Bone mets - please join in

[belinda]

Oh funnyface, it's such GREAT news you have a wedding to look forward to! It's good to share the good stuff and it's good we are able to discuss the sad parts of our lives here too. Take care. X

[funnyface]

Oh my, I'm not sure if I should be sad or not about talking about my family and then everyone talking about their worries. I'm sorry if anyone is too upset. Funnyface

[Marie123]

Janette I agree. Lyn how exciting , meeting your new grandson.
One of my coping strategies is knowing that I would rather have this ******illness than my children. .I am also extremely grateful for the years we have had. I have friends who unfortunately died when their children were very small. As the song says to love and be loved is the greatest gift of all.
Now ladies hope you all have a good weekend . Marie xxx

[2catlady]

Janette you haven't offended anybody xxx
I think our children are our Achillies heel.
When ever a nurse asked me if I have children I always cry. It's like being punched in your heart.

Belinda,I feel guilty he doesn't have any siblings to share his fears with too.
Unfortunately it took us 10 years to have him and I love him to the moon and back. Yes,that book got read every night to him. I always cried saying the last words and he'd ask why do you cry mum? They are happy tears as I love you to the moon and back was my answer.
I've bought him a little metal key fob which has " love you to moon and back" engraved on It,it can go on his birthday car keys. A bit of me with him.
I've made a scrap book of our last Disney family holiday for him and real hubby. I'm not sure about a memory box.

Lynn, you haven't said too much or the wrong thing xxx

Have a wonderful time with your new grandson and give him a cuddle from all of us xxxxxxxx

I love this forum as we can be honest with each other as we know how hard the emotional impact on our families and ourselves can be.
I think we all try to get on with our lives. Some days you can file C away and make memories . On the days I cant I know I can come on here and cry on a cyber friends shoulder and know you'll understand xxx

Huge hugs to mums,grandmas,babies and babies in double figures,Helen xxxxxx

[belinda]

I've been pleased this thread has been used as an outlet for feelings and fears. We sound, sorry sweeping statement, as though we all try to keep a lid on things for most of the time. Nice to feel we can share here. I haven't prepared any letters for a memory box, the one thing I do try and do is either knit something, sew something, cross stitch something for my family. I like to think little bits and pieces I've made (they are not very beautiful, I have enthusiasism but no great talent) will be around after I've gone. A dear friend I knew in "real life" jennywren who used to post here often sent me lovely little books and other things she'd made in the post and I treasure them.

[stresshead]

Good afternoon all you lovely ladies...have just been catching up with the threads about children and wanted to join the clan. Since my 3rd diagnosis i have pretty much fallen apart. Went for a second opinion on Tuesday which really hit home with my husband. My daughter is my only child and is 23 but there is never an age when they stop being your baby is there? I feel guilty that she has no siblings to share the burden with and  gulity because i am not going to be around when she needs me most..wedding, children etc. It breaks my heart so much sometimes i can barely function. I keep trying to tell myself to take each day as it comes, as i tell others, biut i am finding it increasingly hard especially at the moment nothong seems to be keeping this **** in check. sorry to  put a downer on things butfind it helps to rant to others who really understand. Hopeyou all have agood weekend.x

[Elily]

I am more worried about leaving my sons (28 and 23) than my husband! And I want to see how their careers develop, whether they marry or not (both have girlfriends who live on other continents), whether they have children .. etc. etc. My parents lived until their late 80s/early 90s so I had always expected that to be the likelihood for me. If there was a heaven, they'd be annoyed that I was meeting them again so soon! 

[rosie53]

Hi ladies, it is so good to have this forum for us ladies to spill out our worries, emotions and fear.

I have never spoke to my husband or children about the D word, its not that we are walking on egg shells around it or or buying or heads in the sand but I chose to deal with this disease on a day to day basis.

Come on lovely ladies the sun is shining we are here, life is for living and I am going to do my damn best to enjoy it and not let this ugly, cruel disease rule my life!

