I'm sorry to read you're having a pretty tough time at the moment. Whilst you wait for the other users to reply with their advice and experiences may I suggest you give the BCC helpline call and talk this through with a trained member of staff. They are there to offer both emotional support and practical information. The number to call is 0808 800 6000 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9 to 5pm and Saturday 10 to 2pm.
Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator