Aww thank you Ladybowler x
He was very kind - the ''hmms'' were reassuringly human and made me think he was hearing my questions and answering honestly. It's as good as all clear for me... a lumpy thing that will be removed and 'banished'. If i've learnt one thing from this scary fortnight it's The Screening Programme works. First ever mammo, recall and triple assessment with a marker left in situ and plan made in under 21 days. The second thing I've learnt is that whilst there's follow up snipping to be done I am very very fortunate; there are some truly postive brave and gutsy people in this forum who are dealing with their far greater needs and fears with grace and kindness. Positivity has to win over. The disease (s) can shred you, change you and challenge you. But it's one day, one thing, at a time.
Very well done you. It really is one day, one trial, at a time. Today Tamoxifen, tomorrow rest and Wednesday will be.. Wednesday. I'm off to sleep (properly, at last) now. Hope you also get a good night's rest and wake up knowing it's going to be helping. xx
Kristiem and Ladybowler
Phew. I think... Results are in. Still a bit gobsmacked at the speed of this 'thing' but it seems I have fibrous changes associated to a radial scar with ''hmm'' some necrosis and ''hmm'' no it's not benign but it's ''hmm not cancer/malignant'' based on the information thus far. The ''hmm'' were the very nice consultant's measured response to my questions, bless him. Will be having this little (ish) ''not-cancer'' but ''not benign'' starfish out by wire assisted excision at some point soon. My understanding is that there may be a very low risk associated with these 'scars' of developing problems later and/or difficult to say for certain that it may not be hiding cancerous cells so get it out in day stay under local anaesthetic as soon as. Possibly 23 December but unsure as to wether they'll be doing a full clinic that day so whilst they have spaces at this time it may be after Chrimbo. But it's got to come out, so that's good enough for me! It would be the best Christmas pressie, actually.
OK so it's a ''some say'' risk for the future/possibly a risk but it's an unwelcome lodger and will be evicted soon. And the door well and truly shut in it's face as far as I'm concerned (pathology will review it when they've got it out). Obviously the above is not a medical report but results are in and it will be out.
Hoping you receive similar good news/positive outcome, Kristiem.
Thank you both for the support, it was very much appreciated and helped me focus on the positive
Ladybowler - thank you for the reply- yes am taking my Mum along - she's pragmatic and very practically minded (as well as being My Mum). (I'm not 'young', I'm 50). Did have offers from close work pals but suspected I'd feel more 'vulnerable' to feeling a bit of a wuss with them, whereas with Mum she's used to my way of coping with things and how I react to things (good old denial, joke and followed by good old pragmatic ''get on with it then-ness''. Don't actually feel anxious, as such. Just a bit worried and a bit angry, but that's normal in such instances surely. As for questions; I haven't got any particular ones as convinced it will be ''nothing to worry about''. Ha. A good outcome, as you say. But I am prepared to ask once I know what they say, if needed. Am a bit shocked as to the speed of this really, although being 'in the trade' - ie nhs - know full well it's linked to targets and waiting times hence the fast recall and result appt included in that recall/screen window. Just need to keep my mind positively engaged and occupied until tomorrow afternoon. xx
Me too, Kristiem, (waiting for results, that is). Had my first mammo, recalled within 10 days and went along thinking was simply a poor image or some such nonsense as had no signs of anything. Within minutes of meeting radiographer was told that they'd found 'something' and would probably do ultrasound after mammo - then it was the biopsies and more mammo with another appointment made for a week after! I've been reading all manner of stuff (in here, not just random web searches) and thinking back to the recall last week trying to remember every little nuance of conversation look on their faces etc. So yes, not knowing and waiting is awful. But I'm telling myself that the recall after screening was exactly the right thing to do, and that if they have picked up something it's being looked at and when i get the results they'll let me know and if needed do whatever they need. Well, I'm telling myself that every time I start to worry a bit more 😉 Hope you're doing ok and can find some solace/peace from your worrying in the meanwhile.
The anxiety surround this situation is the pits, but you will get through it.
Thankfully, something has been picked up which needs further clarification, it is being dealt with & mostly, all turns out to be well.
If it is more serious, then the sooner it is dealt with the batter, bc is very treatable these days, with one of the best recovery rates.
When I was at your stage, I coped by going into a bit of a denial & keeping myself distracted. Avoiding google is also a good idea as it can make anxiety worse. If you feel you need more info, then use this site or the helpline.
Statistically, most women get the all clear.