Hope I have not offended anyone with my post, just want us all to be happy 🙂

Hugs Janette xxxxxxx 

[LemonDrizzle]

Chocolates, thinking of you having your tests and hoping everything goes well x

[Lynnq]

I know how you all feel. My children are 45, 42 and 31 and I have 4 granddaughters aged 15, 11, 6 and 3....and a grandson aged 14 months who I am going to meet for the first time today....he is being adopted by them. I try to plan nice things for us all, and love to get them all together.
They ask how I am and I always say that I am fine.
My husband is my rock, we have been
Married for 47 years....i think that we all have feelings of despair but as Edwina says we should try to take each day as it comes.
I remember when my beloved granny died, and she knew it was happening and she said 'it's not the dying that I mind, it's what I am leaving behind'. Love her, our mum died when we were very young and she took over.
Sorry if I've said too much, don't want to say the wrong thing.

Off to see Disney on Ice this afternoon with my daughter and her little girl and meet my grandson who is staying home with daddy.
Xx

[Stillhere]

Hallo, I've been having a mini break from the forum as I do try to forget about cancer sometimes but like everyone, my adored sons are the one thing that makes me just incredibly and deeply sad. I just hate all my friends who are seeing their children married and with grandchildren, I desperately want to know how the story of their lives unfolds. I never say this to them though because I don't want them to feel pressurised or guilty!!
Thinking of everyone with children in their 20's, grown up but still our babies xx

[Nanofthree]

My children are now 40 and 43 and it really doesnt get any easier. We just dont talk about it, which I guess is wrong, but I am scared of us all getting upset. First diagnosed with primaries in 2000 so they have lived with this so long. I was 46 when my mum died and i felt I had been shortchanged. Actually feel bitter towards people who can plan ahead. Does anyone else get these feelings of total despair? Love Ruth x

[belinda]

Good morning all, I think, to function anywhere near normally we all put these feelings, of sorrow, to one side for so long until they spill out, sometimes when least expected? Like you Helen my daughter has no siblings, I wish she had.
It is the guilt too isn't it? My dear OH and daughter have been living with this big black cancer cloud for such a long while now. Part of me thinks it would be easier for my family not to prolong it all. They all disagree but sometimes I feel it might be best.
I also find myself getting envious of others now, as my mobility has decreased having someone, usually older stride past me down the supermarket aisle I can't help thinking oh you're so lucky. Very silly of me I know. I know nothing about them. And I always wanted to be one of those people who when they died everyone said she never once complained...but I'm not. X

[Marie123]

ditto Janette, my babies are 26 and 23 too . I am just unable to think about it. I hold on to the fact that they are the best thing that happened to me . Marie xxx

[rosie53]

Awww ditto Helen, the thought of leaving my babies (23 & 26) tares me apart!!! We are so close and are best friends.....its heartbreaking 😞
hugs Janette x x

[edwina64]

Hi Helen thanks for the advice I am on ee and I know this effects liver and i did have hepatitis  years ago but onc didn't really take any noticeof that although it is mentioned in the se. I think i will ring my breast nurse today.. a good idea thanks. I know my oh will be fine but it would just be  great for him to have something nice for a change, he is looking after his 88 yr old Mum and 79 year old Auntie  and me so many hosp trips lately! Reading how you feel about your son I can sympathise,  my daughter rings me at least twice a day , used to be three! We are close but I have a dear Sister she is close to and lives near, It is a great comfort to me knowing they help eachother and she will be there when I'm not ....anyway thinking too far ahead should be taking each day at a time right?

[2catlady]

Thank you ladies xxxxxxx Belinda ,I think exactly the same as you as I'm very close to my son and he comes to me with problems and worries. I worry about him having no brothers or sisters to talk to and hasn't told any of his friends either.

