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katytc
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Re: stop feeling guilty, small rant (BENCHLAND)

aaaah that's disappointing JCJ, but as you say better to be safe than sorry. Glad DIL is fine, it's all just crazy.

At one point you will be altogether, that's the main thing and a great thing to look forward to.

Would def have a mini Christmas Dinner.

 

No I had two different things but the same dessert, honestly cannot resist, think I have said before meringue, banana, vanilla ice cream and a caramel sauce, it's truly delicious...........

Am really fussy with carbonara don't like it too wet, hope your tummy is better now.

My new sideboard arrives next week and I honestly don't know what I was thinking?? A couple of days before Xmas and will have to rearrange furniture etc, do you not have enough to do?? arrrgh. Am excited to have it but.............

It's rained every day here I think, so depressing, today it was semi dark all day long.

Remembered to order all meds and picked them up today, hurrah don't have to think about it now till middle of Jan.

Finished scarf turned out well, I enjoyed doing it but no plans for anything more adventurous haha. xx

 

JCJ
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OK. There wasn't a Christmas menu (we can say the word now it is past Nov 5th: No fear of Santa being frightened/woken up by fireworks!) so what did you have? Did you have the same the second visit or try something else. I always find that a tricky dilemma: go with what I know is good or branch out?

I'm envious because we can't eat out at the moment as we're in Tier 3: delivery or takeaway only. 😐 We had takeaway from a pizza place after OH's swimming tonight. We've only ever had pizza from there before, on just a few occasions, and they've always been good, but tonight we tried the lasagne and a ham and bacon carbonara. Both tasty although it was a bit bizarre that they came with garlic naan - which was very greasy - rather than garlic bread. We struggled to eat them, in the car, with the plastic forks I keep in the door pocket (for takeaway emergencies) - perhaps it would have been easier if we'd brought it home! There is some left over that might make a nice lunch tomorrow but my stomach wishes I hadn't eaten it: probably way too much cheese and cream for me to digest without a gallbladder!! I felt a bit icky for a while! 

Disappointing news from YD. She phoned to say that DIL has had to have a Covid test for work and it's come back positive. 🙁 She is fine, but they will all have to isolate for 10 days - at least: if YD or GD test +ve in that time, or develop symptoms, then they'll have to reset the clock, so to speak. This means they won't now be coming here on Christmas Eve as that's the 10th day. They will see DIL's mum on Christmas Day and come here 26th - 28th....possibly. It is not a problem. We can still celebrate Christmas together, hopefully, but just not on Christmas Day. Technically, it's breaking the rules as they'll be here outside the official 5 day "window" specified, but as they will have been isolating - and we're not going anywhere! - it will be safe. That's if the rules don't change anyway due to the rampant infection rates!! And only if DIL - or either of the others - doesn't get ill. 🤞🏼Worrying times. YD is stressing about the fact that they could be at their home for Christmas and she's not got anything organised... and now can't go anywhere!! I said it's just a day: we can have that special day another time (trying to convince myself, as well as her!!) At least GD is too young to be disappointed. 

I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I shall have to pick up the turkey as planned and it will be too big for our fridge.... or freezer... so I'll probably have to cook it Christmas Eve/Day anyway. Maybe we'll have a mini Christmas lunch and save the full roast beast feast for when they're here. If necessary, I suppose I could freeze the turkey once it's cooked and carved. Realistically, it could be months before they can come, if we have another lockdown after Christmas. 😡

Staying well that's the priority. Got to remember that. Keep positive. Grrrrrrr. 

katytc
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Gosh that was a busy week JCJ😀!!

Quiet weekend? Dreaming about your new found wealth, woo hoo, tiara and ballgown successfully attired.

Pine cones are snow and glitter and tree is also snow covered sooooooooooooo................put them up anyway, you can see them if you are next to tree, hee hee! 

Out for late lunch yesterday, no C menu, WHAT???

Was lovely anyway.

Am out again tomorrow, same restaurant what are we like?

New hoover really good though at first I wasn't impressed...........then I realised lid wasn't on properly it's perfect, old hoover must have been on it's last legs for ages as this one sucks up every last crumb etc. Excited over a hoover? Who would have thought?

Scarf is halfway done, have not had any time to really do it, maybe that's best not too hard on the fingers. Have done it in stripes so not just plain haha. Had to look up you tube to figure out how to cast off, had completely forgotten!

Am away to search for those marbles xx

JCJ
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Hurrah! Fireworks! Sparklers! Tiaras. Ballgown. Doc Martins. Glitterberry juice. Aliburgers. Paaaarty! Pension paperwork finally arrived this morning. The ones I was promised by the end of Last week!! If that is what "prioritising" looks like I feel sorry for everyone else.

The silver lining of the delay though is that after 6 months of nothing at all 4 1/2 peanuts a month seems like untold riches!! 😁

I filled everything in: maximum lump sum please and went to post it on my way to the chip shop. Also in my hand was a Christmas card for the chippy staff with a little "thank you for being the highlight of our lockdown weeks" note and a donation to their Christmas staff tip box. (In previous years, I've put my change in there every week in December, but this year we're not paying with cash!) I VERY nearly put this envelope into the post box instead of the pension one!! 😱 I'd have looked a proper idiot giving the pension one to the chip shop??! Senior moment indeed. 

JCJ
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Commiserations on your *%&£ day. Here's a mugatea and a slice of cake: 🍮🥧😁

Hurrah for a new Hoover! I hope it serves you well and lasts as long as its predecessor.

Can you spray the pinecones a different colour - maybe gold or silver? or paint them to match your picture frames? Or you could maybe make them into a garland to hang somewhere else?

My Christmas tree went up on Sunday. It is overflowing with ornaments - mostly festive teddies and silly knitted things, although there are some baubles from when I was a child and some I picked up cheaply, second hand, when all we had to hang on a tree were Quality Street chocolates!! (the shiny wrappers make them very effective tree Decs! 😛) Every year I say I'll have to get a bigger tree (although it's already hard to see the TV past this one from one end of the sofa!) or stop buying/knitting stuff for it. Every year I ignore myself! YD says I should get a second tree, but I don't know where I'd put it!!

On Monday I made 5 dozen mince pies and stowed half of them in the freezer. I have finished making the Christmas cards and written most of them. I've just got a couple more to write; ones I want to put longer messages in. 

