What you're going through doesn't sound very nice! Do give our helpline team a ring and have a chat with them, they're here to support you through this both practically and emotionally. Calls are free 0808 800 6000 lines are open weekdays 9-5 and Sat 10-2.
I'm so sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time. I'm sure some of the other members on the forum will soon be along to offer you support.
Don't forget you could also give our Helpline a call for support. They are open from 9-5 on weekdays and 10-2 on Saturdays. Calls are free- the number is 0808 800 6000
Take care and very best wishes