When I was discussing my prognosis with macmillian nurse (as we know is pants now.) She asked me if I was scared of dying or scared for the things that I'll miss out on.
And yes,it's the things I'll miss that plays on my mind and terrifies me. I have asked him to promise to take any grandchildren to Disney.( dad will pay lol)
Huge hugs ,Helen xxxxx

[2catlady]

Hi,Edwina, please never apologise,we all understand you are not complaining,you are asking for advice xxxxxx.
you do need to call ward if you have a high temp as you may need antibiotics. But sooner rather than later. Are you on the EE combination as that has some nasty SEs. Or are you on capecitabine.
You certainly are not spoiling OHs holiday as he will want his wife well and that will be first on his mind.
Huge hugs,Helen xxxxxx

[edwina64]

Hi everyone,  sorry can't seem to get to the treatment thread not sure if this is where this question should be . but feeling lousy at the moment and need a bit of advice. I am feeling sick and exhausted, with high temp.  onc said my liver function was not quite right after latest blood test and has cut the dose of my pills. I guess this is why I feel like this but I am supposed to be going on holiday in a week's time , typical!  Anyone had this? Stopped my pills for a few days any idea if I will improve soon? My oh is so looking forward to the holiday , sorry to complain as I know lots of you have a lot worse. My oh is so wonderful to me I really don't want to spoil his holiday .

[LemonDrizzle]

It's so hard - I can't think of my daughter in the future without turning into a blubbering wreck x

[Marie123]

Oh Helen and Belinda this is the true pain that dare not speak its name .
Sending everyone my love and understanding. Marie xxx

[belinda]

Oh Helen there are no words. My daughter always comes to me first if she has any worries, she did today and I'm thinking who will she speak to when I'm not around? Not easy. I do feel here, thank goodness, everyone understands though. X

[2catlady]

Belinda ,thank you . Yes,he's 21 but still my baby.👶 I think it's the thought of not being there to see him marry or have children that breaks my heart so much. 💔But at least I'll see this special birthday with him. Yes,three glasses sounds good lol.🍸🍸🍸 hee hee.
He went with his dad (real hubby number 1) to pick a car yesterday.
Xxxxxxx

Marie,there will be no Barbara Windson uniforms,tut tut. We are now married in a quicky ceremony we had this afternoon. All my other hubbies were bridesmaids with matching aprons. 💏💍.

Lynn,I sympathise with you and pain as it wears you down so much xxxxx

Well I'm off to sleep ladies as shattered. One good thing the concoction of drugs I'm on knock me out,shame they don't work on pain. Huge hugs,Helen xxxxx

[belinda]

Ah Happy Birthday to your son Helen, for some reason I thought he was mid teens, whoo 21 ! 🙂
Enjoy the happy day and have a glass or three. X
Hope everyone has a peaceful weekend...Thursday and somehow I've got into weekend mode. 🙂 x

[Lynnq]

Hello everyone, it's been a busy day on here hasn't it?
Welcome Tricia.. How awful that they haven't told you where your secondaries are, they were a bit vague with me when they first told me I had spread, but they did indicate the area...we never get used to the waiting game.
Funnyface my youngest son gets married on the same day as your daughter. I am hoping to lose a little weight before looking for a new outfit, i know exactly what I would like so perhaps I should also think of having something made...I remember last year saying that I just hoped that I could dance at his wedding.
Janette have a brilliant time in New York, the two weeks will fly by I hope and the time away will seem like ages.
Helen hope the ONC at the Freeman uses some authority and gets you sorted...someone needs a kick..

I am feeling a bit better today had a few days feeling down with awful shoulder and neck pain but the stronger pain killers are kicking in now, it's a trapped nerve and slthough it is painful I prefer that diagnosis to the one which I was scared of getting!
Hope everyone else is as well as possible..take care

Xx

[2catlady]

Oh,Belinda ,that's him. I better get a ring on my finger before Marie sets her naughty eyes on him. 👰💍 lol.
There will be no bed baths for my new hubby from Marie in her matron outfit .lol.

No, I haven't been on ketamine,nobody has mentioned it . Not sure what it is (I'll google it.) .
The doctor at the Freeman rang to see how I was getting on after rads trial for my SCC . I told him I was in a lot of pain and I'm waiting for CT. Apparently request only went in on Monday after seeing my onc last Thursday,typical !so he's going to chase it up

Oh,Janette,I bet you're soooo excited only two weeks,yippeeeee and I can use more of my strange pictures now🇺🇸✈️🗽🍔💵🚖 to decorate post.
Haven't a clue where they came from. Some upgrade gave me them lol.

Oh,FF,a wedding how fantastic 💒👰❤️💍💎
. I love the comment about raising the perfect man for her about your son,that's lovely for a mum to here.

