Feel down and depressed is normal for most people with a diagnosis of breast cancer.
I am on anti-depressents and still have times (like right at this moment) when I can't seem to be happy about anything. I went out today to lunch with my boss and supplier and they were laughing so much I thought to myself 'what is there to laugh about' and I was itching to go rather than sit there not moving for two hours.
I was diagnosed in May 2009. Had a mastectomy in December 2009 and lymph node removal. Two nodes positive, ER positive, PR positive and HER2 positive.. Chemo, radiotherapy and Herceptin. Tamoxifen for two years and then moved to Arimex.
Second mastectomy in November 2011 (my choice - no cancer). Zoladex injections and Overies and fallopian tubes removed (hospital decision) in March 2012.
It is now January 2015 and I am still here although I am eating very healthly with the occasional biscuit, chocolate cake etc and very rarely a glass of wine or G and T I have stopped exercising as I have developed psoriasis (a non infections) skin disease due to stress.
I had a CT scan this week for my chest, abdoman and pelvis.
Keep strong, as I said I am still here and although not happy, I feel well. Might increase the anti-depressent dosage however!
Sorry that you are feeling down (((Hugs))). I think we expect an awful lot from ourselves after treatment.
I'm sure this had probably been posted elsewhere but this article by Dr. Peter Harvey may help as it is aimed at explaining how people feel both phsically and mentally after active treatment has finished.
Anti-depressants can be a godsend if you are feeling very down and they don't have to be taken forever.
Tamoxifen is well known for causing mood swings, depression and anger.
The most important thing. I think, is to be kind to yourself - it does get better but it takes time - sometimes a lot of time.
I am the same age as you and had my op last year. I can relate to how you feel and from speaking to others it is normal. I spoke to the Breast nurse about it and she said that my body had been through a major trauma with having to op then chemo and RADs so it can take time.
18mths on and I am beginning to feel more like my old self again. Be kind to yourself and give it time you will get through. Talk to your Breast Nurse. Mine were really nice.
Your body and mind has been through a trauma and it can take perhaps longer than you expect, to find yourself again.
I also present as a very positve person, look well etc, but believe you me, I have had some dark days and weeks relating to all kinds of BC 'things'. These days I try to keep busy and focused on the task in hand (even if it is the washing up!) I try not to look too far ahead and take one day at a time. If it is a good day, great and if not, there is always tomorrow.
Yes, life goes on, but you need some space to come to terms with what has happened and that can take time for some. If you feel it is all getting too much, do seek out someone to talk to.
Please don't feel silly. Different things worry different people. I am a very positive person and i do present as looking well, sounding positive etc....... But i am using distraction techniques all the time, Mindfulness and currently looking to start some CBT. Some days i can push the dread that the Cancer may return to the back of my mind but some days i can't. This is not an irrational fear we have, it is based in reality. Please be kind to yourself and look for some support / distraction.
Take Care Gilly x
Hi Dianne, I had my treatment last year. Her2 positive. When given results of pathology I immediately set about looking at Dr Google. I was frightened to death. As I said I am now one year on from treatment and overall I have coped quite well. No real side affects, fatigue does hit me from time to time but I generally get over it fairly quickly. I have found the psychological affect more depressing as I to think about death and how long I am going to live. Over the last year I find that I dont think about cancer all the time and only when I hear of someone who has died. I try to reflect on that we are all going to die and no one knows when it is going to happen. You have had good treatment, a plan is in place and as you say you are a young 61 so get out there and get on with you life and live it to the full.
My oncologist is great as when I speak to her she reminds me that I have had good treatment and the prognosis for breast cancer sufferers are now very good. If caught early you have a very good chance of living out your natural life without cancer being the cause of death.
Take care and remember all of us think the same from time to time.