I'm sorry to read you're having a worrying time at the moment, I'm sure some of the other users will be along soon to offer you their experience and support.
In the mean time you might find it helpful to talk things through with a member of staff on the BCC helpline. Here you can share your concerns with someone who will offer you a listening ear as well as emotional support and practical information. The number to call is 0808 800 6000 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9 to 5pm and Saturday 10 to 2pm.
Best wishes Sam, BCC Faciltiator