I've only got one son and he's 21 next Friday,I'm so excited I'll be there to see him celebrate it.🎂. I may even have a glass of bubbly 🍸or two🍸🍸!

Huge hugs,Helen xxxxxxxxx

[Marie123]

Good afternoon Helen, just doing my rounds. How is the pain ?
I have googled Mr Bison , may have to swop Hattie matron uniform , for a Barbara Windsor nurse one . Marie xxx

[rosie53]

Funnyface.....lol i bet my post made you chuckle this morning!! What am i like....i blame the mediation 🙂 wow you have hit some mile stones,well done you. I pray i will see my daughter get married and have a family, shes 23 and has has been with her bf 4yrs but wedding plans as yet.
Well just been to collect my tickets for New York...yipee, 2wks today i will be on that aeroplane!
Hugs Janette x x

[belinda]

Helen I have been a googling. Is the new husband Yannick Bisson? He's Canadian and was born in 1969. If Marie visits, in her Hattie Jacques uniform, do not leave them alone together. I'm still recovering from the Poldark Carry Ons. X

[belinda]

Sorry to hear chemo took it's toll FF. I felt very similar on this weekly Paclitaxel I was on. On a break at the moment but fairly shattered. Hope the wedding will help keep you upbeat, so nice to have happy things ahead. X
Sorry to hear pain is still constant Helen. Have they tried Ketamine, it sounds such big guns stuff but a couple of ladies I know were on it for a couple of years. X
Keep in touch Tricia, we are a supportive bunch. X

[belinda]

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[funnyface]

Natalie, lol not me getting married .......my daughter......Ive been married 33 years! I'm going for fitting for my dress and her gown! Wedding is Aug 29th. She was 9 when I was dx with bc...and was 19 when I was dx with mets. She is 29 now. I never thought I would get to see her get married. My 20 year m ark for bc will be in Oct. and 10 years for mets in Nov. My next goal is to see a grandchild. She wants to get pregnant next summer so grandchild I hopefully abiut 2 years away. Just hoping I can make that. I have 2 sons but one isn't in a relationship. Seems he wants to stay single. The other one is living with gf, they don't want to get married or have kids. I laugh at them not wanting to get married. He always wanted to get married before, but he always goes with what the girl says!! Funny thing is she told me that she never had the desire to get married and is OK not getting married, but would say yes if he asked. Says I raised the perfect man for her. I'm quite happy with that!  Funnyface

[Sianie]

Supported to say Kaye, stupid predictive text x

[Sianie]

Kanye, your in Wales ? So am I, where are you ? And where you treated x

[bertie1]

Hele so sorry you're still in pain huge hugs to you xx
Tricia sorry you've had to join us but you will get lots of support from the ladies on here they are all amazing and once they get your treatment in place you will feel a bit more positve xx
Hope everyone else is doing ok ,not avery nice day very wet and windy here in Wales.
I'm just off to sit with my mother in law for a few hours.
Take care all
Kaye xxx

[rosie53]

Aww Helen, so sorry you are STILL in pain 😞  sending you a GIGANTIC  hug 

Janette xxxxxxx 

[2catlady]

Lol,Marie xxx
I'm just the same unfortunately. But on a good note the steroids are controlling the sickness and I feel like eating. Lost 7kg on Eribulin as had no appetite and very nauseous.
Oh,I've also got a new hubby,I think he's my fifth ?! I've lost count now ! 🍸🍸⛪️
It's the man who played Murdock in murdock mystery series.🔫🔪🔬
(strange name,I'll have to google it) oh,he's a handsome one. You can tell I'm spending a lot of time in bed watching TV lol.
Well I better go as pain is being a pain and I've got a straw in Oramorph .
Huge hugs,Helen xxxxxx

[rosie53]

Whoops sorry Tricia.....flipping predicted text 

[Marie123]

Good morning Ladies,

Helen , how are you ?  I have my Hattie Jacques' matron uniform pressed and ready to go for a visit. Please tell your onc if he doesn't sort it out I will give him an ice cold bed bath !

I will check on you later.