I went swimming today (and Monday evening - only 28 lengths away from finishing the 11ish mile Lake Windermere swim I started in March.... I've done a LOT of treading water during the 2 lockdowns!!) then I drove back to nearly home to pick OH up from the library and then back to town to visit the computer shop (100 yards from swimming pool!) We were going to buy a new PC or laptop because OH needs Windows 10 for self-publishing his book. I've been putting him off because he struggles enough with our current computer without trying to learn a whole new system, but I'm worried about how secure it is for banking, shopping etc. So I decided to bite the bullet. Anyway, the guy in the shop was really helpful and said he can upgrade our current PC for £105 and will guarantee that it will be like new and will work with our printer (another reason, I was dithering... last upgrade required a new printer! 😖) That's considerably less than we were expecting to spend so we're taking it in tomorrow. He says they'll do it the same day, but I won't pick it up until Saturday because it's OH's swimming on Friday: I'm not doing THREE trips to town in one day, having done 2 today!!

Yesterday, I did the last food shop before Christmas, apart from picking up the turkey, fruit, veg and cream from the farm shop. While I was there, I got the chocs my neighbour wanted to give her daughter (who does most of the rest of her shopping) so that'll be a nice surprise she won't be expecting. I also ordered a book for her online as neighbour has no computer or Internet (I can't imagine life without Internet!!)

So, a productive week. I'll not know what to do with myself next week?!

Time to go and cook the rump steak for dinner. They're only small steaks so we'll have mushrooms, peas, tomatoes and a jacket spud with coleslaw with them. Virtual leftovers (there won't be any real ones!!) in the shed. Help yourself. 

katytc
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What a stinker of a day arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh, went up to nursery with twin buggy, had to come home get single buggy to pick up prescription and one other thing. Both of their shop doors are too small and wasn't going to leave GD outside, grrrrrrrrr. Then it started to rain yuck. Came home and there were leaves all over the place from buggy wheels so brought out hoover did hallway, bedrooms and bathrooms. Next on the list, the living room which was the worst and kitchen so switched on hoover NOTHING, grrrrrr.  Tried switching off and on, tried lots of things then gave up.............so it's in the bin............

To be fair it's pretty old now, it was Mum's she had it for years and I have had it for around 9 so can't really complain. ordered a new one which I can collect today, hurrah. 

So will collect then order a taxi to go and get GS, can't face walking up the road haha.

Then went to have my shower and GD wanted to come in arrrrgh, no peace whatsoever!

And lastly ordered pine cones for the tree, they came today and will be invisible on my tree as they are same colour so I give up! xx

katytc
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All you need now is reindeers, santa, light show etc etc hahaha, Christmas is a coming.........

OH sounds great now, amazing what tabs can do!!

Had an awful weekend, GS was really sick on Friday afternoon, he's never sick, by evening I was feeling yuck, lasted until Mon, GS was fine on Sat haha. Thank you nursery.

Still pretty cold here though no more snow.

Have been reading, and enjoying. 

GD came here with a knitted scarf which was really pretty sooooooooooooo have been pondering for ages and decided to buy some wool, am only doing a scarf because fingers hurt and not sure if I will even manage that haha, used to be able to knit fair isle jumpers, a very distant memory now. Was ok knitting Mum used to sew them together for me cause sewing is not my forte.

Muggatea calling me and what a toffee cake? sounds good to me xx

JCJ
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Walking is a bit better for OH, but he is still extremely slow. He can walk a little bit further than he was doing, but I'm not giving up the Blue badge just yet! He tries to do a regular walk around the block or to the park - neither of which he could do before. In this weather, if I'm walking with him, I have to remember to put on extra layers because I get soooo cold walking so slowly. Cotton leggings under my jeans and my big down "playground duty" coat which is far too warm if I'm walking normally, but great for standing about/dawdling. 

My back is much improved, although it still niggles a bit. I was sweeping leaves this afternoon and it didn't like that!

I bought some more Christmas lights at the garden centre on Thursday. They didn't work so they had to go back on Friday to be swapped. I have moved the short set to another tree and put the 20m of new ones all around a redcurrant bush. They look amazing. These are on a timer too: 6 hours on, 18 hours off so, until the batteries run out, I don't have to do anything. Perfect!

Not started the Mince pies yet - that was plan B if it was raining today, but I got the lights up and some jobs done in the garden instead. I'll probably do them on Monday and I'm going to get the tree and the rest of the decs up in the next few days too.

The girls had a wee bit of snow over in Norwich but we just had lots of rain. I was relieved, because we had warnings for snow and I had to take OH swimming last night: I really don't like driving in snowy conditions! I'm booked to swim on Monday. Hurrah! Though it'll still be a faff because the showers remain out of use. I may go Thursday lunchtime as well, while OH is at the library. He's booked to swim Tuesday but we can't have a meal out after - maybe we'll get takeaway instead.

Fingers crossed for YD's job. Such a worrying time for so many people. 

katytc
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Hurrah for the good news JCJ, brilliant one less thing to worry about😀!!!

Is walking better too for OH?

It's just marvelous the improvement.......

How is back now? Nothing worse, spasms are soooooooooo painful.

Am terrible at decorations never mind lights, put them on every tree JCJ, something to cheer everyone.

Tree went up last night, YD decorated it all and it's beautiful, she is very artistic, opposite of her mother haha. Have Mum's old baubles on tree too can remember them when I was a little girl. Love the new tree, it's very old fashioned looking, memories, memories. Had a lump in my throat when it was finished.

Sad news as it's looking like YD will be made redundant, pretty soon. How do you find a job when there are thousands and thousands in the same position.

It was snowing here last night brrrrrrrrrrrr and more to come over the next few days, winter is here.

Has marathon started yet JCJ? xx

 

 

JCJ
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Ooh. I didn't see your last post, Katy, don't think I got the email!

Neighbour's daughter didn't want the coffee syrups. Phew! Just as well as they did just send what I asked for.

I've had a text from a delivery company, this morning, telling me my parcel will be delivered between 11.18 and 12.18. How very precise! I can't think of anything else I've ordered, so that's exciting.... or, more likely, they've texted the wrong number! I didn't click the link to see what the package is because I didn't recognise the company, in case it's something dodgy.

Speaking of dodgy, my back is giving me jyp at the moment. I didn't even do anything! I was walking back from chippy on Friday night and it suddenly spasmed (no the chips weren't THAT heavy.... How dare you suggest such a thing?!) It's been really sore, especially in the mornings, and getting out of bed is a nightmare. It is getting gradually better, I think, but I had a panic yesterday when I remembered my late, middle sister's secondary lung cancer started with back pain. Get a grip woman! You've had this before. It WILL get better. 

