I Had a dbl mxt followed by bilat-recon last may 2012, it was my 1st big op,(9hrs or so) and it scared the life out of me the thought of losing my breast, the one which host my tumour, but also losing the other too, i found out after i was diagnosed that i was a brca carrier (gene) so i had the grim task of choosing (what choice?) both to come off!
My biggest fear was waking to nothing, i didnt want to face that, though some people are happy too, i was 30 so needed to have some sort of breast to live with!
I had to have the ld flap on the cancer side it was my best chance of overall out come being successful, the other side was what i call a scoop & fill! lol i did have implants, both sides, i found the op/ hospital team, amazing, the recovery & early days emotional, i miss my old breasts always! i miss my nipples weirdly? i didnt feel great about everything at 1st if im honest, but the surgery side of it shocked me, it wasnt easy to get over but i was suprised by how good they healed & how quick!
The LD Flap side is the worst, the back gives me more grief than anything, i just feel like everythings thight, but it will ease im told! the scaring is going down loads, they dont bother me so much now as they 1st did, the other side gives me no issues, they both feel weird, im only just starting to get used to them really, it takes time. The plus side is they dont move much! so when your lying down they wont roll under your arm pits! lol
The LD Side feels funny under the arm area, i have no feeling there but had my limphs removed too, so thats poss why, the muscle they bring through from the back is still swallon, so you are aware of it when your arms by your side its a funny feeling having it there when there was nothing before but again it gets less of an issue.
Im due to have a nipple recon soon, i have opted for a tatoo instead of faffing with rebuilding new ones, ive been through enough! & hope it brings things in line a bit, at the mo i have one side with the outta nipple area left on the new recon breast, very life like if your looking into a mirror! the LD side has nothing, so the tatoo will bring some balance living without a nipple at all is strange - its just a mound/breast shape.
I definately made the right decision whatever i may think of my new pair! when im dressed (even in a bra) its like nothing has happened, no one would ever guess, and i think thats enough for me to hold onto & build a future with, if that makes sense?, im faking it i guess, but still have some curves, & for me i find that helpful, im not sure ill ever feel sexy again, but im working on it!!
Best of luck with whatever you decide ,
hope this has helped!