Glad you had a good time on holiday Wendy. Builders can leave a terrible mess. You need to hang on to yours Tina if they do that good a job.
Beverley do phone your bcn. I don't think mentally I could move on until I had my recon. I felt so self conscious of my body. I feel so much happier now. Body self image is so important. Still no news of a date. Last time I phoned they said mid May ans as they only seem to give two weeks notice I'm expecting to hear any time now.
Little bit of sunshine yesterday so did some work on the garden but pouring again today so I'm going up to help with the twins.
Love to all
Hello there. Wendy lovely to read your long post and hear from you again. Very pleased to hear that Cornwall was good for you. It's nice to have you back.
Tina - sorry to hear that you won't get the Birthday trip to Legoland, that's such a shame, this weather is terrible. You'll know what it is like having dogs too, all those muddy paws, cleaning floors and constantly washing towels!! We had a break from the rain yesterday and it was a lovely sunny afternoon, felt so much better.
Well I haven't heard anything from BCN re an appointment so looks like it will be a chase up call from me, having taken ages to make up my mind to make the initial call to her I'm now stalling on following it up. Don't know if it's the weather, but my joints have been really aching, my ankles, toes, wrists, fingers and knees. Bit better yesterday when the sun shone so hoping it's nothing untoward.
Made an appointment yesterday to speak to someone at the Haven, just feel "stuck" at the moment and can't move on mentally. I go on Friday and hope they can help. Didn't want to see my doctor about it as I feel like I'm always moaning!
Hope everyone is ok and not too wet!!
Hi Wendy, glad Cornwall was a nice break, the Paddington train out west is always packed, very hard to get a seat indeed! Sorry your builders left a mess, ours are very good tidying but dust just gets everywhere. Well, we are truly soaked here, promised no.3 son a trip to Legoland for his birthday, but doesn't look like the weather will ge good enough this weekend! Lynn, have you started a treatment yet for the thyroid? Pam, any news on your surgery date? Cat, can imagine you are fed up with surgeries now, too. I hope you recover in time for your driving job. You might meet some really special people! Beverley, have you talked to anyone with your recon wishes? Hope all our other girls are doing well.
Hello lovely ladies,
Cornwall was such a fantastic tonic for me! I was so stressed by the time I left I missed my local train by a minute which meant it was touch and go whether I would catch my bargain connection at Paddington for Penzance!!!
Well after running a virtual two minute mile I threw myself on the train with just 90 seconds to spare.....
The train was packed to the rafters so I was very glad to eventually find my seat even though I was crushed between the window and a rather large lady!!! She was wearing two black sleeves and I chanced my arm (no pun intended!) and asked her about lymphodaema and she was very frosty!
She mellowed when I told her about my dx and running local support group so knew a little about her condition.... By Reading we were chatting like old pals, but I'm not sure I'd intervene again!
She was very frosty and slightly angry too!!! I was extremely diplomatic but I'm sure she felt I'd intruded too far....
Hey ho I'm learning.....
It was a lovely week away with bright sunny skies despite the blustery wind and occasional showers. I loved my B&B x2, visited some fantastic galleries, enjoyed the art and the scenery, walked miles along the coast and found a fab place to eat in the evenings. They were just so friendly....
The diet went out the window when I realised my will power could not resist two Cornish scones!!! Nor the huge cooked breakfasts or super restaurant meals! I am now the same weight I was before Xmas and the diet! Bu**er!!!
I did the embroidery course in the middle of the week and I was utter rubbish at controlling my machine without a foot attachment. My end results were worse than a child's and didn't improve!
Only looked at my pieces tonight as they were so poor and maybe they do have a childish charm, if you squint your eyes!!!
Hey ho, more learning.... It was fun though and I swore continually for seven hours each day!!! I needed that release....
Returned fresh and free and calm.....until I saw all the mess from the decorating work! Ugh! It has taken me a virtual week of heavy graft to clean my open plan home. Every surface, ledge and ornament has had to be washed until I could put my rooms back together again.
Nearly nearly there now....but how you people cope with building work I do not know! I'm permanently exhausted from cleaning and work, stressed and uptight again! Won't have decorating done whilst I'm away! It's just tooooooooooooooooooo stressful!!!
It's been such a busy week with all sorts of 'to-do' activities and this weekend has been totally taken up by street party planning and meetings! So it was only tonight I read your messages.
Lynn sorry to hear of your new dx. Do hope tests and support will help you adapt to this new set of circumstances. I'm always being tested because I'm under-achieving with M.E. I'm now just constantly SLOW! Can't rush if you paid me!
Beverley, well done for making your decision to discuss options.
Choices are ahead for you.... Keep in touch won't you?
Pam, your dates are getting closer for you too.
How are those gorgeous babies? Any pics available?
Cat, glad you can share about your lop-sidedness. I know my 'good' side is drooping terribly compared to my pert prosthesis which is up around my chin!!! Maybe I'll talk to BCN eventually too....
Cat, your description of the Olympic driving test made me laugh out loud!!! I just hope you don't feel flattened by your assessment grade. Delivering parcels is very important!
Keep us informed of your June date. It won't be too long now....
Admire your professional concern to do SATS first. Personally I might have popped into hospital to avoid SATS!!!
Tina good to hear you're so busy but as you and Cat state it's tough being a single parent. You make sure you take it easy when you can...
How did the job interview go?
Hope you were pleased with your performance.
Now you know how important you lovely February ladies are to me so let me give each one of you a personal hug and know that collectively we are stronger for knowing each other.
We will keep the support going and recognise that the past has made us who we are now..... A little battered at times but always able to take a new step with the support of you all.
I am personally indebted to you all.
Love to you all from a very wet S.E.!!!
Who would reckon this drought could be quite so wet????