I was going to do the mincepie-athon this week - no YD to help again this year 🙁 - but I'll need to wait until my back is better before I can stand that long. Instead, I've started to put up my Christmas Dec's to cheer the place up. After a month of grey, damp lockdown, we can all do with a bit of joy! I certainly appreciate other people's Christmas lights when I'm out on my evening walks! On Monday, I bought some cheap, battery-powered-with-a-timer, LED lights. I've put them in a tree at the bottom of the drive. Aw pretty! It was MUCH harder to arrange them artistically in the tree than I imagined. In my head, it was an easy job and they looked fabulous. In reality, it looks like a doing the Victory (or otherwise!) sign to the neighbours! 😳 The lights were labelled "Indoor or Outdoor Use", but I'm not sure what country they were intended for because the instructions state: "Do not expose to wet, damp or humid conditions..... Or sunlight"!! (DIL says the biscuit cupboard sounds like the ideal place to put them up: beautifully illuminated biscuits! 😁) They did look nice though, and the timer switched them off as expected - we'll just have to see if they come on again at 5pm today. I may get some more, either for the same tree (48 lights aren't really enough!) or for the other tree....or maybe even both! 

NHS letter this am, but I didn't panic because, although I'm expecting the bowel screening results, the envelope wasn't thick enough to be anything other than "No further tests required", which is what it turned out to be. 

New drugs are always a dilemma, aren't they? You just have to balance the benefits against potential SEs. Imagine if you didn't have the lido? OH delayed taking new medication for years because he was afraid of SEs and yet, when he finally succumbed, it was life changing and he could have avoided so many problems! True, there was that anti-depressant he had to stop due to horrific SEs..... and he's still got a Santa belly due to latest addition to the "cocktail"... but usually the benefits do outweigh the SEs. 

Try not to break any more glasses! 

Right, I've sat too long. Time to drag the bod to the shower for a bit of hydrotherapy. Running hot water onto the small of my back helps SO much, I could stay there for hours! 

 

katytc
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How cute is that? JCJ, GD cuddling and cosying down😀!!

You are having a "special" flu jab hahaha!

That's typical of company don't want to go overboard? After me saying they were really good, fingers crossed neighbour's daughter doesn't want them...............

GS not in nursery again, honestly he catches every snotty bug that you can get, arrrrrgh, hopefully next week.

Had a phone appt with pain people today and may try another drug to help when lido starts to diminish, we'll see, am always wary because of the literally hundreds of tablets I have swallowed over the years and all the side effects I have experienced..........the only alternative is morphine............and that's not happening.

It's raining here AGAIN, so boring.

Have two pairs of glasses and last week I found tv ones on the floor all askew so was not hopeful, dropped them off at shop and they fixed them woo hoo. On Mon reading pair were needing tightening went back and they were sorted too, woo hoo. Later Tues evening the leg/arm came off, WHAT??? So will need to go back again next week, I'll be the one with the really red face. Very luckily I have an old pair that at least I can read with.

Chippie tonight?? Will be hovering.........xx

 

JCJ
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Surgery rang this morning. OH's flu jab booked for 10th December. He asked about mine and they said they haven't got that sort in. Why would mine be different? Gender? Age? Something to do with PD? Or are they all the same, really, they're just allocating them in order of priority, which is fair enough. We're avoiding contact with people to keep free of Covid, so we're not likely to get flu either at the moment!

Another email from syrup shop: it seems they may have just sent the chocolate one and the box, as I requested, and I've already offered the other 2 syrups to neighbour's daughter. Oops. Neighbour was going to ask daughter if she'd like them. Hope she says no! 🤞🏼

I joined the Zoom TinyTalk meeting again this morning (forgot last week and didn't get up/dressed in time ☺️). Next week will be the last one as they finish for Christmas and will be back meeting, in person, in January, regardless of what tier they are in. Great news for the little ones and their adults, as it's much better for them to get out of the house and meet together, but I'll miss it. When we sang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, GD lay down on the floor with her Teddy and stayed there for the rest of the session, because that's her going to sleep song. Ahhhh. Adorable. 😍

Glad lips are improving. I hope that's it now for you. 

katytc
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missed replying about flu jab, that's not good at all. Can they not get it from another surgery? Everyone here was done at the hospital this year xx

katytc
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Ooh sounds a yucky mess but excellent service from company, gift for neighbour? or postman?? haha!!

Glad pension things are being sorted though next week? let's hope it's Monday.

Good for you getting cakes done............

Had a look at book but am not loving the sound of it😀

Read very quickly Cara Hunter Close to Home, easy read. Will try another.

 

Poop gone hurrah, fingers crossed for excellent results asap.

Looks like it's great news for Christmas with the family JCJ, big sighs of relief for you.

I know Norcambe was pretty basic but the views and promenade, beautiful and as you say memories will last a lifetime. What would we do without Rita's..............

Fingers crossed something will be managed at some point next year.

All quiet today, just GS and me, we played with cars for a while then he fell asleep, must have exhausted him haha x 

Bit that was unsightly has gone from lip and it's not nearly as ouchy, hopefully won't have to do another week, hurrah xx

 

 

JCJ
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I've been thinking about Norecambe too. I wonder how many of our favourite haunts will survive. I imagine that when/if we do eventually get to go again, it will be a different place. Rita's relies on tourists and elderly people for trade.... and she's not exactly a spring chicken herself?! Still, I console myself that they can't take away all the happy memories! 🙂

News about effective vaccines looks good so maybe normality might be restored by next summer. 🤞🏼 Though, I'm not that confident: it was also on the news that everyone over 50 should have a flu jab. OH had a letter, from NHS head office, telling him to get a flu jab but, when he rang the surgery, they hadn't got any!! Surgery said they'd contact him when some became available. That was over a week ago. PD makes him vulnerable as well as his age and the letter said he should have it before December! Doesn't look promising for NHS administering millions of coronavirus vaccines?! 

Pension people rang me this morning: apparently I will receive the paperwork in the post by the end of next week. At last. Let's hope that all the delay means they've calculated a nice big sum for me. Yeah, right?!

Talking of post: more disaster with DIL's Christmas presents. YD suggested a Norfolk company that makes - and delivers - coffee syrups, so I thought that would be nice to go with the fancy coffees. I ordered a box of 3 syrups: chocolate, cinnamon and gingerbread flavours. They arrived on Monday. OH said he heard the parcels hit the floor in our porch and this one rattled suspiciously so I opened it, very carefully, in the kitchen. The plastic wrapping was hiding a hideous, gooey mess. The chocolate syrup bottle had smashed! Having managed to carefully wash the chocolate and broken glass off the other 2 bottles, wrapped the remaining chaos in 2 plastic bags and put it in the bin, I  contacted the company asking them to send a replacement - just the chocolate syrup and the gift box. This morning, I've had an email from them saying a complete new set is in the post. I feel bad about that because it's not their fault our postman thinks he's a rugby player!! Now I've got to find a use for 2 big bottles of coffee syrup. I won't use them: I hate sweet drinks. Can't even donate them to the school Christmas Fair as there won't be one! Maybe the food bank will take them. 

