Hi Diane60 I hope your surgery went well. I am having the same thing tomorrow (Monday) right breast with lymph nodes clearance also and am terrified. I have also been told that I can't have immediate reconstruction because I will need chemo and radiotheraphy afterwards. Also like you I have very small breasts and have always been extremly self consious of them. It is only in the last year or so that I have started to accept them and now this. I know that really compared to my life it doesn't matter but I just feel so low and worried about how I will feel and cope after the operation.
My thoughts are with you and I hope it went well for you and hope you are now feeling not so low.
Best wishes x
Diane60. I understand exactly how you feel. I am having a mastectomy on Monday with lymph node clearance. I have also been told that I can't have immediate reconstruction as I will need chemo and then radiotherapy afterwards. Very worried as like you I have always had very small breasts and all my life I have been extremly self consious and only accepted them in the last year or so. I am so worried about how I will look as I realize now small was better than nothing. I know I don't have a choice as my life is more important than my breast. It's one thing to be coping with cancer but to know you will lose your hair and breast as well is cruel.
Roadrunner that is optimistic to hear that the surgeon was willing to offer implants on both sides. I live in hope. How long after radiotheraphy before you can have reconstruction?
Just very scared about the whole cancer thing and surgery on Monday I am not ready for it but I guess I wouldn't ever be ready. It just has to be done.
Best wishes to you all
Dianne, I know exactly where you are coming from. Our society is so obsessed with breasts that being flat chested can be very humiliating at times. I hated that mx flat chest, with very little on the other side too. I ultimately had a delayed LD flap recon with implant (like you I was not allowed an immediate one), and the plastic surgeon put an implant in my good side too. I didn't even have to ask for it - he offered it. I got the impression this was not at all unusual for him. I am very pleased with the result, and went from being flat (barely a AA cup) to normal (C cup).
Dianne60, I had a wide local excision and having smallish breasts meant that my left breast is now about a quarter the size of the right. Also added to that the tumour was on the cusp of the breast which has meant that I dont have very much underneath resulting in wearing a bra being very difficult and uncomfortable. However I have got around this by wearing a soft topped camisole. Having smallish breasts has meant that no one really notices the difference as they both look small and flatish and while I can see the different I really dont think anyone else does. I also wear a small scarf which sits over the front of my clothes again a way of concealing the difference in both breasts. You can also try wearing the sofftie they give you which is very easy to wear, looks very natural, and to the outside normal. Speak to your breast care nurse who will guide you with this. I actually think it is better to have small breasts if a mastectomy is being carried out, however that is my own viewpoint and not everyone shares that view. Good luck you will get through your surgery and move onwards and upwards. Its just the start of the journey which is terrifying. Take care. A
Hi Dianne so sorry to here of your diagnosis. I agree, as the date for the Mastectomy approaches you get more and more nervous and aware that you are losing a breast. I too had to have a delayed reconstruction and had to 'wake up' minus a breast. For me the actual surgery was pain free and 'easy' I had no problems it was the physcological part of it that got to me I was very low and tearful. On the positive side they are cutting away the cancer and to be honest you are best rid of it. You will be offered a reconstruction later. I am a D cup and for me it was the lopsidedness that I found difficult to cope with - whatever your size or shape it seems we all have these self esteem issues. I wore a prothesis for about 8 months before I decided I did want a reconstruction (many ladies chose not to bother) for me it was something I wanted to do - and now I have a lovely reconstucted breast, new nipple and even the areola tattood - I am very pleased with the result and it has given me more confidence in my body. Take one step at a time, get your Mx over and get yourself physically healed and then see how you feel about your body and what is right for you at that time. There is light at the end of this horrible dark tunnel xxxxx