I met with my surgeon at the Royal Surrey on Wednesday. Unlike the doctor at the Jarvis Breast Centre, she told me I would need either a masectomy or breast conserving surgery; this based on my 3D mammograms. The Jarvis doctor was all reassuring from the start that I would only need a wide area exision and radiation treatment, although I knew it might change it was something to hope for at least. I am really annoyed that she was so quick to tell me several times something which was untrue from the start.
I am now waiting for an appointment for an MRI, blood test results for liver/kidney function and something else I forget, I think the surgeon said it has to do with whether or not they can inject me with the dye before the MRI. Probably more sonograms and biospy after MRI, surgery most likely end of September.
The surgeon said that Lobular cancer does not respond well to chemo and she was not going to refer me to an oncologist. I don’t get it. I know many women with Lobular have chemo. The breast cancer nurse later said she didn’t rule it in or out, but that’s not what I heard.
On top of all this I saw the GP this morning. Bewteen my cancer diagnosis and my husband’s death I am struggling and went primarily for antidepressants. Plus, the past six weeks I’ve developed acid reflux, probably from stress, and a tickle in my throat which makes me cough to go along with it. The surgeon started me on Letrozole so I asked for Citalopram given it’s been shown to reduce hot flushes. Not that I know if I will get them having only taken two Letrozole tablets so far … but why not?
The GP did my blood pressure, which as a surpise to me was normal. My pulse was racing, no surprise because I was practically shaking with stress. However, in listening to my chest for my cough she detected a heart murmur and I’m not scheduled for an ECG. So, I’ve got that little add-on to my growing list of things to worry about. With caring for my husband I have not seen a doctor for a check up or anything in well over 8 years and I’m 64 so things do crop up as you age … but now I am scared that the murmur will somehow effect surgery. Good think one of the things I’ve done this week is start on getting a new will made up.
Sorry, I am ranting and whining, but I am finding this a real difficult time.