Also in Monday's post was the Bowel Cancer screening kit. Nice! No comments about any similarities please! 😳 I sorted that out and posted it back. (not the most enjoyable way to spend a Monday morning but so much less invasive than other cancer screening!!) Apparently, I'll be sent the results within 2 weeks.

Christmas cakes are made. They look a bit pale and I wonder if they're properly cooked, but I remember thinking that last year and they were OK. It's a nerve wracking recipe because it has to stay in the oven until completely cold so you can't test to see if it's done. Every year it gives me stress, but I don't want to switch recipes because this one was given me by my late, eldest sister 30+ years ago, so it's very nostalgic and part of the family tradition. And it tastes great! 

What are you reading, KTC? I just read "Agnes Grey" by Anne Bronte, because I saw it mentioned in another book - and it was free to download! - I actually quite enjoyed it. I also read "The girl beneath the sea" by Andrew Mayne which was very good, if a tad far fetched. I'm going to look out for other titles by him. 

katytc
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Will we ever see Norcambe again JCJ????? xx

My C present from ED and family was going to be a stay in a hotel over New Year...............that's not happening.................so have been told today will receive something else................no hints at all.

Was gift from holiday a C present or did you already receive, if so what was it??? xx

katytc
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Hurrah for selling😀, woo hoo!!

Good weekend, managed to get things that you leave for another day/week or even months done, so pretty pleased. Went super early to supermarket this morning then had a rest and in afternoon did town stuff. Rain stayed off, been raining for days and days now, yuck.

Decided to get some more photos ordered and painted frames to go with others in the hallway. Have one quirky pic of oldest GS that makes me smile every time I look at it so the new photos are of the other 3 are super quirky too, GD will prob be super mad when she sees it but just couldn't resist.................

Lips were awful ouchy thought bottom lip was going to explode, bit of an exaggeration, this is my last week but will have to leave it until things calm down a little haha.

Back to reading again, purchased 2 books today from charity shop. xx

 

JCJ
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Glad you're feeling better. 😊 Hurrah for lido effectiveness too! 

Yep. Chippies fetched and devoured. Highlight of the very dull lockdown week. 

Just finished the family present shopping, online of course, as always. DIL put some fancy tiramisu flavoured coffee on her wishlist - from a shop on Norwich! - and I ordered it along with 2 other coffees: whisky flavoured and Christmas pudding. They arrived here this morning and the whole house smells of tiramisu!! Not unpleasant, but not what I'd choose as an air freshener!! 😁 I have had to wrap the paper bags  of coffee in 2 plastic bags and seal them in an old plastic ice cream tub.... and I can still smell it! It's a good job she's not here: that would spoil the surprise? "Tiramisu? No, I can't smell tiramisu". 

Still contemplating cake making - may even make a pudding for next year (I've bought this year's, but they need to mature anyway): haven't made puddings for years. Used to make them every year, for the following year, until one year they  all went mouldy and I only discovered it too late to buy one. Trauma!! I nearly made the cake today, but decided to save it for a day when I've got nothing else to do. Got to spread out the jobs in Lockdown or I get sooo bored!!

OH and I both had an email, this morning, from our local Borough council, saying there is a high Covid-19 infection rate locally and when /if lockdown ends on 2nd December we may be in the highest tier.... so still effectively in Lockdown. 🙁

The girls have had to take their 'new' car back to the garage because it was behaving strangely: losing power, in 5th gear, when they were travelling back from our house. Instead of fixing it, the garage has given them a full refund! But now they've got to find another vehicle and go through all the tax and insurance refund hassle. At least they don't need a car for commuting - or holidaying (they bought the bigger vehicle for camping!) - at the moment as they're both still working from home and GD's nursery is within easy walking distance.

I sold a knitted adult and baby monkey today, on Et*y! That's 2 baby blankets and the monkeys since I decided nothing was selling so I'd knit a blanket for myself!! Another few quid for NSPCC. 😁 

katytc
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Have you started cake making? Done or still contemplating?

Nausea starting to fade and tummy feeling so much better hurrah, was really getting fed up!

Did the walk to nursery no problem shows how much lido works it's brilliant stuff, considering was unable to do it for last two weeks.

Am not staying in hospital, thought about it and am happier to be at home.

Was meaning Benchland, as long as you are signed in it works if not its the whole thread from beginning...........

Is it chippie tonight??

It has never stopped raining this week and oh so horribly grey, yuck xx

JCJ
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Sorry you've been feeling so yucky. Hopefully, it's just the SEs and there's not too long to go now. If the lido does it's stuff, at least you won't be in so much pain as well. xx

Your "not looking too bad" comment - was that about Benchland (which still seems to be madness.... and not of our making, for once!!) or your face? I've found the best way to find the latest post is to just click the link in the email. It's much harder to dip onto other threads and follow them chronologically, though, like I sometimes do. 

Perhaps the overnight thing for your lido might be a good idea? Gives you longer to rest before having to travel home (even if it isn't so far now). And if you're just going to sleep in a bed during treatment anyway...! I bet they can double the number of treatments too, if some are overnight!

Dead jealous that you can still lunch. All cafes, pubs and restaurants closed - except for takeaway - in England, until at least 2nd December, and then who knows....?! All we can do is go for walks or shop for food or medicine ('though all the shops were open by S********'s when I went yesterday! It seems selling a few cleaning products or some tins of dog food entitles a shop to deem itself "essential" and remain fully open!)

I'm well on the way to having finished my Christmas gift shopping. Done it all online as usual. I also bought the cake ingredients yesterday and a pudding. I'll probably make the cake this week, unlike most years when it's a mad dash to get it iced in time for Christmas day (and then we almost never start eating it before New Year anyway! 😁)

I hope the GC are playing quietly and letting you take it easy. 

katytc
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It is looking ok now.....................

Oh my what a yuck time I have been having, not feeling too good at all over weekend!

Mon a little better, just a little haha, tues lido, usual headache but the positive was this time I had my own room with bed that I jumped into and fell fast asleep, it was really brilliant, they woke me up for lunch otherwise I would prob still be sleeping😀

Not too bad at the moment and fingers are not as sore, woo hoo!

Having a quiet day, well, YD & GS are here so it'll be kinda quiet, I hope.

Am reading book that I am really enjoying sailing through it, so will have a look for others by same author, been a long time since I liked a story line.

YD found an early Black Friday bargain for GS's Xmas, £100 off, delivered here yesterday, woo hoo!! xx

 

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It's very, very messy, hopefully they will sort it soon cause it's a tad annoying...........

Yeah for magic nana!! How lovely😁

So that means you were up and dressed and looking chic???

2 more weeks of cream, yes side effects are long list...............

