchland ready for the bonfire party tonight. Alliburgers are cooking and there's gallons of hot spiced punch brewing in the JM. I've started to make my mincemeat today. Mmmmmmmmm 🙂
Not blood pressure tests, blood marker tests, that's the worry.
Great news about car not too naughty.................
Oh POOH, sounds just awful Jane, hopefully fixed soon, how lucky was your friend???
It's all those Dame Grumpy moments in Benchland that have turned you into a superstar!
Went for a little walk today, mmmmmmmm felt a bit sick, will need to stay in for a while yet received huge lecture from YD...............not told anyone else 
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Am munching peanut bars just now so tasty with a muggatea, kettle is calling, hope everyone is behaving or not??? xx
hope all goes well with the car and she behaves for you.............you just wait for the call, stomach churning, cause can be so expensive! so fingers crossed!
had a call from doc practice and doc said they had had a meeting about me, said they will keep a close eye on me and to come in on mon, will be monitored for the next wee while, said please do not worry, just want to make sure everything is ok, will check to see if any blood changes first............mmmmmmmmmmm, don't worry who's kidding who????? xx
Grrrrrr! 
Just had my annual argument with Roadside Accident (Cars) recovery person, over the phone, about the renewal cost. Thoroughly ****ed off that new customers get all the bargains and loyalty is no longer rewarded (in ANYTHING, never mind customer services??) these days. He kept banging on about 'number of call outs', yet in 8 years joint membership I think we've only called them out 3 times - none of those being in the last 12 months! I was on the FF bench for a while, but he did match the price for new members with their major competitor (even if that was still £2 dearer than their OWN new member price!) Saved me £30, but not sure it's worth the agravation!
Car is currently at the car doctor having it's MOT and service, (fingers crossed!) so I was on a bus at half past 9 this morning, coming back from the garage! It now feels like it should be tea-time never mind only elevenses time!
I was going to plant my tubs with the cyclamen, primula and pansies I bought at the weekend, but it's persisting down now. Oh dear. I'll have to have a sit down with another mug of coffee instead. Gutted!
Thought about getting a costume for halloween, in case any of the local kids call trick or treating, but decided I didn't need one! 🙂 Are we having a Benchland/DDWoods bonfire party again this year? Shall I get some giant sparklers for the weekend?
I hope you are not feeling too miserable/sore Katy, (or anyone still undergoing treatment!)
, feel as though i'm breaking everything for you grumpy!
seriously hope all went well!
what a treat indeed JCJ! you are living the "high" life! lovely dovely fun!
Ali, how fabulous, enjoy your day!
just started raining here and it's pretty breezy brrrrrrrrrrr! just had a lovely gift delivered, basket of food from local butcher, beats flowers hahaha, will have to wait till YD comes home so i can unwrap it all!
just had a long nap...............so still on the "feeling snoozy" bench!
had a letter yesterday explaining some of the exercises i should be doing one is called the PENDULUM, had horrific images of me trying to swing my arm around, even the thought was making me feel nauseous! nurse showed me what to do............. tiny little movements Whew! xx
whew thank goodness all ok, just some delays, no electricity, well we can live with that!
had my virtual appointment..............told me wrong details then phoned back and apologised for errors most profusely! was asked if i could come up asap but yesterday had no energy whatsoever, so am going this afternoon to have a proper sling, splint and learn some exercises, will have splint etc for 6 weeks, not that bothered about that it's just being stuck at home cause i can't push my chariot...............so will be sitting on the "sad" bench for quite a bit!
ooooooh staying in a hotel JCJ, what fun, afternoon tea perhaps? xx
Well, I hope all are safe and well after the 'storm of the century'! Here on the Notts/Derbys border it was the biggest non-event ever. Quite heavy rain for most of the morning, with a little wind. Not enough to keep us in!! Wet and windy seems to describe me at the moment. I can burp for England every time I even have a drink of water.
Jen, I bet you are very relieved that your son got off safely and is near his destination.
Katy, sorry you are feeling very ouchy and have a smurflike shoulder. Hope your muggatea revived you a little.
Are there any floods in the Land of Bench?? Hope not, I left my cushion on the Jittery Bench and it was one of my favourites. 
hopefully storm has missed everyone!
still can't concentrate on anything, but will read all posts at a later date..........
a drop in blood pressure seems to be reason for faint have a bump on side of face, one on top of my head and ofcourse shoulder is now a lovely shade of blue. it's very ouchy
am having a virtual appointment in a short while from ortho dept, that's a first..........
muggatea and a wee lie down, hope everyone else is ok, thinking of you allxx
Sending hugs to all those feeling
(a) ill.
(b) tired
(c) needing to rant
(d) anything at all (I like hugs)
As it is reaching the time of year when we hear the distant ring of jingle bells (love kris moose) I decided to put my little Robin photo up. His name is Red!!
Re butter, even I can't eat a whole packet - honest 
but I had more good news today. Youngest son has a new job, driving a fork lift truck. I've always wanted to do that since I was a teenager about 100 years ago. Eldest son used to do it.when younger. He's a boss man now. 
Oh, Katy no......how awful. Glad that you weren't kept in hospital though. Sending tea, sympathy, and very gentle hugs. And lots of cake of course.
JCJ - love that moose. I was in our local garden centre yesterday and picked up that very knitting book to have a look and to see if there was a camel. Enjoy half term, as will I.
I saw a poster in a local shop this week, advertising a fund-raising event for our swiming pool, which made me smile. They are having a ferret racing night.
Many thanks to Jen for the medieval mystery. Ladye Agatha did indeed run off with the circus as she took a great fancy to the lion tamer.
Katy, broken clavicle ouchy ouchy! Tests all fine: TFFT!!
Of course you've shed some tears - you're poor old bod has been through so much, and you are in shock. (hahaha I accidentally typed 'sone' tears which tablet corrected to 'scone' tears.....NOW that would be excellent - pass the cream & jam please?!)
I hope your daughter is looking after you with TLC. Gentle hugs.
Kay, I've replied to your PM! (Email system alerting me to a PM now seems to be working again! 🙂 )
