It's normal. During treatment I also felt as though I was on a roller-coaster, however I'm nearly two years down the line and my personality has changed a lot. The 'old' me has gone. I am now an assertive blunt speaker with an extremely low tolerance level towards 'difficult' people, the sort who previously reduced me to tears now make me as mad as hell and I really let rip if they don't leave me in peace. It is a bit like that choccy advert, the one that says "you're just not you any more!"
I was fine until I was given a definite date for surgery (have been rescheduled due to bank holiday). It now seems very real...I've got my zopiclone for night time and beta blockers for the day time ( if I haven't had a glass of wine or 3 to knock me out!)
Hiya all, I think it's normal to be all over the place emotionally. Actually wouldn't it be more worrying if we were okay with our diagnoses? I am outwardly calm most of the time but the stress is affecting my stomach and I got upset last night and ranted to my husband for a long time because I really don't need this (who does?) xx
All perfectly normal. I drove my poor hubby mad...one minute I was all positive...the next, sobbing, fearing the worst. The poor thing didn't know what to do to help me. It gets easier.x
I lost my grip last week and my gp prescribed diazepam which I feel a right numpty for needing it, however I can't control the anxiety especially now the chemo card has been thrown in ! Feel for you and sending big virtual hug as I am normally the most together person I know x
hi all, my emotions seem to be on a wild roller coaster. I've lost it big time tonight with my husband and daughter bickering, which would have mildly irritated me before now I've gone off the deep end then spent an hour crying with guilt. Earlier this eve I felt fine. I cannot seem to get a grip and have no idea if this is normal. Any ideas? Xx