Am assuming this is going to turn into a thing that looks like a giant cold sore arrrrgh, thank goodness for the mask. 

Had a call yesterday from lido place asking if I would like to be admitted, spend one night having treatment then leave in morning. Was completely taken off guard, said I would just keep things as they are at the moment. There are pros and cons, sometimes you feel yuck and it would be nice to just curl up and be looked after. But home is good too! Am not sure?? That's a huge change they are now offering for treatment, wondering if it's the side effects?

We are allowed to lunch JCJ, so we are booked for Nov and Dec haha,

Another "in" day, may venture out tomorrow.........xx

 

 

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Goodness! The posts are all over the place! It's lucky I have email notifications so I know to search for a new post!

How much longer do you have to put the cream on? You wouldn't think an external application would cause such SEs, would you. 🤞🏼it does it's magic.

Speaking of magic, I joined GD's TinyTalk Zoom meeting this morning as "E****'s Magic Nana". 😀 They made me very welcome and it was lovely to join in.

Beautiful sunny day today, after days of damp, dull, grey. I walked up across the fields to pick up my Tapoxyfen (a new brand I've not seen before... quite an achievement after nearly 9 years of taking it!) this morning and, this afternoon, I took OH to a nearby Country Park for a walk. (He's missing his swimming and library friends so we needed to get out.) All that walking makes up for not swimming this week. I'm shattered now! 

No lunching ladies for you then either Katy, if you're in Tier 3?

The girls would have been coming tomorrow - just seen it on the calendar 😕 - ah well, at least we got to see them last week instead. 

PS this is madness! It's just taken me 5 minutes to find this post to edit it because I realised I didn't answer your question: no I've not heard about my pension yet. Hopefully that means she's doing what she promised and sorting out everything I'm entitled to. It's complicated because I've demoted myself and then reduced my hours in the last couple of years, but they should base the amount on when I was full time HLTA, apparently. 

Whilst trying to find this post, one popped up from FoxyFeret!! I got really excited.... until I saw the date was January LAST year. What is going on??!! 😡

 

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Oh what a mess!

Couldn't find your post thought it was upside down so then had to click on your name so I could read your post grrrrrrrrrrrrr! So thank you for letting me where to look, annoying, yes very.....................

Glad you found your calcium, hurrah.

We are now in tier 3 which means you can't drink anywhere so have no issues there haha.

Managed to get lots of things sorted yesterday, catch up time, phone calls and some paperwork, actual papers aren't due till Jan so well in advance will prob forget to post them haha.

Any word about pension?

Didn't go out and in again today and tomorrow so giving my body a little rest.

Though saying that have the two youngest GC, GS is very snotty so he's not at nursery and always have GD Thursdays. All ok so far GD keeps grabbing things from GS, used to be other way around..............so glad there is no long walk today. Am also sleeping really well think I am passing out because of pain haha so cakes etc are most welcome!

Started cream on lips and side effects are fatigue, joint pain etc so it's def a combination of everything.

Not raining here today, makes such a difference than everything being so very dark and grey.

Also bought 2 smaller little houses which light up there was nothing on box telling you anything about them so guy in shop said I could return them if I didn't like them, came home and they are battery operated when you switch them on they are flashing all different colours, not sure about that but they are cute little houses so are staying put xx

JCJ
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Ooh. Katy, your first post in this thread has now been pinned at the top. I thought the posts had flipped upside down again but your most recent one is next. We've moved on a long way from that original post! 😁

Hurrah for bargain Christmas snow house!

I've started my Christmas shopping. Bought a few things online following suggestions on YD's wishlists (hers and GD's). Now I get the fun of parcels being delivered. 

Lots of tea, cake and biscuits by the everything hurts bench. Not long now. x

THE letter was just informing me that the bowel cancer screening kit will be sent to me in the next couple of weeks, so no results to worry about..... yet.

Popped into local town today because I can't get my calcium tablets in local shops. We're supposed to be in Lockdown 2 but it's ridiculous how many shops have managed to claim they are "essential"! I didn't go anywhere other than the chemists (x 2: first one sold out of calcium) and supermarket though. 

katytc
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40 is not old nowadays JCJ🤔...............

Oh goodness now you will start worrying re results, in the old days you didn't get a letter unless there was something wrong, when I received letter my stomach did flips, service changed and everyone received a letter that year and onwards whew!

Good job you haven't had mammo, jittery bench would be rattling.

Have a travel cot here and it drives me crazy, one day it folds no problem next day I take about 20 attempts, my blood boils..........grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Had a slow wander to shops near me with GD this morning and bought a Christmas Snow House, have coveted one for a long time. Been looking online and liked one at around £25, saw same one today for £9.99, woo hoo!! Couldn't believe it???

Am on the "everything hurts" bench, one week to go, just have to grin and bear it or grimace and bear it haha xx

JCJ
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Post arrived for me this morning. I thought "Hurrah! Pension options!" "Oh no it's NHS, well that's good: probably BC screening" It was BC screening, and I misread it at first and then said "Oh!" because it's for bowel cancer screening. I have reached that age! 🙄😕

I'll do it, obviously, better to be safe. We all know the importance of screening, but I'm still reeling from the realisation that I'm old! 😛

JCJ
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GD is 19 months old. She has a travel cot and, up until this visit, has shared our spare bedroom (OH's craft room/tip!) with her parents. She is used to sleeping in her own room at home so when she wakes up, even just slightly, and Mummy & Mamma are, there she won't settle. She certainly slept better this time and so did her mums!

Hoorah! Phone call from pension people this afternoon (probably because I emailed them this morning: they have, "today" received my paperwork from the academy, at last, and have promised to prioritise my case as it's been so long - (even though it wasn't their fault). I should get the forms in the post soon. Whoop! It won't be much, but after nothing for so long I'll appreciate it more!

Thank goodness takeaways have been allowed to stay open during this Lockdown! We've just had our chippies. Yum

Take it easy, Katy, rest those poor feet. 11 days time and you'll be back in your dancing shoes. 😛 xx

katytc
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Will you have to pay it back??? Hahaha.

I know nothing seems to be getting done properly just now, hope you phoned them..........

Good you phoned about mammo, sets your mind at rest somewhat, always nervous times.

So glad you managed to see your girls and fingers crossed for Xmas or thereabouts, you may have it earlier, on the day or later but it will be at some point, forever the optimist.

You will need to buy a travel cot then you can both share room haha.

How old is GD now? Time passes so very quickly.

 

C gifts are completely done and wrapped, haha , always organised but this year beats all others!

Am very pleased.

