Thank you all for your replies/comments
🙂 it means a lot to know someone is there reading and listening in a way much as they try family and friends can just never understand.
I was diagnosed first on New Years Eve 2008 had 2 lumpectomies, rads, tamox, zoladex, arimidex and femara - recurrence april 09, mastectomy with free tram flap recon 2 tumours removed and additional one found a few days later in skin. Had 6 Fec-T then oopherectomy and full axilla clearance. Another local recurrence a few weeks back in the skin again. They told me it was an epidermal cyst (again) they were sadly wrong (again)
I am still waiting for word from the oncologist - normally when I have had tests they ring me if they are ok as they know I get myself in a state planning my own funeral etc! this time they haven't so my slightly skewed thinking suspects this is probably not a good thing. It might sound ridiculous but I just want to know how bad it is, then I can plan my battle strategy and deal with it. The waiting is the worst I think. Think I might ring the breast care nurses at the hospital and see if I can persuade them to give me my results over the phone. Ruby.x