I think it is only natural to feel the way we do. After the first time I was naïve enough to think it couldn't happen again and it did! So then we get to thinking it might happen again, I don't know hope we stop the panics and worry, I'm in pieces in the waiting room and everyone else looks so calm, I just think they hode it better than me. Most of the time it's easier to deal with so I guess we have to hang on to that and cope with the stress of an up and coming mamo.