Was unable to take GS up to nursery this morning, feet are extremely painful, ouch, 11 days to go who's counting? xx

JCJ
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Good grief, Katy, C. shopping done already. I haven't even started to think about it yet!! I have made the mincemeat and bought the cake ingredients (I think - did it from memory!) but that's all. Luckily, I usually do it all online anyway, otherwise I'd be in trouble because all non-essential shops are shut, here in England, until at least 2nd December... and probably longer: the first lockdown was supposed to be 3 weeks and it was nearer 4 months!!

It was really lovely to see my girls. GD is adorable and such a quick learner. She's communicating well with her TinyTalk signs and quite a few words. I was amazed. I didn't understand some of the things she tried to sign to me and had to ask Mummy or Mamma for translation. 

TinyTalk has had to stop again, due to lockdown 2, but they are doing an online "Zoom" version to which I have been invited. They sent me the link for this morning's session, but unfortunately I couldn't get it to work in time (and I was even dressed ready by 9:45am!!) Maybe next week.

YD said, as they left, that they'll come over again "as close to Christmas as possible". Yeh! I wasn't sure they'd want to come, but they'll come FOR Christmas if Covid-19 restrictions allow or as soon as possible after, if not. That made the parting easier. (That, and getting my room back. GD was sleeping in there instead of in with her parents, which worked much better as she was much more settled, but meant I had to put up with OH snoring or sleep on the sofa! Still, it was worth it.)

I've been fretting about my 3 year mammo and having to stop myself getting in a state about it, so YD told me to ring and enquire. I looked on Google and found their website and it seems they have started doing routine mammos again but in a Covid-19-safe way, rather than "on the van", so they're a bit behind schedule. It said not to phone but to await an invitation letter, which will be an invitation to make an appointment, not an actual appointment, to save wasted time. So I'll mosey on over to the Patience Bench for a wee while.

Going to have to contact pensions people, again, because I have still not heard anything. I bet the academy still haven't done their bit. Grrrrr. OH has taken pity on me and has set up a standing order from "his" account to "mine" (they're both joint accounts 😁) because he feels guilty for pressurising me to retire. At least I can do some C. shopping now without breaking into the savings, or spending "his" money!! Hurrah. 

katytc
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Aaaah hope you are having a lovely time, what a surprise!!!

Just happiness all round.

 

Have been super busy, wrapping haha. Found I now only need one very small gift which I will buy tomorrow, am really pleased something else ticked off. 

Also did some early supermarket shopping, so by late afternoon was soooooooo tired promptly fell asleep!

Back to pouring with rain again..........hope your weather is better.

Have a brilliant time with your girls xx

JCJ
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Grrrr! News from 10 Downing Street: another lockdown starting Thursday! 😢 So the girls won't be able to come. 😥

Also, no more library for OH and no more swimming for at least 4 weeks (but, realistically, it could be months.) Monday night is booked but..... 

Trying to keep busy to stay off the CSL bench when phone rings: YD: they're coming tomorrow until Tuesday! Yay! 👏🏻👏🏻😁 YD has just told work she *needs* to see us so she's taking Monday and Tuesday off, she'll make the time up - probably on Thursday and Friday, which she'd originally booked off. DIL will bring her laptop because she'll have to work from here on Monday.

Better do some tidying!

I hope their journey isn't too horrendous with every one on the roads, making a panicked dash to relatives while they can! 

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What takeaway did you get? Was it yummy? I had my usual Friday night mini fish, small chips and mushy peas with mayonnaise. Yum.

I hope you are having a quiet weekend and you didn't jinx it!

YD messaged this morning. There were planning to come and visit 13th to 15th November - because I chickened out of risking travelling there - but due to rumours of imminent lockdown, they are coming Thursday to Saturday next (this?) week. Fingers crossed. I really want to see them but I heard lockdown might be as soon as Wednesday. 🙁 I am SO sick of all this uncertainty. I realise that being able to make plans is a major part of one's mental health. That's why it was so tough before OH was medicated effectively. Now we're back there again. Oh well. I suppose there will be an end to this.... eventually.... let's just hope we're still well/fit enough to appreciate it.

So much for our retirement/Y6 leavers "do" in October! I guess that's not going to happen at all now: there comes a point when it's just too late to bother. Christmas concerts, at school have been cancelled, so I won't be invited back for that as promised. 😕

I'm still penniless. School (or rather, to be exact, the academy) messed up my paperwork and didn't tick the "retirement" box on my "termination" (ouch! That sounds rather final/fatal?!) forms, (despite me specifically asking them to do so in my resignation letter!) so the local government pension scheme can't process my pension. Grrr. I've phoned school and the secretary promised to get on to the academy to sort it. That was 2 weeks ago. Still not heard anything. Don't know how long to wait before enquiring again. Luckily, we can't do anything at the moment so we can afford to live on OH's pensions. I just miss having my own money to spend, especially with C approaching! I'll just have to crack open the ISA. After all, if this isn't a rainy day, what is?! (actually, it is p***ing it down and blowing a hooli today!) 

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Caramel shortbread won.........

We had sunshine here today, it was actually warm for a while then around 3 it was soooooooooo cold heating went on, brrrrr.

Takeaway for tea tonight, hurrah so won't have to raid the shed!

Scared to say it but no plans for the weekend, fingers crossed I've not jinxed it. xx

 

katytc
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Aaaah she'll be talking to you on the phone soon😀

Are they coming at C as well? If allowed..........

Tea in 2nd pub sounds so much better, gosh you two are doing well, swimming and walking, hurrah!

Glad OH is happy to keep tabs the same, difference is amazing, you must be well pleased.

Have an appt fairly soon with pain clinic seems to be open as usual and not a phone appt as yet, pretty unusual in these times.

Pouring AGAIN all day here, get so fed up as once it starts seems to last for days and days, yuck. 

Did go in to town yesterday, less than an hour so all good.

Some of the stuff ordered came today, just waiting for one thing, should hopefully arrive over the weekend. Am def wrapping some stuff this weekend.

Bite my tongue or caramel shortbread mmmmmmmmmmmm what will win?? xx

JCJ
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Glad the "spitting feathers" episode has been resolved. Don't bite your tongue; bite something more tasty (and less painful!): might I suggest a nice piece of steak ... or some millionaires shortbread? 😁

We've had quite a lot of rain here too, although I was lucky yesterday because it stopped just as I was planning to go for a walk while OH was swimming. We're both swimming twice a week now but on different days!! So that's four times a week I have to drive to the pool!! 

I was contemplating doing another weekly swimming session, to make up for all those missed weeks, (and to fill my time!) when, 2 weeks ago, OH suddenly announced he'd booked for Tuesday afternoon. What? That's no good to me, I don't want to go 2 days in a row! So I booked Thursday lunchtime whilst he's at the library. While he's swimming on Tuesdays, I go for a walk and then we have tea at the chip shop or in a pub. At the moment. While we can. Last week, since you asked, I had ham, egg and chips which was mediocre. Last night, I had breaded cod, chips, mushy peas and a lemon and parsley sauce - at a different pub - which was delicious!