Nice to hear all your news Cat. I'm waiting for an appointment to see BCN to see what options I have. It's just that I feel a bit lopsided - reconstruction side is very good, it's the other side that is bigger, so I find it difficult to get a good fitting bra. Thanks to all of you for getting behind me to "go for it"!
Nice to hear from you all. Lynn I'm glad you got a diagnosis and I hope you start feeling more like yourself soon. Glad you are feeling good mentally Tina. Know what you're feeling in terms of being a single parent. My building work has nearly finished too, just the last little snags, but will have to wait til oh comes home before we can move up to our new room. Very excited about having an ensuite!
Beverley if you are not happy about your surgery, definetly go see your surgeon. I saw mine today about replacing the encapsulated implant. Postponed the surgery last year as I couldn't face another op but implant is getting higher and higher and I'm worried one morning I will wake up and find it under my chin! No waiting for me seem to be lucky at my hospital. Could have had it done next month but need to do the Sats at school so decided on 12th June. Still no nipples as decided to wait and will have that done under local when new implant has settled in order to get the position right.
Weight loss is not happening here either, currently watching Obese a year to save my life on sky to try and stop myself reaching for the biscuit tin. Not sure it's having the right effect as I just think to myself at least I'm not that fat....
Wendy hope you are ok. I'm trying to do more walking to build up bone density but all this rain is not helping.
Have my Olympic in car driving assessment in 2 weeks, very nervous as I know I have picked up some bad habits driving in London all these years. Apparently we will be given a grade from 1 to 4, 1 meaning you will be reassigned to a different role, 2 means you can transport parcels and equipment, 3 officials and 4 means you can drive the VIPs!
Love to all xxx
I too think its important to keep " our thread" going. True that we don't need it so much now but it is like a security blanket knowing that if any of us have concerns our friends are still here for us. We have been through so much with each others support already. I tend to have a quick look most days still.
How long will you have to wait for an appointment Beverley? My next op will be to even me out a bit so I know the problems of finding the right bra.
Glad you have some answers Lynn. Let's hope they can get the dosage sorted quickly.
When will you hear about your job Tina? Is it full time or part ?
Love to you all. Pam x
Mad week post holiday, cleaning up after builders, how does the dust go everywhere??? Tons of washing as well. Decided to sell of a lot of the old kids stuff on Gumtree, new furniture coming on Saturday, no.2 son went on PGL residential last week, no.3 son is 11 on Tuesday and really, I feel like a single parent, with OH seemingly working non stop. Had a job interview on Friday, too! Diet, what diet..., Pam, like you, it has sort of fallen off the to do list!!
Lynn, hope they get your thyroid evened out again. Is this also the cause for the breathlessness? Beverley, you should never feel bad for ringing your BCN with a concern. Reconstruction is important if you want it. Didn't you have strattice reconstruction?
Bc is definetely not occupying the same sort of brain space it did two years ago, and I think I belong to the group of women who die with a past BC diagnosis rather than from it. I know there are no guaranties of that but that's my mindset in dealing with my life without being trapped in the fear of what may or may not happen in the future. I am sure everyone has their own way of dealing with this life beyond dx&treatment.
Sending my love to all of you February girls and I hope we can still keep Our Thread going! xx
Lynn - I hope you feel better soon, but I expect you're relieved to at last know why you are feeling like you are.
I know what you mean about Our Thread. I do still log on most days, we've had a new pc so this week has been a bit of a learning curve and must admit I've not bothered so much. It does feel like we are all "moving on" but I still need to know Our Thread is here if I need it. The support we have all given each other over the last two years has been wonderful, plus support from other people on these Forums. I must admit I still have bad days when I can get very stressed about BC, they are not as often as in the early stages, but still happen. This may sound strange but this week I had a check up at the dentist and a visit to the hygienist. A wisdom tooth is becoming very loose and she said the gum was inflamed resulting in her prescribing a gel to use for 12 days. After using the gel twice my lip swelled up and blistered, my tongue was tingling and my gum was very sore. Obviously an allergic reaction but the strange thing was it felt ok to be ill with something not related to BC - I think I have become a very strange person now!!
Love to all and hope everyone is enjoying the weekend.
Our thread's in a "very different place" these days compared to when we were all in the thick of it. Curious - how often / what's the frequency we're each coming on these days?
GP confirmed i definitely have an underactive thyroid - she thinks it'll take a fair bit of time to get the doseage right, just hoping i start to feel better soon.
Thinking of you all, hope everyone's enjoying the weekend. I'm off to bed now.
Lynn hope they can sort out our problems. As you say better than what you were dreading.
Beverley what are you thinking of having done? Can't remember whether you had some recon before or not? Worth going along and seeing what is on offer at least. Then you can decide what you want to do.
My dieting has completely stalled since Easter. I blame the eggs!
Love to all
Wendy - hope you are having better weather in Cornwall than here in Leeds - raining and very cold here. Really hope you enjoy your week away.
Lynn - good luck with the next round of blood tests, did she explain or say what implications this would have?
Tina - how did Monday go with the mountain of things you had to do? Good luck with the dieting, I fear I'm fighting a losing battle!! Funnily enough my flushes are not too bad at night now, maybe only one, but through the day they are a real pain.
Decided (at long last) to get in touch with my BCN as I do feel very lopsided!! There are certain bras I just can't wear as the difference in size becomes noticeable. For instance the thin t-shirt bras, I'm ok with padded ones. She is going to sort out an appointment for me. Not sure if I've done the right thing or if I should have just put up with it.
Love to all
Hi Ladies - GP phoned, bloods are good with the exception of thyroid - she thinks its underactive and wants me to call in tomorrow for more bloods. I so hope that's what it is!!!!!!!!!! What a crazy world i now have.