Marie xxxx

[rosie53]

Morning ladies,

Funnyface, I didn't know you are getting married, when is the big day??? How exciting for you!! : - )

Trick a,  welcome to the forum, sorry you have had to join us though, as Helen has said unfortunately there is no cure for secondaries but there is a whole lot of treatment out there and it can be managed for many years, sorry you are having to wait for answers......Unfortunately this is something we secondary ladies have to put up with ie waiting for scans, results and appts. Hope you get some answers soon and they get you on a treatment plan. 

Hugs to all Janette xxxx 

[2catlady]

Hello,Tricia,of course you can hang out with us. We are a very friendly supportive bunch.
The waiting is the hardest and we all know where your coming from.
That's shocking that they've said you have SBC and not said where it is. Can you ring a bc nurse and ask.

I'm sorry to say if it is SBC it can't be cured but can be treated and controlled sometimes for many ,many years. You will be put onto treatments for HER2.

There are lots of lovely ladies on here that have a HER2 Cancer and are living,working and getting on with life ( still not sure if ironing is getting on with life! I'll look at rule book )

Come and chat or ask any questions . The ladies on here are wonderful and I consider them all as friends.
Huge hugs,Helen xxxx

[Patricia11]

Hello lovely ladies can i hang out with you on the bone mets threads

I have stage 3 HER2 pos bc and i have had a lumpectomy and full node clearance removing 18 positive nodes. Been told i need a further op to achieve a clear margin. Clear bone scan

Today however was told CT scan not clear and secondaries and got to wait for bc consultant to have a multi disciplinary meeting Monday to discuss me.   So they left me not knowing where the spread is which is a terrble place to be. 

I just want to know whether they can treat it or control it

Looking for friendship on here from others going through the same

Tricia xxx

[funnyface]

Helen ...Gosh I wish they would get your pain sorted!!!I don't know how you are able to handle it. 

Kate....sorry to hear about your MIL....it's nit ea s letting go!

Belinda...I've .been really busy at work and with some family things. First fitting for my dress and her gown this Sunday. I'm ok but not my best. Neulasta took its toll on me this time. Very SOB on it, fluid retention, and bone pain, and sore throat. I wanted to throw in the towel!

Trying to pull myself together! Funnyface

[LemonDrizzle]

Great to hear your good news Kaye. Hope you have a good sleep and carry on celebrating tomorrow.
The usual game of hunt the vein for the cannula this afternoon even though oncology nurses do it - my veins obviously objected to coming home from a lovely holiday.
LD x

[Sianie]

Thanks for getting back to me Kaye, hope you sleep well with those feet and hands x

[bertie1]

Hi ladies thanks for all your good wishes ,Mil still hanging in there at the moment just spending as much time with her as we can,we're all doing shifts at the moment ,just got home after being therefor a few hours.
Helen hope your pain is easing xx
SIanie I'm on two weeks on ,one week off but I have had extra weeks off when my feet and hands have been sore,they have also reduced my dose but it's still doing its job at the moment.My tumour markers were 191 las August and had reduced to 94 after 1st cycle and have continued to reduce but last two TMs have both been 30 which is within normal range,also had a scan in January and it showed chest lymph nodes had resolved ,they could only see one liver met which had reduced from2.4cm to 1.2 cm the other liver mets had resolved and also mets in ribs and spine had reduced long may it continue .
Well I'm off to bed as it's been a tiring day.
Take care all
Kaye xxx

[belinda]

Kaye those TM's are super good!
LD hope you had a good break away. Good Luck with your scan and results.
Helen, what Marie said, reaches for Mr Sheen and duster.
X

[Marie123]

Helen, how are you today, how is the pain . Please make sure you are comfortable. Use your angry eyes I'm just off to polish mine for action.
Great news Kaye, hope everyone is doing okay.
HELEN I will be checking up ! Marie xx

[rosie53]

Yeyy fab news Kaye!! Really please for you, you take care, as Helen has said don't be over doing things.
Hugs to you and your mother-in-law
Janette x x

[2catlady]

Kaye,that's fantastic news yippppeeeeee 🎉🎊
Wow! Your markers are at "normal" level too! The cap is kicking Cs butt.
Huge hugs to you and your mum in law,take it easy and don't wear your self out, Helen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx