Spring 123,
Your diagnosis sounds very similar to mine (I was diagnosed Feb this year). I have had an MRI scan and CT, but not a bone scan as lots of the women seem to have had. I do not yet know what is on them
When I 1st saw the doc the very 1st day they told me, I asked her 'Is that why I have back-ache?' - translating as 'has it spread?' She said it has nothing to do with the diagnosis of bc today. I felt that to be a comfort.
Like you, my biggest issue was one of spread. That was too overwhelming to contemplate, like someone else not me. So what I have done is this: just broken it all down, and tried to face 1 thing a day, like for example: today is my MRI, next week is my CT.
I have still not been able to look at my pathology report in full (but know stage 2 - with 1 node) reading more made me physically ill. I felt like a wuss not being able to as it were: cope with the whole thing. But one of the ladies on here said to me look at what you can, when you can. I thought that excellent advice and that is what I am doing. In other words sometimes shock prevents peeking into the future, and not to worry about what is round the corner too much. Also I live with my 14 yr old son and I have to try to deal with it for him. At the moment here is a lot of uncertainty for us newbies, it's very very frightening to be told 'cancer'. But try to be kind to yourself and allow time to absorb the initial shock before looking further. - It's worked for me! - but sometimes I feel very afraid. But that's ok. keep looking to what the ladies say on here. They have been there, they can help us.
Best Wishes and love to you,
WS
