I had a bilateral mastectomy last october with immeadiate recon as I didnt need radiotherapy.
I felt exactly like you, so uncomfortable and I thought i had made a big mistake.
Although 8 months later my boobs still feel hard and i get a few pains they have settled down so much.
My consultant said i could have them removed if i really was unhappy, but i gave them a chance and
when i saw him last week he was pleased to see i didnt want to kill him anymore lol.
Everyone is different and you have to do what you think is right for you...but it does get easier and you
are not alone thinking this.