So, this week I've already swum a mile and walked 3 1/2 miles. Today I'm on the K bench. My hip, fine when I'm swimming or walking, has started giving me jip when I'm sitting or, especially, going upstairs. Grrr.

OH had his telephone call from PD nurse yesterday. She is pleased that he's trying to do more exercise and, because he doesn't seem to still be piling on the weight, we've agreed to keep his meds as they are for now. OH is greatly relieved. He's always terrified of saying something that will trigger the whole hospital appointment rigmarole.

Spoke to YD on phone last night. GD is loving nursery 2 days a week and she's starting to talk - and inventing new signs to supplement her "TinyTalk". She's obsessed with phones. They sent me a couple of hilarious videos of her holding a soft toy to her ear, or a mobile phone to a toy's ear, and shouting "Hello!" 😂 Can't wait to see them all in a couple of weeks time. 🤞🏻

katytc
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Poured and poured yesterday😑

Went to meet YD and was soaked, came out of station and no rain WHAT??

First time it had stopped all day.

Have to pick up an order in town today but oh so cannot be bothered.

Bought last gift this morning only sweets to pick up now. Am seriously thinking of wrapping them this weekend because I find it a bit of a struggle usually do them all at once and my hands don't like it any longer.

The episode that made me superly duperly mad has been concluded with an apology from a "person" who never apologises. They didn't actually address the main complaint which honestly they should have had their knuckles wrapped for but did say they were sorry for the distress caused.  So now have to bite my tongue and be grateful that they knew they were wrong.

Getting darker and darker here, if it rains am not going haha xx

katytc
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Uncomfortable or what??? hee hee, did he have a red face???

Did you have something yummy?

Gosh am not sure about mammos am sure it was on the news that they were restarting, you can always give them a call. 

Have been so busy with GC, have not had time to even think..........yesterday was the first time I had been on my own for what seems like ages.....and ages.

Am well ahead with c presents though, woo hoo! Who knows if there will be any shops open in the next couple of months? Also purchased a new C tree, it's pre lit because having wires all over the place were really making me so fed up last year, couldn't wait to take it down. Hopefully this will make a huge difference. 

Flu jab done arm was a little tender but no problems now.

It's pouring again here, yuck xx

 

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It seems this @#*%"* virus has caused the 3 yearly mammo program to be interrupted? I'm due mine this month, but I've had no letter and there's been no sign, for months, of the van at its usual place in the supermarket carpark. It's normally there for most of September and October. I'm trying not to take up residence on the jittery bench: every little twinge...!

Booked a swim for today, for while OH was doing his library volunteering. Thought it would get me out of the house, because I'm struggling with the whole retirement thing - (even made bread on Monday because I was so bored!) Of course, when the time came, it was a gloriously sunny, autumn day, the first in ages, and would have been perfect for a walk. I went swimming, because I'd already paid, and thought I'd go for a walk, after, as well. After swimming my mile though, my body said "NO" to any more exertion, so I sat on a sunny bench in the market Square and admired the trees whilst devouring a chicken baguette and mugatea (from a bakery chain that sounds like angry eggs! 😛) I was very proud of myself for managing to walk past the chippy, but it was only the thought of spoiling tomorrow's chippy tea that stopped me buying some!

It's such a pain that the showers at the pool are currently closed so I have to wash the chlorine off, especially my hair, at home. By 2pm, I had dressed 3 times, beginning to understand how those posh women who wore different outfits every 5 minutes must have felt! It's no wonder they didn't go out to work: didn't have time!! 

We went to the pub for tea on Tuesday and a very funny, only in 2020, thing happened: 2 men, friends from their university days, (A & B) and the girlfriend of A come in and sit at a table near us. After a fair bit of chat Girlfriend gets up to go to the ladies. She returns a few minutes later, wearing a face covering and carrying a menu. She asks the men if they want to order food and B replies, quite sharply, that they're just having drinks. He is then completely mortified when she sits back down next to A and removes her mask: he had assumed she was a waitress!! A very awkward silence ensued, while I'm trying hard not to snort with laughter. B was very quiet for several minutes - no doubt wanting the ground to open up and swallow him - before resuming his previous cocky Londoner talk. Hehehe. I wonder how the rest of their evening went!!

 

katytc
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Ooooh yummy yum, have eaten everything, thank you😀

You DO such lovely dinners............

It has poured with rain all day long, yuck, nipped into town for essentials as quickly as possible it's done woo hoo!

Anger has subsided, thank goodness but if I think about it too much rage surfaces again haha.

All your sewing will keep you out of mischief for a while.....xx

 

JCJ
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I do remember this time last year, which is why I'm not pushing him to change anything.... just wishing we hadn't got rid of all his bigger trousers when we had to buy new, smaller ones due to weight loss that we thought was permanent! Currently buying elastic to make waistbands bigger!

Dinner, in the shed, will be: roast turkey (I bought a drumstick - possibly a bit close to C********, but there were no free range chickens and I fancied it) with roasties, Yorkshire pudding, buttery garlicky courgettes, red cabbage, roasted parsnips, green beans, red current jelly and gravy. Followed by chocolate fondant with raspberries and ice cream - if I can get off the CBA bench to make it (the pudding, not the ice cream obvs, I'm not that mad! 😀) x

katytc
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Well improvement seems to be very good, remember last year this time? OH has to weigh up the situation, pun intended hee hee.

Well, after showing off yesterday about GS, he went to bed last night at 7.30 pm and decided to wake around 1 am.................still awake and playing at 3.30 am, WHAT????? That's what I get.............

Did wash curtains last week, hurrah and did go into town yesterday, so on the pretty good behaviour bench!

But the CBA bench calls me constantly.

Flu jab will be available so receptionist was wrong according to google, you will be invited by letter.

Oh my had the most horrible nightmare on Fri, never remember my dreams but will remember this one for a long time, was in my own horror story arrrgh!!!

Am really hoping there are some yummy things in the shed tonight..........xx

JCJ
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Not 50+ here! Overheard lady in Dr's surgery asking for a flu jab and she was told she couldn't have one as she wasn't over 65 or medically vulnerable - even though she lives with, and cares for, her 80+ mother. So I didn't bother enquiring for me. OH gets his because of PD.

I've got my immunity from 22 years in Primary schools. 😁

He's happy to keep being fat and taking 4 tablets a day. We'll consult PD nurse when she rings next month. 

katytc
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Oh my she looks beautiful😀.

Am agreeing with you entirely, too difficult at the moment to plan anything.........

It's ED's birthday next week and they had booked a couple of nights away, not to be, so they will stay home and be child free instead.

They are treating me to a New Year trip but honestly don't think that will be ok either.........

Am on the "should I" bench it's so near to the CBA bench which I seem to be hovering around at the moment, GS slept epically last night 8pm till 9am so I should be ready, steady go but am not haha.

Think they are doing from 50+ this year JCJ (I know you are only 40) but would give them a phone, I had my first letter in around 10 years of having jab, so appt next Sun at hospital instead of doctors.

Anything else about OH's meds?

There is an aroma wafting around the room and it's really not nice so bottom change methinks xx

 

JCJ
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Glad it's been sorted. Benchland was beginning to resemble a bird's nest with all the feathers you'd been spitting! 😁 I've made them all into a snugly duvet.

I'm not eligible for a flu jab but OH has been told to have one in the past so I keep reminding him to book one. I think he's waiting to be invited again!

After extensive research, and nearly booking something, I have chickened out of trying to get to Norwich. It seems restrictions are tightening everywhere (Norecambe back in lockdown!) and I just daren't risk it... or potentially losing the money. So the girls are coming to us in mid November, Covid-19 regulations permitting. 🤞🏼

My colouring on "Happy Colour" this morning was this:

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 Dink is on her holidays. She's had her hair done specially! 😂

katytc
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Hello SpennellsFerris, and welcome to Benchland!

Am so sorry that you feel isolated and really think this forum will be useful to you. I think that we all need reassurance and of equal importance the need to express ourselves openly to people who understand. Helps tremendously.

 

Oh my gosh thank you for the punching bag, if I could have kicked it.............I would have haha.

It was resolved this afternoon, it wasn't my issue but had to step in because it was so unfair, that's why I was soooooooooooo very angry! Couldn't believe what I was being told..........

Am babysitting this weekend, youngest GS, then next weekend it's ED's children, HELP haha.

Have you had you flu jab JCJ?

Am off to put my feet up for a little while, have a muggatea and perhaps some chocolate, bliss xx

JCJ
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Hi SpennellsFerris, welcome to Benchland (and also the BCN forum - not to be confused with BCN=Breast Cancer Nurse: they didn't think that through when they renamed Breast Cancer Care?! 😁

You have definitely come to the right place for support. You do not need to feel isolated: we're all here for each other. The forum is a fantastic mine of information and support.

"Benchland" (this thread) was a much busier (and bonkers) place when we were all recently diagnosed 8 years ago, but is much quieter now. If you have a spare few days, and have a warped sense of humour, read the thread from the beginning. We got up to some mad things, made each other laugh, sometimes slightly hysterically, and got each other through the worst times. 

8 years - actually nearly 9 now - on and we all still have our wobbles. You never quite come back from the shock of hearing you have cancer when you thought everything was fine, so every new symptom is potentially terrifying. It's the same for all of us, although, usually, the new symptom is nothing to worry about really. I've been there. Several times! Currently awaiting my 3-yearly mammogram because I had my last annual one after 5 years. I'm still taking Tamoxifen (or Tapoxyfen as we call it!) so that's a reassurance. I'm half dreading when that stops, in 2022, as it'll feel like my safety net has been taken away!

KatyTC, I hope your problem has been sorted but I've put a punchbag next to the FF bench along with a bucket of chocolates and a vat of tea. I've soundproofed the area, so feel free to @#$%% at the top of your voice! 

 

 

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I am new to the forum but I feel that it will be good to read other peoples stories and so  realised that one is not alone.  I believe that anyone who has been diagnosed with bc will have a myriad of mixed feelings and the level of treatment should in no way be used to judge how we all feel.  Although it is over 5 years since my story began the feelings of isolation are no more or less than there were on day one. 

katytc
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Hurrah for fixing the tv😀, so if I ever have any issues I know who to call, thank goodness for you tube!!

Hope you are enjoying your lunch out and about.

Mine was ok, didn't think it was usual standard which is fab, am hoping it was an off day............

What a difference JCJ with your OH, tablets must be working brilliantly. If you go by train you don't have to faff about with your car so easier on you.

 

Am on the FF bench, am sooooooooooooooooo unbelievably angry, situation was meant to be resolved yesterday it wasn't, complaint issued and am meant to be contacted today. Am still waiting, grrrrrrrrrrr.

Can't talk about it because the rage it's unleashing..........it had better be sorted, that's all I'm saying xx

JCJ
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Hurrah for docs diagnosing your ED's problem. I hope she's continuing to improve. 

I'm swallowing tapoxyfen fine, as long as I don't think about it! As soon as I even consider I might have a problem swallowing it, I'm doomed to at least a dozen attempts. How annoying are our brains sometimes?!

I can now add TV engineer to my CV. 😀 I fixed my TV cable! While I was decorating, I carefully kept my PVR (Freeview tele recorder) plugged into the electric and the aerial so that my "series link" reservations would still record. It was a pain having to work around it and avoid tripping over the cables but all for nothing because when I went to put everything back together, a message saying "NO or bad signal" was all I could get on the tele. I realised the plug at end of the aerial cable, where it fits into the machine, was broken. I Googled and YouTubed, ordered a new plug from Mr Futon's Emporium and fitted it when it arrived. Bingo! Working tele! Excuse me while I spend a wee moment on the smug bench. 😛

On Friday night, after we got back from his swimming, OH suddenly suggested that, as the French (red) tennis was on tele all weekend so he would be occupied, I might like to go and visit the girls for the weekend!! Of course I wanted to, but at such short notice I didn't think it was fair on them, and, to be honest, after months of doing nothing it threw me into a panic: *I* couldn't cope with the short notice! But it's a good sign and hopeful that I will be able to escape at some point in the future.

Tonight, I've been researching the possibility of us both going to visit. To drive (not sure he'll cope: it's a horrible journey and I can't avoid fast roads!) or risk the train. I've found a cottage that's 3/4 of the way there which might be manageable; we could stay for a few days and visit with the girls - or them with us - as it would be about 40mins drive from them. However, looking at the train website, it does seem reasonably safe and we could stay in the hotel we've used before where we have breakfast in our room: perfect social distancing; check in at the bar and then not have to have contact with anyone for the whole stay! It's only 5 minute car/taxi ride from there to their house. Dilemmas. I've renewed OH's senior railcard and bought mine (you didn't know you could get one at 40 did you? Hehehe). They'll pay for themselves in 3 journeys over the next 3 years, so even if we decide not to risk it.... Or another lockdown is announced.... they won't be wasted. 🤞🏼

Enjoy your scab-free lunch out. I'm out for lunch on Wednesday too: meeting my fellow retiree at the local garden centre again. 😁